Its a emo night....

Time and fate. you simply cant stop these 2 things can u? I dun kw where i will be, but i kw where you will be. where you will always be. =)

And so another chapter of my life closes. Tml will be printing MR project, which heralds the end of projects and the start of mugging. Yes, im supposed to be mugging, but im going to genting on sunday for 3 days. hahahass. The government sponsor $275 to go gamble leh, so why not?

My room needs a makeover, as i have always repeated over the past entries. I calculated the total budget the other day when i went to ikea. I need around $2K to get a loft bed, a super comfy sofa bed and a LCD TV. The LCD tv shall be connected to my computer, and then i can divert the dramas and movies i've downloaded to the tv. Thereafter, i can laze around on my sofa and watch dramas in style! Best yet, i should have enough additional cash to get a coffee table and one more carpet (i have on now underneath my bed.). Perfecto!

And so my room will become a condusive environment for drama watching / mahjong playing / sleepovers / project rushing etc.... Thinking bout it makes me happy. lols. But coming back to reality, its a huge project and i need the cash. So i have to find a way to get the cash, since the I-Hub job is fully taken. sigh.

Oh, i cut a super short hair todae. Suddenly feel like cutting short hair, and so i went with mee kia to jh house there to cut. Sibei cooling sia, long time nvr have short hair alreadi. Though its not veri nice, what matters most is i like it. i look like dumb and dumber, but its fine lah, im never those idol look-alike anyways. lets stick to basics shall we? =)

It takes alot to impress me, as i've recently found out. Its definitely more then the surface stuff, its what is within and the substance that constitutes the character. Its useless trying too hard, i simply see thru it all. Only when i find things out myself, shall i be impressed. U keep volunteering information on how good u are, it onli shows how lousy u are.

As people grow up, their mentalities start to change. Some people are still stuck behind, and though u tried hard to pull them along, they simply chose to get stuck. A frendship stuck is hard to remedy, unless the one stuck chose to grow up and catch up.

okay, enough. its time to sleep, i need to reach school by 11am tml. sigh. fuck school. nitez!

Got this picture from my bro's ex-gf blog.
Find it interesting, so paste here show u people.
Nothing much to blog todae, life is too monotonous....too monotonous....

Tickling Tick Tock

Im updating my blog in skool this time, not because my net is cut, nono, its because im waiting for the singing club to start. Yes, i went ahead and joined singing club. hahahs, give it a try mah, no harm anyways. I even joined judo club lor. heh

There are some things in life u will never understand. Maybe its never meant to be understood at all in the first place. I asked myself why, but i can never give a definite answer. If i dun even understand my choice, how can people understand? Like the song goes " Im not crazy, im just a little unwell."

Back to normal stuffs, my training resumed with a bang. Yesterday went to gym around late noon, then went to play basketball with the dogs. And by dogs, i dun mean real canines, i meant my trusty 'pig and dog' frends. hahahas.. full of crap and noisy fellows. Bball was nice, realli nice. Its been sometime since i played, and the feeling was great. Our passion was relit by the taiwanese show HOTSHOT, which was surprising, considering hao-siao-ness of the show. Go watch xiao zhu in action, damn funny fellow. hahass

Bought a pair of nerd specs to see the whiteboard better for International Finance class. Mok writes realli badly and the whole lecture strains to make out wtf he is writing on the board. He's a nice guy lah, but its realli hard to see the god damn board.

And i just had dinner a frend. He's as egoistic as ever, though he meant well for me. I disagree with his thoughts, and he's ego is realli hard to swallow sometimes. But i tink at the core, he's not a bad fellow lah, just that he's more extreme mentally. Shujian was with me as well, and i can feel his discomfort as well. hahass. Well, the basis is not considering his ego, he's still a nice frend.

Venture wise, the web skeleton is gonna come out in a few days time. Gonna liase with the various suppliers and if everything goes well, the thing will roll out 2 weeks later. Im comtemplating postponing the launch, cause exams is round the corner and i need ALOT of time to study for finance.

Before i go, as a morbid thought, what do they do with people's blog when they die? Sometimes when u see the news where young people die, they keep blogs mah, so will blogger delete the blog, or will some nice fren keep updating the blog for the dead person? hmms... just a thought hor, im NOT contemplating suicide, so dun read too much into this. =)

Cyclone and Tornadoes

Took a long hiatus from blogging and basically everyday life. Some stuffs happened, and im too lazy to describe in detail. But all in all, an interesting perspective to life.

Okies, so i bought a wonderful pair of Pedro loafers. They're khaki and im loving every bit about them. Casual and comfy, yet still counts as a formal pair of shoes, best thing yet, dun have to wear socks. Jittao comfy until dun kw father mother. hahahass =)

Next up im gonna get some new clothes, though im kinda strap for cash. Wanna go bangkok, but the political scene there isnt so stable, so technically go bangkok tio bang nia. Then again, they wont possibly slaughter tourists lah, will they?

My main motive in bangkok is shopping, and maybe take pictures of the famous buddhist temples there. Buddhism always has this mysterious oriental feel to it, and its one of the most peaceful religion in my opinion. Anyways, my shopping list includes stuffs like tag heuer watch, LV wallet and various other apparels and accessories. heh.

Oh, and i have to say this, sometimes you get so dissappointed in a frend that u no longer wanna give advice and other significant help to that frend. I know a frend in need is a frend in deed, but when that frend's ego simply overtake all ur attempts to help, you know u have to give up and let that frend learn the hard way.

Its okay to have dreams, but when ur dreams are propelled by your ego and your mentality that the whole world owes u something, its not good. And its okay to be confident, but its never okay to think that you are the best and smartest person in the world. Modesty is a veri important aspect to cultivate, i learnt it long ago and im still struggling to learn it till this day. Remember this, modesty prepares you for failure and if u can't afford to fail, dun start in the first place.

Relating this to myself, i am never afraid of failure. Failure as in non-fatal failure lah, i still am afraid of death, im just a man after all. But in other stuffs like relationships and business and studies and other whatnots, i simply feel no fear for failure. Fail can try again, just keep trying until you make it, things are predetermined yes, but the more times you try, the probability of success is higher. So yeah, just keep trying lor, persevere and you will get there eventually.

And yes, my venture is now under discussion already. I do hope my new venture with my frends will yield better returns then my previous attempt. I never tell people about what im going to do unless they're very close to me, because i dun believe in telling people what u are going to do when you havent even started. Some people feel doing business is prestigious and can show off etc, so they tell the whole world and even say some childish stuffs to people. To me, i rather remain low profile unless people ask me.

Finally, there's somethings i tink better dun anyhow anyhow write, later i tio kio again how? rite. =)

Romantic Perspective

How do i handle life? How do i cope? Sometimes i do ask myself all these questions. After all that i've been through, i conclude life to be directly related to perspective. How you interpret an event is veri important. And i never believe things to be absolute, never say never.

Failure. Most people view it as detrimental, but to me, failure is simply finding out one way not to succeed. I deeply believe in the logic that noone fails forever. Business wise that is. I have my dream, and i intend to make that dream a reality. My dream? Build my own business empire.

Why do i suddenly wanna tok about my perspective on life all of a sudden? Well, its seems i've seen and thought through alot of things, and i have this huge conclusion about everything. A frend was toking to me about his disappointment in his failure to woo his gal, he was too late, in the end she was attached when he decided he wanted to go for her.

He told me the gal felt something for him initially, but he hesitated and therefore lost the chance.
He told me he was veri sad and he cannot swallow the sight of seeing another guy behaving intimately with the gal he likes. He told me he like her alot, and can't bear to lose her. He told me he was gloomy and upset for a few months alreadi, he cant get over her. Guess what i told him?

I told him the one he was upset about wasnt the gal, its himself. His pride and ego simply cannot swallow the fact that he failed. He wanted to own the gal, he hates himself because he let her go. He hated the fact that he took her for granted and thought that he have lots of time and she will wait for him. So all in all, he wasnt upset because he loved the gal, he was more buay gam luan on losing her to another guy.

I pointed this fact out to him, and i gave him my take on relationships :

1) Noone stays forever, do not take the other party for granted.

2) Since noone stays forever, enjoy and cherish every present moment with her, u never know whether both of you will go the distance, so dun try to prophecize the future, just enjoy the present.

3) Breaking up is not negative, its just that you're not meant to be together and there's a better somebody else that can take care of her. Treasure the memories and the happy times spent together with her, keep them locked up in your heart. When u recall those times with her, both of u can confidently smile and know deep inside that being together was worth it.

4) Rejection isnt negative. Its just a preventive mechanism setting in to protect both of you. One party knows things aint gonna go anywhere, and therefore to avoid future complications and heartbreak and quarrels etc... , he/she chose to pass.

5) If she managed to find someone who's realli nice, dun feel jealous and bitter. If you feel for her, u want the best for her. What matters is she tinks he is the one that can take care of her, and if u like her as much as you say, u would want the best for her. Therefore be happy because she managed to find someone that she realli likes and realli cares for her.

6) Love is free-rein, meaning do not exert control over her. Love is a connection between 2 person, not a slave-master relationship. She have her freedom and she does not owe u anything. Reporting is done volunteerily, its not compulsory. She wanna go club or go out with guys, its alrite, because if she wanna fly, no cage can keep her in. Trust in her and give her the liberty that she deserves.

7) Things happen for a reason, therefore dun jump to conclusions. Give her time to explain herself, everything can be discussed nicely, no point screaming at her. She's a gal, and the basic right of being a gal is the right to be pampered and cared for. Give in for small things, but critical issues, sit down and tok things out. Use a nice tone.

8) Before blaming things on her or other people, reflect on yourself first. Most of the time, u perceived things towards the negative side because you are too self-centered. Her world don't revolve around you, so before pointing out her faults, try to understand yourself and your actions first. (This is the point i told my fren, he was too self-centred to see that infact what he felt was more disappointment then sadness.)

9) Dun dwell on 'maybe's and 'could be's. Dun imagine how good things could have turned out if she accepted you. Understand the fact that there is a divine reason that the-fellow-up-stairs didnt wanna put you both together. Also remember the fact that impossible is never relevant, what could not be now, could be in future. So maybe now is just not the time. But dun think too much, try to move on for the time being.

10) The only certainty in life is death and change. Time is the most powerful entity in existence, nothing can stop it, nothing can change it and nothing can control it. People change with time, noone stays stagnant, people must change in order to survive. Do not blame her if she have a change of heart, she cant help it, you cant help it too. So why not suck it up and move on with a smile. If its meant to be, it will be. An angel that realli belongs to you will fly back to you no matter how far she have flew.

I view relationships as a pool of clear water. I wanna keep it clean and transparent. You can say im naive or childish, but to me, romance should be crystal clear and upheld by trust and respect.

And lastly for some things, i choose to keep quiet and solemn. It's the only thing i can do.