Novelist

Was taking the bus home ytd when i saw a guy wearing a shirt with a beri meaningful logo. It wrote ' To Err Is Human, To Forgive Is Divine.'. The phrase sets me thinking and i realised just how true it was. To forgive, its something everybody have done before, but can all things be forgiven? Then ironically i chanced upon another phrase on the internet, ' Women Forgives But Never Forgets, Men Forgets But Never Forgives.'. Linking the 2 phrases together leads us to a single conclusion--> Women are divine and since forgetting is a type of erring, men are human.... LOLX.

Alrite enough with word play. Seriously speaking, forgiving someone realli takes alot of effort. Hating is not as taxing as forgiving somebody although some ppl beg to differ. I am a human, i do hate ppl also. Most notably the first person on my hitlist is a secondary school guy called Domanic, he is public enemy number one during sec school days. lolx. He spouts nonsense to insult ppl, super tactless, likes to comment on strangers in public aloud, burps super loudly after eating food PURPOSELY and thinks he's realli goodlooking and gals will die under his hands. Has a huge ego and is super childish mentally. Even up till now, some of my sec frens tat were in contact with him also commented that he is still the same as before. I saw the death note 2 premiere yesterday midnite and IF i have the death note, i will write his name down. Yes, my hatred was that deep. So u see, i was telling myself to forgive him, yet i cannot do it, i dun understand y. Am i still immature to cling on to something so ancient?

Talking about death note, i believe people mostly will have personal use for the note provided they have it. Ask yourself, do u have someone's name that u wanna write? Sincerely ask urself, no matter ur answer is yes or no, both of these answers hint abit about ur mental state. For myself, im a honest person, so i do have names to write. :) Or maybe just one name ba, the domanic lor. lolx.

Okays, the above is just a thought after i watched the movie. Its not bad, those planning to watch it most prob will get their money's worth. ^_-

Was chatting with my sec skool buddy fadhir ( yes, he is malay, ironically. lolx) on msn tat nite when he reignited my flair for novel writing. We were toking about eragon u see, and i suddenly remembered that i wrote a novel when i was 14 yrs old and fadhir was the onli person that kws about it. hahass. Then i went rummaging thru my files and folders from primary school days ( the paper type, not the software files.. -.-) and voila, i found it! Wow, it realli amazes me how imaginative i was even though i was so young. The novel is titled Dragon's Eye and it recounts the tale of young boy ( yeah i kw, its a boy again.. zzz) who was the sole survivor of a Dragon Clan. The novel is quite complete with a HUGE world, evil villians, and the most interesting part was, i created and sketched 24 legendary weapons each complete with its veri own explanations and magicks. There's swords, spears, maces, bows etc.. hahasss

And yes, i most probably will do a reediting of the novel and maybe upgrade the language abit more to substantiate for a more mature crowd. So yes, im writing a fantasy novel beri soon, and i shall try to insert some more characters and expand the 'vision' of the world. Wars and battles of large scales are a staple and finally finish things up with a touch of extreme creativity. :)
All the above will definitely take some time, because im starting school soon in 3 weeks time. Studies are more important, so most prob will study HARDER nxt sem. Faram( final fantasy prayer.)

Yesterday went for my company's chalet at downtown east. Met up with weikoon and a few others at bugis first to buy present to exchange at the chalet. Reached chalet at 6+ i tink, lolx.
Saw lots of people there, most of them i kw, but some of the 'finer' ones i dun kw. LOLX. When i say finer ones, i guess my close frens kw wat i meant hor peter? sean? kuku? hahass. :P
Well, seeing and admiring is not sinning mah, anyways i still have 46 days of 'sentence' to serve before i can officially start all over again leh. hahass :)

The finest of them all was ironically corinne's sec school fren. lolx, i was sitting with corinne and suddenly this beri beri pretty gal came and looked for corinne. I think she's called theresa or sumthing lah, she came with her bf ivan ( which is boss's younger brother.. -.-"). Number 2 and 3 were in a group of 3 gals. They came with boss and i tink their names are rachel and mandy if my memory doesnt fails me. lolx. Not too bad lor, got gals to see, food to eat and frens to tok. wootz. Then went to play blackjack with boss and i won around $8 then have to zao le. sad lors, can win more de, but i alreadi steady with ah wei to watch death note at 1120pm at jurong point mah. kaoz. In the end im still late. fark. zzzz

The nite b4 i went to meet the guys from army days for some drinks and chat. Everyone looks the same, even uncle sam our senior medic also looks the same leh. hahass. Dev i tink grew fatter maybe due to eating too much australian food. LOLx. I met vincent, who is coincidentally a veri close fren of one of my OG frens. Small world sia, hahass. Anyways vin is a nice guy and he is damn steady, so most prob will join our little Armour Medics Gang. hahass :P

Okays, enough crapping le. Im beri tired todae, i OVERHAULED my room todae sia. Knn whole day at home clean up, damn tiring. Tomolo got people come paint my house, wootz!


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Rain

Didnt blog for a few days cause i was well --> lazy. Watched DEJA VU with ah wei and his fren jingying. The movie was not bad, abit technical but still can understand the time and space folding concept. Makes me think about if there is a possibility of going back to the past and prevent or change something from happening, where would i be now? Alot of things wouldnt be the way that they are now, a stalemate which seems to be endlessly hopeless.

im sporting a new hairdo now, beri beri short no thanks to my stewpid encik during reservist.
A encik is a term we soldiers call out RSM ( regimental sergeant major) for those that dun kw. He damn garang lor, made me cut my hair so short. zzzz... Anyways reservist was a breeze because we kinda slept thruout the entire affair. U see, my unit's training was in june and i deferred that, hence i had to be attached to another sister unit for makeup training. Around 8 guys were with me and we were the 'outcasts' or 'invisibles'. lolx. Nominal roles for the training didnt have our names and hence we cant join the training and ippt. Wow, i went back and realli became a caveman---> Eat, Shit, Sleep, Play Cards (and the cycle repeats itself...) . Although some ppl tinks that its so good to be so idle, i beg to differ. Extreme nua-ness leads to super low physical metabolism and that means fat and useless. zzzz

Got to kw 8 new frens during tis ICT and as usaul, all seems fine initially. During the last day, some ppl (2 in particular) displayed 'patterns' and im juz standing aside and seeing how things unfold. Imagine asking a favour from someone and u get shown the black face, how would u feel? An old saying 'a frend in need is a frend indeed' realli hits the spot. Watever sia, fuck them, we onli meet once a yr for maybe 2wks max, so who the heck cares wat kind of fucks they are? :)

The day b4 went for primary school gathering (I know, im super busy these days. lolx) at cineleisure KBOX with buffet. wootz. The buffet was not super impressive, but at least some food were still edible, there were even oysters though i dun realli like oysters. :p The guys and gals from xingnan primary are still fit and healthy, a few guys got hitched up and brought their gfs along to intro to us. hahass. Its quite surprising that after like 11 yrs, we still meet up, i feel blessed to have them as frens because who the hell meets their primary schools frens nowadays? hahasss :)

Lots of appointments nowadays, going to meet the army dudes on thursday nite for drinks and chat. Then most prob around christmas having a sec school gathering. wootz, im meeting all my school frens within this mth sia. hahass. Looking back, my life isnt tat bad after all, seeing all the ppl that walked most of my life with me again made me realigned myself with my world. I see the world in yet another different aspect again. hahass.. :p

Adel went back to work at starhub le, i sort of wanna go back, but if i go back, its because of her or because i need a job? Going back for her is dumb, going back for a job is the correct attitude. In the past i screwed my job because of her, i keep getting preoccupied with her and well, i realli screwed my job. lolx. Jerjer is working at SH now and he was calling me to go back to work there when we were chatting at KFC the other day. Should i or should i not? Or can i?

When someone tells u ' i dun read ur blog' , what does it shows? It means that person dun care at all and u are just another organism among the thousands in that person's life. Though u qualify as 'fren', but u belong to the cathegory of 'acquaintance'. There's a microscopic percentage that that person lying, but still, its microscopic. Therefore being totally and entirely devoted to that person is abit pointless and insane. I know, dramas and movies always portray that in the end after donkey years, tat person will realised that u are always there and stuffs like tat, but in real life it doesnt happen that way. Even if in the end u were with that person, tat person is with u because he/she have no more choices or sympathizes with u. Its tat simple.

Its brutal but still i need to say, no matter how huge the rain, if someone does not wanna be hit by even 1 single drop, he or she will never be hit by tat drop.

Been raining continuously for 2 days alreadi and its still raining. And as u ppl mostly kw, im veri sentimental when it rains at nite. As usaul i was tinking about the thing that bugs me the most in all my 23 years of life. Im not whining mind u, im just trying to solve a veri veri difficult life puzzle. And wish me luck, may there be a day when i finally solve tis life puzzle. :)

A huge ulcer under my tongue have been bugging me for the past 2 days. I HATE ulcers, they're damn irritating and take ages to heal, especially on the tongue area. I have applied salt, bonjela, watermelon powder, they all dun help much although they did help abit. Therefore i have been toking like some retarded cow with too short a tongue. Damn sianz, i couldnt even work because my line of work needs my oral skills. Oral skills is verbal skills, not the 'other' oral skills. LOLX

K lah, its abit late le, i guess its time to sleep. I have lots to blog, but well, dreamland needs a superhero. :p

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RESERVIST

Nxt week going back for reservist. Fark. Need to go back to camp and cut hair. FARK LAH. zzz
Alrite, so lets recap wat happened. Ytd went shopping because got my pay le. Tis time, its budget mode. lolx. I spent around $100 onli ytd. Bought a watch, 4 t-shirts, a aviator sunglass and ate good food also. muahaha. :) The aviators cost $12, the watch $10, the heineken and redbull t-shirts were $22, and finally 2 hangten 'BIGFOOT' t-shirts for $10.80. LOLX. Ate carls jr for $12.80, then ate Ben & Jerry's phish food cone $4.50. Hmms, not recounting its not even a 100 bucks. lolx. Super budget. But i LURVEEEE my heineken t-shirt, damn nice sia. The glasses also super nice, damn cool. :) Now the final piece of the puzzle is a change of hairstyle and colour.

Wootz, new image when skool starts. though i will most prob be as fat, but will slowly slim down cause nowadays keep going gym and pool to train. heehee. I still have 60 days left. My results came out the day b4, and i got a 2 distinctions and 2 credits. Fark one lors, my result sucked. Accounts and Stats should get High Distinction, yet i onli got Distinction. The my OB and BC totally screwed up, onli got credit for them. Kaoz. It seems i still cant keep my promise to get all HDs for my subjects. I failed, i cant even keep a simple promise. haiz.

After the results came out, went to have dinner with my OG group supposingly, but when i reach there, its onli the guys. lolx. Onli rei, nich, XH and ah tan there, lolx. But nvms lah, for watever reason the others were not here i dun care, cant realli tink too much rite? heehee :)

Okays, so now we come to my farking tagboard. I tink its faulty sia, sometimes cannot tag lor, nb i wanna reply ppl also hard. Most prob if tis continues i will change tagboard. -.-"

Well, i shall reply tags in my entries for the time being. A anonymous tagged and poped tis question to me ---> ( if you meet someone whom has the sweetest smile, good character, intellectual n always looks at life positively, would you go for her? even if you might not haf the time, effort n $$ to commit in a love relationship, plus the status btw the other person different from one another......would you? )

Answer: Yes. Sounds selfish, but yes. I will definitely go for her. Time is under ur own control, if u truly feel for her, u WILL make time for her. Effort comes naturally if u truly like her, dun say u dun have the effort, if u like her, then do something for her. And finally for money, tat's the most problematic part. No money, its realli quite hard, lolx, but its also the problem with the simplest solution. Go work part time or watever to get money ba. :)
As for the status, when u like someone, there's no status to consider. U are who u are, if she likes u, she likes u for who u are. If she tinks u're not worthy, then in the end, how worthy is she? All human beings are borned equal, hence dun feel inferior. But before starting anything, pls pls pls ensure that u like her for HER, not because she is pretty or have big assets. Give sometime to tink about why u like her. Onli when u confirm that u are sincere then go for it. If not, dun even start.

The above question made me tink about adel again, she is all the above, and the status gap is personified by the invisible barrier between us. Okays, enough about her, toking about her fills me with ... well...a sense of loss. Haiz. Somethings in life juz doesnt go ur way, no matter how sincere u are....


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Totaled

Yawnz, tiring day, was supposed to go swimming with stuart in the noon. Last min stuart called to say he's going earlier because MC dun kw how to swim and he needs to protect him.. -.-"" Gay shits. lolx. But i told them to go ahead because i needa sleep more. Sleep is the most important aspect in my life according to me. muahahah. :)

Whole day rot at home till round 6pm went to meet peter to la kopi. Still fun and nice to chat with peter after sometime, chatted on some simple issues in life and recapped about life in sungei gedong last time. lolx. Tomolo morning going to the new gym with richard and zhengyi because we are all getting fatter by the day. Richie is not fat lah, but he's starting to become abit chubby ( according to him) and zhengyi belongs to the same cathegory as me --> Fat Fug. LOLX

Alrite, lets take a look at my busy scheldule ba. Tomolo not working, wed most prob not working also because im bringing corinne to office for training in the noon and meeting the OG ppl for dinner at dhoby ghaut. Results coming out the same fateful day and so i hope can pass ba. Then on thursday go back office again to get pay and see how much i get ba. Haiz, didnt take account of the days i worked so i dun realli kw how much i will get. smart rite? zzzz.

Im starting to like my blog, it simply oozes honesty and there's no trace of any fakeness here. What u see is wat u get. Im fat, i admit. Im farked up, maybe. But im honest no doubt. Why hide what u tink? Voice it out and let ppl decide whether they agree or disagree lor. Some theories or mentality may be wrong, and hence they need correcting. Controversy creates conversations and therefore we can fish out the psychological tendencies of a individual by gathering the reactions. :) Was chatting with peter just now when he was telling me he's gonna start a blog soon and he didnt want a dry and boring blog. lolx. Was telling him to either do a blog on psychology (tat's wat he studies) or some controversial issue so that it wont be boring. And then i reflected on my blog at the same time while chatting with him. heehee

Alrite, lets get down to business. New theory time! Watched Superman Returns on my PC ytd nite and was tinking about superheroes. Was 'paying my water tax' in the toilet when i suddenly realise wat is the most valuable item in the world. The most valuable item in the word is dependent on the degree of need of the item. Its realli simple, wat u need most at a particular moment translate into the valuation of that item. Ask urself this, when u have a million tons of gold in the desert and u have no water, is water more valuable then gold? Or when u are alone on an island without food but full of diamonds, wont a single bread be worth the world to u? Therefore i came up with tis theory that the valuation given to a entity is directly proprotionate to the level and degree of need of that entity at a tranfixed timeframe. Yupz. Its completely correct from my perception, if u tink there's some variations or have objections to this theory, feel free to tag and reason with me. heehee :)

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Essensification

Tired legs, sore mouth and heavy eyes. Tat's the toll work has took on me. Im damn tired todae at work sia, keep stand there promote cards and walking around spying on the stewpid kids tat were doing a OCBC assignment. Was posted to IMM todae with shane and edmund, all guys, good to tok cock and crap rubbish with. Look at gals, give comments, relate to past humourous examples (if any), then stare blankly into the crowd looking for a potential customer. Whole day was repeating tis routine until boss called and told me to go spy on some kids he employed to give flyers. Spied and felt like a fat 007 doing a FATSINO ROYALE. okay, not funny. nabei. -.-"

Top sales among the guys todae mainly due to my exceptional luck. I mean when 'edmund-and shane-stopped-customers, they-come-directly-to-me-and-asked-me' kind of luck. Wat fark man, should have bought TOTO or 4D todae, most prob will tio. heehee. :P Alrite, lets come back to what i've been thru tis few days. Yesterday ( friday) was at wisma atria's 'outside-mango' booth and tat place totally sucked. I hate outdoor roadshows cause i keep sweating and become sticky like glue. Then i totally no mood to work at all. completely totally no mood. So my sales sucked ytd, juz 2 sales as compared to todae's 14. :)

I guess when a person is tired, he starts to tink about some life issues. At least that's wat i am, when im realli tired, i recap on wat my whole life was about and the ppl in my life tat made a inpact. Todae was one of the days when i was realli tired and burned out. Was on the shuttle bus from IMM to Jurong pt after work juz now, and was recapping about my army life. On the 11th dec, im going back for reservist, and they say 'PLS COME WITH A DECENT HAIRCUT AND NO DYED HAIRS'. Fark, my beautiful long hair is going to get sniped off? no way lors, im totally sianz about tis, i want my long long hair lors. was planning to dye it ash blonde (refer to previous entry) lors, kaoz. Anyways, was tinking about army and the changes it brought to me. I matured quite abit inside army, but still im lacking in some aspects that im currently learning slowly.

The other time when i was realli tired was after the first dragon boat training during my poly days. I ran and ran till i sort of felt giddy and lacked oxygen sia... Then after the training was weights session. Gosh by the end of the training, i take the bus home also nua like dun kw wat sia. lolx. damn funny, when i was giddy, the onli thing on my mind is huimin sia. sort of dumb but its true, my whole mind is huimin during that short period of time sia. lolx. Anyways that was the past lah, during my poly days lors, so many yrs ago. :)

My msn nick is still counting down to her bday although i kw we cant click. Its a deadline for me to change myself and till the countdown is up, im not going to go after any gal at all. I must have the discipline to stay true to just one, so this period will be a buffer period for my change. Yes i admit i do look at gals and sometimes do fantasize abit. But i kw deep in my heart that i will not go after anybody till the countdown is up. Simple. 66 more days to go. Wish me luck.

Now we come to a topic tat is quite interesting, at least to me.
*Disclaimer: What is said is wholly my childish tots and does not stands for the truth.*

Gals like to get cheated. Gals cannot stand honesty. Gals like hypocrites(i forgot the spelling). Gals like jerks. Gals tink jerks are good guys until they get cheated and realised tat the jerk is a jerk. Gals cant stand honesty, they want a hypocritical guy that seems nice and frendly and they tink he is a good guy.

Guys are evil. Guys like to cheat gals(nothing else to cheat). Guys refrain from honesty. Guys tink they are good guys. Guys tink they are the best(ego). Guys like to act and live behind a mascarade. Guys are 99.9% horny (yesh, including monks). Guys over fantasize. Guys want a girlfrend that is pretty, sexy, willing-sex partner with a no-resposibility tag.

The above is what i derived from a sample taken from the people around me, so might not be true. Anyways, as i was saying, guys like to act nice to a gal first, then slowly go in for the kill. especially towards pretty gals. I was like tat. I am no like tat now. treating someone nicely from the bottom of ur heart is much more important then just putting up a nice front. Yes i kw, most gals are suckers for hypocritsy, but u cant blame them, they were made like tat. Same with guys, we were made horny and nothing can stop us, no even buddha. Its onli how strong ur willpower is to control ur horniness. lolx. Anyways, i realised some ppl are slowly falling into traps made by guys, and i totally see everything unfolding as what i have predicted. But i dun tink i should say anything, because the person wont believe me anyways. :) But all the matured gals i kw have been cheated by a jerk b4 and they grew up from tat incident. So i do have the conclusion that gals onli grow up and understand the cruelty of the world after being cheated by a guy. They kw the beri simple logic tat a guys word is 98% lies, 1.95% crap and 0.05% truth.

Always remember, onli 0.05% of a guy's words are true when they tell u how much they love u or watever their brain can tink of. Im a guy and im guilty of that also. But i dun care, i wanna be honest and put everything down here so tat the person tat is supposed to see it will see it a pull the brakes in time. Anyways to that person ---> good luck, have fun. :)



Before wrapping up everything, i juz wanna inform my dear diary tat im considering taking up photography as a hobby. I wanna capture the emotions, beauty and ugliness of human nature. Most prob will be doing digital photography ( professional cameras are too expensive, especially the pic-developing part.) for a start and maybe i should get a good digital camera soon. :)

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