Fuck

Im not feeling well. Feeling abit sick and feverish now. Fuck that feeling.

Tomolo is finance test, i seriously doubt my ability to think properly tml, im feeling damn heaty now. Tomolo suppose to play street soccer with the guys somemore, how? Cb one, always sick at dumb times.

Im nobody special, im just a normal guy struggling with my normal life. That's how i see myself, life is kinda routine these days as usual. Being a special person and being in the limelight is tempting at times, but i just dun wanna become a social butterfly. When i started out, i dun mind being friendly to establish a circle of frends to stick to, and after that i settle down. Why bother to know more people when the more people u kw, the more u are tempted to change? And change is most of the time bad.

Therefore i am anti-social to some extend. People introduce me, i give hi bye. Pretty or not, hi bye. For guys its different, as long as they are not too fucked up, i most prob will tok to them. Its hard to even afford a smile nowadays, my heart is heavy with alot of issues lining up in my life.

IPPT must pass,RT must book, ICT must defer, exams must pass, fats must burn, money must earn, bills must pay.... as if my life is not fucked up as it is. I do understand that thy shall not blame god or whatever fuck is residing up there in the heavens for thy personal misfortune, but still, its better then blaming myself. heh.

I know this entry seems rude and vulgar, but who the fuck cares? Im sick and feeling feverish, and im not being childish here, the problems listed above are fucking real. Tell me which of my problems are kiddish? Im no saint, therefore dun expect me to be mr nice guy all the time.

There's always my dark side that i dun show anybody, and this dark side always appears to be a respite whenever im at the lowest point of my life. Dun piss me off during this period, i am exceptionally violent and temperamental during this time. Dun believe people when they say a sick man is a weak man. That is not true.

I ate something wrong todae i tink, most prob is the chicken chop rice. Am i suffering from food poisoning? Went to the toilet 3 times alreadi, and worse thing is i cant fucking sleep because i had to study for the test tml. Fucked up life, fucked up body, fucked up test. Fuck.

My O : What's the key gal?

Jason's Simplicity : I buay song now.