Stalwart

Work ytd and todae, shag like a dog, too long never stand for extended hrs, automatically become weak. :) Todae im bloggin on a more neutral mood, cause i've not seen 'happiness' for quite sometime alreadi. After some thoughts, i tink 'happiness' is just an obsession, i just cannot fathom or imagine us being together unless in my dreams. I rather stick to more down-to-earth and probable options. Will be cutting hair beri soon, cause training period need short hair, if not beri hot, maybe i go cut botak? Hmms..

Realised a veri ironic stuff tat exists in life, sometimes the 'best' thing can be divided into 2 entities. A 'perfect' being is never a single person, most of the time it is divided into 2 or more parts, and that flaws in each of the person actually constitutes to the 'imperfections' that we grew to love as well. Understand what i mean? Dun understand nvm, cause its abit complex. :) But yet again, when is love never complex? Hahass... The above relates to 2 people i know, one of the has the perfect face and looks, and the other person has the perfect personality and chemistry with me. Let call the 'perfect' looks, A, and 'perfect' chemistry, B.

This is a story of A and B, and not a story that portrays me as a flirt. Its just a deeper look into what i call my 'mental selection' process. A , i always dream and i always imagine, yet A lacks the chemistry with me and there's something dark about her. Anyways i dun kw A well at all so its all in all a infatuation. As i told someone, its just a 'withdrawal syndrome' of sorts lah, its not love at all, just-- to put it bluntly -- lust. I know A quite well mentally, because of some special process called 'FATE', i was forced by FATE to know that person realli well. Chemistry wise i dun realli know because i dun realli know tat person verbally. Anyways im too disgusting to even be in her 'plans'. ^_^

As for B, our chemistry realli stretches the limit of imagination. Its realli uncanny that such a person actually exists in the same world as me, much less at such close proximity. Bit by bit, i slowly realised god(holy being) has placed an angel next to me to bless my life after slogging for 23 yrs. The more i choose not to believe it and to look at other pastures, the more the crude fact is pushed into my face to force me to acknowledge it. I tried to run, i tried to hide, but to no avail. And the only option i have now is to swallow the fact but to avoid doing unethical stuffs. The option im taking is working well and im happy to stay put rite now. B seems happy enough now, and im happy enough that an angel exists near me now. Therefore i reached the conclusion of letting time do its magic, if it's meant to be, it's meant to be, i dun have the option of being 'proactive' unless i wanna risk karma. And to add insult to injury, im no fight. hahass :)

So u see, that's the sort of struggle that exists in most guys i tink, but im lucky enough because my angel is pretty, veri pretty infact. Its just tat i tink A has more 'perfect' looks, but B is realli realli angelic. hahahasss, maybe u can call A the 'devil' and B the 'angel'? lolx~~~ Okies, enough about my psychology lesson, lets move on the more substantial stuff shall we? heehee

Tomolo will be getting up earlier to do weights OR swim, i cant do both because needa get back to skool to do revision for exams. I realised i missed a COMM law lecture on thursday just now while checking thru my notes. FUCK, i missed the last lesson, which is when the lecturer will give TIPS, FUCK LAH~~~But its okay lah, i tink smart me will tide thru, yes i will babe~~ :)

The thing about training is this: Even if u slack off for a long time, u can train get back ur bicep size in just 3 weights session! Back to the original size!! Wootz!! Im looking forward to the reappearance of my 14.8 inches biceps!!! MUAHAHA!!! Come to papa darlings~~~ BICEPS~~~ And IF i wanna contain the bulge that is my 'abs', i need to do cardio, and tat means roadwork or hitting the pool. I will choose option 2 if i have the cash, and if im poor, option 1. Dun laugh, swimming costs $2 everytime i fucking enter, knn si bei expensive lors,TIU NA SENG!

Company payday changed to 10th every mth. Its fucked up lors, cb last time its 5th, and 5th is such a nice day can? 10th feels like SAF all over again, basket lah. My net was cut ytd, and i had to scramble to pay the dumb bill and call my fren to reactivate the damn account lors~~ zzzz.. last time i get pay on 5th, i pay bill on the 6th so they wont cut on the 7th. And my master plan is screwed due to the company's shift in payday. ZZZZz.... Its getting abit vexed working there man. The politics is killing me, todae working at expo nearli made me crazy sia, the politics there is so obvious sia, dumb and childish can? And for lunch break, i went to changi airport to eat popeyes. And after travelling all the way there, u kw what happened? The popeyes cashier said ' Sorry sir, no more chicken." I was like " this cb trying to be funny with me izzit?" and i gave the significant stare, and tat guy explained that the fryer is spoiled, so there's no set meals. FUCK LAH, i went all the way there and tat's what they gave me... fastfood restaurant no food... wtf? dumb can? in the end just screwed the whole thing and went to eat burger king, and the BK pepper burger SUX big time man. Todae was a bad 'food' day lahs, then i diarrhoea whole day somemore, can it get any more fucked up? can it? =.=""

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