Housing

Modern Zen with a tinge of cheena influence. That's what i call my own style of interior design. I've sort of imagined my home design and will try to do a rough sketch when i am free. heehee. I guess studying engineering did me some good after all. hahass :P

My house will involve the concept of simplicity, coupled with some water and transparent materials to inculcate a peace and tranquility atmosphere. The floor will be made from fibreglass which is transparent, allowing me connect the water underneath to the swimming pool just outside. One of the benefits of having a fibreglass floor is the lighting effect sunlight have on the entire house, it will literally lit up the entire house. :)

Okies, enough of my house, if fate has it, i will draft out a blue print and upload it here for u ppl. :P And now we come to what i did todae... boring.... Stayed at home whole day, watched VCD (told ya, im becoming a tv freak.) whole day and now im taking a break, hence im updating. lolx.
Later i will go downstairs la kopi with the guys and will continue watching vcds till late nite. Shyt, i am becoming a coach potato, but funny thing is, i like that kind of rot-on-your-bed-watch-vcd-and-heck-the-world sort of feeling. hahas! I tink during the holidays, nichy boy will be my best fren, because he have LOTS of dramas! And im sort of digging for ENGINE by Takuya Kimura, seems nice, and since im a guy, i have an obsession for cars. :P

So lets see, im looking for Engine, Prison Break Season 2, Heroes, Da Tang Shuang Long Zhuan and i remember there's a show i watched when i was in sec 2 during my overseas holidays in hong kong. Its a japanese drama called Money or Millionaire or something. Its bout this guy that is poor and out, but later he became the chairman of a company. Wonder whether its still around anot, cause its been quite long alreadi. hahass :P

So holidays will be working and watching tv. Simple. :) Got vcd/dvds , dun need worry no entertainment at home. hahass! Opps, i left out training. lolx! Aniwaes my bro borrowed Fight Night 3 from his fren, which for those tat dun kw, is a boxing game. Its fun because i simply lurve boxing! Mohammed Ali, unbeaten heavyweight of all time! muahaha!

Kks, time to go down la kopi le, and this time, i paragraphed my entry. heehee. :P

Jason's Famous Quotes : The Price of Peace 2: The Price Is Right

Did You Know? : I like singing but i dun like being a singer. Dun kw why. No point?

Aged

Okies, been a long time since i last blogged, so i have ALOT to write. muahaha! Firstly, its the exams, i sort of like drifted thru my econs and comm law paper, not in a 'cfm pass' sort of way though. Haiz. Then comes tons of mental theories that i sort of conceived and learned as i go along my daily life. One thing is for sure now, my life is never routine now, though its as boring. lolx. I wake up at different time everyday, i do different stuffs everyday and i think bout different stuffs everyday. Yawnz, that boring.. I dun realli like to write bout daily life, cause its so monotonous to tell the world how u lived ur life todae. Unless u are some hot person that is super popular, meaning u are yandao/pretty or some sort of celebrity, who the fark would be interested in ur daily endeavours? Hmms...

Okay, second thing, im called back for reservist. I have no qualms about serving the nation but im supposd to have exams during tat period, so ya, im going to defer it. Its abit sad because i DO sort of wanna go for overseas training at australia man.... The farking huge flies, the kangaroo shits, the 40 degrees 'normal' weather and the totally 'enjoyable' outfield encampments... gosh, i even missed not bathing for 10 days on a row man! Hahass! Yeah, lets get dirty~~ :P

Third thing is violence. Been reading the papers and realised violence do add some spice into our urban life. People blame violence on tv shows and movies, but i beg to differ. Violence is in our genes, we are elementarily barbarians although we claimed to have evolved into something of a higher tier. We dun watch shows and go around imitating them by killing people, we MADE the shows in the first place. If watching violent shows make us prone to enforce violence, then watching porn make us go around raping ppl? Watching gay shows make us gay? Moral of the story is, we are what we are, not what we watch. Violence is not all the time 'childish' and 'uncivilized', it sometimes serves a complementary role in justice and as perversely as it sounds, serves as a remedy for a unbalanced psychological state of mind. What made me tok about this violence issue? The V-Tech shootings. What happened was a bastard that actually had a loose wire that went around killing innocent ppl. The kids wanted to study for a better future, and yet he ended their dreams and ambitions with a bullet. The one thing he did right was shooting himself, because he simply does not deserve to live, after what he did, i wont even bury him, i would let the vultures peck at his god forsaken body and live him to rot. That farking bastard.
But this issue actually dug out a hidden problem, how many of these farkers are living among us now? Coming to tink of it, although we pay more for just about every fark thing in our country, at least these type of bastards dun have access to a gun. :)

Alrite, enough bout him. No point further exemplifying this issue. We shall tok about something much better, myself. LOLX! What i wanna say is, i tot i got over my crush, but i realised todae that i havent, the fire sort of reignited itself. hahass! But i tink im basically sane when it comes to crushes lah, i kw its not gonna go into something deeper especially when im gonna keep mum about it. heehee. What matters is everytime i see her, im happy can le, pretty pretty~~!!

This few days, i've been wearing my army-black-spectacles to skool, not because i wanna look studious, but because i've ran out of contact lens and im too lazy to go pick up new stocks from ah yap. Why? Because ah yap's shop is at Great World City. Farking far rite? Nbzzzzzzz....=.="
But i tink wearing specs not bad lah, can look nerdy and studious, give good impression that im a good student mah. :)

Hao le, its theory time. Todae we shall take a look at a very special theory called the Charismatic Paradox. Have u ever seen some people that is has looks, body and money, yet u totally dislike them? Yupz, its that common. People that seemingly has all these signs of perfection did not infact attract admiration and appear as charismatic, but on the contrary turns people off. Some of us have bi-polar tendencies, meaning either we totally fall for these ppl, or totally gets turned off, few of us exists in between. Charisma, it seems can onli go up to a certain level, and then further implications of it results in a downward spiral. Too much of something is always a bad thing, and the same goes for charisma. Therefore, in order to avoid this paradox effect, there must be some sort of counter-attraction personality involved to dilute the charismatic saturation. That's where the flaws come into play, i once theorized that imperfection is the new perfection rite? This point further enhances that theory. A person that is too perfect is simply not realistically possible to approach and truly befriend, whereas someone that is seemingly nearly perfect, yet is constrained by some flaws is actually the person that everybody will lean towards.

Therefore the conclusion is this, imperfection serves as a communal point/gateway to allow other people to approach and understand u. The best thing is, people complement and supplement each other, what u lack might be what ppl will be inputing into ur life, and what u will be giving what they lack. :)

Finally im done with the crapping. lolx. But its all just food for thought, not to serve as statutory statements. hahass :P Anyways, i've sort of put in a jukebox just for u ppl to listen to. im nice rite? lolx. The songs are nice, Xuan Lu is veri touching too. Enjoy!

Jason's Famous Quotes : Chi Xiang Jiao, La Er Hu!

Did You Know? : Snails and Slugs become water when u put salt on them.

Guilty

201st post alreadi, and was reading my posts right from the 1st post till the 200th post, remember its a diary of events in my life and how i grew as a person? yupz, it served that purpose :) Some vague remnants of my life in the past has been relit and revisting those memories realli brings a smile to my face. A huge regret is that i didnt realli started earlier, cause i realli wanna see what kinda person i am when i was with corinne in the past during BMT period. That was some of the happiest times of my life, yet also the darkest moments of my life. Ironic isnt it? hahass :P

Todae was an uneventful day, though in the morning i was confronted over my blog entry. I alreadi edited that entry to remove the offensive stuff because well, after tinking it through, i was at fault. Shouldnt involve myself in other's business nxt time, kaypoh mah, cfm tio kio one. lolx. Anyways considering things from ur shoes, i do agree if the same thing happened to me, i will also get pissed. So ya, i admit that its my fault to ridicule u. Paiseh. :)
Okays, that issue solved, i wanna thk 'history blogger' for enlightening me on bloggin ethics, hahass. Next time shall not be so tactless, and since i have alreadi made a mistake, no choice but to suck it up and move on. ^_^

Nxt up is i actually studied todae. Yes, actually. I've been playing games for the past few days and its like im not even gan jiong about the exams. Gosh, i tink i need to mull over what kinda attitude i have towards my studies sia. And todae was preoccupied with something else in my mind. The question is how different i am now compared to me in the past. Something or someone changed me completely, and the past means a few yrs ago during primary, sec skool and poly days. Was chatting with aiying at the playground 2 weeks ago, when she told me she used to hate me when we were in primary skool because i keep bullying people, which i dun recall doing lah. im so nice lors, where will bully her? =.="" But well, who will believe that someone that hates me in the past will actually be close frens with me now? hahass :)

Sec skool days: Days of play and running around and street soccer after skool with the guys. Always ponten lessons to play soccer and the teacher always had to come down to the soccer court to find us, then fark us and force us to go back to class. And how did we retaliated? We sleep. hahass! And as usaul, people says i keep bullying other people, but i realli didnt leh, there's gangsters around leh, how to bully ppl? But the sec skool toilet is realli c buay chui one, though my skool is a new skool, they always go inside fight one. The mirror is most of the time broken and the cubicles always have smoke coming out. hahass~~ My malay frens are always caught for smoking, and chinese ones always fight. I tink there is a pattern ba. And a plus point is, i didnt smoke. And well, i have a close fren from my sec skool class, and she also says i did changed le, but i didnt ask her in what aspect. :p

Poly days: Among the slackest and most no life period of my life. Totally farked my studies and went to do silly things. Year 1 was the most boring time of my poly days, didnt manage to find people that click much in my classmates and mechatronics wasnt the best course in the basket. Tons of Papa Romeo Charlies in my class and that sort of sucked, im not racist but its just funny toking to them with a slang. Year 2, i found my clique and sadly, most of them got 'ta pao' modules, lolx. So since our common interests is ponten lessons and go find leisure, we totally clicked. muahaha! But we're realli realli no life people during that time man, all of us are total cocks and i tink only ah wong realli studied. KC and stuart are cliff-hangers, botak is 100% submarine. Vincent and Jason Kok were the ones i dun kw much about because they were most of the time with Papa Romeo Charlie gals. heehee... Now most of them are alreadi out of army alreadi, KC is now workin as an assistant engineer, his taiwanese gf and him are going to get married soon i tink. Stuart is studying with me in SIM and he has a stable gf now plus he is super studious. Daniel has plans to study in australia and i believe he is someone that can make the mark de. Ah kok has his own company and the last i heard, his company is doing quite badly. Botak and vincent im not sure how they're getting on nowadays, hmms.... Time to organise gathering during holiday! weee!

Army days: Nothing much to write, alot to talk about. After NS, guys have ALOT to tok about life serving the nation. The sour, sweet, bitter and spicy stuff in the army, and the good buddies i have made during my liability period. Sean and Peter, both of them kw me well, kws i tua kang alot, but still accepted my nonsense with a laugh. They accepted my irresponsibilty as well and for that, i concluded that they are realli true frens. They tell me honestly when i fucked up and i appreciate that, they stand by me when im right, so ya, true frens. :)

Toking about true frens, i have a buddy. This buddy knows me inside out, knows my antics and has shared alot of joys and sadness with me. There was some problems in the recent months, but after going out with him ytd, i realised though we did change, we still cherish this brotherhood that has been ongoing for 13 yrs now. Ah-wei, if u are reading this, lets ensure that our brotherhood will be strong till we get old and die. Once brothers, always brothers. Zhen de.

Okies, so looking back, i realli did had some good and bad times in my life, and all these actually went thru my mind while im studying todae, which means im consciously studying, and subconsciously going thru my whole life.... wow... sometimes the human mind is so intriging rite?

Jason's Famous Quotes : Endurance is chained by Reason.

Did You Know? : There is absolute tranquil peace before a calamity.

Courageous

I realised, i look like a cock at home... um, most prob i look like a cock everywhere i go? lolx! Was looking into the mirror when i woke up tis morning to conduct 'annual' inspection. Im in bad shape man, the face also like veri old like tat, face machiam charsiew bao, single eyelids closing and dying...and the list goes on.. hmmss.... Maybe its time i do something about it? But then again, maybe not, because i dun kw how to make dbl eyelids. lolx!

And so, nowadays after i started training, my whole body aches for the nxt day, so i mostly onli train on alternate days. But i alreadi can feel the effects of my regime sia, im starting to feel like i can punch thru the sandbag with a haymaker man. Yet the funny stuff is, i tink im feeling calmer at the same time, giving more tots to consequences infact. Its not the po po ma ma humji type of change in me, its like i realli tink in a more peaceful and serene way. The word for it is ZEN, ya, ZEN, im tinking in a ZEN way. heehee~~~

I have not started on my mugging officially, dun ask me why, just havent got in the mood yet, i dun farking kw why. Todae was a whole day of gaming / tv and sleeping, im starting to be hooked on the tv man, my kenwood dvd player which has been collecting dust for the past has been in overdrive recently. The source of my dvd obsession is nich, i borrowed serials and shows from him, so im starting to start life as a coach potato stoning and watching vcd/dvds at home! Im starting to have this feelin that during my holidays, i will onli have 3 things that i do at home. Train, Tv, Game..... will this gut feeling come true? No. I will force myself to turbo work to earn money so that i will be rich when i start the sem... yeah... work... boring work.... argh~~~

Did u ppl ever heard a song called WO NIU by zhou jie lun? Its a veri nice and hopeful song, im listening to it now and i realised its so damn inspirational. Its about being like a snail, slowly climbing up the neverending stairs~~~ And i do agree with the lyrics, watever u do, as long as u perservere, u will definitely reach ur destination. Its the same with life and love, persevere as if time has no effect on u, and u will definitely get wat u want. I know, ppl say that everything can be forced except love, but if there's somebody that waits for u with no regards to time, u will accept tat person de.

I asked myself this question: If someone is willing to wait and change herself for me though i dun like her at all, will i accept her? The answer initially is a yes, because chemistry cant be forced, but as i pondered deeper, i realised the key lies in time, she waits 1 yr, i reject, she waits 5 yrs, i reject again, she wait 10 yrs, how to reject? If u say its sympathy, i agree its sympathy, but the destination is being able to be with tat person, so u got what u want didnt u? In our pursuit of happiness in our daily lives, we became selfish without realising it.

Alrite, now the play list is playing the storm riders theme song. I like the instrumental oriental groove within the song. Its gives u the feeling of 'legendary' and coming to tink about it, why the fark is my entries so farking long one ah? Do ppl bother to read the whole thing? hmms.. =.="

Concluding this last paragraph, i shall divulge another secret about myself: I like to dance, i love dancing although i dance like a fat penguin. I believe dancing is a way to freely express ur intepretation of the music. And so, lets take a look at my interests ba, im into : martial arts, ancient military strategies, psychology, love, gaming, tv(new), bodybuilding (dun laugh), cooking, looking at gals, writing songs and poems, writing fantasy stories, archealogy, origami, swimming, philosophising new theories of every kind etc.. and not forgeting oggling my eye candy. heeheee. :p

Jason's Famous Quotes : Courage under fire is true courage, what defines fire? My fists.

Did You Know? : Guerilla tactics are among the most complex yet simple tactics employed.

Pui-sanova

What a interesting day todae was. hmms, lets recap, woke up at 8 am wanting to train, but my pecs and triceps were still aching, so postponed boxing to tomolo morning before going to skool.
Mum wanted to eat mee hoon kuay, so i accompany her for breakfast before going to skool. Was arranging my hair at the 243 bus-stop advertisement sign when i saw xueting. Mrt reached jurong east station and i saw a familiar face: kenneth. He looked tired as usaul but the sight of him just reminded me about some stuffs. He reminds me of starhub and images of the past started flashing past my mind. Memories of adeline especially.

Although i was chatting with xueting on the mrt, my mind is actually recalling all the past events when i was working at starhub last yr. Adeline, the name that made me go gaga last march to may. Adeline, the name that made me understand what is infatuation. Adeline, the name of the girl who made me lose something beri precious to me. Being overly obsessed with her was being veri unhealthy, i was sort of living in a veri different world during that period of time. But a good thing resulted from that 'dark' period in my life, i did what i pledged to do, no more 'No Action, Tok Onli" attitude. Looking back at the book i did for her, im quite amazed that i realli went ahead to do such a sincere thing. I guess in the end i found myself, a veri sincere person. :)

Every failed attempts make me grow up more and more mentally and emotionally. I dun regret what i do in the past, life is too short to live with those regrets on what u could have done. Tink about what u can do rather then hanging on the past. That's y im trying to do some body sculpting at tis point in time. Its more for myself then other people, im too selfish to do something for other people unless that person means something to me. Sometimes i understand that i can be too proud sometimes, i like to 'tua kang' like what the guys said, but i dun realli do that much nowadays, because i myself dun like proud people. For that, im slowly learning to make myself a humbler person. Everyday we learn something, and everyday i think and reflect on alot of stuffs.

In my dictionary, there isnt such a word as 'Forever'. It simply does not exist at all, it's onli a descriptive word to confuse and convince people. If someone tells u that he/she loves u forever, tat person is a lying bastard, noone loves someone forever, absolutely noone. And if u believe in the word forever, then its time to wake up, u're being too naive and most prob is 16yr old and below. Let me explain why tis is so, firstly, will u be around forever? No. Second, will u be tempted by another person that comes along and is completely better then her in terms of physical and mental aspects? Yes. ( those that say 'no' most prob will say stuffs like "we had memories and those are treasures to us" etc....) And the final point to conclude this issue is simply --> How do u know what will happen in the future? U cfm u will love a person till forever? Even in the unforeseeable future? :)

Dun worry, its not some personal issue with the word FOREVER, its just that i was tinking about my favourite ktv song "Forever Love" and hence was reflecting on the bus todae. lolx. Feel free to propose counter theories and explain to me why do u tink forever is possible. hahahass :p

Remember my eye candy? Well, she's getting cuter and prettier the more i look at her. Its never tiring to look at her man, dun understand why. lolx! Anyways, sometimes im realli tink i can go get some sort of acting award sia, i tink she still dun kw she's my eye candy..or do she kw? :P
But its hard to know lah, i dun oggle obviously mah, other girls i can appreciate them openly because they're just like passing clouds, who cares rite? But eye candy hor, different from normal gals, got priority!

Lastly to end with a new mental model, i realised one thing about being romantic. Its okay being romantic, but dun overdo it. The best form of romance is the sincere kinda stuff, not those super mushy stuffs. My mentality in the past was casanova, but now its changed to something more credible and down-to-earth. Was working the other day at vivocity, when i saw a old couple still holding hands and the ah-gong was taking veri good care of the ah-ma. That made me realised treating someone sincerely irregardless of time is the most romantic thing a man can do for a woman. To see the world together, to be there for each other, to grow old together and yet u never fail to fit her hands snugly in yours; that is indeed the best form of romance u can ever give to ur gal. From now on, no more mushy mushy stuffs, i onli offer sincerity and honesty. :)


Jason's Famous Quote : Eternity is never real because death forbids it.

Did You Know? : Yandaos are all drug abusers because Rei said this "Life sux, take drugs!".

Bicep-tology

Okies, yesterday was toking about roadwork rite? i didnt run todae, i skipped. lolx. Didnt have the mood to run mah, so i did skipping lors, also cardio mah. hahass. Tomolo will wake up early to do heavy boxing. I did some heavy weights todae, therefore hopefully by tomolo will recover alreadi, if not i need to postpone. =.=""

Im happy nowadays, cause i can feel my body starting to react to the training alreadi, read an article while stoning at CENTRAL's Starbucks todae. Later i shall explain how come i was stoning there, but the article is on Gerald Butler and how he trained for his role in 300. Veri enriching and intriging how he went thru 4 mths of training to get the perfect body for the movie. He did a 300 reps routine daily that is completely inhuman, yet i hope to attempt when my fitness picks up. Its from men's health april 2007, go read, and be astounded. :)

Todae was a farked up day, went back to office to collect pay with stuart at 11am, but was told tat we cant collect until 3pm. Stuart did checked with them ytd whether we can collect at 11am, and was given the go-ahead. So todae we were both undestandably pissed when we were told that we have to wait until 3pm. Was supposed to join the guys to study in skool after collecting pay, but in the end we waited till 6pm before we got our pay. The new management isnt up to the task in my opinion, we waited till 3pm, only to be told to wait till 4pm, and when we went up at 4pm, they were still sorting out everything.

What kinda management is so unproductive? U mean they dont make early checks and preparations for payday? Totally disappointed with the new guys in the company. Though they are nice people, but i still tink they are inferior to stacy and chap. Maybe they need time to catch up and improve? but still i cannot swallow the fact tat i waited 7 hrs for my pay and i spent $30 while waiting at CENTRAL. Was veri angry initially, but after tinking about it, i tink its a sign that i should leave the company and started teaching tuition to earn cash. Stuart has the same sentiments too, so most prob we shall pursue a career as a tuition teacher. :)

Enough about inefficiency, shall not criticize people when i am as inefficient myself. hahahass :P
Hmms, anybody heard Rain's 'Move On' before? There's 2 versions and i liked the version from his SINGLE better then the one on his album. Well, i shall paste the english lyrics at the end of this entry if i can find it. lolx. Its realli meaningful and i totally love the RnB element in it, im a RnB fan remember? hahass :) Alrite, shall sleep early todae, cause tomolo have to wake up quite early to train before going to skool for MAB lessons. hmms... and tomolo i will see my eye candy again! Yeah!!! Happy!!! (Okay, fark it, i cant find the english lyrics, so nvm. lolx!)

Jason's Famous Quotes : There is Order in Chaos and Chaos in Order. (Chaos Theory)

Did You Know? : DNA means Di-oxyribo-Neucleiac-Acid (Dun kw spell correct notz.)

Hopes

Tonite is a silent night. Things have became more silent nowadays, and life has narrowed. Current life status is narrow because exams is around the corner and im starting to get suffocated. Guys and gals are on mug-mode and im not even in the mood yet, why izzit tis way? am i being over complacent? I need good grades for my modules, and todae while attempting to study MAB (i was sleeping most of the time), I suddenly saw a bright light tat signifies enlightenment in my dreams. MAB suddenly seems so clear and crystalline... its like the calculations and logics are automatically a law of nature to me. Is what i experienced called divine intervention? LOLX!! But seriously speaking, MAB i onli need to do some revision on the theory will do, the calculations wise i am quite prepared alreadi.

Alrite, now to training. Todae slacked like some piece of lard, simply because i rushed to skool to have lunch with the ppl. Was supposed to train b4 going to skool, but i prioritize frens over muscle, so ya, rushed to skool. Tomolo will make up for it with heavy weights training, and the day after heavy boxing routine. Im still trying to squeeze some cardio into my regime tomolo because im supposed to meet stuart at JP at 11am to go office collect pay. Will i succeed? Watch out for my entry tml. :) Most prob will save up and get a stationary bike, so that i can cycle for 4 hrs EVERY FARKING DAY. Renfeng ( a fren tat weighs 120kg) did the cycling for 4 mths and he lost 40 kgs. Yes, u read rite, 40 kgs. And he didnt diet at all, he still ate fatty stuffs... gosh....

Training will involve lots of shock and power building regimes. Since i am alreadi quite big size, most prob will cash in on that and build more power in my punches for the first month. Second month involves heavy agility training like shadow boxing and speed trainings. 3rd month will be toning regime and 4th month will be balancing and blending. So if everything goes accordingly, by august i should be lean and mean, 12 hits per sec will be achievable then. heehee. :)

After august, if everything is manageable i might be joining some CCAs in skool ba. i need some spice in my life after living like some dumb hermit for 4 mths. hahass :P And todae, i found a good place to sleep in skool! The study room sofa is SOOOOO nice to sleep can? swuang lors!

I like to give surprises, and there's a surprise that im planning nowadays. hahass, i tink the surprise should be fun lah, cause its realli not expected of me. lolx!!! Alrite man, im still tinking how to go about making the surprise man, hopefully not too complex lah, arbo i sianz. lolx. :)

Kks, lastly sean and peter, im missing u guys man, lets come out and chill leh, i go SOOO much to tell u all man... hahasss.. :)

Jason's Famous Quotes : The purpose of life is a life of purpose. (Quoted from Xuanhe^_-)

Did You Know? : I like limejuice and sour plums now. Influenced by *kuku*.... =.=""

Stalwart

Work ytd and todae, shag like a dog, too long never stand for extended hrs, automatically become weak. :) Todae im bloggin on a more neutral mood, cause i've not seen 'happiness' for quite sometime alreadi. After some thoughts, i tink 'happiness' is just an obsession, i just cannot fathom or imagine us being together unless in my dreams. I rather stick to more down-to-earth and probable options. Will be cutting hair beri soon, cause training period need short hair, if not beri hot, maybe i go cut botak? Hmms..

Realised a veri ironic stuff tat exists in life, sometimes the 'best' thing can be divided into 2 entities. A 'perfect' being is never a single person, most of the time it is divided into 2 or more parts, and that flaws in each of the person actually constitutes to the 'imperfections' that we grew to love as well. Understand what i mean? Dun understand nvm, cause its abit complex. :) But yet again, when is love never complex? Hahass... The above relates to 2 people i know, one of the has the perfect face and looks, and the other person has the perfect personality and chemistry with me. Let call the 'perfect' looks, A, and 'perfect' chemistry, B.

This is a story of A and B, and not a story that portrays me as a flirt. Its just a deeper look into what i call my 'mental selection' process. A , i always dream and i always imagine, yet A lacks the chemistry with me and there's something dark about her. Anyways i dun kw A well at all so its all in all a infatuation. As i told someone, its just a 'withdrawal syndrome' of sorts lah, its not love at all, just-- to put it bluntly -- lust. I know A quite well mentally, because of some special process called 'FATE', i was forced by FATE to know that person realli well. Chemistry wise i dun realli know because i dun realli know tat person verbally. Anyways im too disgusting to even be in her 'plans'. ^_^

As for B, our chemistry realli stretches the limit of imagination. Its realli uncanny that such a person actually exists in the same world as me, much less at such close proximity. Bit by bit, i slowly realised god(holy being) has placed an angel next to me to bless my life after slogging for 23 yrs. The more i choose not to believe it and to look at other pastures, the more the crude fact is pushed into my face to force me to acknowledge it. I tried to run, i tried to hide, but to no avail. And the only option i have now is to swallow the fact but to avoid doing unethical stuffs. The option im taking is working well and im happy to stay put rite now. B seems happy enough now, and im happy enough that an angel exists near me now. Therefore i reached the conclusion of letting time do its magic, if it's meant to be, it's meant to be, i dun have the option of being 'proactive' unless i wanna risk karma. And to add insult to injury, im no fight. hahass :)

So u see, that's the sort of struggle that exists in most guys i tink, but im lucky enough because my angel is pretty, veri pretty infact. Its just tat i tink A has more 'perfect' looks, but B is realli realli angelic. hahahasss, maybe u can call A the 'devil' and B the 'angel'? lolx~~~ Okies, enough about my psychology lesson, lets move on the more substantial stuff shall we? heehee

Tomolo will be getting up earlier to do weights OR swim, i cant do both because needa get back to skool to do revision for exams. I realised i missed a COMM law lecture on thursday just now while checking thru my notes. FUCK, i missed the last lesson, which is when the lecturer will give TIPS, FUCK LAH~~~But its okay lah, i tink smart me will tide thru, yes i will babe~~ :)

The thing about training is this: Even if u slack off for a long time, u can train get back ur bicep size in just 3 weights session! Back to the original size!! Wootz!! Im looking forward to the reappearance of my 14.8 inches biceps!!! MUAHAHA!!! Come to papa darlings~~~ BICEPS~~~ And IF i wanna contain the bulge that is my 'abs', i need to do cardio, and tat means roadwork or hitting the pool. I will choose option 2 if i have the cash, and if im poor, option 1. Dun laugh, swimming costs $2 everytime i fucking enter, knn si bei expensive lors,TIU NA SENG!

Company payday changed to 10th every mth. Its fucked up lors, cb last time its 5th, and 5th is such a nice day can? 10th feels like SAF all over again, basket lah. My net was cut ytd, and i had to scramble to pay the dumb bill and call my fren to reactivate the damn account lors~~ zzzz.. last time i get pay on 5th, i pay bill on the 6th so they wont cut on the 7th. And my master plan is screwed due to the company's shift in payday. ZZZZz.... Its getting abit vexed working there man. The politics is killing me, todae working at expo nearli made me crazy sia, the politics there is so obvious sia, dumb and childish can? And for lunch break, i went to changi airport to eat popeyes. And after travelling all the way there, u kw what happened? The popeyes cashier said ' Sorry sir, no more chicken." I was like " this cb trying to be funny with me izzit?" and i gave the significant stare, and tat guy explained that the fryer is spoiled, so there's no set meals. FUCK LAH, i went all the way there and tat's what they gave me... fastfood restaurant no food... wtf? dumb can? in the end just screwed the whole thing and went to eat burger king, and the BK pepper burger SUX big time man. Todae was a bad 'food' day lahs, then i diarrhoea whole day somemore, can it get any more fucked up? can it? =.=""

Jason's Famous Quotes : Moving clouds and flowing water, be formless and follow ur heart.

Did You Know? : The rain falls and i change into another man. The rain changed me, or did i change the way it rained?

Beautex

Went to ZOUK ytd nite with ah tan and the guys. Our entourage includes Nich, Rei, Xingyi, Ah tan and Eugene. Gene and Tan went there to 'fish' while me n rei and nich went there to have fun onli. hahasss... Rei is 'tied down' mah, tat's y. lolx. Once we went down to the dance floor, tan and gene went 'hunting' alreadi, leaving me and nich and rei and his gf. Rei obviously dance with his gf while nich and i just gayed around. zzzz its quite sad lah.

And thing is while dancing, suddenly a auntie came in and wanted to dance with me, i totally freaked out and pulled the guys to go get a drink to calm myself down. What a scary experience lors, i tink its will be sometime before i go to ZOUK again man... fark... =.="" But as a sidenote, its realli squeezy so as usaul alot of boobs rubbed by, but i dun understand some guys hor, they get a high out of this type of silly stuffs lorsss... its like so normal cause its crowded mah, so rub by also like tat, why get so 'high' over it? funnie leh... I dun understand most guys realli. And i will always try to 'siam' when gals walk thru, cause i dun like the feeling of ppl rubbing against me, no matter how hot. And i tink by trying to dun take their advantage, its a form of respect for gals. Its a huge difference between oggling and taking advantage. U can see, but pls dun touch. :)

Okies, enough with the blabbering, lets see some pictures shall we? :)
















Too much wind for nich~~~


















Dead Drunk Rei... ( Yandao knocked out....)


Sad to say, i onli have 2 pictures. lolx, i forgot to take pics with gene and tan... shyt man. haiz..rite. :) One thing about guys is they like to put gals they like as their desktop/mobile phone background. Most guys do that, but i tink its abit over leh, not ur gf u put as wallpaper for fark lor. I did that when i was like in secondary skool lah, but come on, now im we're 20+ adults alreadi leh, no point do such silly stuffs leh. And when the gal kws what you've been doing, she will totally freak out can? So my to my fren, my advice is dun do this type of crazy stuff lah, u keep her picture can, dun farking hell put as wallpaper lah.. -.-"" BIAN TAI~~~

And now, regarding my training, todae i did some light boxing stuffs that lasted 30 mins this morning, and im tired like fuck alreadi, zzzz. Cannot lah, become too weak le, need to train more
to get back my fighting form. Weights will be nxt on this saturday and most prob will go heavy to start the ball rolling. I hereby solemnly promise to train to become a better man physically so as to give my future gf a bf with a solid body. The only thing about me is tat im fat, i truly believe once the 15kg is gone, im there le. :)

Regarding the gal of my dreams, i tink its realli not possible lah, I dun even wanna try now, simply because i have no confidence at all. Her facial features is a human personification of perfection: big round eyes, sharp nose, slender eyebrows, small mouth, rosy lips, straight teeth and a PURRFECT smile~~~ All these fragments of her simply adds to the dissapointment that she will never be mine. Im not perfect yet, but i shall become as near to perfect as possible, which i hope will be within my lifetime. Im a virgo and hence i sometimes do believe in perfections, and she will be my Venus from tis day onwards. I feel like im just a mortal trying to be an immortal so as to be with her, but when i become an immortal, will i lose my mortality???

(There are millions of beautiful people in the world, yet at anyone time, u can onli be tinking about one, so if u wanna go for looks, u definitely can never finish looking.)

Jason's Famous Quotes: I've been hit by an "Angelic Obsession"

Did You Know?: Should you distance urself from someone u dun like?

117

Todae is a nice day, as usaul, im veri happy todae. Although the past entry is abit solemn, shall not care about what i kw. I only kw who/what is the source of my happiness, :). Told someone about what makes me happy nowadays on msn ytd, and he adviced me to wait till after holidays to see whether 'it' realli is the source of my happiness. heehee.... It seems abit far fetched but who cares? As long im happy and i give happiness can le lah, why tink so much and make it so complex? No point de, might as well dun fark care anything and try, even if i get burned, i wont die. PA BUAY TOH! HEEHEE!!!!

Todae started the initial training phase, did some weights and skipping to get back the feel of a boxer. Tomolo if the sore is not that bad, will start doing some heavy bag training and some shadow boxing too. Hopefully my fist bone had recovered from the long rest and can strike without pain ba. Hopefully... i dun wanna be like jean.. :X lolx... joking. :P But todae's squats i realli buay tahan sia, nb my hamstrings aching like siao, i climb stairs the legs will 'zhun' somemore lors.. lolx... But well, in order to fulfill my own prophecy of being in shape during august and b4 my bday, i need to endure thru ba, wish me luck and when i slimed down, i will definitely try to get my source of happiness. :)

Tomolo will be going to zouk with the guys. Rei, tan, nich, gene and rei's gf will be going. Was wondering whether our OG gals will wanna join us...hmms.... Anyways, tml wont be like eugene and tan, they say they will be 'fishing' lolx! I dun see a need to 'fish' lah, i dun like to do that type of thing and im too fat to do tat too. Watever i alreadi have my source of happiness and i guess tat is sufficient alreadi, though its probably onli wishful tinking on my part....though i realli hope for a miracle...

Todae i finally won at mahjong! WOOO!!! I won $26!!! Gosh! I one house win 3 house!!! muahaha!! Achievement lors~~~ Eugene lost $20, nich $3 and XXX $3! Heehee!!! Yeah!!! Finally i graduate le! No more paying of 'skool' fees to them le. muahaha! Or is it because im happy nowadays leh?? hmms, no matter, finally i won at mahjong le. :)

Im learning how to sing 'WO KE YI' by cai min you nowadays, and i heard from the people that our skool's singing competition is coming up in august or september. If i successfully lose my 15kgs, i will take part in the competition and sing this song for the semi-finals. If i made it to the finals then i will sing 'Zhuan Shu Tian Shi' ba. Though i doubt will go that far lahs, if realli heng heng get to final, i will do something realli special if the 'source' belongs to me le. :p

Ks, on a more serious note, i wont tolerate people that aims or hates my frens. Remember that, noone touches or insults my fren infront of me. (Frens VS Frens is another scenario) Im toking about strangers here, u dare to find trouble with my frens, u are in for it. The bigger the challenge, the more i like it. Guys will get the hard way, gals will get a scolding. I will never hit gals, simply because its not rite. And to those that like to win by numbers, no point lah, even if u win, u won unhonourably. I said before and i say it again, dun bully my frens. Period. >_<""

Jason's Famous Quotes: Fate is a powerful entity that compels me to you.

Did You Know?: I have hundreds of eye candies, tons of crushes but onli one gal in my heart.

Intelligence

I have this veri special ability of knowing people. I also have the added trait of trying to know my frens better one by one. I have found out some people have some realli bad histories. But the most heart wrenching is when i found out that the peson i am tinking about day in day out is infact not that person i perceived her to be. Noone told me anything, i naturally can find out from various reliable sources. To believe it or not? I will ask, and the answer i get from the facial expression will be the real answer, verbal replies are useless. I sincerely hope that it is not true. realli.

Ytd was doing mktging project at stef's house with the team, and i was sort of POWed cause we couldnt finish. I was abit pissed initially when i wasnt allowed to leave, but after sometime i adapted. The reason that i am pissed is not because i wanna go home and sleep, but its for another special reason that i choose not to divurge here. But its good, after sometime there, i realised and learned a veri important lesson in life. Very important.

Todae is aprils fools day, and its the day im going to start training. 4 mths time period starts todae, by august 1st, im supposed to lose around 15kg of lard and gain muscle mass. Toning will come into picture after a month of mass gaining and my boxing training will keep my agility in check. I am veri disappointed in girls at this point of life and will be extremely wary of them. If guys are tigers on the prowl, girls are dragons that breathes fire. Though i have not been burned, watching others burn made me feel a deep sense of pain. That's why the shows and people always say: " The prettier the gal, the more u must be wary of her".

Okays, enough blabbering about my grief, lets tok about my training ba. Im supposed to get back my 11hits per sec by june and then shoot a clip to send to sebastian and the guys. They say i tua kang so i need to show them proof. lolx, i kw its dumb lah, but its a ego thing mah. :P
Im still tinking of an alternative to roadwork leh, maybe i do stat biking? hmms..

If i have a wish, i wish that the world will be a better place and people's tinking will be free from schemes. I dun like to see people plot or have hidden agendas that are of a darker nature. Ben is one such bastard and i condemned him, im a person that treasures purity of soul. U can kw someone and plot to woo that person, tat's nature, but dun play with people's feelings. I tink when i grow older and get some amount of money, i will go set up orphanages in other 3rd world countries to bring smiles to those children there. Their gazes and smiles are the purest type of innocence in the world. To go far away from the devious human heart amidst the urban infrastructure of an cemented metropolis.....

Jason's Famous Quotes: Being too smart is not a blessing, its a curse.

Did You Know?: Reality always compels you to give up ur fairytale perceptions.

Voodoo

Simple day todae, but as usaul im veri happy todae. Maybe its because of her? I dun know, maybe, just maybe... What is fate? It is the path that u can avoid yet choose to walk it.
Got the defination from someone and i tink its quite true. Todae i chose a different path and well, im happy todae. :) Dun understand nevermind lah, infact i hope the reader wont understand. lolx

Alrite, i have yet again set for myself impossible tasks. lolx. i seem to be hooked on setting tasks for myself man.. zzz.. a few months ago it was the 'solitary sentence'. And surprisingly i didnt break the routine, hahass.. This time, its 2 tasks, the 1st task is used to acheive the second task.
The 1st task is to lose weight and tone up, i know, i've been saying this for a long time alreadi, but this time i will do it. Gave myself 4 mths, bought a new water bottle to drink water and no more sweet drinks for me unless unavoidable. April 1st, this sunday, i will start my regime and get back my poly boxing form once again. Been slacking around too long, its time i start my butt up and trained.

The second task is much much more difficult then the second task, its the reason why im happy nowadays and i intent to make it permanent. This type of unexplainable happiness is so intriguing even i myself dun kw why im happy. Okays, too complex, nvm. :P

Among guys, i tink im among the better ones out there, cause i've realli seen some bastards in my 24yrs. Some guys like to look for trouble, some guys like to cheat gals, some guys like to cheat money and some guys are pure perverts. Guys that look for trouble are childish and dumb, they like to go around acting like uneducated cocks. Guys that cheat gals are called jerks and these retards always got the worse type of karma in their later life. Guys that cheat money aint so bad unless they cheat old folks money, most of the population in this cathegory are residing in changi now. Guys that are pure perverts are the most dangerous sort because they terrorize people and the only solution is violence. :)

Toking about violence, i sometimes look at my fists and things start to run thru my mind. The most delicate limbs on our body is used to effect maximum damage. Ironic but true, and i realised alot of guys out there think they are bruce lee or some sort of fighting legend.
And hence lets discuss singaporean's favourite topic! AH BENGS!
Lets cathegorize ah bengs by race shall we? :)

Chinese ah bengs (C.beng) are still okay, since they onli walk like they've got HUGE testicles.
Speciality : Scaring the shit out of primary school kids and collecting 'protection' money.

Malay ah bengs (M.beng) are void deckers and skater-punk wannabe, likes to terrorize HDB aunties.
Speciality : Robbing old folks, wolf whistling girls and 'test-ride' motorbikes parked below HDBs.

Indian ah bengs (I.beng) are hiphop wannabes and likes to walk with a swagger like they're hiphopping.
Speciality : Listen to bangla techno and shake here shake there, jittao imagine they are some hiphop rapper although in actual fact they look like bone-thin african kids.

Ang moh ah bengs (A.beng) are a specially gifted lot, they can scold vulgarities using advanced english vocabulary that the other 3 types of ah bengs dun understand.
Specialty : Since most of them look like ABCs, they like to cheat sec skool gals and act casanova, but when a real fight ensues, they fight like sissies and after losing, go home tell mummy.

Imagine during racial harmony day, all the various ah beng groups come out to a place to find trouble....

C.beng : Eh siao lian eh, kua simi lanjiao? Buay song si bo? *looks at M.beng*

M.beng : Eh, ja-kap-ah-per? Selamat hari raya? Adil Fitri? *looks at C.beng*

C.beng : What cock u toking? I ask u see wat see? Not happy izzit? Not happy come lah!

A.beng : Dudes, can u guys pls shut the fuck up? im trying to hook a gal here! *Toking to gal*

C.beng : U cb ang moh liu lian diam diam hor, knn later nin peh kio ur whole family! *point finger*

A.beng : Yeah, nice try u piece of shit, i sincerely wonder how u were brought up u motherf$%#ker! *Flexes fist like those heroes in hollywood movies*

C.beng gets ready to fight with A.beng, M.beng starts sitting on the road fences when suddenly they noticed a banana tree...

C.beng : Nabei lah, eh ah neh! can stop moving around the cb tree anot? u soot left soot right also soot bird one lah, go back bangla plant banana lah~~

I.beng: Pundeh! xxxxyyyy-neh? xxxzzzzz-neh! *shakes head vigoriously from side to side..*

and then police come, all of them said different stuffs to police uncle...

Police : Eh, u all fighting ah? Wanna go drink milo/kopi?

C.beng : Paiseh lah, tok tok nia mah, play play nia lah, bo sio pa lah... ai zai...

M.beng : Soli soli, we toking and joking onli lah, relac lah~~~~

I.beng: Soli boss, soli, my fault boss, we tok tok play play boss, no fight boss...(Bangla immigrant)

A.beng: Its alrite sir, we're just screwing around yeah? we're the bestest of frens around here man... chill dude...

Lolx, that's a brief sample of how ah bengs operate lah, though not beri accurate. lolx. Anyways the above is just a light hearted look at beng-to-logy in my country, not some extremist racist comments. lolx. :)

Well, i kw the above is abit crazy lah, but im happy mah, my mind is flooded with images of happiness.. lolx... but coming back to reality, i dun tink its possible lah, unless miracles exist... do they? ^_-

Jason's Famous Quotes: Love is like a pilgrimage, in the end u achieve enlightenment.

Did You Know?: Being a pretty gal in this world is dangerous. Perverts are in our midst...

Hmm...

Todae i am tired. Realli tired. Tomolo will be going to stef's bf house to do project overnight. Life sux, marketing sux. Todae lazy to type too much, hence i upload pictures to illustrate my colourful life ba. :)

The current hearts level, its overflowing sia. lolx!

My New Nalgene Bottle, i LOVE the glass effect!

My Mahjong hand during one of my lucky rounds!

Another one of my hands! its onli the 2nd wave!

Botak Burger dissection!!!

Botak Burger Original Form~~!!! 0.0!!

Botak Jone's Fish n Chips!!!


Okays, i tink i am going to sleep, tomolo have comm law lecture. This few days will show abit of my dark side, cause i am realli feeling the strain. Will bite strangers that steps on my tail, notice the word stranger. Slowly bit by bit, i tink there's another thing that slowly made me happier, though its onli a small thing, but i tink can go far. Dun ask me why i kw, i just kw. Enjoy the pictures in the meantime ba. :)

Jason's Famous Quotes: Bring the fight to me, i am waiting.

Did You Know?: Fighting is an advanced form of art that has a physical manifestation.

Happy

Todae passed up Comm Law assignment. My assignment is a total mess i tink, lols, anyhow write one. :p Todae im quite happy, there's a reason why im happier then usual these few days, heehee. Its a beri simple thing lah, but i just feel tat much happier leh, i dun understand why. Its been a long time since anybody or anything can actually make unconciously me happy, but ya, i do feel happy now. hahasss!

Todae went to ah tan house to play mahjong, lost again, i keep losing in mahjong. zzz... And my marketing project is in a total mess now, we're like so dead. Tomolo i shall personally see to it that our project gets 90% done, im not going home until we finish 90% of the project. *determined*!

Okays, i kw u guys and gals missed my theory lessons rite? Therefore todae, i shall start my lecture on a special topic --> Theory of Compulsive Psychology. (CP)

Compulsive psychology are spiritual conditions in human psychology that causes or induces compulsory mental states. Meaning u are forced to think about someone or something that u dun wanna tink about. Do u sometimes tink about someone that u shouldnt be tinking about at all? Do u tink about some very pointless thing and yet felt a surge of emotional gratitude afterwards? Prolonged exposure to compulsive psychology will permanently affect ur normal psychosis and bring about benefit or damage to mental well-being.

Advanced levels of compulsive psychology can affect external physical or ethereal matters. Forcing ur mind to focus on a physical entity will actually alter its resting state, the common term for it is Psychokinesis. And the most powerful manifestation of CP is the ability to alter other being's mental status. For example, just concentrating on a particular person and mentally telling him to do something will actually affect that person to do that particular action. For example, if u concentrate on a person in a game of mahjong, tat person will actually give u what tile u want. And on a more common basis, do u sometimes have the ability to 'foresee' the future? They call those event deja vu, which is actually CP at work, twisting space-time to make things happen in your favour. It might seem far fetched that a single person's brain can alter large scale events, but the power of the brain is limitless.

Always remember, a fully unleashed brain is the most powerful entity in existence. Look at the things we humans have done with onli 3% (not sure correct anot) of our brain, and to explore the deeper recesses of our minds will be a intimidating process. The best thing is, u will be able to read other people's minds and know what kind of dark stuffs they think about. Now after reading my theory, try focusing ur mind on a piece of paper. The paper will eventually move due to ur CP ability. Try it, u will b surprised. :)

Jason's Famous Quotes: The mind is limitless. But why am i so stupid?

Did You Know?: Humans used to be able to fly. But we lost tat ability since we stopped drinking redbull.

Deja-Vu-etivity

There are some things that cannot be explicitly put out in black and white, because people fear the consequences of the black and white being seen by the unintented readers. I do agree that im also bounded by this natural restriction because after weighing the cost-benefit index, its undesirable. :)

For the past weeks, my left eye tendon have been jumping non-stop most of the time, but i realised it will stop jumping when i 'fulfill a condition'. And that 'condition' is a realli contraditory occurance. lolx. Been debating over COMM LAW assignment todae with ah tan and company. Each of us have our veri own ideologies on what constitutes various ACTS. Todae was a veri productive day with respect to me because simply put, i sorted out lots of comm law issues thanks to the help of my frens. hahass :P

Yesterday was playing mahjong with eugene, nich and meiting when meiting suddenly said something farnny. lolx. She said guys who can sing well get extra credit when going after gals, though i kept quiet after that, inside me i beg to differ. Whatever talent u have does not realli contribute to ur desirability index unless the person is appreciative of ur talent.

U can sing well, dance well and be realli a realli truthful person. But in the end, the winners always are those that speak well and act well. Words are one of the most lethal weapon that guys have against womenfolk, and coupled with oscar-winning acting, its the ultimate weapon in the world. Everyone has their own motives and modus-operandi, yet who realli won in the end?

Life is like mahjong, if u can tok well, u can deceive people into giving u wat u need to win a round. U never kw what tiles people have and what formations they wanna make, ur best hope is guessing their intentions judging from what tiles they show/throw away. Always remember my 'life is like mahjong' theory when things get abit cranky in life, even the most lousy tiles can form a 13-DEMONS (Shi-San-Yao). So dun see bad stuffs as realli bad stuffs, they might be blessing in disguise! XD

Ytd while waiting for eugene to crawl to my house, nich meiting and me were chatting about guy/gal stuffs on the mahjong table. I argued my viewpoint with a conventional issue and nich reminded me that i am still tinking about past fallacies. I realised i realli did harbour a deep dark regret regarding that issue and that explains why i held the believe that 'that' is the reason i failed.Oh well, i guess my ego does need protection after all rite? heehee:)

Oh, before i forget, im having silly dreams nowadays sia, ta ma de. i keep dreaming about somebody falling down and injuring herself sia. Then i walk over and asked her "how heavy are u ah?" and then start to carry her and run to the hospital. Dun ask me how, dun ask me why, i dun fucking kw, but it keeps repeating itself sia.... i wonder is it because jean's recent injury that reignited my medic-responsiblities? hmms.... i shall not write whose the one that fell down cause i tink its bad luck lah, later realli hor, she might tink i curse her.. -.-""

Alrite, its 4.15am alreadi, need to get some beauty sleep to prepare myself for tomolo's event.
OPERATION COMM LAW!~~~~

Jason's Famous Quotes: Life is like mahjong.

Did You Know?: Mahjong prevents alzhimer's and parkinson's disease.

Convergence

Been contemplating to come up with a melody for my song. I sort of have the lyrics ready though normally people come up with melody first before lyrics. lolx. Wells, anyways i do have some ideas in my head and my trusty handphone became my temporary music storage. But the sad thing is hp can onli record max 1 min... hmph... My com can record, but i lazy to configure leh. :p

I've been obsessed with the zhuan shu tian shi song by TANK nowadays. And todae stef showed me one of the accessories she was selling was a swarovski crystal angel hand phone strap. Its damn cute and nice sia, but abit costly at $11.50. Was wondering maybe i can write a script about this angel strap and maybe put the angel song as a backdrop? LOLX! But if i plan to write a script, it will be beri beri sad, cause i like shows that moves people. Those type that u will cry after watching. *.*V

Oh well, i gotta say this, im slowly waking up from a facate of dreams. Been dreaming mostly thruout the semester and i need to do a little more for my studies. Dreams about toning up also need to put aside, studies first. Dreams about being with her also should be shelved and put aside, no point letting someone that doesnt belongs to u flood ur mind almost everyday rite? Yupz!

Todae's econs lesson was totally greek to me, i didnt understand much about the jargons and the stewpid 'K' multiplier and other silly terms. But using my common sense i understood most of the lesson in the end after i simplified it to suit me. heehee :) smart! Paid $4 to go for a movie event on the 2nd of april since most of the OG is going and its kuku's event mah, so must go support since i promised her long ago le. :) Currently still folding hearts as a hobby, i nearli have 2 huge boxes full le, i tink one more box should suffice ba.

After lessons todae, went with rei and nich to play STARCRAFT at clementi lanshop. Its been AGES since i last played starcraft lors, was fun playing with nicky boy and rei-gay. :P Todae i made a few discoveries that astounds me sia. Didnt kw tat person was so jovial and down-to-earth de sia, lolx, sometimes the things tat person say realli is unexpected and well, all in all i can say tat is true cuteness ba, not in the er xin way, but in a more approachable manner. Glad to have a fren like tat! :)

Alrite, i guess its time to sleep again. I love sleeping, life is all about eating right, shitting light and sleeping tight! ( shitting light means u shit confortably, no 'heavy' shits. :P )

Jason's Famous Quotes: Fear is a reaction in me, but it does not last.

Did You Know?: Mahjong is the 'IN' thing now. Try it, love it!

Benediction

Hmms, yesterday play mahjong and lost $18. Sianz....Nowadays i keep plyin mahjong sia. lolx, didnt realised mahjong is so fun de lors, so addictive somemore. hahass :p Well, tomolo's MAB test and though i did camped at skool todae, i still tink it's not sufficient. But ironically im blogging here, hmph.

Todae eugene (he's a new guy that came into our OG) was going to toilet when he saw me sitting by the koi pond outside the study room. I was taking a break from the studies and sitting outside listening to song and people watching. But eugene came over and tot i was veri sad, tat's y i go outside squat. lolx. He laments that he is in the same state as me and he understands how i feel. But i beg to differ though. Im not sad and im just stoning outside to chill off the book-burn.
But eugene is quite a nice guy lah, so i started to tell him stories of past events and actively immersed with him in solemn sadness. But i still tink no point crying over split (i kw, it should be spilt) milk mah, what is done cant be undone mah, so eugene ah eugene, trust me when i say do not be unethically in love.

Sometimes tinking bout it makes me sooooooo pointless. I didnt go around telling people stuffs u see, eugene happened to be going home with me the day before with xuanhe and he sort of asked me a question that seems all too common now. Around 20 million people asked me the same question. I wont write what question he asked, but i told him my same honest reply. Like means like, true breed men shouldnt hide things. After that i didnt realli wanna say much anymore lah, dun wanna start a marketing campaign. hahass! :P

And then we toked about someone else. XH and i analysed probability of a guy getting hitched with tat someone we're toking about. ZERO, absolute ZERO possibility. lolx. XH and i both passed absolute judgement that unless the world ends, its super impossible for that guy. LOLX!
Alritey, after MAB tomolo, there's lesson, and during lesson, i shall draft out my newest plan. Fitness plan that is. I hope that it works, and i adhere to it, if not, im fucked. I tink im ballooning slowly nowadays lors, even silly kuku says my belly looks bigger... omg... cannot, must be FIT ZAI like sean le. I tink i should go buy the game fight night 3, its super nice and i like boxing. But their blows abit slow leh, should be faster mah. :x...

Ehs seanny boy, i slowly start to become fit zai ba, then we arm wrestling everytime we meet, who win, who gets free kopi, swee bo? :) At least got something for me to work towards mah...
Will save up to buy a nalgene bottle and drink plain water ba. No more sweet/canned drinks for me, onli exception being bubble tea ba. And onli if kuku wanna drink bubble tea then i can drink with her, if not, plain water. So if i still remains fat hor, can blame her mah. SMART! :P

I wonder whether i can stick to my schedule sia, if im realli toned up and can run 2.4km under 8 mins hor, i will theoretically be rich. Cause my ippt will get gold and that means $400, then i can go do part time modelling like rei and earn some cash!! A wise man called jason (me) once said, money is the best motivating factor! And hor most prob i will tio TOTO, cause the impossible have happened! I toned up!! LOLX!!! :x

Jason's Famous Quotes: If u dun wanna tink about someone, u are alreadi tinking about her.

Did You Know?: For $40k, u could get a Mitsubishi Lancer now! But i no license...

Mysterious...

I have a confession to make. There's someone that i keep thinking about. It shouldnt be that way, but something makes me keep thinking about that person. We dun tok much, our personalities dun fit and we aint close at all. Why do i keep thinking about that person? Why do i keep wanting to find out what is happening to that person everyday? Hmms, i guess i need to ask peter the psychology student ba. hahass.

Seriously speaking, i dun even kw how come that person keep popping up in my head. And i know stuffs about that person that i shouldnt be knowing because we are not that close. Funny thing right? Well, is it because of looks? or because of some unknown factors? Anyways, was wondering if this type of thing happens to everybody or is it just me? hmms...

Whatever hor, im still waiting happily for 'her', so maybe tis person that is in my brains simply made a deeper impact on me then others? I analysed le, toking about looks/lust, i should be more mesmerized by MSU mah, and toking about personality hor, im totally inclined to 'her' leh, so where does that puts that person? Dun worry, i tink im quite sure its not love lah, dun tink too far lah. Just curious what kinda omen it signifies? ( Maybe that person can help me win TOTO?!!)

Alrite, enough bout that mysterious person, maybe it crawl away from my brain with time ba. Even when i tink about it hor, if im that person and im in some fat fuck's brain hor, i will feel disgusted. lolx. And well, my blog is about honesty mah, its a philosophy that i preach dearly. hehee.

Okies, for those wondering who is MSU, MSU stands for Miss Singapore Universe. hahass, its a nick tot out by the guys for a junior that's in our skool. She's a participant in MSU mah, so she's quite pretty (though look abit cheena -.-) , got figure and height too. Hahass, she's one of the recent eye candies in skool that we took a notice to. :P

Toking about eye candies, lets be frank, my class have a few eye candies that the guys mostly approved of. They are the official eye candies voted by 5 perfectly straight guys. LOLX!
Excluding people from my OG hor, theres around 5 candies in class, first and foremost is nich's all time fav jacqueline, the ah lian look alike. lolx. Then there's xueting and grace which rei highly recommends. :x And there's this tall gal that rei say is gf material. I dun kw her name. hahass. Ah tan likes mickey mouse ears gals and in our class there's 2 gals i tink. Eileen looks eurasian and is quite pretty, she looks abit like adeline though.. oh well. hahass. Natalie is also one of the candies cause she slimed down quite alot sia. And i tink there's this gal that have a childish voice and big big eyes too, she's quite doll-like but she smokes and is attached... too bad. hahasss!
Mandy is hot, i tink she can go FHM take picture sia. woooo~~~~I think that's about it ba, those are the prettier ones lors, though the gals in our class mostly aint too bad looks-wise.

Okies, that sums up the eye candies, so now we go onto a more pressing issue. If i drop into the sea one day, i tink i most prob will survive simply because my spare tire is getting so huge. LOLX! Nabei one, didnt realli notice im getting fatter until i saw the fats overflowing sia. kaoz, shall plan out a training schedule again soon. Planning is simple, the difficult part is to stick to the schedule... zzzz... Anyways, will TRY to start training soon and get a 6 pack 4 mths later. I mean 6-pack Tiger Beer hor, lolx! Biceps jittao shrink until like some weakling sia, zzz, used to be 14.8 inches, now its like 11 inches? Cannot lah, need to train and prep up le lah, a 60 yr old ah-peh can win me in a fight lors.... i am a weakling... i am kai cheong... i am weak.... NOOOOOO~~~~!!!

Jason's Famous Quotes: Death is but a journey to the west.

Did You Know?: Sometimes, bad things might be a blessing in disguise.

专属天使

作词:施人诚

作曲:tank

编曲:吕绍淳

演唱:tank

我不会怪你对我的伪装

天使在人间是该藏好翅膀

人们愚蠢鲁莽而你纤细善良

怎能让你为了我被碰伤

小小的手掌厚厚的温暖

你总能平复我不安的夜晚

不敢想的梦想透过你的眼光

我才看见它原来在前方

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁

你是我的专属天使

唯我能独占

没有谁能取代你在我心上

拥有一个专属天使

我哪里还需要别的愿望

小小的手掌大大的力量

我一定也会像你一样飞翔

你想去的地方就是我的方向

有我保护笑容尽管灿烂

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁

你是我的专属天使

唯我能独占

没有谁能取代你在我心上

拥有一个专属天使

我哪里还需要别的愿望

要不是你出现

我一定还在沉睡

绝望的以为生命只有黑夜

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁

你是我的专属天使

唯我能独占

没有谁能取代你在我心上

拥有一个专属天使

我哪里还需要别的愿望...

The above song is by TANK and i think it realli means alot. Its a easy yet sincere song that can put forth how someone is an angel to a guy (me). lolx! Dying to go KTV again cause i wanna train this song. Toking about training songs, in my song list there's a few songs that i regularly sing at KTVs. They are Forever Love, Kiss Goodbye, Zhi Dui Ni Shuo, Bai Se Feng Che, Tui Hou etc.. Well, Forever Love i almost everytime go KTV also must sing, cause i treat it as training mah, next time when i propose to wife must sing this in public de lors~~~. hahahass :P

There's Econs Test later and im still loitering around here, lolx. Anyways its a multiple choice test and i guess i shouldnt fare too badly ba. And regarding the post before this, whatever i write is my thoughts and viewpoint, dun take them as the whole and complete truth. As things progresses, they always are subjected to various mutating factors, so ya, my blog = my perspective. :)

Life isnt too great for me these days, i just sorted out a frenship problem, and the family problem that has been underlying for so long finally resurfaced again. Relationship basically no problems because im still waiting mah, so dun need to tink too much, just wait. Frenship problem is solved by a phone call and the final piece is family problem. Onli 2 person kw my family problem and i seriously liked to keep the numbers small. heehee, no use washing dirty linen outside mah rite? :P

Jason's Famous Quotes: U read my blog, u keep it to urself. U get me in trouble, i fuck u.

Did You Know?: My blog is the purest form of honesty in the world.

Spartanian Quotation: We Do Not Ask How Many, We Onli Ask Where.

Inferior-tivity

Why can't people have more faith in people? Frends for 13 yrs, been thru thick and thin, yet because of a gal he dun trust me. And to add insult to injury, its because of a small and silly incident. It seems what is within will eventually surface. He's been keeping it within himself for some years now and i didnt notice it. He has inferior-complex.

It all started one fine day last year, when he introduced a gal called Bel to me. He told me she's a nice gal and we went to watch movie together. And so bel and i got to kw each other's existence. One month later, in msn, he added me to a conversation between both of them, and i chatted abit and suggested going to sing ktv. Bel sore throat so ktv cancelled. End of part 1 of story.

Part 2, bel set up a webby to sell clothes and accessories. He informed me to go see see and patronize. Went to the webby, not interested. Since i have her msn alreadi, went to ask her wanna go sing anot. Bel's fine with singing ktv, went to ask him. He said dun want, asked him why, he say he working, told him to change to afternoon shift so we could go sing, i long long time never sing alreadi. He gave attitude problem and gave me lame excuses not to sing. Accepted the fact and went out to sing with my other frens so as to satisfy my singing craving.

Part 3. Reached home late last weekend, went online to look for the guys to game. Everybody slept alreadi, so lonely me went to msn to look for ppl to chat. Happened to see bel online, chatted abit, she told me got new stocks for guys, went to see see. Noticed nice striped shirts that i wanted but was unsure of quality, so need to meet up to see the shirts and pay for them. Suggested going to sing again because shun bian mah.Also got her number so that can contact to collect shirts.

Smsed him to inform him and ask whether he free anot, cause i missed singing with him. I asked him 2 weeks ago to sing with richard too, but he wasnt free so this week ask him again lor, anyways bel is his fren, so i dun wanna go out with her alone. The first reply i got was " How u contact her? msn?". Was suspicious, but replied 'ya'. Instantly he's mood changed and showed me attitude problem. He smsed me " U like her izzit? Give u ba. U and her make cool and good couple."

Mentally i was like WTF? and i replied " Pls dun get the wrong idea, we are frens onli and im buying clothes from her, that's y need to meet her."
He replied " Dun lie lah, i kw u like her. Give u ba. I not free to sing, u go with her alone can le."
i was sort of pissed and replied "Dun tink too much lah, since u dun like it, cancel ba. No point u suspect me like tat."
He replied " Nvm lah, u go with her alone ba. Enjoy."
I gave up. Fuck it. Pissed.

Part 4. Todae bel smsed me to tell me this thursday she free, ask whether wanna go sing ktv anot. Forwarded the msg to him to make sure he dun get the wrong idea and to proof to him that we have nothing to hide. He replied " Wah, u got her handphone number alreadi ah? good."
i replied " ya, i buying clothes from her mah, so need to get contacts so can meet up to collect shirts."
He replied " Nvm ba, u and her beri compatible, go with her ba."
I felt damn vexed and replied " Dun tink too much pls, i realli dun like her because i alreadi liked XXXXXX le, my heart is with XXXXXX long ago. Bel is not my type anyways."
He replied "I cant make it, u go with her ba."
I cant stand it le i smsed Bel "Sad, he cant make it on thursday."
Bel replied "Nvm then, sunday i free also, onz?"
I forwarded the msg to him to ask him free notz.
he replied " I cant, sunday my gf with me" ( Yes, he have a girlfriend. )
I reply " kks, nvm ba, then cancel sua."
He replied " Nvm lah, u go with her alone lor, good mah."

And things started to spin out of control le. He smsed Bel saying he dun wanna meet up with her anymore and he smsed me asking me to go for her and tell me he gave up on her.
I am mighty pissed and feels damn fucked. Frends for 13 yrs and now u give me this type of shit? I cant even be bothered to reply him after i tried to appease him for 2 hrs. He is fucking childish can? I have onli toked to her 3 - 4 fucking times and he fucking thinks i wanna woo her?

Worse thing is he went to smsed bel this :" We dun meet anymore ba, i am not scared of (competition from) jason. U both Uni students, he is cool and nice for u, i am not worthy of you."

FUCK LAH, ccb in our 13 yrs of frendship, i have never ever uttered a single word to look down on him. Why the hell he tinks in that way i dun kw, but wat i kw is i am completely mystified and pissed by this issue. He tinks bel looks down on him that's y reject him, but bel does not thinks that way. And knowing him for 13 fucking cb years, i kw he is veri egoistic, no amount of toking can make him admit he is wrong. What i have to say is though he is 25 yrs old, i realli think mentally he is still a kid. He mentally tinks that he is inferior to me, i didnt notice that all along.
No wonder he keeps criticising me whenever he can so that he can seem the better person. Sometimes he is wrong, the whole world knows, but he INSISTS that he is right.

Even in games, he did something wrong, and went into a quarrel with people. I have to clean up after him to iron out the shit he created. All these, he didnt kw. I always need to iron out his shit after him to appease people. And now i guess its the last fucking time im doing tis. I have to sms bel to apologise for his childishness and immaturity. Imagine u are a gal, and u suddenly receive a sms to say 'lets not meet anymore." Knn fucking childish can? Its not even anybody's fault.

I buy clothes, she sell clothes, we go out sing TOGETHER as 3 FRENDS, and he tinks i wanna tackle her then kiong her at his expense. We made a pact 12 yrs ago when we were still kids, that we will be truthful to our girlfrens/wife and will never target each other's gals. I still vividly remember that pact and i can honourably say that i upheld it till this moment. He voided the first part about being truthful and faithful to his gf, but i swear upon the heavens that i have not broken our childhood promise.

All in all, he simply dun trust me at all. I told him umpteen times im waiting for 'her' and will certainly never fall for bel. He's inferior complex is taking over his senses and he is blindly imagining stuffs. Studies wise he might not be that proficient, but he has other skills as well, yet he simply can see all these. Why look at things that u dun have? Might as well examine what u have and treasure them. People, if u all reading this, give it some thought, dun be like my best buddy, dun feel inferior, look at ur strenghts...

Jason's Famous Quotes: Look at what u have, rather then what u dun have.

Did You Know?: Im unethically in love.