Im a whiny fucktart.

I am not myself. I feel hollowed out, as if something is missing from my life. I guess when u get used to something, it takes time to understand tat something that u have already taken as a part of ur life is gone. Feels like a void in the soul, to be more poetically correct. Anyways its been too long, and im too whiny, doesn't feels like me at all. Should stop whining and get on with life, easily said. Fuck.

Studies are gathering momentum now, its going to be exams soon. Im still pissed with failing my comm law, but gonna get it over and done with this time.

Some people like to send infuriating stuffs. Why do people like to escalate their own position and think that they are always right? Whatever they do is correct, whatever others do is wrong. What others do, the others wasting time, what they do, is beneficial for mankind, self-explainatory. My response for this kinda crap is dun reply.

I've changed, i realized. My perspectives are now very different, i always seek to be more absolute in my actions and decisions. My brain kinda crashed awhile ago, and now its slowly rebooting again, but deep within, a silent paradigm shift has occurred. I still reserve the kiddish me for my close frens, because i kw, they appreciate the fun and jovial me.

To add more nonsense to my woes, a story of dumb dumbs suddenly needs somebody to fill up a continuing episode. Let me dictate the dumb story of 2 dumb dumbs. Lets name the 2 dumb dumbs: dumb1 and dumb2.

dumb1 met dumb2 at CCA club. dumb2 is attached. dumb1 went out with dumb2. dumb2 tells dumb1 that he is better then her bf. dumb1 go army, dumb1 spent time with dumb2 whenever he is free. dumb1 likes dumb2, which is fucking obvious. dumb1 pops question. dumb2 reject. dumb1 suffers in army. dumb1 moves on.

agar agar 1 yr later~~~

dumb1 lives happily in camp, waiting for ORD. dumb2 calls at wee hrs. dumb1 listens, dumb2 was cheated and pours sorrows. dumb1 went out with dumb2. dumb1 pops question again. dumb2 rejects again. dumb1 and dumb2 became close frens.

agar agar 1 yr later again~~~

dumb1 wakes up, reads handphone. dumb2 sms and pours sorrows again. dumb1 feels dumb2 is realli dumb, things would be so different if dumb2 accepted him 2 yrs ago. Anyways dumb1's soul is with some other dumb person already. So how will the dumb story continue? Should dumb1 try dumb2 again, or should dumb1 just move on?

Answer : dumb1 moved on, never looking backwards again.

Nice ending eh? Should be lah, the script jittao is drama material. Full of the ups and downs of life and the illogical antics of the human mind. I can be script writer liaoz. And that's just one of the scripts in my collection of drama scripts.

To O: You're so damn beautiful. I just want you to know. heh.

Jason's Simplicity : After you've freezed before, u know a little flame can never melt u.