Im now looking for a boxing school to join.. i cant seem to find any around singapore..zzz... im looking for a kickboxing school or muay thai skool. Im now going tanning every week because its
so relaxing. ^_^. I need to forget someone, its takes time. She cant get over someone, i cant get over her, its so ironic yeah? anyways its 15 days b4 contract ends, i need to learn to be frends with her with no motive at all. I need to tell myself i dun like her tat much, so i shouldnt tink of her tat much. Its sort of working, although at nite, when i tink about her, it still hurts.

Time heals everything, and soon, i wont be seeing her everyday, so i guess i will slowly 4get her ba... i hope... I learnt a lesson from tis incident, tat is never sincerely love a girl, it onli begets shit. Being too good to someone is being cruel to urself. There's no need to be so good to a girl who isnt ur girlfrend yet, its just plain dumb. Girls like jerks, they dun kw how to appreciate a guy tat realli cares for them, so in the end, being a jerk rox. it fucking hell ROX.

Tomolo im working afternoon shift, so im going to wake up early to train. Im now into the next phase, its time to use my legs. Im hoping to come out with my own style... maybe i call it SOUL BOXING? lolx.. just dreaming lah.. im trying to divert my mind from tinking about her again. zzz... fuck it, i go sleep le, its starting again, im starting to be sentimental again... zzz...

Todae we spoke. Finally. But i choose to speak less to her, there's only 16 days left before the contract ends. Im finally finish the thing i wanted to do for her, it took SOOOOO long man.. hahass.. She's online now, and yet i chose not to speak to her, im starting to get used to life without her. i need to, because after the contract ends, i need to live without her in my life. Everyday i see her, everyday i get used to seeing her, hearing her and loving her. Although its
been just a short 3 mths, it made a great impact on wat i am.

I dun kw wat will happen in the future, i wanted to be her first bf, and in the end, its quite farnny how i actually ended up the last on her list of potential bfs. I dun kw wat made our relationship turn out tis way, yet i dun wanna kw exactly. I kw its something wrong with me, and i believe she also had a wrong perception of me. We just didnt have enough time to kw about each other, and her heart is locked by another guy. I dun kw who he is, and i dun wanna kw who he is, i just hope tat i dun see her with another guy the nxt time i go out with my frends. Witnessing the one u like holding hands with another person is realli wat i call suffering. I tasted it b4, and it aint a good feeling.

The end of the contract is a veri sad affair for me, and for her, i believe its the best thing tat happened to her because finally, im not there to bother her anymore. Being sincere towards someone is just dumb, and in the process, i missed out on communication. We didnt realli toked much in the end, i liked her too early and the whole thing just sort of spun out of control like a
tornado and in the end, i need to clear up the aftermath. Wat is done cannot be undone, yet time works wonders, rite now i have onli one option, to let time heal watever i have done. Up to tis moment in time, i never regretted falling in love with her, she says she's not a good person, but to me, i kw she's lying. Im leaving soon, 3 more weeks to go, as i said earlier, im leaving earlier then the others, and adeline will stay in my heart. I hope there's a continuation of our story, and may god bless tat our part 2 will be happy,and may her heart belong to me in future ba...