VERY long bo blog le.. hehe. tis few weeks i damn poor sia... T_T. kaoz.. my stupid handphone bill is $250 last mth sia... cb one, i go taiwan 1 mth nia, come back tio tis type of bomb = ="". I would have to slowly wait till nxt pay day then got cash to go out n have fun sia..zzzzzzz... c buay sianz... y is my life so cham one???! Last week friday hor, i saw something tat made my head start to tink sia. i was on a bus home from camp, there was tis pretty gal who was sitting in front of me. i didnt realli care much bout her until a aunty with a baby came onboard. tis gal actually gave up her seat for the aunty sia... wee you wee, i was realli taken aback sia, most of the pretty gals i see outside will die die never give up seat one lor... im realli realli impressed by her sia, long time bo see such a good n PRETTY gal liaoz.. lolz, but i dun n will never know her lah. its juz the act tat made me tink about singapore gals like her is realli rare le. It once again proves the point tat wat realli defines a gal is not looks, its wat she does in daily life tat takes my breathe away. ^_^. But men will always be men, we ALWAYS notice looks b4 everything. lolz, primary objective = chio anot, Secondary objective = figure good anot, Tertiary objective = personality good anot. haiz, i admit im also one of those guyz, but hey, im changing mah, give me time to change n detach myself from the flow n genes lah.. lolz. One question is always burning thru me sia, a veri simple n absolutely essential question: Y THE FARK AM I SO FAT AH????!!! Nin nia a, i reall i gam pua 'fei' sia.zzzzzz But nvm one, nxt week my frendz r coming back from taiwan le, so we can go sing kbox nxt friday le! wahaha SINGING ROX! I AM ZHOU JIE LUN! (I tok cock one lah, jay's fans pls dun burn my house hor...T_T)

May 27th. Today is the day when i met corinne for the first time 2 yrs ago. I still remember the time when i met her.. it was 845pm sharp. We met at a chalet tat my guitar club NPS organised. When i first saw her, she juz struck me as a sweet gal, but i will never know tat she will be the gal tat i love the most in my life. She was with me through my holidays b4 i was enlisted into the army, n she was there for me all the way through my BMT. I was so in love with her, but she had gary then... I can never forget her smile n a phrase which onli me n her knew... i enjoyed spending time with her, she's the onli gal tat have seriously stolen my heart in all my 22yrs. Even if i hate to admit it, my heart will always have a place for her. I tried to contact her via her old phone number, but its alreadi invalid. I have lost all contact with her now, i tink its for the better, we have to get on with our lives n ironically, tat's y i didnt realli wanna ask her frendz how she is.. haiz...

Saturday.... sian aaaaaaaaa....... today i almost whole day rot at home.... heng juz now evening got go west coast play lan games with the band of pig-dog frendz.. lolz... beauty world the mechmaster close shop liaoz.. kaoz, i went all the way there sia, then we lan lan go ginza play... = =" Heng bullbull at ginza playing, i reach there i straight away call him.. hehe.. bullbull is a net frend, i knew him in battlenet but have never met him b4. hmm, he damn steady n he looks veri fit sia.. haha, he also veri white like me. :P At least today i got to know a new frend.. haha. Then when we r leaving the shop, we realize it was raining outside sia... we had no choice lor, so we all switch on 'MOM' then turbo run to the busstop... lolz... heng i fit sia, didnt get realli wet.. o_o. Now life seems so normal liaoz... at least alot of things happening in my life is going uphill... but got 2 things nvr seems to move one leh.. = =.... im still as fat if not fatter then last time.... haiz... the other one is im still waiting for a chance to ask her to be my gf leh..... i wanna 'biao bai' liaozzzzzz.... ^_^... c when fr33 i ask her out then pop the question ba... wish me LUCK! :P

C buay long bo post liaoz... haiz... im getting lazi liaoz... hehe. Tis few days nothing realli serious happen le... although ytd i work like a dog in the med ctr. Ian N Gan are cb kias, put me alone in med ctr, im starting to dislike them more n more liaoz. Nin nia a, tell them not enough ppl they still go cluster fark... haiz, y pl nowadays so farked up one??? Nvm about tat lah, the day before i also fixed my sandbag le.. hehe, so happy sia, but i tink after 2 weeks will drop down again.. hahahah

Pissed is wat i am today... ST sent me on a last minute sunday cover... Sianz, normally i wont be angry one, but i alreadi went for 2 weekends cover last mth liaoz.... kaoz... nbz.. although one of them i got my frend to replace me, but i did it myself, but ST say in REALITY i didnt cover! Nin nia a, he last minute tell me i also go because i treat him as frend... but im starting to tink he's taking me for granted. Everytime he got thing i will help him, now he like tat arrow me... if its a normal weekend its still okay, BUT IT IS MOTHER'S DAY! CCB, I DUN HAVE A MOTHER IZZIT? Fark man, its none of my business one, kaoz, dun know y shoot till here... Gan say dun wanna go then can dun go, then WTF cant i say no? WTF AM I? ST say i can claim my off on any day, but come on lah, one year onli got one mother's day, its a son's duty to stay home to accompany her, but now i tio this fark shit thing liaoz, KAOZZZZZZZ.... im realli realli veri pissed off, im not targeting one guy to be angry with, but i juz cant damn swallow the whole thing man.. ST did came to tok to me about tis issue, but do u seriously tink i will juz let it go? A frend doesnt do tis to you? Im veri aware of his plight as our spec, but if u cant find someone, y arrow ME? Its realli damn unfair to me, i feel realli betrayed dude, i will always help u when u r in need, but now u r playing with my MOTHER'S DAY? I cant take it anymore, sad to say, tat's where the frendship ends... from now on, we r juz normal campmates, if u dun treat me as a frend, i shouldnt be the stupid fellow tat continue to uphold the silly believe tat our frendship is MUTUAL...

Tis week offically can stay out le.. lolz... i illegal stay out for 2 mths liaoz... lolz... Tomolo i doing duty le.. haha, so wont be back home for one day lor... zai.. i doing duty with my good bro sean. i also bringing PS2 to camp tomolo so i can play with peter n sean they all.. wahaha, wudi one.. i was tinking of buying some sausage n ham n bacon n eggs to cook at the med ctr.. lolz... machiam my house liaoz... hahaha.... but im realli glad tat we dont have a bunk now..lolz, then we all live at med ctr will contribute to our bond... Today uncle sam came back to work le, long time bo c him liaoz.. haha.. he juz came back from india mah, but he still the same old uncle sam.. haha :P I feel quite relaxed today sia.. hehe, finally overcame the dark clouds flooding my heart. ^_^. Tis few weeks, i've made some realli good frendz with some new guyz in the med ctr sia.. lolz, one of them is edwin, he is a old guy actually, but i seldom tok to him mah, so dun realli knew him.. haha, guess wat, he is also someone of the same character with me n ah-sean n peter... wahaha, zai, we all 3 click till cannot click.. lolz. I look forward to maintaining contact with these brothers after we ORD. These r wat i call frendz, not some stupid hypocritic asshole who deserves a backfist to the face... hee hee... :P

Tonite is a nite juz like any other.... but my something is stirring in my heart.... o_o? Im having a feeling tat is veri hard to describe... i dun realli know how to say it, but somethings always dun seem right one...heehee, maybe im juz too silly le ba. My whole life, i have been wanting someone who is perfect, but am i the perfect one in their hearts? lolz, i dun tink so, n wat can i do to change it? humans r born with the ability to change their own fates, n mine is to be the perfect man to that perfect her... T_T.. Did u know tat i realli realli love you? Sometimes things juz doesnt need to be said, love can be felt, if u feel it, y dun u tell me how u feel? Im slowly being devoured by my own emptiness n sense of loss, its a void in my soul tat nobody understands... there might be others that feel the same thing as me, but they are never wat i am... i am me. i am wat i am. And i want u to know tat im unique, as is my love for you... i cant say tat im the best person to love you, but wat i can promise you is, im the person who can give the best love to you...(我 真 的 很 想 你 。。。)