废话

这世界公平吗？这二十四年来，人生给我的答案很简单。 世界根本没有‘公平‘这两个字。 ‘公平‘只是我们为了平息自己而想出来的两个字。

慢长的岁月，教导了我什么是诚意，什么是真心待人，但他也告诉我什么是失望，什么是痛苦。可能很多人都觉得，简简单单的放手，试着忘记，明天起来，还是美好的一天。 我也很希望爱情真的是如此容易放弃啊。。。


西边的落叶，
是否能飘到东边？
所谓的爱情，
真的需要火花吗？
傻傻的男人，
永远不是时间的对手。


我第一次用华语写废话，感觉真的很爽，但是很他妈的慢。 真不懂那些中国仔为什么能打那么快。 他奶奶个熊。。。

杰生的名语：无聊的人，会做无聊的事。 我真他妈的无聊。。。。。哈哈哈！

吃香蕉？

Boring Entry

Lets see, what shall this entry be on? Life? Nah, that's too complex. Love? Nope, its too disappointing to even think about. Money? Sad to say, im not fated to co-exist with that phrase currently. And so i guess there's nothing to blog about? No lah, cfm got stuffs to comment and complain about one mah.

Training dun seem as hard for me nowadays, i should up the notch more, self-torture is the way to a beautiful body. :) And since i've been on some basic conditioning these 2 weeks, i guess its safe to embark on the next phrase ba. Should be, maybe, can be.

Im gonna find out how to join some CCAs in skool, especially those with saxophone or singing as their selling point. Yes, u heard rite, CCAs man, its been sometime since i was associated with that 3 letters. hahas, im even considering dragonboat, but have to go kallang leh, sibei far leh. Haiz.

I have so much hobbies now that my time seems to seep slowly away from me, gone were those days where i literally rot my time away playing games man. I cook fairly well nowadays, but baking wise im still kinda rough around the edges, maybe need expert help?

Dreams and ambitions, 2 factors among the many that determines what makes or breaks a man.
Change happens slowly yet certainly, either make do with the certainty, or dwell in the horror of its certainty.

Jason's Simplicity : Money. Money. Money. How naive were those that dun believe in it.

Theories Of Evanescence

My birthday was yesterday, and hereby i once again thank those people that have been wishing me thruout the day ytd. thanks guys and gals, totally appreciate it.

Meiting was nice enough to get me a slice of cake for my bday, jiaying gave me a packet of half-used tissues, jeaneatte gave me a postcard she got from outside canteen, and lilin wanted to give me AA batteries, which i politely rejected. LOLX!

My sister gave me a t-shirt, and my youngest brother gave me a shirt. New clothes are always a welcomed gift :) Other then tat, its quite uneventful on my birthday yesterday, simply because the entire day was taken up by lessons.

Its astounding how much each of my birthday differs year after year. And as i looked back year after year, im getting wiser and wiser year by year. Though im none the richer, i went thru alot personally and all these things never fails to entertain me.

The winds of time can never be halted, as is the hands of fate that can never be compelled.
Complexity always serves as a mask to hide some unspoken ignorance, and i once again i preach simplicity. I remembered i saw this phrase somewhere before --> Simplicity is the Felicity of life. ^_-

(Thks R,G,E,X,F)

Jason's Simplicity : Naivity, the essence of innocence, the root of sympathy.

Memories...

Jason's Famous Quotes : A silent entry for a silent me.

Did You Know? : This is the last entry about our story.

CCM

Am i becoming an otaku? A defender of the home? lolx! Todae i almost whole day rotted at home, morning went gym, then noon went to jurong point to help my sis carry the new oven back. And once we reach home, i went downstairs to buy ingredients to bake my veri first batch of cookies. :)

I got the recipe for choc chip macadamia (CCM) cookies and therefore set forth to make the cookie paste. Its kinda like a combined effort between me n my sis, i manually beat all the ingredients and she took care of the baking. Each of us wanna bake for somebody, she wanna bake for her bf, and i wanna bake for... hurhur.. :)

And then i went to source for new recipes that i can try with my new oven, and pork ribs came to mind. St Louis pork ribs from Cafe Cartel~~~ Woo~~~~ Sad to say, i cant find the specific recipe, but i got this recipe that is quite similar to the formal, so i jotted down the details and will try it soon. I even posted a picture of the ribs courtesy of allrecipes.com. hahaas!


















BBQed Baby Backribs.... Mouth-watering~~~



3 more days to my birthday, and i have nvr looked forward to my bday like this before. After my birthday, i most prob will be in either one of the 2 extremes of emotions : Damn happy, or super sad. And hence i wanna tell myself, no matter what happens, take it in your stride. ^_^

Training wise, i dun feel much improvement in the performance department leh, though the definitions of the muscles are starting to appear, i still dun think i improved much. How to pass ippt like tat man? i still have 2 mths, so i have to step it up a notch. Training is now an everyday event if my schedule permits, and the only off day i give myself is sunday. =.="

Jason's Famous Quotes : True love does not come by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.

Did You Know? : A man that is well-groomed, has a career, is rich, cooks well, nice, romantic and has a 6 pec body only exists in dreams...or is it? hurhurs~~ :)

Winds Of Change

Long long day todae. Went for lessons in the morning, then rushed to sentosa in the afternoon to work. Though we called it work, its more like going there to play and enjoy ourselves. hahahs! Went there with nicholas and met up with 3 gals at the tram station. They were ah tan's frens and i have to admit, they're quite pretty. hahahas~~~

So we started work at the event at sentosa. I was in the tele-match team and therefore had to do alot of shit work. But no complaints lah, when i work, juz work lors. My mentality towards work is simply " just do it". No point complaining so much when in the end you still have to do it. The pay is not super impressive, but the main purpose is having fun there with ur frens while u work.

End of the event, my shirt was totally wet and smelly. I feel damn healthy todae, because i didnt eat lunch and i endured all the way till dinner. :p

Sometimes, even i myself am surprised at the rate of my mentality shifts. Some deep-shit problems that's kinda like a plaguing issue in my life can suddenly be resolved. It turns out my perspective of a problem will gradually widen up when i have learned to accept the fact that what happened is inevitable. And so my heart will open up and allow space for that discrepancy to exists, which leads to and old chinese saying : A man's heart must be like the ocean.

And so, as usual, train hard, study hard and dun forget, try to get someone's heart. hhahas~~ it rhymes...~~~ :P

Jason's Famous Quotes : If everything can be restarted, i would still choose to fall for u.

Did You Know? : My horizons have started to widen.

Iron-Willed

Life is all about choices, and my choice this round, is to do my best to make sure i am the best. Went running with the guys todae, its realli time i changed. Next week will be going to start a Vickers account with reilly and begin stocks trading. Next week i will also be going to register at BBDC to get my license. I've been putting off these things for sometime now, and i believe now would be a good time to start.

Studies wise i will be trying to catch up more, and i will try to reduce gaming time. I will be honing culinary skills by trying new recipes when i have the extra cash for ingredients. I solemnly swear that i will be taking my training seriously and will DEFINITELY run every alternate days whenever my schedule permits. All these are areas where i will improve myself. Its been too long alreadi.

Somethings have been plaguing me these days, i've been asking myself this question : Will someone choose you when even u urself wouldn't choose urself? The answer is obvious, and i think in life, we need something to work towards. Maybe this can be called a birthday resolution since my bday is just round the corner, on the 24th of august. :)

By my bday next yr, i must 1) be fit, 2)be rich, 3) cook well. Its easily said but never as easily done. hurhurs~~~ I do not intend to fail again. Trust me. I shall become a complete person, a complete man. ( no tanning for me anymore, i have a tendency to sleep and cook myself in the process...fark.)

Jason's Famous Quotes : Iron-fist Determination.

Did You Know ? : Its worth it. Believe me.

When we were small...

My dear primary school mates recently uploaded some pictures of our 'soccer' team when we were young. hahahss! Its kinda cute and funny how kiddish we looked then, the fat ones are fat and round, the thin ones were skinny like dun kw what. lolx! Anyways i've uploaded some pics for you guys. :)
















~~~62B Soccer Team~~~
















Im the cute one on the left with the 2 fingers~~~ hahahass!















Im the fat fat ronaldo behind kaiyang~~ lolx! Si bei fat lors~~ =.=


Looking at the pics, i kinda found what i've lost: myself. The 'me' that was buried after i left primary school, the 'me' that was timid yet innocent, the 'me' that was stress-free. I guess people do grow up after sometime, so as i grow up, i have chose to forgo my past and concentrate more on the future.

And so, my bday is around the corner, but i kinda figure out like every past years, my birthday wish and present will never come true. Sometimes thinking about it, why do i even bother to make wishes on bday man~~ hurhur~~~ Okies, im going to swim alreadi, maybe get a tan at the same time too. cya~~~

Jason's Famous Quotes : Accept. Digest. Swallow.

Did You Know? : What comes around, goes around. But i dun wanna be round. :p

Soul Sanctuary

There's this old song which i was listening to randomly this noon, which kinda sang out how i felt. And before i start blabbering about my day, shall post the lyrics here. :)

Back At One

It’s undeniable that we should be together
It’s unbelievable, how I used to say that I’d fall never
The basis is need to know
If you just don’t know how I feel
Then let me show you now that I’m for real
If all the things in time, time will reveal
Yeah

one, you’re like a dream come true
Two, just wanna be with you
Three, girl it’s plain to see
That you’re the only one for me and
Four, repeat steps one through three
Five, make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
Then I’ll start back at one

(yeah)
It’s so incredible, the way things work themselves out
And all emotional, once you know what it’s all about, hey
And undesirable, for us to be apart
I never would’ve made it very far
’cause you know you got the keys to my heart
’cause...

one, you’re like a dream come true
Two, just wanna be with you
Three, girl it’s plain to see
That you’re the only one for me and
Four, repeat steps one through three
Five, make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
Then I’ll start back at one

Say farewell to the dark of night
I see the coming of the sun
I feel like a little child, whose life has just begun
You came and breathed new life into this lonely heart of mine
You threw out the life line
Just in the nick of time

one, you’re like a dream come true
Two, just wanna be with you
Three, girl it’s plain to see
That you’re the only one for me and
Four, repeat steps one through three
Five, make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
Then I’ll start back at one


Todae i went to chinatown with my mum and siblings, sort of like a family outing excluding my dad and 2nd brother. Hmms, shopping with mum never was a hobby, but the silly things my mum does while shopping realli intrigues me sometimes. hahahaS~~~

And when i reached home around evening time, i got a sms from aiying saying she need a listening ear, and so i went downstairs at nite to sit down a listen to her pour her woes. The usual stuffs again, her plight at work never ever got better. its kinda farnnie listening to her work problems because she naturally attracts daggers from the back. lolx!

And so she continued on about her on-off bf, which i think is a bastard anyways. Saw him before on a singing trip to kbox, and 1st impression was quite normal. But it turns out that he always get angry at her for small stuffs and always thinks that he's at the suffering end. Hmms, my advice to her is to dump this idiot and get on with life and find a better guy, she's not that young anymore, why spend more time on him after wasting 5 yrs in a break-patch relationship with him? Dumb rite? Gosh sometimes people can be so blinded. -.-""

After being a counsellor for 2 hrs, i tot finally when i reach home i can spend sometime playing DOTA with my buds, boy was i so wrong man. I got an sms from corinne, saying she wanna cry because of loads of other stuffs not going her way in her life. She's sad about how come she's so poor and couldn't afford a laptop which led to her cant doing her job at home. My advice to her is simple, dun feel sad and sorry for yourself, everything has a solution, and my solution to her problem is damn simple. Go get a second hand laptop or pay by instalment lah, ur're working and have a stable income leh. Short, simple, sweet. And after problem solved, thanked me for listening to her because her bf ignored her. And after that smsed her telling her tat's what frens are for mah.

The above paragraphs serves as my emptying point, because ppl pour things into me, so i need somewhere to empty all those stuffs. lolx! And since its not some secret that needs to be kept, might as well pour it all out. :)

The above instances kinda happens to me sometimes, when my frens need help, i listen to their woes. I dun realli think of these as a waste of time, because listening to people's problems will infact make u a better person. Hearing how fucked up other guys are infact make me more determined to not be like those bastards, and to be wary not to stoop as low as them.

In listening to stories, we must also bear in mind that there are 2 sides to a coin, so i always takes one-sided stories with a dash of salt. A wise man once said --> Thou shall not betroth the entire truth one singular perspective....( that wise man is me. hahahas! )

So summing this entry, i qualify as an expert counsellor, good frend and potential wise man. hurhur~~~ :P

Jason's Famous Quotes : Too fast too furious leads to a fast and furious death.

Did You Know? : Everybody is a story, and when stories intertwined, its called fate.

Angelic-afication

Okays, this might sound slightly crazy, but im toking about this in a subtle and sensible way. The thing in question is, have u guys and gals ever experienced this before? Like when u behold somebody for sometime, u realised that tat person whom u are so used to seeing, is actually so beautiful? Hmms, sometimes i wonder how could i have missed out details such as this~~~

Looking, not staring at someone that you've known for sometime is normally quite routine and normal, so naturally u feel that person is like no different from other people. Yet, at some unforeseen and random instance, when u realli took the time to notice, the beauty sorts of beams and shines on you like some holy light from the heavens. lolx~~~

I truly believe, the above discovery can only be made if that person is a good person. And my definition of good, refers to somebody that has strength of character and is a sincerely nice person. No matter how pretty u can be, with an ugly heart, time will mutate and distort beauty.

And so i shall end my slightly insane description of the phenomenon called " Sudden Angelic-afication ". Hurhur

Recently, i liked to keep quiet sometimes and listen to people speak, because i guess im learning to listen more and talk less.... hohoho~~~ Talking is tiring, though u transmit and communicate your thoughts, i juz feel abit boring talking so much. hahasss. But sometimes being too quiet causes an aura of uneasy silence to hang in the air, and that effect is further amplified if u're in a group of frends and everybody sorts of keep quiet all of a sudden. So that happens when there's a team of 'listeners', and when there's a team of 'talkers', a irritating term ensues~~~ noise.. :P

My monetary policy currently is geared towards the 'poorer then beggar' status, because i didnt work for the past mth. Hahass~~~ If things go smoothly, then maybe my first payment will come in during october, and by next year june, i should be driving a BMW convertible. hurhurs~~~ Yet i have to keep quiet about stuffs for now, im not supposed to say anything to anybody, not even those most dear to me. Its not that i dun trust people, its just that i have a responsibility to keep my promise to the other shareholders, a man of integrity will not betray the trust that his fellows placed on him. :)

Changes can be slow and subtle, there's no need to kick up a ruckus on how things are changing. People can feel it, slowly but certainly, the conversion setting in. Its sort of like stirring agar agar that's already settled, the agar agar changed form, but its still agar agar, though its now softer and sweeter. And in the unfortunate event that you dun like watery agar agar, u can always put it in the fridge to freeze it again. There's no need to throw the agar agar away even if u dun like it, because its not the agar agar that matters, its your mentality that dictates your preferences.

Jason's Famous Quotes : Speaking in riddles is damn tiring.

Did You Know ? : People talk, cockroach walk. So be careful what you blog, learn to mask things behind a lock. :)

~~Soul~~

Lazy again, hence the break in between entries. Been wasting my time at home this week because there's no lessons for almost the whole week. Went to NLB to study and do research with kuku ytd, which in fact i didnt realli do much except gather materials to insert into my ER essay. Hohoho, after that we went to eat around as usaul, when it comes to food, we're always willing to go try diff stuffs. hurhur~~~

Todae morning went to gym as usual, and i went 'fast and furious'. I finished my workout in like 35 mins to 40 mins, simply because todae i did circuits. :) Keep training without rest, alternating all the different stations as fast as possible. And i was super tired man, to the extent i couldnt even do another rep, which the regulars know it as fatigue. ^_^

I kw im going to fail my ippt no matter how hard i train within this 2 weeks, because i started abit late, my running is cfm going to fail. lolx. Though the idea of RT totally suck, after thinking it true, why not? I mean i go for RT, i get money, i can train up as well, and if i tried realli hard, i could get a silver or gold then get money for it. So all in all, 2 days per week at maju camp from 5pm to 8pm aint that bad after all yeah?

I tink there's 3 core problems to tackle so that i can be a better man. My 3 flaws are No money, No body,No honey. A solution to the money problem is currently under development and if the plan takes off, i will be driving a BMW within a year. Body wise, im training hard to lose weight and get a rock hard body this time round. Im extremely determined this time because 2 of my good frens are training up as well, and since i have the build alreadi, i cannot lose to them. Sean and Richard, wait up man, i cfm train until i become Fit Zais like u guys!

And of course, the other reason should not be spoken, and need not be said, because its worth it.

Nowadays, im obsessed with jazz and blues music. Kenny G is one of the best saxophonist in the world, and his music is so smooth and sexy. Listening to his songs sooths me alot and brings me into the mood for romance. hahahas!! Im even considering learning the saxophone, but its too expensive for me, a basic saxophone costs around $3000 bugs.... sianz~~~~

Food wise, i've learnt how to prepare chicken cordon bleu, a famous french dish. I added my own personal touch to the recipe, which is adding vodka instead of white wine. The results is quite satisfying, but the dish itself is very rich and creamy, making it veri sinful. Healthy eating i say, so this recipe most prob will be reserved for those fat-craving days. :P!

Jason's Famous Quotes : The whisper was so careless that i kept singing careless whisper.

Did You Know ? : In my pursuit of you, i learnt and grew up alot. Thank you.

Morbicity

Distance, can be measured by a ruler. But some distances, can never me metered out. Through our daily lives, we do slowly drift apart from people as we become more preoccupied. The simplicity of life and relationships gradually disappear from the scene.

I tried to breathe, think and believe in simplicity, yet it seems life's choices made the above mentioned to be a luxury. The cycle of logic is simple yet confusing, mentally we were taught to think in depth, yet when we reach the pinnacle of the so called 'in-depth' thinking, we tried to revert to a simpler methodology of viewing things and events. We sort of came one full circle and in the end, we end up at where we started.

Todae i shall not emphasize too much on the greater thoughts, but rather, i will try to dwell more on more mundane issues of life. If u guys do notice, i started blogging quite frequently these days, well, when im vexed, i naturally will need a place to shit it all out, so here i am, updating almost daily. :)

I read sean's blog this afternoon and i think his blog is much more happier then mine. Its not as dark and sorrowful as mine, kinda more 'sunshine' feel to it. Maybe im a 'darker person' mentally hence to morbid feel to my blog?

Talking about morbid, do u sometimes feel hopeless regarding all aspects of life? hmms, sort of like when u look far and wide over the horizon, no matter how hard u look, u can never find the sun. And everything seems so 'in ur face' with deadlines and the various 'endings' staring down at u. I tink normal people call it 'stress' but does stress comes packaged with sorrow? Farnnie rite? Gosh~~~

Jason's Famous Quotes : Beyond the surface, lies another face.

Did You Know? : Empty vessels makes the most noise. Im the noisiest.

KPKB

Juz woke up and dun kw why, i juz feel like bloggin. hmph~~~

Yesterday was a long day for me, went for noon lessons, then went to meet corinne for dinner. My hair was a mess yesterday because i started using a new wax, and that wax is SUPER STRONG, which means my hair is literally standing around and looked like some kinda cap over my head. -.-
Which means basically everybody was laughing at me man. hohoho~~~

And though yesterday wasnt so uneventful, my heart hurts alot man. The Man Above seems to be reminding me what a failure i was. Classes ended at 430pm, then i headed to canteen to get a drink and sort of pacify myself in the process, and then went to take bukit timah plaza to buy new boxing gloves. I was ripped man, fuck. Lousy gloves cost me $34, which in fact costs onli $28. Knn the uncle fucked up one, pua cb. Toolanz...

Anyways after getting the gloves, i went to take bus 77 to get to cityhall. Taking buses should rot more time because im meeting corinne at 7pm mah, and i can also take the time to consider the earlier events. Long bus journey, and i was sitting on the reverse seat, which means those kinda seats that u say opposite to the normal seats, allowing u to see the people on the whole bus. Wasnt people watching as i did usaully, because was preoccupied with my thoughts, and i was looking out the window, when i came up with a theory again. hurhur...

Everybody was looking at the scenes outside the bus as the bus moved forward, and i was looking at what the bus went pass. That signifies 2 different perspectives that a human being can view the world in. Either u look forward to the future, or u glanced towards the past. I look to the future with hope, but since im a sentimental person, i hold memories dearly close to my heart. All the past seems to be alive and replaying itself over and over again in my brain, the happy times i've spent with the people that im most happy with...etc... but well... im still... hahass... nvms. :)

And when im deeply pondering my emotions and was sort of down, guess who i saw? I saw peifen on the bus, with her boyfrend that is. And i was kinda wondering what if i accepted her hand back then, would we be like where they are now? Happily ever after? But i do understand that she's just not my kinda gal anymore, so i will still stick to my decision even if i have to choose again. And so i managed a weak smile and waved a bit, then continued with my brains racking.

When i met up and was walking over to yuki-yaki with corinne at marina square, guess who i saw now? I saw adeline. Gosh, at least she's with a female fren, not with some boyfrend if not i would feel worse. And so the usual stuffs, smiled, waved, said hi, and then bye within 5 secs. And then as i walked away, i keep tinking the man up there likes to play around with me. First, he gave me hope, then he took it away, then he made me see them again just to rub it in. Ya, i guess tat's his hobby in his freetime. But i guess i cant blame anybody or even Him, because at the end of the line, i sucked. Not that im pessimistic or low esteem or watever, its just that there must be something wrong with me that warrants such a devious fate to be impaled upon me.

Regarding the Tale Of The Apple that i wrote about in an earlier entry, i left out a critical aspect called Mutuality. No matter how much effort u put into the tree, the tree must have a mutual feeling towards u, if not, no matter how much effort u put in, its useless. So ya, the theory of Mutuality of Feelings must be present.

My nice frens and good people tells me im a nice guy, but am i realli that nice? Am i realli that good? I dun tink so. If im so nice and so good, why would things be at the state that they're in now man? So please stop telling me that im nice and all that, because i know, saying im nice and all that doesnt change the facts and the state of things.

When im tired, there's noone. When im down, there's noone. When im lonely, there's noone. Self explainatory.

Jason's Famous Quotes : My song will always go unsung.

Did You Know? : Im not a blue chip after all.