Housing

Modern Zen with a tinge of cheena influence. That's what i call my own style of interior design. I've sort of imagined my home design and will try to do a rough sketch when i am free. heehee. I guess studying engineering did me some good after all. hahass :P

My house will involve the concept of simplicity, coupled with some water and transparent materials to inculcate a peace and tranquility atmosphere. The floor will be made from fibreglass which is transparent, allowing me connect the water underneath to the swimming pool just outside. One of the benefits of having a fibreglass floor is the lighting effect sunlight have on the entire house, it will literally lit up the entire house. :)

Okies, enough of my house, if fate has it, i will draft out a blue print and upload it here for u ppl. :P And now we come to what i did todae... boring.... Stayed at home whole day, watched VCD (told ya, im becoming a tv freak.) whole day and now im taking a break, hence im updating. lolx.
Later i will go downstairs la kopi with the guys and will continue watching vcds till late nite. Shyt, i am becoming a coach potato, but funny thing is, i like that kind of rot-on-your-bed-watch-vcd-and-heck-the-world sort of feeling. hahas! I tink during the holidays, nichy boy will be my best fren, because he have LOTS of dramas! And im sort of digging for ENGINE by Takuya Kimura, seems nice, and since im a guy, i have an obsession for cars. :P

So lets see, im looking for Engine, Prison Break Season 2, Heroes, Da Tang Shuang Long Zhuan and i remember there's a show i watched when i was in sec 2 during my overseas holidays in hong kong. Its a japanese drama called Money or Millionaire or something. Its bout this guy that is poor and out, but later he became the chairman of a company. Wonder whether its still around anot, cause its been quite long alreadi. hahass :P

So holidays will be working and watching tv. Simple. :) Got vcd/dvds , dun need worry no entertainment at home. hahass! Opps, i left out training. lolx! Aniwaes my bro borrowed Fight Night 3 from his fren, which for those tat dun kw, is a boxing game. Its fun because i simply lurve boxing! Mohammed Ali, unbeaten heavyweight of all time! muahaha!

Kks, time to go down la kopi le, and this time, i paragraphed my entry. heehee. :P

Jason's Famous Quotes : The Price of Peace 2: The Price Is Right

Did You Know? : I like singing but i dun like being a singer. Dun kw why. No point?

Aged

Okies, been a long time since i last blogged, so i have ALOT to write. muahaha! Firstly, its the exams, i sort of like drifted thru my econs and comm law paper, not in a 'cfm pass' sort of way though. Haiz. Then comes tons of mental theories that i sort of conceived and learned as i go along my daily life. One thing is for sure now, my life is never routine now, though its as boring. lolx. I wake up at different time everyday, i do different stuffs everyday and i think bout different stuffs everyday. Yawnz, that boring.. I dun realli like to write bout daily life, cause its so monotonous to tell the world how u lived ur life todae. Unless u are some hot person that is super popular, meaning u are yandao/pretty or some sort of celebrity, who the fark would be interested in ur daily endeavours? Hmms...

Okay, second thing, im called back for reservist. I have no qualms about serving the nation but im supposd to have exams during tat period, so ya, im going to defer it. Its abit sad because i DO sort of wanna go for overseas training at australia man.... The farking huge flies, the kangaroo shits, the 40 degrees 'normal' weather and the totally 'enjoyable' outfield encampments... gosh, i even missed not bathing for 10 days on a row man! Hahass! Yeah, lets get dirty~~ :P

Third thing is violence. Been reading the papers and realised violence do add some spice into our urban life. People blame violence on tv shows and movies, but i beg to differ. Violence is in our genes, we are elementarily barbarians although we claimed to have evolved into something of a higher tier. We dun watch shows and go around imitating them by killing people, we MADE the shows in the first place. If watching violent shows make us prone to enforce violence, then watching porn make us go around raping ppl? Watching gay shows make us gay? Moral of the story is, we are what we are, not what we watch. Violence is not all the time 'childish' and 'uncivilized', it sometimes serves a complementary role in justice and as perversely as it sounds, serves as a remedy for a unbalanced psychological state of mind. What made me tok about this violence issue? The V-Tech shootings. What happened was a bastard that actually had a loose wire that went around killing innocent ppl. The kids wanted to study for a better future, and yet he ended their dreams and ambitions with a bullet. The one thing he did right was shooting himself, because he simply does not deserve to live, after what he did, i wont even bury him, i would let the vultures peck at his god forsaken body and live him to rot. That farking bastard.
But this issue actually dug out a hidden problem, how many of these farkers are living among us now? Coming to tink of it, although we pay more for just about every fark thing in our country, at least these type of bastards dun have access to a gun. :)

Alrite, enough bout him. No point further exemplifying this issue. We shall tok about something much better, myself. LOLX! What i wanna say is, i tot i got over my crush, but i realised todae that i havent, the fire sort of reignited itself. hahass! But i tink im basically sane when it comes to crushes lah, i kw its not gonna go into something deeper especially when im gonna keep mum about it. heehee. What matters is everytime i see her, im happy can le, pretty pretty~~!!

This few days, i've been wearing my army-black-spectacles to skool, not because i wanna look studious, but because i've ran out of contact lens and im too lazy to go pick up new stocks from ah yap. Why? Because ah yap's shop is at Great World City. Farking far rite? Nbzzzzzzz....=.="
But i tink wearing specs not bad lah, can look nerdy and studious, give good impression that im a good student mah. :)

Hao le, its theory time. Todae we shall take a look at a very special theory called the Charismatic Paradox. Have u ever seen some people that is has looks, body and money, yet u totally dislike them? Yupz, its that common. People that seemingly has all these signs of perfection did not infact attract admiration and appear as charismatic, but on the contrary turns people off. Some of us have bi-polar tendencies, meaning either we totally fall for these ppl, or totally gets turned off, few of us exists in between. Charisma, it seems can onli go up to a certain level, and then further implications of it results in a downward spiral. Too much of something is always a bad thing, and the same goes for charisma. Therefore, in order to avoid this paradox effect, there must be some sort of counter-attraction personality involved to dilute the charismatic saturation. That's where the flaws come into play, i once theorized that imperfection is the new perfection rite? This point further enhances that theory. A person that is too perfect is simply not realistically possible to approach and truly befriend, whereas someone that is seemingly nearly perfect, yet is constrained by some flaws is actually the person that everybody will lean towards.

Therefore the conclusion is this, imperfection serves as a communal point/gateway to allow other people to approach and understand u. The best thing is, people complement and supplement each other, what u lack might be what ppl will be inputing into ur life, and what u will be giving what they lack. :)

Finally im done with the crapping. lolx. But its all just food for thought, not to serve as statutory statements. hahass :P Anyways, i've sort of put in a jukebox just for u ppl to listen to. im nice rite? lolx. The songs are nice, Xuan Lu is veri touching too. Enjoy!

Jason's Famous Quotes : Chi Xiang Jiao, La Er Hu!

Did You Know? : Snails and Slugs become water when u put salt on them.

Guilty

201st post alreadi, and was reading my posts right from the 1st post till the 200th post, remember its a diary of events in my life and how i grew as a person? yupz, it served that purpose :) Some vague remnants of my life in the past has been relit and revisting those memories realli brings a smile to my face. A huge regret is that i didnt realli started earlier, cause i realli wanna see what kinda person i am when i was with corinne in the past during BMT period. That was some of the happiest times of my life, yet also the darkest moments of my life. Ironic isnt it? hahass :P

Todae was an uneventful day, though in the morning i was confronted over my blog entry. I alreadi edited that entry to remove the offensive stuff because well, after tinking it through, i was at fault. Shouldnt involve myself in other's business nxt time, kaypoh mah, cfm tio kio one. lolx. Anyways considering things from ur shoes, i do agree if the same thing happened to me, i will also get pissed. So ya, i admit that its my fault to ridicule u. Paiseh. :)
Okays, that issue solved, i wanna thk 'history blogger' for enlightening me on bloggin ethics, hahass. Next time shall not be so tactless, and since i have alreadi made a mistake, no choice but to suck it up and move on. ^_^

Nxt up is i actually studied todae. Yes, actually. I've been playing games for the past few days and its like im not even gan jiong about the exams. Gosh, i tink i need to mull over what kinda attitude i have towards my studies sia. And todae was preoccupied with something else in my mind. The question is how different i am now compared to me in the past. Something or someone changed me completely, and the past means a few yrs ago during primary, sec skool and poly days. Was chatting with aiying at the playground 2 weeks ago, when she told me she used to hate me when we were in primary skool because i keep bullying people, which i dun recall doing lah. im so nice lors, where will bully her? =.="" But well, who will believe that someone that hates me in the past will actually be close frens with me now? hahass :)

Sec skool days: Days of play and running around and street soccer after skool with the guys. Always ponten lessons to play soccer and the teacher always had to come down to the soccer court to find us, then fark us and force us to go back to class. And how did we retaliated? We sleep. hahass! And as usaul, people says i keep bullying other people, but i realli didnt leh, there's gangsters around leh, how to bully ppl? But the sec skool toilet is realli c buay chui one, though my skool is a new skool, they always go inside fight one. The mirror is most of the time broken and the cubicles always have smoke coming out. hahass~~ My malay frens are always caught for smoking, and chinese ones always fight. I tink there is a pattern ba. And a plus point is, i didnt smoke. And well, i have a close fren from my sec skool class, and she also says i did changed le, but i didnt ask her in what aspect. :p

Poly days: Among the slackest and most no life period of my life. Totally farked my studies and went to do silly things. Year 1 was the most boring time of my poly days, didnt manage to find people that click much in my classmates and mechatronics wasnt the best course in the basket. Tons of Papa Romeo Charlies in my class and that sort of sucked, im not racist but its just funny toking to them with a slang. Year 2, i found my clique and sadly, most of them got 'ta pao' modules, lolx. So since our common interests is ponten lessons and go find leisure, we totally clicked. muahaha! But we're realli realli no life people during that time man, all of us are total cocks and i tink only ah wong realli studied. KC and stuart are cliff-hangers, botak is 100% submarine. Vincent and Jason Kok were the ones i dun kw much about because they were most of the time with Papa Romeo Charlie gals. heehee... Now most of them are alreadi out of army alreadi, KC is now workin as an assistant engineer, his taiwanese gf and him are going to get married soon i tink. Stuart is studying with me in SIM and he has a stable gf now plus he is super studious. Daniel has plans to study in australia and i believe he is someone that can make the mark de. Ah kok has his own company and the last i heard, his company is doing quite badly. Botak and vincent im not sure how they're getting on nowadays, hmms.... Time to organise gathering during holiday! weee!

Army days: Nothing much to write, alot to talk about. After NS, guys have ALOT to tok about life serving the nation. The sour, sweet, bitter and spicy stuff in the army, and the good buddies i have made during my liability period. Sean and Peter, both of them kw me well, kws i tua kang alot, but still accepted my nonsense with a laugh. They accepted my irresponsibilty as well and for that, i concluded that they are realli true frens. They tell me honestly when i fucked up and i appreciate that, they stand by me when im right, so ya, true frens. :)

Toking about true frens, i have a buddy. This buddy knows me inside out, knows my antics and has shared alot of joys and sadness with me. There was some problems in the recent months, but after going out with him ytd, i realised though we did change, we still cherish this brotherhood that has been ongoing for 13 yrs now. Ah-wei, if u are reading this, lets ensure that our brotherhood will be strong till we get old and die. Once brothers, always brothers. Zhen de.

Okies, so looking back, i realli did had some good and bad times in my life, and all these actually went thru my mind while im studying todae, which means im consciously studying, and subconsciously going thru my whole life.... wow... sometimes the human mind is so intriging rite?

Jason's Famous Quotes : Endurance is chained by Reason.

Did You Know? : There is absolute tranquil peace before a calamity.

Courageous

I realised, i look like a cock at home... um, most prob i look like a cock everywhere i go? lolx! Was looking into the mirror when i woke up tis morning to conduct 'annual' inspection. Im in bad shape man, the face also like veri old like tat, face machiam charsiew bao, single eyelids closing and dying...and the list goes on.. hmmss.... Maybe its time i do something about it? But then again, maybe not, because i dun kw how to make dbl eyelids. lolx!

And so, nowadays after i started training, my whole body aches for the nxt day, so i mostly onli train on alternate days. But i alreadi can feel the effects of my regime sia, im starting to feel like i can punch thru the sandbag with a haymaker man. Yet the funny stuff is, i tink im feeling calmer at the same time, giving more tots to consequences infact. Its not the po po ma ma humji type of change in me, its like i realli tink in a more peaceful and serene way. The word for it is ZEN, ya, ZEN, im tinking in a ZEN way. heehee~~~

I have not started on my mugging officially, dun ask me why, just havent got in the mood yet, i dun farking kw why. Todae was a whole day of gaming / tv and sleeping, im starting to be hooked on the tv man, my kenwood dvd player which has been collecting dust for the past has been in overdrive recently. The source of my dvd obsession is nich, i borrowed serials and shows from him, so im starting to start life as a coach potato stoning and watching vcd/dvds at home! Im starting to have this feelin that during my holidays, i will onli have 3 things that i do at home. Train, Tv, Game..... will this gut feeling come true? No. I will force myself to turbo work to earn money so that i will be rich when i start the sem... yeah... work... boring work.... argh~~~

Did u ppl ever heard a song called WO NIU by zhou jie lun? Its a veri nice and hopeful song, im listening to it now and i realised its so damn inspirational. Its about being like a snail, slowly climbing up the neverending stairs~~~ And i do agree with the lyrics, watever u do, as long as u perservere, u will definitely reach ur destination. Its the same with life and love, persevere as if time has no effect on u, and u will definitely get wat u want. I know, ppl say that everything can be forced except love, but if there's somebody that waits for u with no regards to time, u will accept tat person de.

I asked myself this question: If someone is willing to wait and change herself for me though i dun like her at all, will i accept her? The answer initially is a yes, because chemistry cant be forced, but as i pondered deeper, i realised the key lies in time, she waits 1 yr, i reject, she waits 5 yrs, i reject again, she wait 10 yrs, how to reject? If u say its sympathy, i agree its sympathy, but the destination is being able to be with tat person, so u got what u want didnt u? In our pursuit of happiness in our daily lives, we became selfish without realising it.

Alrite, now the play list is playing the storm riders theme song. I like the instrumental oriental groove within the song. Its gives u the feeling of 'legendary' and coming to tink about it, why the fark is my entries so farking long one ah? Do ppl bother to read the whole thing? hmms.. =.="

Concluding this last paragraph, i shall divulge another secret about myself: I like to dance, i love dancing although i dance like a fat penguin. I believe dancing is a way to freely express ur intepretation of the music. And so, lets take a look at my interests ba, im into : martial arts, ancient military strategies, psychology, love, gaming, tv(new), bodybuilding (dun laugh), cooking, looking at gals, writing songs and poems, writing fantasy stories, archealogy, origami, swimming, philosophising new theories of every kind etc.. and not forgeting oggling my eye candy. heeheee. :p

Jason's Famous Quotes : Courage under fire is true courage, what defines fire? My fists.

Did You Know? : Guerilla tactics are among the most complex yet simple tactics employed.

Pui-sanova

What a interesting day todae was. hmms, lets recap, woke up at 8 am wanting to train, but my pecs and triceps were still aching, so postponed boxing to tomolo morning before going to skool.
Mum wanted to eat mee hoon kuay, so i accompany her for breakfast before going to skool. Was arranging my hair at the 243 bus-stop advertisement sign when i saw xueting. Mrt reached jurong east station and i saw a familiar face: kenneth. He looked tired as usaul but the sight of him just reminded me about some stuffs. He reminds me of starhub and images of the past started flashing past my mind. Memories of adeline especially.

Although i was chatting with xueting on the mrt, my mind is actually recalling all the past events when i was working at starhub last yr. Adeline, the name that made me go gaga last march to may. Adeline, the name that made me understand what is infatuation. Adeline, the name of the girl who made me lose something beri precious to me. Being overly obsessed with her was being veri unhealthy, i was sort of living in a veri different world during that period of time. But a good thing resulted from that 'dark' period in my life, i did what i pledged to do, no more 'No Action, Tok Onli" attitude. Looking back at the book i did for her, im quite amazed that i realli went ahead to do such a sincere thing. I guess in the end i found myself, a veri sincere person. :)

Every failed attempts make me grow up more and more mentally and emotionally. I dun regret what i do in the past, life is too short to live with those regrets on what u could have done. Tink about what u can do rather then hanging on the past. That's y im trying to do some body sculpting at tis point in time. Its more for myself then other people, im too selfish to do something for other people unless that person means something to me. Sometimes i understand that i can be too proud sometimes, i like to 'tua kang' like what the guys said, but i dun realli do that much nowadays, because i myself dun like proud people. For that, im slowly learning to make myself a humbler person. Everyday we learn something, and everyday i think and reflect on alot of stuffs.

In my dictionary, there isnt such a word as 'Forever'. It simply does not exist at all, it's onli a descriptive word to confuse and convince people. If someone tells u that he/she loves u forever, tat person is a lying bastard, noone loves someone forever, absolutely noone. And if u believe in the word forever, then its time to wake up, u're being too naive and most prob is 16yr old and below. Let me explain why tis is so, firstly, will u be around forever? No. Second, will u be tempted by another person that comes along and is completely better then her in terms of physical and mental aspects? Yes. ( those that say 'no' most prob will say stuffs like "we had memories and those are treasures to us" etc....) And the final point to conclude this issue is simply --> How do u know what will happen in the future? U cfm u will love a person till forever? Even in the unforeseeable future? :)

Dun worry, its not some personal issue with the word FOREVER, its just that i was tinking about my favourite ktv song "Forever Love" and hence was reflecting on the bus todae. lolx. Feel free to propose counter theories and explain to me why do u tink forever is possible. hahahass :p

Remember my eye candy? Well, she's getting cuter and prettier the more i look at her. Its never tiring to look at her man, dun understand why. lolx! Anyways, sometimes im realli tink i can go get some sort of acting award sia, i tink she still dun kw she's my eye candy..or do she kw? :P
But its hard to know lah, i dun oggle obviously mah, other girls i can appreciate them openly because they're just like passing clouds, who cares rite? But eye candy hor, different from normal gals, got priority!

Lastly to end with a new mental model, i realised one thing about being romantic. Its okay being romantic, but dun overdo it. The best form of romance is the sincere kinda stuff, not those super mushy stuffs. My mentality in the past was casanova, but now its changed to something more credible and down-to-earth. Was working the other day at vivocity, when i saw a old couple still holding hands and the ah-gong was taking veri good care of the ah-ma. That made me realised treating someone sincerely irregardless of time is the most romantic thing a man can do for a woman. To see the world together, to be there for each other, to grow old together and yet u never fail to fit her hands snugly in yours; that is indeed the best form of romance u can ever give to ur gal. From now on, no more mushy mushy stuffs, i onli offer sincerity and honesty. :)


Jason's Famous Quote : Eternity is never real because death forbids it.

Did You Know? : Yandaos are all drug abusers because Rei said this "Life sux, take drugs!".

Bicep-tology

Okies, yesterday was toking about roadwork rite? i didnt run todae, i skipped. lolx. Didnt have the mood to run mah, so i did skipping lors, also cardio mah. hahass. Tomolo will wake up early to do heavy boxing. I did some heavy weights todae, therefore hopefully by tomolo will recover alreadi, if not i need to postpone. =.=""

Im happy nowadays, cause i can feel my body starting to react to the training alreadi, read an article while stoning at CENTRAL's Starbucks todae. Later i shall explain how come i was stoning there, but the article is on Gerald Butler and how he trained for his role in 300. Veri enriching and intriging how he went thru 4 mths of training to get the perfect body for the movie. He did a 300 reps routine daily that is completely inhuman, yet i hope to attempt when my fitness picks up. Its from men's health april 2007, go read, and be astounded. :)

Todae was a farked up day, went back to office to collect pay with stuart at 11am, but was told tat we cant collect until 3pm. Stuart did checked with them ytd whether we can collect at 11am, and was given the go-ahead. So todae we were both undestandably pissed when we were told that we have to wait until 3pm. Was supposed to join the guys to study in skool after collecting pay, but in the end we waited till 6pm before we got our pay. The new management isnt up to the task in my opinion, we waited till 3pm, only to be told to wait till 4pm, and when we went up at 4pm, they were still sorting out everything.

What kinda management is so unproductive? U mean they dont make early checks and preparations for payday? Totally disappointed with the new guys in the company. Though they are nice people, but i still tink they are inferior to stacy and chap. Maybe they need time to catch up and improve? but still i cannot swallow the fact tat i waited 7 hrs for my pay and i spent $30 while waiting at CENTRAL. Was veri angry initially, but after tinking about it, i tink its a sign that i should leave the company and started teaching tuition to earn cash. Stuart has the same sentiments too, so most prob we shall pursue a career as a tuition teacher. :)

Enough about inefficiency, shall not criticize people when i am as inefficient myself. hahahass :P
Hmms, anybody heard Rain's 'Move On' before? There's 2 versions and i liked the version from his SINGLE better then the one on his album. Well, i shall paste the english lyrics at the end of this entry if i can find it. lolx. Its realli meaningful and i totally love the RnB element in it, im a RnB fan remember? hahass :) Alrite, shall sleep early todae, cause tomolo have to wake up quite early to train before going to skool for MAB lessons. hmms... and tomolo i will see my eye candy again! Yeah!!! Happy!!! (Okay, fark it, i cant find the english lyrics, so nvm. lolx!)

Jason's Famous Quotes : There is Order in Chaos and Chaos in Order. (Chaos Theory)

Did You Know? : DNA means Di-oxyribo-Neucleiac-Acid (Dun kw spell correct notz.)

Hopes

Tonite is a silent night. Things have became more silent nowadays, and life has narrowed. Current life status is narrow because exams is around the corner and im starting to get suffocated. Guys and gals are on mug-mode and im not even in the mood yet, why izzit tis way? am i being over complacent? I need good grades for my modules, and todae while attempting to study MAB (i was sleeping most of the time), I suddenly saw a bright light tat signifies enlightenment in my dreams. MAB suddenly seems so clear and crystalline... its like the calculations and logics are automatically a law of nature to me. Is what i experienced called divine intervention? LOLX!! But seriously speaking, MAB i onli need to do some revision on the theory will do, the calculations wise i am quite prepared alreadi.

Alrite, now to training. Todae slacked like some piece of lard, simply because i rushed to skool to have lunch with the ppl. Was supposed to train b4 going to skool, but i prioritize frens over muscle, so ya, rushed to skool. Tomolo will make up for it with heavy weights training, and the day after heavy boxing routine. Im still trying to squeeze some cardio into my regime tomolo because im supposed to meet stuart at JP at 11am to go office collect pay. Will i succeed? Watch out for my entry tml. :) Most prob will save up and get a stationary bike, so that i can cycle for 4 hrs EVERY FARKING DAY. Renfeng ( a fren tat weighs 120kg) did the cycling for 4 mths and he lost 40 kgs. Yes, u read rite, 40 kgs. And he didnt diet at all, he still ate fatty stuffs... gosh....

Training will involve lots of shock and power building regimes. Since i am alreadi quite big size, most prob will cash in on that and build more power in my punches for the first month. Second month involves heavy agility training like shadow boxing and speed trainings. 3rd month will be toning regime and 4th month will be balancing and blending. So if everything goes accordingly, by august i should be lean and mean, 12 hits per sec will be achievable then. heehee. :)

After august, if everything is manageable i might be joining some CCAs in skool ba. i need some spice in my life after living like some dumb hermit for 4 mths. hahass :P And todae, i found a good place to sleep in skool! The study room sofa is SOOOOO nice to sleep can? swuang lors!

I like to give surprises, and there's a surprise that im planning nowadays. hahass, i tink the surprise should be fun lah, cause its realli not expected of me. lolx!!! Alrite man, im still tinking how to go about making the surprise man, hopefully not too complex lah, arbo i sianz. lolx. :)

Kks, lastly sean and peter, im missing u guys man, lets come out and chill leh, i go SOOO much to tell u all man... hahasss.. :)

Jason's Famous Quotes : The purpose of life is a life of purpose. (Quoted from Xuanhe^_-)

Did You Know? : I like limejuice and sour plums now. Influenced by *kuku*.... =.=""

Stalwart

Work ytd and todae, shag like a dog, too long never stand for extended hrs, automatically become weak. :) Todae im bloggin on a more neutral mood, cause i've not seen 'happiness' for quite sometime alreadi. After some thoughts, i tink 'happiness' is just an obsession, i just cannot fathom or imagine us being together unless in my dreams. I rather stick to more down-to-earth and probable options. Will be cutting hair beri soon, cause training period need short hair, if not beri hot, maybe i go cut botak? Hmms..

Realised a veri ironic stuff tat exists in life, sometimes the 'best' thing can be divided into 2 entities. A 'perfect' being is never a single person, most of the time it is divided into 2 or more parts, and that flaws in each of the person actually constitutes to the 'imperfections' that we grew to love as well. Understand what i mean? Dun understand nvm, cause its abit complex. :) But yet again, when is love never complex? Hahass... The above relates to 2 people i know, one of the has the perfect face and looks, and the other person has the perfect personality and chemistry with me. Let call the 'perfect' looks, A, and 'perfect' chemistry, B.

This is a story of A and B, and not a story that portrays me as a flirt. Its just a deeper look into what i call my 'mental selection' process. A , i always dream and i always imagine, yet A lacks the chemistry with me and there's something dark about her. Anyways i dun kw A well at all so its all in all a infatuation. As i told someone, its just a 'withdrawal syndrome' of sorts lah, its not love at all, just-- to put it bluntly -- lust. I know A quite well mentally, because of some special process called 'FATE', i was forced by FATE to know that person realli well. Chemistry wise i dun realli know because i dun realli know tat person verbally. Anyways im too disgusting to even be in her 'plans'. ^_^

As for B, our chemistry realli stretches the limit of imagination. Its realli uncanny that such a person actually exists in the same world as me, much less at such close proximity. Bit by bit, i slowly realised god(holy being) has placed an angel next to me to bless my life after slogging for 23 yrs. The more i choose not to believe it and to look at other pastures, the more the crude fact is pushed into my face to force me to acknowledge it. I tried to run, i tried to hide, but to no avail. And the only option i have now is to swallow the fact but to avoid doing unethical stuffs. The option im taking is working well and im happy to stay put rite now. B seems happy enough now, and im happy enough that an angel exists near me now. Therefore i reached the conclusion of letting time do its magic, if it's meant to be, it's meant to be, i dun have the option of being 'proactive' unless i wanna risk karma. And to add insult to injury, im no fight. hahass :)

So u see, that's the sort of struggle that exists in most guys i tink, but im lucky enough because my angel is pretty, veri pretty infact. Its just tat i tink A has more 'perfect' looks, but B is realli realli angelic. hahahasss, maybe u can call A the 'devil' and B the 'angel'? lolx~~~ Okies, enough about my psychology lesson, lets move on the more substantial stuff shall we? heehee

Tomolo will be getting up earlier to do weights OR swim, i cant do both because needa get back to skool to do revision for exams. I realised i missed a COMM law lecture on thursday just now while checking thru my notes. FUCK, i missed the last lesson, which is when the lecturer will give TIPS, FUCK LAH~~~But its okay lah, i tink smart me will tide thru, yes i will babe~~ :)

The thing about training is this: Even if u slack off for a long time, u can train get back ur bicep size in just 3 weights session! Back to the original size!! Wootz!! Im looking forward to the reappearance of my 14.8 inches biceps!!! MUAHAHA!!! Come to papa darlings~~~ BICEPS~~~ And IF i wanna contain the bulge that is my 'abs', i need to do cardio, and tat means roadwork or hitting the pool. I will choose option 2 if i have the cash, and if im poor, option 1. Dun laugh, swimming costs $2 everytime i fucking enter, knn si bei expensive lors,TIU NA SENG!

Company payday changed to 10th every mth. Its fucked up lors, cb last time its 5th, and 5th is such a nice day can? 10th feels like SAF all over again, basket lah. My net was cut ytd, and i had to scramble to pay the dumb bill and call my fren to reactivate the damn account lors~~ zzzz.. last time i get pay on 5th, i pay bill on the 6th so they wont cut on the 7th. And my master plan is screwed due to the company's shift in payday. ZZZZz.... Its getting abit vexed working there man. The politics is killing me, todae working at expo nearli made me crazy sia, the politics there is so obvious sia, dumb and childish can? And for lunch break, i went to changi airport to eat popeyes. And after travelling all the way there, u kw what happened? The popeyes cashier said ' Sorry sir, no more chicken." I was like " this cb trying to be funny with me izzit?" and i gave the significant stare, and tat guy explained that the fryer is spoiled, so there's no set meals. FUCK LAH, i went all the way there and tat's what they gave me... fastfood restaurant no food... wtf? dumb can? in the end just screwed the whole thing and went to eat burger king, and the BK pepper burger SUX big time man. Todae was a bad 'food' day lahs, then i diarrhoea whole day somemore, can it get any more fucked up? can it? =.=""

Jason's Famous Quotes : Moving clouds and flowing water, be formless and follow ur heart.

Did You Know? : The rain falls and i change into another man. The rain changed me, or did i change the way it rained?

Beautex

Went to ZOUK ytd nite with ah tan and the guys. Our entourage includes Nich, Rei, Xingyi, Ah tan and Eugene. Gene and Tan went there to 'fish' while me n rei and nich went there to have fun onli. hahasss... Rei is 'tied down' mah, tat's y. lolx. Once we went down to the dance floor, tan and gene went 'hunting' alreadi, leaving me and nich and rei and his gf. Rei obviously dance with his gf while nich and i just gayed around. zzzz its quite sad lah.

And thing is while dancing, suddenly a auntie came in and wanted to dance with me, i totally freaked out and pulled the guys to go get a drink to calm myself down. What a scary experience lors, i tink its will be sometime before i go to ZOUK again man... fark... =.="" But as a sidenote, its realli squeezy so as usaul alot of boobs rubbed by, but i dun understand some guys hor, they get a high out of this type of silly stuffs lorsss... its like so normal cause its crowded mah, so rub by also like tat, why get so 'high' over it? funnie leh... I dun understand most guys realli. And i will always try to 'siam' when gals walk thru, cause i dun like the feeling of ppl rubbing against me, no matter how hot. And i tink by trying to dun take their advantage, its a form of respect for gals. Its a huge difference between oggling and taking advantage. U can see, but pls dun touch. :)

Okies, enough with the blabbering, lets see some pictures shall we? :)
















Too much wind for nich~~~


















Dead Drunk Rei... ( Yandao knocked out....)


Sad to say, i onli have 2 pictures. lolx, i forgot to take pics with gene and tan... shyt man. haiz..rite. :) One thing about guys is they like to put gals they like as their desktop/mobile phone background. Most guys do that, but i tink its abit over leh, not ur gf u put as wallpaper for fark lor. I did that when i was like in secondary skool lah, but come on, now im we're 20+ adults alreadi leh, no point do such silly stuffs leh. And when the gal kws what you've been doing, she will totally freak out can? So my to my fren, my advice is dun do this type of crazy stuff lah, u keep her picture can, dun farking hell put as wallpaper lah.. -.-"" BIAN TAI~~~

And now, regarding my training, todae i did some light boxing stuffs that lasted 30 mins this morning, and im tired like fuck alreadi, zzzz. Cannot lah, become too weak le, need to train more
to get back my fighting form. Weights will be nxt on this saturday and most prob will go heavy to start the ball rolling. I hereby solemnly promise to train to become a better man physically so as to give my future gf a bf with a solid body. The only thing about me is tat im fat, i truly believe once the 15kg is gone, im there le. :)

Regarding the gal of my dreams, i tink its realli not possible lah, I dun even wanna try now, simply because i have no confidence at all. Her facial features is a human personification of perfection: big round eyes, sharp nose, slender eyebrows, small mouth, rosy lips, straight teeth and a PURRFECT smile~~~ All these fragments of her simply adds to the dissapointment that she will never be mine. Im not perfect yet, but i shall become as near to perfect as possible, which i hope will be within my lifetime. Im a virgo and hence i sometimes do believe in perfections, and she will be my Venus from tis day onwards. I feel like im just a mortal trying to be an immortal so as to be with her, but when i become an immortal, will i lose my mortality???

(There are millions of beautiful people in the world, yet at anyone time, u can onli be tinking about one, so if u wanna go for looks, u definitely can never finish looking.)

Jason's Famous Quotes: I've been hit by an "Angelic Obsession"

Did You Know?: Should you distance urself from someone u dun like?

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Todae is a nice day, as usaul, im veri happy todae. Although the past entry is abit solemn, shall not care about what i kw. I only kw who/what is the source of my happiness, :). Told someone about what makes me happy nowadays on msn ytd, and he adviced me to wait till after holidays to see whether 'it' realli is the source of my happiness. heehee.... It seems abit far fetched but who cares? As long im happy and i give happiness can le lah, why tink so much and make it so complex? No point de, might as well dun fark care anything and try, even if i get burned, i wont die. PA BUAY TOH! HEEHEE!!!!

Todae started the initial training phase, did some weights and skipping to get back the feel of a boxer. Tomolo if the sore is not that bad, will start doing some heavy bag training and some shadow boxing too. Hopefully my fist bone had recovered from the long rest and can strike without pain ba. Hopefully... i dun wanna be like jean.. :X lolx... joking. :P But todae's squats i realli buay tahan sia, nb my hamstrings aching like siao, i climb stairs the legs will 'zhun' somemore lors.. lolx... But well, in order to fulfill my own prophecy of being in shape during august and b4 my bday, i need to endure thru ba, wish me luck and when i slimed down, i will definitely try to get my source of happiness. :)

Tomolo will be going to zouk with the guys. Rei, tan, nich, gene and rei's gf will be going. Was wondering whether our OG gals will wanna join us...hmms.... Anyways, tml wont be like eugene and tan, they say they will be 'fishing' lolx! I dun see a need to 'fish' lah, i dun like to do that type of thing and im too fat to do tat too. Watever i alreadi have my source of happiness and i guess tat is sufficient alreadi, though its probably onli wishful tinking on my part....though i realli hope for a miracle...

Todae i finally won at mahjong! WOOO!!! I won $26!!! Gosh! I one house win 3 house!!! muahaha!! Achievement lors~~~ Eugene lost $20, nich $3 and XXX $3! Heehee!!! Yeah!!! Finally i graduate le! No more paying of 'skool' fees to them le. muahaha! Or is it because im happy nowadays leh?? hmms, no matter, finally i won at mahjong le. :)

Im learning how to sing 'WO KE YI' by cai min you nowadays, and i heard from the people that our skool's singing competition is coming up in august or september. If i successfully lose my 15kgs, i will take part in the competition and sing this song for the semi-finals. If i made it to the finals then i will sing 'Zhuan Shu Tian Shi' ba. Though i doubt will go that far lahs, if realli heng heng get to final, i will do something realli special if the 'source' belongs to me le. :p

Ks, on a more serious note, i wont tolerate people that aims or hates my frens. Remember that, noone touches or insults my fren infront of me. (Frens VS Frens is another scenario) Im toking about strangers here, u dare to find trouble with my frens, u are in for it. The bigger the challenge, the more i like it. Guys will get the hard way, gals will get a scolding. I will never hit gals, simply because its not rite. And to those that like to win by numbers, no point lah, even if u win, u won unhonourably. I said before and i say it again, dun bully my frens. Period. >_<""

Jason's Famous Quotes: Fate is a powerful entity that compels me to you.

Did You Know?: I have hundreds of eye candies, tons of crushes but onli one gal in my heart.

Intelligence

I have this veri special ability of knowing people. I also have the added trait of trying to know my frens better one by one. I have found out some people have some realli bad histories. But the most heart wrenching is when i found out that the peson i am tinking about day in day out is infact not that person i perceived her to be. Noone told me anything, i naturally can find out from various reliable sources. To believe it or not? I will ask, and the answer i get from the facial expression will be the real answer, verbal replies are useless. I sincerely hope that it is not true. realli.

Ytd was doing mktging project at stef's house with the team, and i was sort of POWed cause we couldnt finish. I was abit pissed initially when i wasnt allowed to leave, but after sometime i adapted. The reason that i am pissed is not because i wanna go home and sleep, but its for another special reason that i choose not to divurge here. But its good, after sometime there, i realised and learned a veri important lesson in life. Very important.

Todae is aprils fools day, and its the day im going to start training. 4 mths time period starts todae, by august 1st, im supposed to lose around 15kg of lard and gain muscle mass. Toning will come into picture after a month of mass gaining and my boxing training will keep my agility in check. I am veri disappointed in girls at this point of life and will be extremely wary of them. If guys are tigers on the prowl, girls are dragons that breathes fire. Though i have not been burned, watching others burn made me feel a deep sense of pain. That's why the shows and people always say: " The prettier the gal, the more u must be wary of her".

Okays, enough blabbering about my grief, lets tok about my training ba. Im supposed to get back my 11hits per sec by june and then shoot a clip to send to sebastian and the guys. They say i tua kang so i need to show them proof. lolx, i kw its dumb lah, but its a ego thing mah. :P
Im still tinking of an alternative to roadwork leh, maybe i do stat biking? hmms..

If i have a wish, i wish that the world will be a better place and people's tinking will be free from schemes. I dun like to see people plot or have hidden agendas that are of a darker nature. Ben is one such bastard and i condemned him, im a person that treasures purity of soul. U can kw someone and plot to woo that person, tat's nature, but dun play with people's feelings. I tink when i grow older and get some amount of money, i will go set up orphanages in other 3rd world countries to bring smiles to those children there. Their gazes and smiles are the purest type of innocence in the world. To go far away from the devious human heart amidst the urban infrastructure of an cemented metropolis.....

Jason's Famous Quotes: Being too smart is not a blessing, its a curse.

Did You Know?: Reality always compels you to give up ur fairytale perceptions.