Blossom

The stark difference between the lives of a fit hunk and a fat punk never fails to astounds. Looks is not everything they say, yet its the face that attracts people to initiate contact. Lets stop chiding ourselves, we are superficial creatures. No escaping from that.

And the similarities between the sexes ends there. From there on, guys are spurred on by physiques and gals tend to look towards the inner aspect. A very huge respect i have for some gals is they realli meant what they say, they can see pass alot of stuffs and accept a guy no matter how ugly he looks. That i believe is something that alot find hard to do.

Yet when rejection sets in, do not tell urself that u were rejected simply because u dun have looks. Its just some kinda dumb excuse to convince urself that you were rejected because of some superficial stuffs and that people do not look deeper into you. Sometimes its not because u're ugly or ur personality sucks, its simply that people feels that their hands does not suit yours, its that simple. Why bother going to great lengths to tell urself that its because of some other factors that u can improve and hopefully things will take a 180 degree turn?

Improving urself is good, but not because u tell urself that improving urself will give urself false hope. Its crazy realli. I've been veri sick the past days as u can see from the previous entry. While i was sick, i slept for very long, and i suddenly have all the time and peace to look at myself from another perspective.

The cycle simply keeps on running, lets see how long this thing will run. The heart, besides being an organ, also is the traditional place to store your emotions. The heart must always be guided by the brain, if it ran on its own, things go awry and u go crazy. I know, things like this running in my mind is dumb, but it doesnt hurt to tink about it abit, im more of a philosopher then anything else remember?

Therefore now, the storm is over, i've recovered. I took sometime to get things right within me, its longer then last time, but its the only way to really purge things. Sorry for the long wait, im now back to being the fren u've known. :)

Alrite, i was toking about looks rite? Kks, right now im still obsessed with O. The more u behold, the more u find her pretty with an attitude to boot. Wootz~ But like i said, seeing is enough, i dun tink i wanna start anything rite now, i dun wanna give up the peace that i found after so many weeks of struggling. Right now i juz wanna concentrate my studies, my training and sorting out my silly NS liabilities.

Maybe next semester ba. This semester lets just restrict myself to those few close frens i have ba, i will hi-bye new people because i realli cant be bothered with them much. I know, i am a cb, but i rather be anti-social then get into some crazy shit again.

I know this is a long entry, but still i have to write this paragraph down. I have a feeling that very soon, a frendship will be put to the test. Dun ask me why i feel that way, im just worried will we become enemies if the test fails? Money is always the key factor in separating frends, i just hope that it will not happen to us. Im not being wimpy here, its just i've seen so many examples.

My O : When will the obsession end?

Jason's Simplicity : I am back to one. Simple yet complex to complex people.