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Juz woke up and dun kw why, i juz feel like bloggin. hmph~~~

Yesterday was a long day for me, went for noon lessons, then went to meet corinne for dinner. My hair was a mess yesterday because i started using a new wax, and that wax is SUPER STRONG, which means my hair is literally standing around and looked like some kinda cap over my head. -.-
Which means basically everybody was laughing at me man. hohoho~~~

And though yesterday wasnt so uneventful, my heart hurts alot man. The Man Above seems to be reminding me what a failure i was. Classes ended at 430pm, then i headed to canteen to get a drink and sort of pacify myself in the process, and then went to take bukit timah plaza to buy new boxing gloves. I was ripped man, fuck. Lousy gloves cost me $34, which in fact costs onli $28. Knn the uncle fucked up one, pua cb. Toolanz...

Anyways after getting the gloves, i went to take bus 77 to get to cityhall. Taking buses should rot more time because im meeting corinne at 7pm mah, and i can also take the time to consider the earlier events. Long bus journey, and i was sitting on the reverse seat, which means those kinda seats that u say opposite to the normal seats, allowing u to see the people on the whole bus. Wasnt people watching as i did usaully, because was preoccupied with my thoughts, and i was looking out the window, when i came up with a theory again. hurhur...

Everybody was looking at the scenes outside the bus as the bus moved forward, and i was looking at what the bus went pass. That signifies 2 different perspectives that a human being can view the world in. Either u look forward to the future, or u glanced towards the past. I look to the future with hope, but since im a sentimental person, i hold memories dearly close to my heart. All the past seems to be alive and replaying itself over and over again in my brain, the happy times i've spent with the people that im most happy with...etc... but well... im still... hahass... nvms. :)

And when im deeply pondering my emotions and was sort of down, guess who i saw? I saw peifen on the bus, with her boyfrend that is. And i was kinda wondering what if i accepted her hand back then, would we be like where they are now? Happily ever after? But i do understand that she's just not my kinda gal anymore, so i will still stick to my decision even if i have to choose again. And so i managed a weak smile and waved a bit, then continued with my brains racking.

When i met up and was walking over to yuki-yaki with corinne at marina square, guess who i saw now? I saw adeline. Gosh, at least she's with a female fren, not with some boyfrend if not i would feel worse. And so the usual stuffs, smiled, waved, said hi, and then bye within 5 secs. And then as i walked away, i keep tinking the man up there likes to play around with me. First, he gave me hope, then he took it away, then he made me see them again just to rub it in. Ya, i guess tat's his hobby in his freetime. But i guess i cant blame anybody or even Him, because at the end of the line, i sucked. Not that im pessimistic or low esteem or watever, its just that there must be something wrong with me that warrants such a devious fate to be impaled upon me.

Regarding the Tale Of The Apple that i wrote about in an earlier entry, i left out a critical aspect called Mutuality. No matter how much effort u put into the tree, the tree must have a mutual feeling towards u, if not, no matter how much effort u put in, its useless. So ya, the theory of Mutuality of Feelings must be present.

My nice frens and good people tells me im a nice guy, but am i realli that nice? Am i realli that good? I dun tink so. If im so nice and so good, why would things be at the state that they're in now man? So please stop telling me that im nice and all that, because i know, saying im nice and all that doesnt change the facts and the state of things.

When im tired, there's noone. When im down, there's noone. When im lonely, there's noone. Self explainatory.

Jason's Famous Quotes : My song will always go unsung.

Did You Know? : Im not a blue chip after all.