I Believe

Dark secrets, i blogged about them once. Everybody have dark secrets, and i happen to be somebody that's damn good at finding out dark secrets. Some secrets, aint that secretive after all, its just that people around u see stuffs better then u, because outsiders always have a clearer picture.

U can either perceive somebody to be bad, or good, tat's obvious, but though other people say you're bad, i'd rather remain neutral, simply because i believe alot in u. The world can say u're fucked up, but i'd be the one to believe u till the end, simply because i simply couldnt convince myself u're a bad person. Maybe ur masquerade is so well done that i couldnt see what others see, i dun care, what matters is i still believe in you. Truly.

Perception, the stuff that makes or breaks a man. True enough, how u perceive ppl and the world around u affects u alot, therefore i believe judgment should not be passed. I believe in the true-ism of mankind, and though it sounds naive, i always seek to discover the best in people. Everybody have a beautiful side, no matter how pretty or ugly he or she appears on the surface.

I judge by looks i admit, but what lies within? The substance of a woman is more important then the form of a woman. Remember this sentence, its so veri true.

Okies, enough of the dead-pan stuffs, lets tok about something more light hearted : My O!
Whenever i tok about her, im so damn happy though i know she will never be mine. Gazing at her from afar is enough to make my day, no idea why, but yeah, im happy. I shall never have the courage to woo her i guess, i do know my place in society. :)

I always go ga ga infront of her, dun kw why, this type of feeling feels funny, because i onli experienced it when i was much younger, the gal in question during that period of time was huimin. hahass. Reflecting back on the younger days, its kinda dumb yet sweetly cute. :P

My O : My reaction speaks volumes on my shyness. U made me feel shy. hohoho

Jason's Simplicity : Charisma, what is it? Its felt, never defined.

Laughable

Todae, i have something substantial to blog about. Quite informative, according to me.

Firstly, remember the slimming pill fab that kinda blew over a few yrs back? Though im fat, i didnt even bother trying them, simply because they are so expensive man. Nonsense man, $200 bucks for a normal box of silly pills. Duh, i tink the real reason that people lost weight is because they pay so much for the pills leaving them with barely enough to survive the month, therefore lacking money to buy food and ultimately slimming down. Must be. Nonsense.

Second is about my sudden madness yesterday nite. I went berserk and downloaded 20 plus korean songs, especially RnB ones. I got the top recommended korean songs from googling and proceeded to download them. Legally. Ya right. And let me tell u this, korean RnB is totally sensational man. Im a RnB fan and therefore my benchmark for a good RnB song is quite high, but seriously, korean RnB ---> among asia's best.

Korean artistes like Fly To The Sky, MC Mong, EPIK, Taebin, Se7en and 1TYM are realli good. And taebin is a rough idea on how i wanna be, though im damn fat lah, but at least got something to aim towards. :)

This is Taebin.

I know, some of u will be laughing ur hearts out, to be truthful, i also find it laughable that somebody as fat as me will become like tat. hahahass, but its always good to have a brief idea of how u wanna sculpt. But its not as perfect, i want a slightly bulkier feel, asian guys are abit scrawny sometimes in my opinion. Ang mohs are most of time over-built. Its hard to strike a balance between bulk and definition, u have to sweat litres in the gym man.

This week i've been slacking off before i do a shock training to simulate the engines. Its not obvious that im training, because i dun walk around naked. duh. But i like what i see in the mirror, that's the most important. Being satisfied with urself beats satisfying others. heh.

My O : I have a feeling u kw u're my O. Its in the eyes gal. lol.

Jason's Simplicity : Im nobody special, but that makes me wanna make the extra effort to be somebody special to you.

The Economical Man

Unlimited wants, limited resources. The core paradox of Economics. It happens to everybody, and therefore the wiser folks tells us that satisfaction is the greatest wealth. Another side of the coin educates us to work hard and strive for the better things in life. Human psychology is ironic isnt it?

And since i belong to the modern era of mankind, or lets just say society bred me to think in the capitalist school of thought, i shall list out the stuffs i wanna get with the limited resources i have.
One more thing, since there is so much wants, maybe i should just list out a few ba.

First and foremost, i want either a BMW Z4 convertible or a Nissan Fairlady Z350. Both the rides costs around 150K to 200K, i know its kinda far fetched, but who the hell says i cannot aim high?

Next i want a Ray-Ban sunglass. I've been saying this for god knows how long and yet i still dun have the cash to buy it. Sad but true. Haiz.

Thirdly i want more apparels. Shirts especially, and also 2 leather jackets, one black one brown.

Fourth, I want a I-phone. Self-explainatory.

Fifth, a Ipod Touch. Definitely self-explainatory.

Sixth, I want a laptop to do my work. Its always better to use my desktop to play game, my lappy to do work. More efficient, more jason-friendly and more professional.

Seventh, 30 Inch Flat Screen TV to watch my shows and dramas.

Eighth, 20 Lots of DBS Shares. They're fucking expensive, but well worth the effort because the time value of money is increased constantly here.

Ninth, a Blackberry or PDA for working purposes. Its handy and totally worth the money when things start getting busier.

Tenth, last but not least, my obsession. Im mad about her and there's nothing i can do about it. What to do? List her as one of my top wants lor. :)

My O : Will i tio TOTO this coming friday?

Jason's Simplicity : Being overly obsessed with a person will only bring sorrow to urself sometimes, so moral of the story is dun let that person know. heh.

Blossom

The stark difference between the lives of a fit hunk and a fat punk never fails to astounds. Looks is not everything they say, yet its the face that attracts people to initiate contact. Lets stop chiding ourselves, we are superficial creatures. No escaping from that.

And the similarities between the sexes ends there. From there on, guys are spurred on by physiques and gals tend to look towards the inner aspect. A very huge respect i have for some gals is they realli meant what they say, they can see pass alot of stuffs and accept a guy no matter how ugly he looks. That i believe is something that alot find hard to do.

Yet when rejection sets in, do not tell urself that u were rejected simply because u dun have looks. Its just some kinda dumb excuse to convince urself that you were rejected because of some superficial stuffs and that people do not look deeper into you. Sometimes its not because u're ugly or ur personality sucks, its simply that people feels that their hands does not suit yours, its that simple. Why bother going to great lengths to tell urself that its because of some other factors that u can improve and hopefully things will take a 180 degree turn?

Improving urself is good, but not because u tell urself that improving urself will give urself false hope. Its crazy realli. I've been veri sick the past days as u can see from the previous entry. While i was sick, i slept for very long, and i suddenly have all the time and peace to look at myself from another perspective.

The cycle simply keeps on running, lets see how long this thing will run. The heart, besides being an organ, also is the traditional place to store your emotions. The heart must always be guided by the brain, if it ran on its own, things go awry and u go crazy. I know, things like this running in my mind is dumb, but it doesnt hurt to tink about it abit, im more of a philosopher then anything else remember?

Therefore now, the storm is over, i've recovered. I took sometime to get things right within me, its longer then last time, but its the only way to really purge things. Sorry for the long wait, im now back to being the fren u've known. :)

Alrite, i was toking about looks rite? Kks, right now im still obsessed with O. The more u behold, the more u find her pretty with an attitude to boot. Wootz~ But like i said, seeing is enough, i dun tink i wanna start anything rite now, i dun wanna give up the peace that i found after so many weeks of struggling. Right now i juz wanna concentrate my studies, my training and sorting out my silly NS liabilities.

Maybe next semester ba. This semester lets just restrict myself to those few close frens i have ba, i will hi-bye new people because i realli cant be bothered with them much. I know, i am a cb, but i rather be anti-social then get into some crazy shit again.

I know this is a long entry, but still i have to write this paragraph down. I have a feeling that very soon, a frendship will be put to the test. Dun ask me why i feel that way, im just worried will we become enemies if the test fails? Money is always the key factor in separating frends, i just hope that it will not happen to us. Im not being wimpy here, its just i've seen so many examples.

My O : When will the obsession end?

Jason's Simplicity : I am back to one. Simple yet complex to complex people.

Fuck

Im not feeling well. Feeling abit sick and feverish now. Fuck that feeling.

Tomolo is finance test, i seriously doubt my ability to think properly tml, im feeling damn heaty now. Tomolo suppose to play street soccer with the guys somemore, how? Cb one, always sick at dumb times.

Im nobody special, im just a normal guy struggling with my normal life. That's how i see myself, life is kinda routine these days as usual. Being a special person and being in the limelight is tempting at times, but i just dun wanna become a social butterfly. When i started out, i dun mind being friendly to establish a circle of frends to stick to, and after that i settle down. Why bother to know more people when the more people u kw, the more u are tempted to change? And change is most of the time bad.

Therefore i am anti-social to some extend. People introduce me, i give hi bye. Pretty or not, hi bye. For guys its different, as long as they are not too fucked up, i most prob will tok to them. Its hard to even afford a smile nowadays, my heart is heavy with alot of issues lining up in my life.

IPPT must pass,RT must book, ICT must defer, exams must pass, fats must burn, money must earn, bills must pay.... as if my life is not fucked up as it is. I do understand that thy shall not blame god or whatever fuck is residing up there in the heavens for thy personal misfortune, but still, its better then blaming myself. heh.

I know this entry seems rude and vulgar, but who the fuck cares? Im sick and feeling feverish, and im not being childish here, the problems listed above are fucking real. Tell me which of my problems are kiddish? Im no saint, therefore dun expect me to be mr nice guy all the time.

There's always my dark side that i dun show anybody, and this dark side always appears to be a respite whenever im at the lowest point of my life. Dun piss me off during this period, i am exceptionally violent and temperamental during this time. Dun believe people when they say a sick man is a weak man. That is not true.

I ate something wrong todae i tink, most prob is the chicken chop rice. Am i suffering from food poisoning? Went to the toilet 3 times alreadi, and worse thing is i cant fucking sleep because i had to study for the test tml. Fucked up life, fucked up body, fucked up test. Fuck.

My O : What's the key gal?

Jason's Simplicity : I buay song now.

Solo Solitude

Its that empty period again, where u have nothing much to look forward to. Finance test on saturday, yet there's no sense of urgency. Hmph.

While lifting weights in the gym todae, i saw the fat fat me. Still so fat, maybe its my diet? Anyways i had a sudden craving for sandwiches nowadays. Its unexplainable, i just love sandwiches. So much so that after training todae, i went to the market to buy lettuce, tomatoes, cheese, ham and bread. Once i reach home, i tried digging my toaster out, but in the end for some mysterious reason i couldnt find it.

Since im so smart, i used the oven to toast the bread and made sandwiches. Satisfaction. I simply love the taste and crunch of the sandwich. In skool nowadays, my meal consists of a sandwich and a low-sugar soyabean milk. Dun kw why, i had a realli drastic switch of taste after my cool-off period.

I understand everything takes time, but sometimes u do wanna rush things up abit, simply because change seems so slow. Perseverance, the long word that holds a even longer waiting time. I realized i've been so occupied with physical training that i have left out my boxing sessions. I miss those times when i vent lots of stuffs with every single blow on the sandbag. Balance is what i seek, and right now i need to spend more time on my studies, exams are 1 and a half months away man. I gotta clear the exams, then i can spend the holidays training up.

My O : Im so aimless now u kw? I wished there was somebody i could talk to.

Jason's Simplicity : The struggles of life are intrinsic or extrinsic?

Heart Felt

Jason's Feelings:

Heart still as water. i know how that feels like, its a very peaceful feeling, a tranquil knowledge that u have accepted things and moved on. I might not have what i wanted, and i may never get what i want, but i can accept that what i wanted was never meant to be what i can get. There's no such thing as someone who isnt worth another person in this world, its just the perspective on the issue.

What im glad is that at least sometime was spent considering the possibility before. For this 2 weeks, i kinda cooled off alot, and i guess its fair that i took the time off because put alot into this. In a way, its good, because this finally gave me the determination and courage to put my life on the right track.

Things are already rolling out on ah-wei's side, and the plan will be most probably be launched before ah-wei's birthday. What plan, i cannot say now, but i really hope this venture will be successful, because though i might not get very rich, ah-wei will be successful and can show those people that looked down on him that he can make it in life. Im not noble or what, its just a heart-felt wish that my best childhood frend can make his mark in life. :)

And regarding my O, she's really too beautiful to behold for long, i can only secretly look at her. I don't even have the guts to ask her out. hahahass, its kinda funny feeling like tat because since after secondary school, i never felt so kiddish and shy before. Call me pessimistic or ball-less, but i seriously doubt she will even consider going out with me, i mean, would u go out with a fat fuck?

Upgrading myself, is it really necessary? Lying to myself is one of my greatest skills, telling myself, after upgrading myself, what i want will be what i get. hahahasss, what an ironic and childish thinking, when someone likes u, its for who u are, not what u are. Its just predetermined that my hand doesnt fits hers, its that simple, so why should i tell myself that changing the shape of my hand will in the end fit hers? heh.

(Its raining outside, so im abit solemn, but i guess that's kinda how i felt.)

My O : If only fate allow me to bring you into my world.

Jason's Simplicity : I have planned my future, am i realli that simple after all?

相爱...

Lets talk about music today, i am compelled to talk about music. Why? Because there's a song that im addicted to right now. So much so that i kept repeating it on my mp3 player for 27 times to and from work today. I know, its crazy, but i seriously loved this song that much.

Initially when i heard the song from a blog, i thought its nothing super impressive about the song, but i still went ahead to download the song due to unknown reasons. After listening to the song a couple of times more, i found it getting better and better. I went to download the MTV and from then on, im totally hooked on this song, its realli sibei nice.

What is this song? Its ' Whatever they say" by DBSK. Nice until cannot, hohoho. Listen one time, high one time, walk also got 'wind'. I appreciate good music, and i appreciate good people that intro good music to me. Thanks :)

And so people, since im damn happy now, im going to intro a song to you people. Its a canto song, hence those that dun understand canto can pass on this one. But since im such a nice guy, im posting the lyrics here for u people to read and 'feel'. ^_^

相爱无梦
歌手：张智霖


跟你抱着未等于爱上
不再抱着未等于不想
你我在这分钟
说过无缘再见
下秒钟再凑巧碰上

即使一起貌合却又神离
分隔两地日夜挂着愁眉
再各自结新欢
却暗地拿你去比较现有的
始终偏袒你

有心爱你却爱不到
抱紧了你却又未想终老
再等到与对方失散以后
就会知原来谁最好
爱不到至会更想爱
抱紧了你我又无心装载
我跟你也破不到
男与女之间爱情的定数

一个过活恨抱着情人
一对过活又挂念谁人
到了话要分开
你我尚有恻隐
又再探听对方新闻

即使一起貌合却又神离
分隔两地日夜挂着愁眉
再各自结新欢
却暗地拿你去比较现有的
始终偏袒你

有心爱你却爱不到
抱紧了你却又未想终老
再等到与对方失散以后
就会知原来谁最好
爱不到至会更想爱
抱紧了你我又无心装载
我跟你也破不到
男与女之间爱情的定数

Go download and listen for yourself, its damn nice and meaningful. If u're still wondering what good music to download, i shall post my current favourites here so that u people can go get them. Music, the universal language that connects mankind, and to me, the miracle medicine for wounds of the heart.

Current Favourites:

01. Whatever They Say - DBSK
02. 相爱无梦 - 张智霖
03. 天使都忌妒的生活 - 曹格
04. Sean Kingston - Beautiful Girl
05. For Awhile - Mni 민재 (The 1st shop of coffee prince OST)
06. Day by Day - Zhao Guan Yu ( Witch Yoo-Hee OST)
07. 西界 - 林俊杰
08. 爱情转移 - 陈奕迅
09. White Love Story - As One (The 1st shop of coffee prince OST)
10. 想听的话 - 石欣卉 & 王健复

My O : I do wonder sometimes, what's the outcome if i found the courage to put down all my fears and for once in my life attempt the one thing i really tink is impossible.

Jason's Simplicity : Im too afraid to do brave stuffs now, the scars of the veteran is too much to take.

Estranged Sanity

Latest update: The wounds have closed. Things will be normal from this moment on.

Went dotaing with the guys juz now, had a fun time. After that had dinner with nich and rei at Al-almein. Nice chilling out with them, toked about some stuffs that kinda soothed me. Its not that serious anyways, im just too whiny. Anyways what's over is over, therefore fuck the past. Full stop.

My O, confirmed plus chop class S. No balls to even try, my O totally outclassed me. Will try upgrading my class. My O, wooo~~~~ totally there man. Okay, im mad. :)

The torture starts. Dun understand? Control diet.
Morning: Oats (they totally sucked.)
Noon: Whatever the school offers, no fried. ( Most prob sandwich, i love school's sandwiches.) Dinner: Whatever mum cooks. ( Same boring phrase, no fried.)

Whatever i blog now is abit segmented, because i havent defragmented my brain yet, its juz finished rebooted. To think smart and act smart, i have to defragment my brain in time for the finance test next week. Like what i told the guys, i shall begin my holy finance pilgrimage next tuesday. Though i dun totally understand what mervyn (my finance lecturer), what i kw is at least i understand more then the others. hohoho.

Alrite, enough blabberings, i going out in my fren's car. I've to thank jerjer and fei zai win they all, all these nites fei zai win drove me out at nite to clear my brains. I love going around in a car in the middle of the nite, veri peaceful and tranquil, superb condition to to un-tie the knots in my heart. Im so going to get a car when i can afford it, so that i can drive around at nite to enjoy the coolness of the velvet skies. ( Get license first ba, no license still tok about getting car. cb)

Oh ya, before i forget, i added a new section called --> My O !


My O: Its hard to concentrate when im affected by your aura.

Jason's Simplicity: Underlying relationships that were kept from me.

Im a whiny fucktart.

I am not myself. I feel hollowed out, as if something is missing from my life. I guess when u get used to something, it takes time to understand tat something that u have already taken as a part of ur life is gone. Feels like a void in the soul, to be more poetically correct. Anyways its been too long, and im too whiny, doesn't feels like me at all. Should stop whining and get on with life, easily said. Fuck.

Studies are gathering momentum now, its going to be exams soon. Im still pissed with failing my comm law, but gonna get it over and done with this time.

Some people like to send infuriating stuffs. Why do people like to escalate their own position and think that they are always right? Whatever they do is correct, whatever others do is wrong. What others do, the others wasting time, what they do, is beneficial for mankind, self-explainatory. My response for this kinda crap is dun reply.

I've changed, i realized. My perspectives are now very different, i always seek to be more absolute in my actions and decisions. My brain kinda crashed awhile ago, and now its slowly rebooting again, but deep within, a silent paradigm shift has occurred. I still reserve the kiddish me for my close frens, because i kw, they appreciate the fun and jovial me.

To add more nonsense to my woes, a story of dumb dumbs suddenly needs somebody to fill up a continuing episode. Let me dictate the dumb story of 2 dumb dumbs. Lets name the 2 dumb dumbs: dumb1 and dumb2.

dumb1 met dumb2 at CCA club. dumb2 is attached. dumb1 went out with dumb2. dumb2 tells dumb1 that he is better then her bf. dumb1 go army, dumb1 spent time with dumb2 whenever he is free. dumb1 likes dumb2, which is fucking obvious. dumb1 pops question. dumb2 reject. dumb1 suffers in army. dumb1 moves on.

agar agar 1 yr later~~~

dumb1 lives happily in camp, waiting for ORD. dumb2 calls at wee hrs. dumb1 listens, dumb2 was cheated and pours sorrows. dumb1 went out with dumb2. dumb1 pops question again. dumb2 rejects again. dumb1 and dumb2 became close frens.

agar agar 1 yr later again~~~

dumb1 wakes up, reads handphone. dumb2 sms and pours sorrows again. dumb1 feels dumb2 is realli dumb, things would be so different if dumb2 accepted him 2 yrs ago. Anyways dumb1's soul is with some other dumb person already. So how will the dumb story continue? Should dumb1 try dumb2 again, or should dumb1 just move on?

Answer : dumb1 moved on, never looking backwards again.

Nice ending eh? Should be lah, the script jittao is drama material. Full of the ups and downs of life and the illogical antics of the human mind. I can be script writer liaoz. And that's just one of the scripts in my collection of drama scripts.

To O: You're so damn beautiful. I just want you to know. heh.

Jason's Simplicity : After you've freezed before, u know a little flame can never melt u.

Classified

Men are divided into 5 classes in Singapore. Class S,A,B,C,F respectively in descending order of prestige. This school of thought was derived after gathering lots of information from guys and gals around me, which means its quite reliable. Character is excluded as a factor in this study because personality is too diverse and cannot be generalized. (As a sidenote, character dun realli play much role nowadays anyway, that's from personal experience.)


Class C:
Class C are the guys who are smart. Smart as in intellectually gifted and eloquent. They impress with intelligence and talents. They talk smart, think smart, and are talented in music or some other kind of arts. Most gals admire talents to some extend or another, but they all kw talent does not feed a hungry stomach. (They usually are quite humorous due to their hyper developed brain cells.)

Class B:
Class B are the good-lookers, or in layman terms, hunk. They impress with their physical prowess and blessed faces. 6 Pecs, megawatt smile, wonderful hair that seems to fall into perfect position everytime everyday. Young gals totally die for this category of guys. Most jerks exist in this category simply because they kw how to utilize their looks to their advantage. Pushing the extremes of stereotypism, we can conclude most of the guys here are abit lacking in the intelligence department. ( But lets not push over the boat with a single oar.)

Class A:
Class A guys are the rich and powerful ones. They are financially strong and have loads of extra cash to spare. More often than not, they are have further empowered with a successful career either thanks to their parents or more rarely, their own ability. Balding hair, flabby waistlines are never a problem to them, they simply rock the world with cash. Most gals are not materialistic, but the things these guys can do with money is the key to their appeal. Gals dun dig money, but they appreciate the THINGS that can be done with money. Logically speaking, its always better to be in possession of a guy with truckloads of cash then a guy with a truckload of trash.

Class S:
Class S. The godlike class. The guys that exist in this category are the perfect creation of god to bring about the downfall of womenfolk. God paid extra care and attention when forging these guys, purposefully sculpting a being of near celestial existence. The guys in here are smart, good looking with a beautiful body, coupled with a successful career with loads of money. Womenfolk usually address this type of male specimen as the 'perfect' man or 'dream guy'. This class takes up about 0.005% of the total male population in Singapore.

Class F:
Class F. All other failed male-kind are thrown into this rubbish dump. Guys that are dumb, fat, ugly, poor and jobless can be found here, the personification of trash. Gals that took their pick from this class are truly worth respecting, the courage involved and required is tremendous.



And so what class of guy do u belong to? If u are sub-standard, dun worry, because the world has something called hope. Human kind are born with a ability to transcend classes, especially guys. Climbing of the classes can be achieved after sufficient effort has been put in.

Example:
Jason is in Class F. Jason trains hard, studies hard. 2 yrs later, slimed down, looks good and fit, grad with a good grade. Escalates to Class B from Class F.

He finds a good job at a bank,works hard, after 2 yrs, takes home $8000 per mth, has investment portfolio of $200,000. Successfully converted to Class A.

At 28 years old, he quits his job, gathers his fortune and starts a business venture. Venture successful, 6 mths break-even, annual income after 2 yrs amounts to $ 2 million. Buys nice house and nice car, wears nice clothes at 30 yr old. Lets company runs on its own and continues to invest in and starts other businesses. His monies multiply exponentially, listed among Singapore's top entrepreneurs. Go Padang drink coffee and play golf with Lee. Continues training for fitness and plays the stock market to remain mentally charged. Jason has successfully ascended to Class S.


And so you see, noone will be poor and useless forever, its juz when the wake up call comes. But mind you, life as a guy is never as uneventful as the above, the story is just an example, it does not describes a certainty, but rather a possibility. For me, who happens to really belong to Class F, its a long way to Class S, but time is never a deterrent factor for me, i believe fate will not fail a person that keeps trying.


Jason's Simplicity : Chains of morality binds me to my innocence, that which i will never let go.

Volatile

Aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

ARGH~~~~~~~~~~~~~

haiz.....

Out of focus, bothered, vexed, unsettled, me.

Prophecies

Sometimes u can learn alot from dramas and songs. I've been mellowed out by the korean drama 1st Shop Of Coffee Prince. Though life does not always happen like what is reflected in the dramas, u do learn some things that ain't realli that common.

The songs in the show were quite nice, and i especially liked 'For Awhile' and 'White Love Story'. The show's quite lame but there were touching moments lah, the way they handle relationships in the drama was quite fresh to me, the methods were mature, yet a childish tinge surrounds it all. Dun kw how to explain, watch it for urself. And thanks to the frends that introduced me to this top rated drama.

'For Awhile', i guess tat's wat i needed and what i got. No big deal anyways, its just for awhile. Chiding myself along this line of thought, the numbness sets in and the grey skies cleared. Been raining these few days, and i always have this childish thought that whenever it rained, the heavens is shedding tears at my unfair plight. hahass, its damn silly right? I know, but still its just me n my lame brain. :)

I've asked edward about piano lessons rates and he was telling me its $100 per mth. Expensive, cant afford, so i gonna pester my sister to teach me for free. Saxophone lessons are simply out of reach financially, so its gonna be postponed. Did some research on getting my license and though its more expensive, i guess i will take the school route. Hi BBDC, i will be the next donating money to u ppl.

Next mth i wont be as free as i am now, i foresee. Once the thing is launched, i will be quite busy hopefully, because that signifies we have lots of customers and money is rolling in nicely. Vickers account is going to up by then, which means the profit i get can be further invested to generate more income. Will the prophecy come true? The prophecy that i brought back from my japan trip? Dun kw what that is? let me explain.

When i went to japan a few yrs back, i went to this buddhist temple that is labelled as the most holy temple in japan. And i kinda looked around with a few frens, when i chanced upon this prophecy praying area. U simply get a cylinder and u shake till a stick drop out from the cylinder. After getting the stick, u remember the number and went to fetch ur 'lot' from the shelf of prophecy lots. My lot is 'bad initially, then good afterwards'.

It states that i will have a streak of bad luck for the start, and after i endured through the hardships, things will get better in future. I guess until now, its accurate all the way, i never ever have my wishes realized, and things i do dun go my way. One of the most depressing line is written as ' The person u are waiting for will come, but it will take a long time.'

And so i have a choice, to discard the prophecy, or keep it. In order to pray against the prophecy, i need to get to a tree behind the temple and tie the slip on the branches. Or if i choose to keep it, i need to keep in with me until the entire prophecy comes out true. If u guys wanna see the lot, just tell me when u see me, i always keep it in my wallet.

Jason's Simplicity : Just another frend. :)