Outburst

Didnt blog for damn long due to some stuff stirring within me. Todae, im touching on something tat's been a rarity these days. Its wat's inside me and wtf am i tinking. Sometimes life imposes one of the most cruel form of irony upon ppl. Imagine the feeling of losing something/someone, then u realised that its actually the most precious thing/person to you. Fuck that feeling, its totally fucked up. Next comes the issue of morality, principle and ethnics. Will u commit a morally-incorrect, principle-defying and ethically-wrong choice so as to get what u want? Fuck man, im totally hanged. Its like some dagger stuck in ur heart and u're slowly bleeding , but u wont die from that wound, the pain slowly kills u bit by bit. Yet u can feel urself slowly being drawn into the vortex. People say love is sweet and bitter, but i tink its sour. Why sour? Go figure. And things are better left unsaid, once said, they meant nothing, hence im bloggin here to vent it out. A fucking good song that describes what i feel now is XIANG SHUO by ANDY HUI.

Old song, damn good. Below are the verses:

想说

好想能守候在你的身旁

你温柔的眼光阻挡着忧伤

好想能停泊在你的海港

让船儿一直停放

永不再出航

我在每一个漆黑夜晚独自忧伤

害怕这思念却无法伪装

我在每一个破晓黎明等待着天亮

等待你给我不灭的火光

心里有话想说

心里的痛你懂

有太多太多的情感覆水难收

心里有话想说

心里的痛你懂

我不愿埋怨的泪水

已经没有尽头

That's how i feel now, some things are on my mind these few days. Mktg project and alot of other stuffs are clogging my brain, im seeing myself as a dumb ass that cant realli grasp where the fuck my studies are now. Anyways i served my 127 days of solitude to think thru what i realli wanted. And i realised after i knew what i realli wanted, it just sorts of complicates things again. Well, if u tot the above is about adeline, sorry its not. Realised we dun click, have no chemistry and seriously speaking, stop calling her my 'wife' or watever fuck shit. We are not related in anyway so dun keep calling her my 'wife'. Okays, felt so damn good after pissing off what plagued me for these few weeks. Shall be fine and dandy again soon, albeit not extremely and sincerely happy. Shall only find real happiness when 'its' mine. Patience is realli not my forte, but lets test my limits this time babe.

P.S.: Dun ask me regarding this, i will smile and change subject. U know, i know. Time will tell. (Sry peter, will type something productive nxt entry. )

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