Pictographicy

Alrite, i was telling myself to start photo blogging or video blogging, when i realised that i am simply too lazy to do that. lolx! I always have lots and lots of stuff in my head during my journeys across our sweet little island but i always seem to forget what they were when i wanna blog. Gosh.

Okays, lets start with todae ba. Todae morning went to meet kuku to go for the company's lunch( yes, u heard rite, we have a company lunch) for chinese new yr celebration. Kevin --> the boss gave us ang baos of $50, yesh, there's no typo, $50 angbaos. And its given to every staff, i was flabbergasped... Then the lunch was at a chinese restaurant and the meal totalled $698+.... what kinda boss is this man? Damn good can? Heng i found a boss like him sia, damn lucky. lolx.

Then after that helped 'princess' with her OB proj, but didnt realli helped lah, didnt wanna disturb her mah, ppl rushing project leh. So the sensible me kept quiet and started folding my dear hearts. heehee. Nowadays i have a new hobby, origami. Im currently folding lots and lots of hearts, i have like a box of them alreadi. I got take picture show below, hahhasss.... I tink i look damn farnny today one the mrt lors... I was wearing my chilly-cool aviators shades and im supposed to be composed and cool mah, but there i was, folding hearts on the mrt to kill off time. Huge contrast man. wootz. :P

And then comes the burning question that even kuku was beri interested in : Who are the hearts for?

Answer: Its a hobby. Whether its for someone, i dun wanna say now. Diam diam better, trust me. :)

And no, im not going to put them into a silly bottle and give it to someone. That's like so outdated lors. Hao le, enough about hearts. I was tinking about buying some car models and assemble them. Then there was the thought about learning CHA DAO because i simply love chinese tea. And then there's the wakeboarding thingy. And the list goes on.... but atlas, the list is limited by a single resource called MONEY.

Watched rocky balboa ytd on my shiny new PC. Totally impressed with the sheer determination and willpower of ROCKY. 60+ and counting and yet that old guy is much much fitter then me. Im only 23 and i punch like a wimp. The film was inspirational and did sort of wake up the beast in me. hahass.... beast of health lah, not violence.. =.="" And then there was the takings for the chinese new yr.

My ang pao money is realli realli sad, maybe because i've been a bad kid last yr ba, so this yr punish me. T_T
















This is a masterpiece folded by Ms kuku herself... *pukes* :P
















My angpao money.... the world is ending....















My aviators...















The hearts zoomed in...















I kw, i cant find other boxes lah, so use tissue box lors... i beri enviromental frendly lors...



Jason's Famous Quotes: A picture says a thousand words, but a word paints a million pictures.

Did You Know: My first love can sing beri beri well according to Richard. Is it true?

Piety

A guitar has life. To me, music is life itself. Learning to play the guitar was one of the few things tat i absolutely thank fate for. I learnt to laugh and cry using a guitar, though most of the times is cry. I am a traditional guy that holds on to the golden rules of manhood. Tears shall onli be shed on 3 occasions, a loved on died, ur country felled and i forgot the last one, lolx. Anyways, since i cant realli cry when im sad, i use my guitar to pour forth my emotions. I remembered once during my poly days, i sort of met with some beri unfortunate turn of events.

Its during a Freshman Orientation Camp and im one of the commitee if i remembered correctly. In the middle of the night, when everyone was sleeping in the hall, i was tinking about someone which i dun remember now. I realli couldnt sleep at all and as u ppl alreadi kw, im SUPER sentimental at nite, especially cold nites. I took my guitar and walked out to the dark field, then say there and played a extremely sad rendition of 'Reason', the theme song for the korean drama 'Autumn in my heart' aka 'Qiu Tian De Tong Hua'. As each and every note echoes towards the nite, the cries of a forlorn heart seems so crystine and silent. One of my frens tat couldnt sleep came out and joined me, sitting quietly beside me and listening intently. He said its realli veri sad, he can feel my emotions from the music. And then from then on, i discovered this new way of letting out my emotions.

Im practicing my guitar again after 5 yrs of nearli not touching a guitar, so was quite stiff initially. For the past week i have been playing on and off, which gave me back my 'feel' again. The joy of perfecting a song is a indescribable feeling, maybe it can qualify as a mini-orgasm? LOLX! But well, now i can pluck and sing JU HUA TAI quite smoothly and i seriously loved singing along with my own music. I should have learnt piano when i was younger, then i can play piano and sing FOREVER LOVE and KISS GOODBYE, but well, too bad i rejected my mum's offer when i was young. haiz...

I was helping my mum do housework 3 days ago, when i found something that's been missing from my life for some years now. When i was young, around 12-13 yr old, i used to help my mum take care of my brothers and sister and do housework. Im like a maid during tat period cause im the eldest son and my siblings were still kids. I hated doing housework and hence nowadays at home, i refrain from doing housework as much as possible. But well, conditions made it so tat i have to hang the clothes out to dry 3 nites ago, and i did it alone cause my younger bro went for OBS camp. As i took the clothes out one by one and clip it on the bamboo pole, i found peace. The sort of simple peace that is unexplainable yet extremely soothing. All my problems seem to slowly sort themself out while i was hanging the clothes. Its especially effective for affairs of the heart, at least for me tat is. hahasss. And that my frens, lead me to another of my theories.

Todae we shall tok about the theory of lost innocence. As we human beings grow up, we gradually lose some of our innocence. Its so gradual that we dun even feel or see it coming unless we look back and examine ourselves. That my fren, is the power of time. Some of the extreme cases even contracted the condition known as 'selective amnesia', which means they forgot some of the moments that they deemed as 'weak'. Example is how they used to be so attached the the parents, anything they will always run to papa or mama and hug them for protection. The smiles when u're a newborn and blinked then looked them in the eye. The tons of hopes they have for u when u're just a kid. They love u, provide u with a home and protect u with their lives, ever willing to sacrifice themselves just to make sure u survive. Every parent love their children, but time and fate are merciless, things happen along the way the starts drifting the parental bonds apart. How many of u lock urself in ur room when u reach home and onli goes out to eat, shit and bathe? I am one of the guilty ones. I've learnt to appreciate and love my mum more and more, because we must understand one veri important lesson in life. Life is always bounded by time, noone lives forever, what started, must end somewhere. Hence cherish ur parents when u still have the chance, i know of ppl that wanna cherish and love their parents, but its too late for them alreadi...

Im not a veri sensible son, but im trying my best to be one. I once told my mum, next time when i am rich and successful, i will give her a good life. After i graduated and got my 1st job, im going to save some cash and bring my mum to hong kong. To me, when my parents are old, they are not a burden,as in the old chinese saying, having an old at home is like having a treasure at home. Though my dad did alot of wrong things, but still he is my father who provided for my siblings and me for all our lives, that kind of parental debt can never be repayed. Remember, love can onli be repaid by love, not by money.....

Jason's Famous Quotes: Do to others what u want others to do to u. Give me money.

Did You Know?: I dun like people with motives even though i am one too.

Peter

Alrite todae was a happy day. Mktg project took a huge step forward, told myself to wait for her since i realli tink she's the one, went out with the OG to eat with nearli the whole OG there, and well, i tink the person tat's angry with me is fine now le ba. i tink. should be. most prob. ya?

Although financially im at a record low, i still can tide till chinese new yr ba. Hmms, the dark clouds seem to have lifted quite fast this time round, heng sia. heehee. :) Anyways, the steamboat at marina bay was quite enjoyable, the journey there was abit cramped though its fun. lolx. The car was so small and we're big boys and gals lor, its so cramped at the back i tink i can feel juices coming out. As in sugarcane juice, dun tink wrongly. -.-"

And my OG went for captain ball competition todae. As usaul as i suspected, complains about our dear student council being disorganised abound. Told nich to scrap the plan to join soccer next yr because the council sucked. No offense kuku. heehee. bleahz~~~ :P
Though we didnt win, we didnt realli lose also lah, cause i heard they sort of 'walked out' of the contest. LOLX, went for early shower. hahasss, damn funny sia my OG, all blur blur one. And there was SO many teams in the contest sia. 5 teams lor, so many! FIVE teams can? what 'hot' competition. muahahahaha... *evil grin*

Alrite, theory time. And peter, my theories hor, all true one can? Not tua kang one, all got basis de. Based on my personal experiences that i interpret into theories. :)
Todae we shall tok about happiness. In the current world, there is not universal happiness. Universal happiness is never possible. Someone's joy will always be another's woe. For example, when a couple get together, the gals and guys tat secretly liked the male/female in the couple will be upset. And in order to get over the loss, some of them gave themselves excuse like 'if he/she's happy, then its enough' to make themselves feel noble. If u are one of them, please fuck that mentality. If u can tink in that way, u can give him/her more happiness. A simple phrase in love is 'BE SELFISH'.

Okays, i kw, im not practicing that. LOLX. But seriously, i tink ethnics and personal gain hangs on a tightly balanced scale. Forgo ethnics, and people will say u're a fucked up person. Forgo gains, and ur heart starts crying everyday u see them together. Okays, im digressing too much, lets come back to happiness. As i was saying, there will always be sadness bundled with every happiness. And sometimes, when the couple breaks up ( the guy is a FAG --> Fark And Go), the gal is hurt, and she call the guy to tell him she is devastated and wanna go die. What will the alreadi sad guy feel?

He will feel like his heart is being stabbed 108,000,000,000,000 times. And he will start to ask himself, if he fought hard for her and got her heart, she wont be cheated and hurt like now. I've been there so i know beri well, what i wanna say is --> peter, dun hesitate and tink the other guy is better for her. Now she's still single go get her, dun wait till she get attached and then u will be like me, sit down one corner suck thumb and the onli entertainment is wait. I dun wanna fark with ur mind lah, but i seriously think u should go for her. Imagine the other guy that u tink is better for her ends up hurting her deeply, will u forgive urself? If u tried just abit harder, u can make life better for her. We are good guys, u kw that. We dun FAG. heehee :)

Bro, go mull over what i said and try to tink more from her perspective. She dun want a millionaire, she just want someone to love and cherish her, someone to hug her when she's down, someone to hold her when she's falling, someone to piggyback her when she's tired. When u still have the chance, go be the man that she's waiting for ba.... good luck....


Jason's Famous Quotes: As my middle finger rises, my smile persisted.

Did You Know?: Dick is a name for a guy and a penis. Example is Dick Lee, he's a guy and he looks like a penis.

Mano-O-Mano

I am still awake now. Its 250am in the morning and im still awake. hahasss. :P Anyways, todae im blogging something light, not so heavy like the past 2 days. Today, slept like a pig till around 4pm then wake up. Its the most enjoyable thing to sleep in ur bed and nua like noone's business. And then u wake up smelling like a man from china because ur body produced oil and u totally smell. U kw those guys from china that didnt bathe kinda smell? Lolx. Funny thing is, onli guys smell like tat when they wake up, gals dun. dun understand, maybe its the hormones tat cause us guys to produce more oil? hmms...~~~

Evening went with mum downstairs for dinner, then there's this indian fellow that use the 'ZUT' sound to call his fren. Fark man, i farking hate ppl the ZUT ppl. Its totally irritating and i tink onli stupid farktarts use that. Knn, gan si lang irritating. Those cb bengs think they c buay zai, ZUT here ZUT there, dumb kids. I have frens that used to ZUT ppl ( yesh, they are paikias...) but i gan them when they ZUT. Its damn dumb and irritating, they think its cool and c buay zai to ZUT. And the worse type is those that ZUT at gals. Cb irritating and fucked up. My defination for ZUTing is tis --> High Pitched Sissy Sucking Sound Used By Guys With No Balls. U wanna call someone, call name or call 'eh', dun ZUT. The above went thru my head when i was eating my YEW MEE. I kw, its abit extreme, maybe its cause of the flying ants that are hovering all over the place and some landed in my soup and drink.

Okays, i have been procrastinating over my hair for sometime. 3 weeks to be exact. I wanna dye my hair blonde, but my mum says not nice, like pai kia. So i was tinking should i or should i not? I know i know, im a guy, should not po po ma ma, but come on, its my hair can? And i meant hair on my main head, not those around the second head..... lolx! Alrite, cheap joke. -.-""

After chinese new yr, will be transforming to the legendary Mug-Man! When all else fails, there's always MUGMAN! This time, the evil villains are Macro-Econs,Mktging, Comm-Law and their boss Mgmt-Accting. ()0.0()"" Who shall triumph tis sem?

Jason's Famous Quotes: Sour grapes are nice. I love them.

Did You Know?: Most people live behind a facade. He smile at u, but deep inside, he wanna destroy u.

Sicktopiability

Tomolo will be my MAB test. Hopefully can make it ba. Studied a little todae, not a lot, just a bit. Life is like economy, there will be ups and downs, its natural. I've accepted the fact that now i have entered the trough at this stage of my life, soon the curve will start climbing up and then the peak will come. Im certain, if we're fated to be together, we will be. In the meantime, lets enjoy what we have todae.

Gloomy feeling, like a grey cloud hovering over my head. Feeling feverish, will fall sick soon. Hope wont be too serious, i hate fevers. Lying down like some dead fish and feeling totally farked up. Anyways, have been practicing guitar todae. Strumming and singing JU HUA TAI. I gotta admit (though abit thick skin) , i like my singing. Then revised abit of QING FEI DE YI. Wanted to go down for a jog in the evening, and then comes the thunderstorm. It always seem to rain when i wanna be healthy for once in my life. WHY?

Played diablo for entertainment todae. I restarted diablo for around 14 times thruout the whole day. Dun ask me why, i just played for 20 mins span each time i log on. I just cant seem to concentrate on watever i do, dun understand y. Maybe its cause im falling sick, tat's why. Yes, that's why. Realli.

Need a catalyst in my life to jumpstart my engine again. My mind is not functioning optimally at this moment, so i might sound abit boring and irrelevant, but fark it, who said i cannot blog nonsense in my blog?

Ah wei told me about a business plan todae. Its quite sudden and he wanna start straight away. Told him will consider it and maybe start planning when im free-er. Needa have a good tok with one of my mktg project mates soon, guess the team is getting quite vexed with her disappearing acts. I guess my instincts were right from the start, but i kept my comments to myself. Didnt realli wanted a liability in my team, but well, its stef's fren anyways, so watever lors. And to my teammates, if u guys and gals are reading this, pls dun over stress urselves over the project k? Under my super slack 'figurehead' leadership, we mostly can make it one lah. Chill ya? Oh ya, nearli forgot, we can make it because we dun have a PROJECT MANAGER in our team. ( Ben, u sux. :p )

Okay, i know im starting to sound realli kiddish. Well, there's a kid in everyone rite? And now that im in a super downtime of my life, my temper will start to surface. Normally ppl call it PMS, yes, guys have PMS also, though we dun cramp. The same thing still applies, i dun PMS my frens, even those i dun tok to. I onli PMS total strangers, example those cocks that get in my way in the public transport. Im not a nice nice smile smile neighbourhood guy, i hate aunties and uncles and stupid farktarts that stand in my way when im on a journey. No more racist barriers, the PMS extends to all strangers. Most prob will get walloped soon. Ya, most prob.

Feeling poetic, will write a poem now.

Shadow of the Heart

Ever heard the sweet heart cry?

Like a sunlight that wont shine?

Isn't it sad but can't we try?

Saving despair all behind?

Some are said but most unsaid,

As the shadow fades in line...

Okies, i kw it sux, anyways i realised there's something coincidental in the poem. Only realised it after i finished it. Anyways, there's a hint. Hint = kuku. Kks, damn obvious le lor, so simple de puzzle. :P ( Submit ur guesses in my tag, i need some tag to make sure my blog is working. :P )

Okies, time to sleep, i dun wanna die tml. Pray my MAB can make it ba. As long as i can make it, i dun mind praying to God/Guanyinma/Buddha/Allah etc....

Jason's Famous Quotes: The world is definitely a better place if u are Bill Gates.

Did You Know?: Dumb people that do dumb things are my favourite type of people.

Outburst

Didnt blog for damn long due to some stuff stirring within me. Todae, im touching on something tat's been a rarity these days. Its wat's inside me and wtf am i tinking. Sometimes life imposes one of the most cruel form of irony upon ppl. Imagine the feeling of losing something/someone, then u realised that its actually the most precious thing/person to you. Fuck that feeling, its totally fucked up. Next comes the issue of morality, principle and ethnics. Will u commit a morally-incorrect, principle-defying and ethically-wrong choice so as to get what u want? Fuck man, im totally hanged. Its like some dagger stuck in ur heart and u're slowly bleeding , but u wont die from that wound, the pain slowly kills u bit by bit. Yet u can feel urself slowly being drawn into the vortex. People say love is sweet and bitter, but i tink its sour. Why sour? Go figure. And things are better left unsaid, once said, they meant nothing, hence im bloggin here to vent it out. A fucking good song that describes what i feel now is XIANG SHUO by ANDY HUI.

Old song, damn good. Below are the verses:

想说

好想能守候在你的身旁

你温柔的眼光阻挡着忧伤

好想能停泊在你的海港

让船儿一直停放

永不再出航

我在每一个漆黑夜晚独自忧伤

害怕这思念却无法伪装

我在每一个破晓黎明等待着天亮

等待你给我不灭的火光

心里有话想说

心里的痛你懂

有太多太多的情感覆水难收

心里有话想说

心里的痛你懂

我不愿埋怨的泪水

已经没有尽头

That's how i feel now, some things are on my mind these few days. Mktg project and alot of other stuffs are clogging my brain, im seeing myself as a dumb ass that cant realli grasp where the fuck my studies are now. Anyways i served my 127 days of solitude to think thru what i realli wanted. And i realised after i knew what i realli wanted, it just sorts of complicates things again. Well, if u tot the above is about adeline, sorry its not. Realised we dun click, have no chemistry and seriously speaking, stop calling her my 'wife' or watever fuck shit. We are not related in anyway so dun keep calling her my 'wife'. Okays, felt so damn good after pissing off what plagued me for these few weeks. Shall be fine and dandy again soon, albeit not extremely and sincerely happy. Shall only find real happiness when 'its' mine. Patience is realli not my forte, but lets test my limits this time babe.

P.S.: Dun ask me regarding this, i will smile and change subject. U know, i know. Time will tell. (Sry peter, will type something productive nxt entry. )

Jason's Famous Quotes: Tranquility of the soul begins with the heart.

Did You Know?: Carrot heads shouldn't eat carrot cakes, if not will get chopped more.