Voodoo

Simple day todae, but as usaul im veri happy todae. Maybe its because of her? I dun know, maybe, just maybe... What is fate? It is the path that u can avoid yet choose to walk it.
Got the defination from someone and i tink its quite true. Todae i chose a different path and well, im happy todae. :) Dun understand nevermind lah, infact i hope the reader wont understand. lolx

Alrite, i have yet again set for myself impossible tasks. lolx. i seem to be hooked on setting tasks for myself man.. zzz.. a few months ago it was the 'solitary sentence'. And surprisingly i didnt break the routine, hahass.. This time, its 2 tasks, the 1st task is used to acheive the second task.
The 1st task is to lose weight and tone up, i know, i've been saying this for a long time alreadi, but this time i will do it. Gave myself 4 mths, bought a new water bottle to drink water and no more sweet drinks for me unless unavoidable. April 1st, this sunday, i will start my regime and get back my poly boxing form once again. Been slacking around too long, its time i start my butt up and trained.

The second task is much much more difficult then the second task, its the reason why im happy nowadays and i intent to make it permanent. This type of unexplainable happiness is so intriguing even i myself dun kw why im happy. Okays, too complex, nvm. :P

Among guys, i tink im among the better ones out there, cause i've realli seen some bastards in my 24yrs. Some guys like to look for trouble, some guys like to cheat gals, some guys like to cheat money and some guys are pure perverts. Guys that look for trouble are childish and dumb, they like to go around acting like uneducated cocks. Guys that cheat gals are called jerks and these retards always got the worse type of karma in their later life. Guys that cheat money aint so bad unless they cheat old folks money, most of the population in this cathegory are residing in changi now. Guys that are pure perverts are the most dangerous sort because they terrorize people and the only solution is violence. :)

Toking about violence, i sometimes look at my fists and things start to run thru my mind. The most delicate limbs on our body is used to effect maximum damage. Ironic but true, and i realised alot of guys out there think they are bruce lee or some sort of fighting legend.
And hence lets discuss singaporean's favourite topic! AH BENGS!
Lets cathegorize ah bengs by race shall we? :)

Chinese ah bengs (C.beng) are still okay, since they onli walk like they've got HUGE testicles.
Speciality : Scaring the shit out of primary school kids and collecting 'protection' money.

Malay ah bengs (M.beng) are void deckers and skater-punk wannabe, likes to terrorize HDB aunties.
Speciality : Robbing old folks, wolf whistling girls and 'test-ride' motorbikes parked below HDBs.

Indian ah bengs (I.beng) are hiphop wannabes and likes to walk with a swagger like they're hiphopping.
Speciality : Listen to bangla techno and shake here shake there, jittao imagine they are some hiphop rapper although in actual fact they look like bone-thin african kids.

Ang moh ah bengs (A.beng) are a specially gifted lot, they can scold vulgarities using advanced english vocabulary that the other 3 types of ah bengs dun understand.
Specialty : Since most of them look like ABCs, they like to cheat sec skool gals and act casanova, but when a real fight ensues, they fight like sissies and after losing, go home tell mummy.

Imagine during racial harmony day, all the various ah beng groups come out to a place to find trouble....

C.beng : Eh siao lian eh, kua simi lanjiao? Buay song si bo? *looks at M.beng*

M.beng : Eh, ja-kap-ah-per? Selamat hari raya? Adil Fitri? *looks at C.beng*

C.beng : What cock u toking? I ask u see wat see? Not happy izzit? Not happy come lah!

A.beng : Dudes, can u guys pls shut the fuck up? im trying to hook a gal here! *Toking to gal*

C.beng : U cb ang moh liu lian diam diam hor, knn later nin peh kio ur whole family! *point finger*

A.beng : Yeah, nice try u piece of shit, i sincerely wonder how u were brought up u motherf$%#ker! *Flexes fist like those heroes in hollywood movies*

C.beng gets ready to fight with A.beng, M.beng starts sitting on the road fences when suddenly they noticed a banana tree...

C.beng : Nabei lah, eh ah neh! can stop moving around the cb tree anot? u soot left soot right also soot bird one lah, go back bangla plant banana lah~~

I.beng: Pundeh! xxxxyyyy-neh? xxxzzzzz-neh! *shakes head vigoriously from side to side..*

and then police come, all of them said different stuffs to police uncle...

Police : Eh, u all fighting ah? Wanna go drink milo/kopi?

C.beng : Paiseh lah, tok tok nia mah, play play nia lah, bo sio pa lah... ai zai...

M.beng : Soli soli, we toking and joking onli lah, relac lah~~~~

I.beng: Soli boss, soli, my fault boss, we tok tok play play boss, no fight boss...(Bangla immigrant)

A.beng: Its alrite sir, we're just screwing around yeah? we're the bestest of frens around here man... chill dude...

Lolx, that's a brief sample of how ah bengs operate lah, though not beri accurate. lolx. Anyways the above is just a light hearted look at beng-to-logy in my country, not some extremist racist comments. lolx. :)

Well, i kw the above is abit crazy lah, but im happy mah, my mind is flooded with images of happiness.. lolx... but coming back to reality, i dun tink its possible lah, unless miracles exist... do they? ^_-

Jason's Famous Quotes: Love is like a pilgrimage, in the end u achieve enlightenment.

Did You Know?: Being a pretty gal in this world is dangerous. Perverts are in our midst...

Hmm...

Todae i am tired. Realli tired. Tomolo will be going to stef's bf house to do project overnight. Life sux, marketing sux. Todae lazy to type too much, hence i upload pictures to illustrate my colourful life ba. :)

The current hearts level, its overflowing sia. lolx!

My New Nalgene Bottle, i LOVE the glass effect!

My Mahjong hand during one of my lucky rounds!

Another one of my hands! its onli the 2nd wave!

Botak Burger dissection!!!

Botak Burger Original Form~~!!! 0.0!!

Botak Jone's Fish n Chips!!!


Okays, i tink i am going to sleep, tomolo have comm law lecture. This few days will show abit of my dark side, cause i am realli feeling the strain. Will bite strangers that steps on my tail, notice the word stranger. Slowly bit by bit, i tink there's another thing that slowly made me happier, though its onli a small thing, but i tink can go far. Dun ask me why i kw, i just kw. Enjoy the pictures in the meantime ba. :)

Jason's Famous Quotes: Bring the fight to me, i am waiting.

Did You Know?: Fighting is an advanced form of art that has a physical manifestation.

Happy

Todae passed up Comm Law assignment. My assignment is a total mess i tink, lols, anyhow write one. :p Todae im quite happy, there's a reason why im happier then usual these few days, heehee. Its a beri simple thing lah, but i just feel tat much happier leh, i dun understand why. Its been a long time since anybody or anything can actually make unconciously me happy, but ya, i do feel happy now. hahasss!

Todae went to ah tan house to play mahjong, lost again, i keep losing in mahjong. zzz... And my marketing project is in a total mess now, we're like so dead. Tomolo i shall personally see to it that our project gets 90% done, im not going home until we finish 90% of the project. *determined*!

Okays, i kw u guys and gals missed my theory lessons rite? Therefore todae, i shall start my lecture on a special topic --> Theory of Compulsive Psychology. (CP)

Compulsive psychology are spiritual conditions in human psychology that causes or induces compulsory mental states. Meaning u are forced to think about someone or something that u dun wanna tink about. Do u sometimes tink about someone that u shouldnt be tinking about at all? Do u tink about some very pointless thing and yet felt a surge of emotional gratitude afterwards? Prolonged exposure to compulsive psychology will permanently affect ur normal psychosis and bring about benefit or damage to mental well-being.

Advanced levels of compulsive psychology can affect external physical or ethereal matters. Forcing ur mind to focus on a physical entity will actually alter its resting state, the common term for it is Psychokinesis. And the most powerful manifestation of CP is the ability to alter other being's mental status. For example, just concentrating on a particular person and mentally telling him to do something will actually affect that person to do that particular action. For example, if u concentrate on a person in a game of mahjong, tat person will actually give u what tile u want. And on a more common basis, do u sometimes have the ability to 'foresee' the future? They call those event deja vu, which is actually CP at work, twisting space-time to make things happen in your favour. It might seem far fetched that a single person's brain can alter large scale events, but the power of the brain is limitless.

Always remember, a fully unleashed brain is the most powerful entity in existence. Look at the things we humans have done with onli 3% (not sure correct anot) of our brain, and to explore the deeper recesses of our minds will be a intimidating process. The best thing is, u will be able to read other people's minds and know what kind of dark stuffs they think about. Now after reading my theory, try focusing ur mind on a piece of paper. The paper will eventually move due to ur CP ability. Try it, u will b surprised. :)

Jason's Famous Quotes: The mind is limitless. But why am i so stupid?

Did You Know?: Humans used to be able to fly. But we lost tat ability since we stopped drinking redbull.

Deja-Vu-etivity

There are some things that cannot be explicitly put out in black and white, because people fear the consequences of the black and white being seen by the unintented readers. I do agree that im also bounded by this natural restriction because after weighing the cost-benefit index, its undesirable. :)

For the past weeks, my left eye tendon have been jumping non-stop most of the time, but i realised it will stop jumping when i 'fulfill a condition'. And that 'condition' is a realli contraditory occurance. lolx. Been debating over COMM LAW assignment todae with ah tan and company. Each of us have our veri own ideologies on what constitutes various ACTS. Todae was a veri productive day with respect to me because simply put, i sorted out lots of comm law issues thanks to the help of my frens. hahass :P

Yesterday was playing mahjong with eugene, nich and meiting when meiting suddenly said something farnny. lolx. She said guys who can sing well get extra credit when going after gals, though i kept quiet after that, inside me i beg to differ. Whatever talent u have does not realli contribute to ur desirability index unless the person is appreciative of ur talent.

U can sing well, dance well and be realli a realli truthful person. But in the end, the winners always are those that speak well and act well. Words are one of the most lethal weapon that guys have against womenfolk, and coupled with oscar-winning acting, its the ultimate weapon in the world. Everyone has their own motives and modus-operandi, yet who realli won in the end?

Life is like mahjong, if u can tok well, u can deceive people into giving u wat u need to win a round. U never kw what tiles people have and what formations they wanna make, ur best hope is guessing their intentions judging from what tiles they show/throw away. Always remember my 'life is like mahjong' theory when things get abit cranky in life, even the most lousy tiles can form a 13-DEMONS (Shi-San-Yao). So dun see bad stuffs as realli bad stuffs, they might be blessing in disguise! XD

Ytd while waiting for eugene to crawl to my house, nich meiting and me were chatting about guy/gal stuffs on the mahjong table. I argued my viewpoint with a conventional issue and nich reminded me that i am still tinking about past fallacies. I realised i realli did harbour a deep dark regret regarding that issue and that explains why i held the believe that 'that' is the reason i failed.Oh well, i guess my ego does need protection after all rite? heehee:)

Oh, before i forget, im having silly dreams nowadays sia, ta ma de. i keep dreaming about somebody falling down and injuring herself sia. Then i walk over and asked her "how heavy are u ah?" and then start to carry her and run to the hospital. Dun ask me how, dun ask me why, i dun fucking kw, but it keeps repeating itself sia.... i wonder is it because jean's recent injury that reignited my medic-responsiblities? hmms.... i shall not write whose the one that fell down cause i tink its bad luck lah, later realli hor, she might tink i curse her.. -.-""

Alrite, its 4.15am alreadi, need to get some beauty sleep to prepare myself for tomolo's event.
OPERATION COMM LAW!~~~~

Jason's Famous Quotes: Life is like mahjong.

Did You Know?: Mahjong prevents alzhimer's and parkinson's disease.

Convergence

Been contemplating to come up with a melody for my song. I sort of have the lyrics ready though normally people come up with melody first before lyrics. lolx. Wells, anyways i do have some ideas in my head and my trusty handphone became my temporary music storage. But the sad thing is hp can onli record max 1 min... hmph... My com can record, but i lazy to configure leh. :p

I've been obsessed with the zhuan shu tian shi song by TANK nowadays. And todae stef showed me one of the accessories she was selling was a swarovski crystal angel hand phone strap. Its damn cute and nice sia, but abit costly at $11.50. Was wondering maybe i can write a script about this angel strap and maybe put the angel song as a backdrop? LOLX! But if i plan to write a script, it will be beri beri sad, cause i like shows that moves people. Those type that u will cry after watching. *.*V

Oh well, i gotta say this, im slowly waking up from a facate of dreams. Been dreaming mostly thruout the semester and i need to do a little more for my studies. Dreams about toning up also need to put aside, studies first. Dreams about being with her also should be shelved and put aside, no point letting someone that doesnt belongs to u flood ur mind almost everyday rite? Yupz!

Todae's econs lesson was totally greek to me, i didnt understand much about the jargons and the stewpid 'K' multiplier and other silly terms. But using my common sense i understood most of the lesson in the end after i simplified it to suit me. heehee :) smart! Paid $4 to go for a movie event on the 2nd of april since most of the OG is going and its kuku's event mah, so must go support since i promised her long ago le. :) Currently still folding hearts as a hobby, i nearli have 2 huge boxes full le, i tink one more box should suffice ba.

After lessons todae, went with rei and nich to play STARCRAFT at clementi lanshop. Its been AGES since i last played starcraft lors, was fun playing with nicky boy and rei-gay. :P Todae i made a few discoveries that astounds me sia. Didnt kw tat person was so jovial and down-to-earth de sia, lolx, sometimes the things tat person say realli is unexpected and well, all in all i can say tat is true cuteness ba, not in the er xin way, but in a more approachable manner. Glad to have a fren like tat! :)

Alrite, i guess its time to sleep again. I love sleeping, life is all about eating right, shitting light and sleeping tight! ( shitting light means u shit confortably, no 'heavy' shits. :P )

Jason's Famous Quotes: Fear is a reaction in me, but it does not last.

Did You Know?: Mahjong is the 'IN' thing now. Try it, love it!

Benediction

Hmms, yesterday play mahjong and lost $18. Sianz....Nowadays i keep plyin mahjong sia. lolx, didnt realised mahjong is so fun de lors, so addictive somemore. hahass :p Well, tomolo's MAB test and though i did camped at skool todae, i still tink it's not sufficient. But ironically im blogging here, hmph.

Todae eugene (he's a new guy that came into our OG) was going to toilet when he saw me sitting by the koi pond outside the study room. I was taking a break from the studies and sitting outside listening to song and people watching. But eugene came over and tot i was veri sad, tat's y i go outside squat. lolx. He laments that he is in the same state as me and he understands how i feel. But i beg to differ though. Im not sad and im just stoning outside to chill off the book-burn.
But eugene is quite a nice guy lah, so i started to tell him stories of past events and actively immersed with him in solemn sadness. But i still tink no point crying over split (i kw, it should be spilt) milk mah, what is done cant be undone mah, so eugene ah eugene, trust me when i say do not be unethically in love.

Sometimes tinking bout it makes me sooooooo pointless. I didnt go around telling people stuffs u see, eugene happened to be going home with me the day before with xuanhe and he sort of asked me a question that seems all too common now. Around 20 million people asked me the same question. I wont write what question he asked, but i told him my same honest reply. Like means like, true breed men shouldnt hide things. After that i didnt realli wanna say much anymore lah, dun wanna start a marketing campaign. hahass! :P

And then we toked about someone else. XH and i analysed probability of a guy getting hitched with tat someone we're toking about. ZERO, absolute ZERO possibility. lolx. XH and i both passed absolute judgement that unless the world ends, its super impossible for that guy. LOLX!
Alritey, after MAB tomolo, there's lesson, and during lesson, i shall draft out my newest plan. Fitness plan that is. I hope that it works, and i adhere to it, if not, im fucked. I tink im ballooning slowly nowadays lors, even silly kuku says my belly looks bigger... omg... cannot, must be FIT ZAI like sean le. I tink i should go buy the game fight night 3, its super nice and i like boxing. But their blows abit slow leh, should be faster mah. :x...

Ehs seanny boy, i slowly start to become fit zai ba, then we arm wrestling everytime we meet, who win, who gets free kopi, swee bo? :) At least got something for me to work towards mah...
Will save up to buy a nalgene bottle and drink plain water ba. No more sweet/canned drinks for me, onli exception being bubble tea ba. And onli if kuku wanna drink bubble tea then i can drink with her, if not, plain water. So if i still remains fat hor, can blame her mah. SMART! :P

I wonder whether i can stick to my schedule sia, if im realli toned up and can run 2.4km under 8 mins hor, i will theoretically be rich. Cause my ippt will get gold and that means $400, then i can go do part time modelling like rei and earn some cash!! A wise man called jason (me) once said, money is the best motivating factor! And hor most prob i will tio TOTO, cause the impossible have happened! I toned up!! LOLX!!! :x

Jason's Famous Quotes: If u dun wanna tink about someone, u are alreadi tinking about her.

Did You Know?: For $40k, u could get a Mitsubishi Lancer now! But i no license...

Mysterious...

I have a confession to make. There's someone that i keep thinking about. It shouldnt be that way, but something makes me keep thinking about that person. We dun tok much, our personalities dun fit and we aint close at all. Why do i keep thinking about that person? Why do i keep wanting to find out what is happening to that person everyday? Hmms, i guess i need to ask peter the psychology student ba. hahass.

Seriously speaking, i dun even kw how come that person keep popping up in my head. And i know stuffs about that person that i shouldnt be knowing because we are not that close. Funny thing right? Well, is it because of looks? or because of some unknown factors? Anyways, was wondering if this type of thing happens to everybody or is it just me? hmms...

Whatever hor, im still waiting happily for 'her', so maybe tis person that is in my brains simply made a deeper impact on me then others? I analysed le, toking about looks/lust, i should be more mesmerized by MSU mah, and toking about personality hor, im totally inclined to 'her' leh, so where does that puts that person? Dun worry, i tink im quite sure its not love lah, dun tink too far lah. Just curious what kinda omen it signifies? ( Maybe that person can help me win TOTO?!!)

Alrite, enough bout that mysterious person, maybe it crawl away from my brain with time ba. Even when i tink about it hor, if im that person and im in some fat fuck's brain hor, i will feel disgusted. lolx. And well, my blog is about honesty mah, its a philosophy that i preach dearly. hehee.

Okies, for those wondering who is MSU, MSU stands for Miss Singapore Universe. hahass, its a nick tot out by the guys for a junior that's in our skool. She's a participant in MSU mah, so she's quite pretty (though look abit cheena -.-) , got figure and height too. Hahass, she's one of the recent eye candies in skool that we took a notice to. :P

Toking about eye candies, lets be frank, my class have a few eye candies that the guys mostly approved of. They are the official eye candies voted by 5 perfectly straight guys. LOLX!
Excluding people from my OG hor, theres around 5 candies in class, first and foremost is nich's all time fav jacqueline, the ah lian look alike. lolx. Then there's xueting and grace which rei highly recommends. :x And there's this tall gal that rei say is gf material. I dun kw her name. hahass. Ah tan likes mickey mouse ears gals and in our class there's 2 gals i tink. Eileen looks eurasian and is quite pretty, she looks abit like adeline though.. oh well. hahass. Natalie is also one of the candies cause she slimed down quite alot sia. And i tink there's this gal that have a childish voice and big big eyes too, she's quite doll-like but she smokes and is attached... too bad. hahasss!
Mandy is hot, i tink she can go FHM take picture sia. woooo~~~~I think that's about it ba, those are the prettier ones lors, though the gals in our class mostly aint too bad looks-wise.

Okies, that sums up the eye candies, so now we go onto a more pressing issue. If i drop into the sea one day, i tink i most prob will survive simply because my spare tire is getting so huge. LOLX! Nabei one, didnt realli notice im getting fatter until i saw the fats overflowing sia. kaoz, shall plan out a training schedule again soon. Planning is simple, the difficult part is to stick to the schedule... zzzz... Anyways, will TRY to start training soon and get a 6 pack 4 mths later. I mean 6-pack Tiger Beer hor, lolx! Biceps jittao shrink until like some weakling sia, zzz, used to be 14.8 inches, now its like 11 inches? Cannot lah, need to train and prep up le lah, a 60 yr old ah-peh can win me in a fight lors.... i am a weakling... i am kai cheong... i am weak.... NOOOOOO~~~~!!!

Jason's Famous Quotes: Death is but a journey to the west.

Did You Know?: Sometimes, bad things might be a blessing in disguise.

专属天使

作词:施人诚

作曲:tank

编曲:吕绍淳

演唱:tank

我不会怪你对我的伪装

天使在人间是该藏好翅膀

人们愚蠢鲁莽而你纤细善良

怎能让你为了我被碰伤

小小的手掌厚厚的温暖

你总能平复我不安的夜晚

不敢想的梦想透过你的眼光

我才看见它原来在前方

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁

你是我的专属天使

唯我能独占

没有谁能取代你在我心上

拥有一个专属天使

我哪里还需要别的愿望

小小的手掌大大的力量

我一定也会像你一样飞翔

你想去的地方就是我的方向

有我保护笑容尽管灿烂

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁

你是我的专属天使

唯我能独占

没有谁能取代你在我心上

拥有一个专属天使

我哪里还需要别的愿望

要不是你出现

我一定还在沉睡

绝望的以为生命只有黑夜

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁

你是我的专属天使

唯我能独占

没有谁能取代你在我心上

拥有一个专属天使

我哪里还需要别的愿望...

The above song is by TANK and i think it realli means alot. Its a easy yet sincere song that can put forth how someone is an angel to a guy (me). lolx! Dying to go KTV again cause i wanna train this song. Toking about training songs, in my song list there's a few songs that i regularly sing at KTVs. They are Forever Love, Kiss Goodbye, Zhi Dui Ni Shuo, Bai Se Feng Che, Tui Hou etc.. Well, Forever Love i almost everytime go KTV also must sing, cause i treat it as training mah, next time when i propose to wife must sing this in public de lors~~~. hahahass :P

There's Econs Test later and im still loitering around here, lolx. Anyways its a multiple choice test and i guess i shouldnt fare too badly ba. And regarding the post before this, whatever i write is my thoughts and viewpoint, dun take them as the whole and complete truth. As things progresses, they always are subjected to various mutating factors, so ya, my blog = my perspective. :)

Life isnt too great for me these days, i just sorted out a frenship problem, and the family problem that has been underlying for so long finally resurfaced again. Relationship basically no problems because im still waiting mah, so dun need to tink too much, just wait. Frenship problem is solved by a phone call and the final piece is family problem. Onli 2 person kw my family problem and i seriously liked to keep the numbers small. heehee, no use washing dirty linen outside mah rite? :P

Jason's Famous Quotes: U read my blog, u keep it to urself. U get me in trouble, i fuck u.

Did You Know?: My blog is the purest form of honesty in the world.

Spartanian Quotation: We Do Not Ask How Many, We Onli Ask Where.

Inferior-tivity

Why can't people have more faith in people? Frends for 13 yrs, been thru thick and thin, yet because of a gal he dun trust me. And to add insult to injury, its because of a small and silly incident. It seems what is within will eventually surface. He's been keeping it within himself for some years now and i didnt notice it. He has inferior-complex.

It all started one fine day last year, when he introduced a gal called Bel to me. He told me she's a nice gal and we went to watch movie together. And so bel and i got to kw each other's existence. One month later, in msn, he added me to a conversation between both of them, and i chatted abit and suggested going to sing ktv. Bel sore throat so ktv cancelled. End of part 1 of story.

Part 2, bel set up a webby to sell clothes and accessories. He informed me to go see see and patronize. Went to the webby, not interested. Since i have her msn alreadi, went to ask her wanna go sing anot. Bel's fine with singing ktv, went to ask him. He said dun want, asked him why, he say he working, told him to change to afternoon shift so we could go sing, i long long time never sing alreadi. He gave attitude problem and gave me lame excuses not to sing. Accepted the fact and went out to sing with my other frens so as to satisfy my singing craving.

Part 3. Reached home late last weekend, went online to look for the guys to game. Everybody slept alreadi, so lonely me went to msn to look for ppl to chat. Happened to see bel online, chatted abit, she told me got new stocks for guys, went to see see. Noticed nice striped shirts that i wanted but was unsure of quality, so need to meet up to see the shirts and pay for them. Suggested going to sing again because shun bian mah.Also got her number so that can contact to collect shirts.

Smsed him to inform him and ask whether he free anot, cause i missed singing with him. I asked him 2 weeks ago to sing with richard too, but he wasnt free so this week ask him again lor, anyways bel is his fren, so i dun wanna go out with her alone. The first reply i got was " How u contact her? msn?". Was suspicious, but replied 'ya'. Instantly he's mood changed and showed me attitude problem. He smsed me " U like her izzit? Give u ba. U and her make cool and good couple."

Mentally i was like WTF? and i replied " Pls dun get the wrong idea, we are frens onli and im buying clothes from her, that's y need to meet her."
He replied " Dun lie lah, i kw u like her. Give u ba. I not free to sing, u go with her alone can le."
i was sort of pissed and replied "Dun tink too much lah, since u dun like it, cancel ba. No point u suspect me like tat."
He replied " Nvm lah, u go with her alone ba. Enjoy."
I gave up. Fuck it. Pissed.

Part 4. Todae bel smsed me to tell me this thursday she free, ask whether wanna go sing ktv anot. Forwarded the msg to him to make sure he dun get the wrong idea and to proof to him that we have nothing to hide. He replied " Wah, u got her handphone number alreadi ah? good."
i replied " ya, i buying clothes from her mah, so need to get contacts so can meet up to collect shirts."
He replied " Nvm ba, u and her beri compatible, go with her ba."
I felt damn vexed and replied " Dun tink too much pls, i realli dun like her because i alreadi liked XXXXXX le, my heart is with XXXXXX long ago. Bel is not my type anyways."
He replied "I cant make it, u go with her ba."
I cant stand it le i smsed Bel "Sad, he cant make it on thursday."
Bel replied "Nvm then, sunday i free also, onz?"
I forwarded the msg to him to ask him free notz.
he replied " I cant, sunday my gf with me" ( Yes, he have a girlfriend. )
I reply " kks, nvm ba, then cancel sua."
He replied " Nvm lah, u go with her alone lor, good mah."

And things started to spin out of control le. He smsed Bel saying he dun wanna meet up with her anymore and he smsed me asking me to go for her and tell me he gave up on her.
I am mighty pissed and feels damn fucked. Frends for 13 yrs and now u give me this type of shit? I cant even be bothered to reply him after i tried to appease him for 2 hrs. He is fucking childish can? I have onli toked to her 3 - 4 fucking times and he fucking thinks i wanna woo her?

Worse thing is he went to smsed bel this :" We dun meet anymore ba, i am not scared of (competition from) jason. U both Uni students, he is cool and nice for u, i am not worthy of you."

FUCK LAH, ccb in our 13 yrs of frendship, i have never ever uttered a single word to look down on him. Why the hell he tinks in that way i dun kw, but wat i kw is i am completely mystified and pissed by this issue. He tinks bel looks down on him that's y reject him, but bel does not thinks that way. And knowing him for 13 fucking cb years, i kw he is veri egoistic, no amount of toking can make him admit he is wrong. What i have to say is though he is 25 yrs old, i realli think mentally he is still a kid. He mentally tinks that he is inferior to me, i didnt notice that all along.
No wonder he keeps criticising me whenever he can so that he can seem the better person. Sometimes he is wrong, the whole world knows, but he INSISTS that he is right.

Even in games, he did something wrong, and went into a quarrel with people. I have to clean up after him to iron out the shit he created. All these, he didnt kw. I always need to iron out his shit after him to appease people. And now i guess its the last fucking time im doing tis. I have to sms bel to apologise for his childishness and immaturity. Imagine u are a gal, and u suddenly receive a sms to say 'lets not meet anymore." Knn fucking childish can? Its not even anybody's fault.

I buy clothes, she sell clothes, we go out sing TOGETHER as 3 FRENDS, and he tinks i wanna tackle her then kiong her at his expense. We made a pact 12 yrs ago when we were still kids, that we will be truthful to our girlfrens/wife and will never target each other's gals. I still vividly remember that pact and i can honourably say that i upheld it till this moment. He voided the first part about being truthful and faithful to his gf, but i swear upon the heavens that i have not broken our childhood promise.

All in all, he simply dun trust me at all. I told him umpteen times im waiting for 'her' and will certainly never fall for bel. He's inferior complex is taking over his senses and he is blindly imagining stuffs. Studies wise he might not be that proficient, but he has other skills as well, yet he simply can see all these. Why look at things that u dun have? Might as well examine what u have and treasure them. People, if u all reading this, give it some thought, dun be like my best buddy, dun feel inferior, look at ur strenghts...

Jason's Famous Quotes: Look at what u have, rather then what u dun have.

Did You Know?: Im unethically in love.

Offensive

Sometimes, its simply astounds me how fake a human being can be. U can be someone at this moment yet u can be another person at differing times. Though its been sometime, i still insist that humans are evil, especially guys. People can put nice nice comments on u and stuff, but deep inside, they just want a piece of u. They say u are nice/pretty/handsome/watever but in the end, they just wanna kiong u. So what's at the end of the road?

The above said, that explains why we as homosapians treasure sincerity. I treasure sincerity and though i dun always give it, i try to most of the time. The purest form of sincerity is the type without returns. Being true to people without expecting people to be true to you. In our modern society, that is known as naive/dumb/stewpid. I've read some stuffs and also read the comments by people. All in all, maybe im just being pessimistic ba, yet i have seen some very dissapointing display of hypocripsy that made me very sensitive to 'nice' people.

If you dun understand what i meant above, dun bother brooding over it too much, cause its pointless anyways. Okays, lets move on to something more jovial.

Yesterday went to play game with nich rei and tan. We finally completed moomoo, hahass, damn fun. :P After that we went to eat chicken rice at rochor road, and there was this guy from cheena that looked at rei like a total gay shit. lolx! And we realised rei is a GAY MAGNET! hahass, nich is the God/Shen and rei is gay magnet.... Reilly is a beri good looking guy, yet he eludes a 'gay aura' that converts most ppl around him to gays. LOLX.. we were walking along the road and suddenly nich and tan 'held' hands due to the gay aura. knn damn farnny can the scene when both of them turbo clean their hands and freak out. hahasss.. :P

Im beginning to miss some people. They are the people i hang out with during my poly days... Ah wong, KC, Weak Kaichong, Vincent, Botak.... haiz, time simply erodes away at frendship....

Im troubled, its those downtimes in life again, im starting to feel stressed up and the things piling up infront of me dun realli help. Studies wise i am beri worried, alot of mugging to do at the end of this mth. Fitness wise i am totally lazy and hardly trains much. Gaming wise i am gaming too much, its realli bad but its fun. And finally relationship wise i am tinking of giving up, but the fighter in me tells me to have stamina and endure. But what if this goes on for 5 yrs? If i wont age, i will wait, but i am human after all. I have waited in the past before, but i was 16 yrs old then. I guess i still have to take back what i say after all peter, as long as he is nice to her then enough le ba, i join ur pessimistic-yet-noble club ba. No point mah, no money, no body, no looks cfm cannot make it de. Even if fate denotes that she was mine, she will onli be suffering with me. Shyt, why am i tinking the same way as u peter? lols.. u infected me with ur psychological virus izzit? hahahss...

Anyways i hope our misfortune will not spread to sean ba :). Went back to collect pay yesterday at office, i got $80 onli cause i work 1 day -.-"".... hao poor... feel the poorness.... And saw chap in the office, chatted with him abit cause he's leaving the company already. Sad to see him go, but he is going to work at a bank mah, so its good for him lor. And do i realli look like a jap? Was wondering how come people say i look jap. hmms... fat jap anyone? heehee :P

*If u are a person that dun tink alot, dun read the below paragraph.*

Todae's theory is the theory of the ULTIMATE TRUTH. What is truth? Truth means the unveiling of the real and correct state of matters(according to me). Truth hurts, yet it also teaches. So what is the ultimate truth? The ultimate truth is a phenomenon that occurs when the final facades of deception falls(Jason's theorem :) ). In my introduction paragraph, i described a entity of being hypocritical, and hence i shall use the entity as an example. Truth have another astral entity tagging along with it, and its name is called Justice. With Truth, comes Justice. When the truth of an issue is known, justice will be summoned to punish the one that infringes and distorts truth for his own use. Another ethereal entity called fate will summon forth retribution to fulfill the request of Justice so as to complete the Cycle of Truth. And Justice is classified into 2 cathegories, Righteous Justice and Perceived Justice. And well, when everything seemingly ends after the deceit of morals have been uncovered, regulatory action will autonomously take effect. No matter the amount of time required, the ultimate truth will still emerge victorious. The cycle of life is complex yet simple. What comes around shall goes around. Do evil, tink evil, and u will beget evil. Therefore from tomolo onwards, i shall do/tink less evil and maybe ascertain myself as non-evil person. :)

(Note: Coming to tink of it, why not i take up peter's idea and go be a living buddha in Tibet? LOLX)


Jason's Famous Quotes: The ultimate truth will always elude u until u seek enlightenment.

Did You Know?: Spell LIVE backwards and u get ---> EVIL....

Shallowity

Things are starting to get stressful nowadays, and that explains why i am updating tis blog after sooooo many days. Alrite, i admit, its also partly due to me being realli lazy. hahass. :P

New phrase of the month conceived by me yesterday. " So far yet so near, so near yet so far."
People with some depth will try to interpret the irony in this phrase, and for those without so deep a mind, i shall explain. It simply connotes that what he/she wanted in the past was what he/she thought he/she realli wanted, but after sometime he/she realised what he/she really wanted was infront of him/her all along, yet what was infront of him/her that was so near to him/her in the past was now far from him/her due to unforseen circumstances. Understand?
Using my famous 'toilet bowl' analogy, its like ur shit, u see other ppl shit a brown colour shit and u wanted to shit brown colour shit. In the end when u shit brown colour shit, u realised brown colour shit is in u all the time, when finally u wanna see and cherish ur brown colour shit, it has alreadi been flushed down the toilet... understand? :)

Was doing project for the past few days at dhoby ghaut exchange. I have been to dhoby ghaut for 3 consecutive days, i tink the shop keepers there alreadi kw me by heart le.. zzzz... Project progress have been not that fast these days and we have 3 weeks more b4 we need to hand it in. And econs test is next next week. And comm law assignment is like early april if im not wrong. I feel so fucked all of a sudden. lolx. I always preach a stress-free world and hence i still insists im stressless currently, take everything slowly lors, relax, chill.... wooo~~~~~

Temper is at a all time low, money is at a all time low, fat level is at all time high... Life is so unfair sometimes rite? hahass... okies, tml shall start eating healthy alreadi, morning will start my oatmeal regime once again, and so on so forth. I have bought a calligraphy of the word "DRAGON" and hung it on my wall. Wudi one. And have stopped folding hearts for like a week due to preparation for marketing test. Tomolo will start folding once again, i need more hearts and more sincerity. :)

If u've been tinking why my blog seems so shallow suddenly, its because i purposely made this entry shallow. hahass... previous entries seem so heavily laden with secondary information that the fun seems to be missing from blogging. muahahaha... :P And yesh, tis entry, no theory. :O


Jason's Famous Quotes: Regret is like cancer, u just cant shake it off.

Did You Know?: I am prejudiced against male homosexuals.

Pictographicy

Alrite, i was telling myself to start photo blogging or video blogging, when i realised that i am simply too lazy to do that. lolx! I always have lots and lots of stuff in my head during my journeys across our sweet little island but i always seem to forget what they were when i wanna blog. Gosh.

Okays, lets start with todae ba. Todae morning went to meet kuku to go for the company's lunch( yes, u heard rite, we have a company lunch) for chinese new yr celebration. Kevin --> the boss gave us ang baos of $50, yesh, there's no typo, $50 angbaos. And its given to every staff, i was flabbergasped... Then the lunch was at a chinese restaurant and the meal totalled $698+.... what kinda boss is this man? Damn good can? Heng i found a boss like him sia, damn lucky. lolx.

Then after that helped 'princess' with her OB proj, but didnt realli helped lah, didnt wanna disturb her mah, ppl rushing project leh. So the sensible me kept quiet and started folding my dear hearts. heehee. Nowadays i have a new hobby, origami. Im currently folding lots and lots of hearts, i have like a box of them alreadi. I got take picture show below, hahhasss.... I tink i look damn farnny today one the mrt lors... I was wearing my chilly-cool aviators shades and im supposed to be composed and cool mah, but there i was, folding hearts on the mrt to kill off time. Huge contrast man. wootz. :P

And then comes the burning question that even kuku was beri interested in : Who are the hearts for?

Answer: Its a hobby. Whether its for someone, i dun wanna say now. Diam diam better, trust me. :)

And no, im not going to put them into a silly bottle and give it to someone. That's like so outdated lors. Hao le, enough about hearts. I was tinking about buying some car models and assemble them. Then there was the thought about learning CHA DAO because i simply love chinese tea. And then there's the wakeboarding thingy. And the list goes on.... but atlas, the list is limited by a single resource called MONEY.

Watched rocky balboa ytd on my shiny new PC. Totally impressed with the sheer determination and willpower of ROCKY. 60+ and counting and yet that old guy is much much fitter then me. Im only 23 and i punch like a wimp. The film was inspirational and did sort of wake up the beast in me. hahass.... beast of health lah, not violence.. =.="" And then there was the takings for the chinese new yr.

My ang pao money is realli realli sad, maybe because i've been a bad kid last yr ba, so this yr punish me. T_T
















This is a masterpiece folded by Ms kuku herself... *pukes* :P
















My angpao money.... the world is ending....















My aviators...















The hearts zoomed in...















I kw, i cant find other boxes lah, so use tissue box lors... i beri enviromental frendly lors...



Jason's Famous Quotes: A picture says a thousand words, but a word paints a million pictures.

Did You Know: My first love can sing beri beri well according to Richard. Is it true?

Piety

A guitar has life. To me, music is life itself. Learning to play the guitar was one of the few things tat i absolutely thank fate for. I learnt to laugh and cry using a guitar, though most of the times is cry. I am a traditional guy that holds on to the golden rules of manhood. Tears shall onli be shed on 3 occasions, a loved on died, ur country felled and i forgot the last one, lolx. Anyways, since i cant realli cry when im sad, i use my guitar to pour forth my emotions. I remembered once during my poly days, i sort of met with some beri unfortunate turn of events.

Its during a Freshman Orientation Camp and im one of the commitee if i remembered correctly. In the middle of the night, when everyone was sleeping in the hall, i was tinking about someone which i dun remember now. I realli couldnt sleep at all and as u ppl alreadi kw, im SUPER sentimental at nite, especially cold nites. I took my guitar and walked out to the dark field, then say there and played a extremely sad rendition of 'Reason', the theme song for the korean drama 'Autumn in my heart' aka 'Qiu Tian De Tong Hua'. As each and every note echoes towards the nite, the cries of a forlorn heart seems so crystine and silent. One of my frens tat couldnt sleep came out and joined me, sitting quietly beside me and listening intently. He said its realli veri sad, he can feel my emotions from the music. And then from then on, i discovered this new way of letting out my emotions.

Im practicing my guitar again after 5 yrs of nearli not touching a guitar, so was quite stiff initially. For the past week i have been playing on and off, which gave me back my 'feel' again. The joy of perfecting a song is a indescribable feeling, maybe it can qualify as a mini-orgasm? LOLX! But well, now i can pluck and sing JU HUA TAI quite smoothly and i seriously loved singing along with my own music. I should have learnt piano when i was younger, then i can play piano and sing FOREVER LOVE and KISS GOODBYE, but well, too bad i rejected my mum's offer when i was young. haiz...

I was helping my mum do housework 3 days ago, when i found something that's been missing from my life for some years now. When i was young, around 12-13 yr old, i used to help my mum take care of my brothers and sister and do housework. Im like a maid during tat period cause im the eldest son and my siblings were still kids. I hated doing housework and hence nowadays at home, i refrain from doing housework as much as possible. But well, conditions made it so tat i have to hang the clothes out to dry 3 nites ago, and i did it alone cause my younger bro went for OBS camp. As i took the clothes out one by one and clip it on the bamboo pole, i found peace. The sort of simple peace that is unexplainable yet extremely soothing. All my problems seem to slowly sort themself out while i was hanging the clothes. Its especially effective for affairs of the heart, at least for me tat is. hahasss. And that my frens, lead me to another of my theories.

Todae we shall tok about the theory of lost innocence. As we human beings grow up, we gradually lose some of our innocence. Its so gradual that we dun even feel or see it coming unless we look back and examine ourselves. That my fren, is the power of time. Some of the extreme cases even contracted the condition known as 'selective amnesia', which means they forgot some of the moments that they deemed as 'weak'. Example is how they used to be so attached the the parents, anything they will always run to papa or mama and hug them for protection. The smiles when u're a newborn and blinked then looked them in the eye. The tons of hopes they have for u when u're just a kid. They love u, provide u with a home and protect u with their lives, ever willing to sacrifice themselves just to make sure u survive. Every parent love their children, but time and fate are merciless, things happen along the way the starts drifting the parental bonds apart. How many of u lock urself in ur room when u reach home and onli goes out to eat, shit and bathe? I am one of the guilty ones. I've learnt to appreciate and love my mum more and more, because we must understand one veri important lesson in life. Life is always bounded by time, noone lives forever, what started, must end somewhere. Hence cherish ur parents when u still have the chance, i know of ppl that wanna cherish and love their parents, but its too late for them alreadi...

Im not a veri sensible son, but im trying my best to be one. I once told my mum, next time when i am rich and successful, i will give her a good life. After i graduated and got my 1st job, im going to save some cash and bring my mum to hong kong. To me, when my parents are old, they are not a burden,as in the old chinese saying, having an old at home is like having a treasure at home. Though my dad did alot of wrong things, but still he is my father who provided for my siblings and me for all our lives, that kind of parental debt can never be repayed. Remember, love can onli be repaid by love, not by money.....

Jason's Famous Quotes: Do to others what u want others to do to u. Give me money.

Did You Know?: I dun like people with motives even though i am one too.

Peter

Alrite todae was a happy day. Mktg project took a huge step forward, told myself to wait for her since i realli tink she's the one, went out with the OG to eat with nearli the whole OG there, and well, i tink the person tat's angry with me is fine now le ba. i tink. should be. most prob. ya?

Although financially im at a record low, i still can tide till chinese new yr ba. Hmms, the dark clouds seem to have lifted quite fast this time round, heng sia. heehee. :) Anyways, the steamboat at marina bay was quite enjoyable, the journey there was abit cramped though its fun. lolx. The car was so small and we're big boys and gals lor, its so cramped at the back i tink i can feel juices coming out. As in sugarcane juice, dun tink wrongly. -.-"

And my OG went for captain ball competition todae. As usaul as i suspected, complains about our dear student council being disorganised abound. Told nich to scrap the plan to join soccer next yr because the council sucked. No offense kuku. heehee. bleahz~~~ :P
Though we didnt win, we didnt realli lose also lah, cause i heard they sort of 'walked out' of the contest. LOLX, went for early shower. hahasss, damn funny sia my OG, all blur blur one. And there was SO many teams in the contest sia. 5 teams lor, so many! FIVE teams can? what 'hot' competition. muahahahaha... *evil grin*

Alrite, theory time. And peter, my theories hor, all true one can? Not tua kang one, all got basis de. Based on my personal experiences that i interpret into theories. :)
Todae we shall tok about happiness. In the current world, there is not universal happiness. Universal happiness is never possible. Someone's joy will always be another's woe. For example, when a couple get together, the gals and guys tat secretly liked the male/female in the couple will be upset. And in order to get over the loss, some of them gave themselves excuse like 'if he/she's happy, then its enough' to make themselves feel noble. If u are one of them, please fuck that mentality. If u can tink in that way, u can give him/her more happiness. A simple phrase in love is 'BE SELFISH'.

Okays, i kw, im not practicing that. LOLX. But seriously, i tink ethnics and personal gain hangs on a tightly balanced scale. Forgo ethnics, and people will say u're a fucked up person. Forgo gains, and ur heart starts crying everyday u see them together. Okays, im digressing too much, lets come back to happiness. As i was saying, there will always be sadness bundled with every happiness. And sometimes, when the couple breaks up ( the guy is a FAG --> Fark And Go), the gal is hurt, and she call the guy to tell him she is devastated and wanna go die. What will the alreadi sad guy feel?

He will feel like his heart is being stabbed 108,000,000,000,000 times. And he will start to ask himself, if he fought hard for her and got her heart, she wont be cheated and hurt like now. I've been there so i know beri well, what i wanna say is --> peter, dun hesitate and tink the other guy is better for her. Now she's still single go get her, dun wait till she get attached and then u will be like me, sit down one corner suck thumb and the onli entertainment is wait. I dun wanna fark with ur mind lah, but i seriously think u should go for her. Imagine the other guy that u tink is better for her ends up hurting her deeply, will u forgive urself? If u tried just abit harder, u can make life better for her. We are good guys, u kw that. We dun FAG. heehee :)

Bro, go mull over what i said and try to tink more from her perspective. She dun want a millionaire, she just want someone to love and cherish her, someone to hug her when she's down, someone to hold her when she's falling, someone to piggyback her when she's tired. When u still have the chance, go be the man that she's waiting for ba.... good luck....


Jason's Famous Quotes: As my middle finger rises, my smile persisted.

Did You Know?: Dick is a name for a guy and a penis. Example is Dick Lee, he's a guy and he looks like a penis.

Mano-O-Mano

I am still awake now. Its 250am in the morning and im still awake. hahasss. :P Anyways, todae im blogging something light, not so heavy like the past 2 days. Today, slept like a pig till around 4pm then wake up. Its the most enjoyable thing to sleep in ur bed and nua like noone's business. And then u wake up smelling like a man from china because ur body produced oil and u totally smell. U kw those guys from china that didnt bathe kinda smell? Lolx. Funny thing is, onli guys smell like tat when they wake up, gals dun. dun understand, maybe its the hormones tat cause us guys to produce more oil? hmms...~~~

Evening went with mum downstairs for dinner, then there's this indian fellow that use the 'ZUT' sound to call his fren. Fark man, i farking hate ppl the ZUT ppl. Its totally irritating and i tink onli stupid farktarts use that. Knn, gan si lang irritating. Those cb bengs think they c buay zai, ZUT here ZUT there, dumb kids. I have frens that used to ZUT ppl ( yesh, they are paikias...) but i gan them when they ZUT. Its damn dumb and irritating, they think its cool and c buay zai to ZUT. And the worse type is those that ZUT at gals. Cb irritating and fucked up. My defination for ZUTing is tis --> High Pitched Sissy Sucking Sound Used By Guys With No Balls. U wanna call someone, call name or call 'eh', dun ZUT. The above went thru my head when i was eating my YEW MEE. I kw, its abit extreme, maybe its cause of the flying ants that are hovering all over the place and some landed in my soup and drink.

Okays, i have been procrastinating over my hair for sometime. 3 weeks to be exact. I wanna dye my hair blonde, but my mum says not nice, like pai kia. So i was tinking should i or should i not? I know i know, im a guy, should not po po ma ma, but come on, its my hair can? And i meant hair on my main head, not those around the second head..... lolx! Alrite, cheap joke. -.-""

After chinese new yr, will be transforming to the legendary Mug-Man! When all else fails, there's always MUGMAN! This time, the evil villains are Macro-Econs,Mktging, Comm-Law and their boss Mgmt-Accting. ()0.0()"" Who shall triumph tis sem?

Jason's Famous Quotes: Sour grapes are nice. I love them.

Did You Know?: Most people live behind a facade. He smile at u, but deep inside, he wanna destroy u.

Sicktopiability

Tomolo will be my MAB test. Hopefully can make it ba. Studied a little todae, not a lot, just a bit. Life is like economy, there will be ups and downs, its natural. I've accepted the fact that now i have entered the trough at this stage of my life, soon the curve will start climbing up and then the peak will come. Im certain, if we're fated to be together, we will be. In the meantime, lets enjoy what we have todae.

Gloomy feeling, like a grey cloud hovering over my head. Feeling feverish, will fall sick soon. Hope wont be too serious, i hate fevers. Lying down like some dead fish and feeling totally farked up. Anyways, have been practicing guitar todae. Strumming and singing JU HUA TAI. I gotta admit (though abit thick skin) , i like my singing. Then revised abit of QING FEI DE YI. Wanted to go down for a jog in the evening, and then comes the thunderstorm. It always seem to rain when i wanna be healthy for once in my life. WHY?

Played diablo for entertainment todae. I restarted diablo for around 14 times thruout the whole day. Dun ask me why, i just played for 20 mins span each time i log on. I just cant seem to concentrate on watever i do, dun understand y. Maybe its cause im falling sick, tat's why. Yes, that's why. Realli.

Need a catalyst in my life to jumpstart my engine again. My mind is not functioning optimally at this moment, so i might sound abit boring and irrelevant, but fark it, who said i cannot blog nonsense in my blog?

Ah wei told me about a business plan todae. Its quite sudden and he wanna start straight away. Told him will consider it and maybe start planning when im free-er. Needa have a good tok with one of my mktg project mates soon, guess the team is getting quite vexed with her disappearing acts. I guess my instincts were right from the start, but i kept my comments to myself. Didnt realli wanted a liability in my team, but well, its stef's fren anyways, so watever lors. And to my teammates, if u guys and gals are reading this, pls dun over stress urselves over the project k? Under my super slack 'figurehead' leadership, we mostly can make it one lah. Chill ya? Oh ya, nearli forgot, we can make it because we dun have a PROJECT MANAGER in our team. ( Ben, u sux. :p )

Okay, i know im starting to sound realli kiddish. Well, there's a kid in everyone rite? And now that im in a super downtime of my life, my temper will start to surface. Normally ppl call it PMS, yes, guys have PMS also, though we dun cramp. The same thing still applies, i dun PMS my frens, even those i dun tok to. I onli PMS total strangers, example those cocks that get in my way in the public transport. Im not a nice nice smile smile neighbourhood guy, i hate aunties and uncles and stupid farktarts that stand in my way when im on a journey. No more racist barriers, the PMS extends to all strangers. Most prob will get walloped soon. Ya, most prob.

Feeling poetic, will write a poem now.

Shadow of the Heart

Ever heard the sweet heart cry?

Like a sunlight that wont shine?

Isn't it sad but can't we try?

Saving despair all behind?

Some are said but most unsaid,

As the shadow fades in line...

Okies, i kw it sux, anyways i realised there's something coincidental in the poem. Only realised it after i finished it. Anyways, there's a hint. Hint = kuku. Kks, damn obvious le lor, so simple de puzzle. :P ( Submit ur guesses in my tag, i need some tag to make sure my blog is working. :P )

Okies, time to sleep, i dun wanna die tml. Pray my MAB can make it ba. As long as i can make it, i dun mind praying to God/Guanyinma/Buddha/Allah etc....

Jason's Famous Quotes: The world is definitely a better place if u are Bill Gates.

Did You Know?: Dumb people that do dumb things are my favourite type of people.

Outburst

Didnt blog for damn long due to some stuff stirring within me. Todae, im touching on something tat's been a rarity these days. Its wat's inside me and wtf am i tinking. Sometimes life imposes one of the most cruel form of irony upon ppl. Imagine the feeling of losing something/someone, then u realised that its actually the most precious thing/person to you. Fuck that feeling, its totally fucked up. Next comes the issue of morality, principle and ethnics. Will u commit a morally-incorrect, principle-defying and ethically-wrong choice so as to get what u want? Fuck man, im totally hanged. Its like some dagger stuck in ur heart and u're slowly bleeding , but u wont die from that wound, the pain slowly kills u bit by bit. Yet u can feel urself slowly being drawn into the vortex. People say love is sweet and bitter, but i tink its sour. Why sour? Go figure. And things are better left unsaid, once said, they meant nothing, hence im bloggin here to vent it out. A fucking good song that describes what i feel now is XIANG SHUO by ANDY HUI.

Old song, damn good. Below are the verses:

想说

好想能守候在你的身旁

你温柔的眼光阻挡着忧伤

好想能停泊在你的海港

让船儿一直停放

永不再出航

我在每一个漆黑夜晚独自忧伤

害怕这思念却无法伪装

我在每一个破晓黎明等待着天亮

等待你给我不灭的火光

心里有话想说

心里的痛你懂

有太多太多的情感覆水难收

心里有话想说

心里的痛你懂

我不愿埋怨的泪水

已经没有尽头

That's how i feel now, some things are on my mind these few days. Mktg project and alot of other stuffs are clogging my brain, im seeing myself as a dumb ass that cant realli grasp where the fuck my studies are now. Anyways i served my 127 days of solitude to think thru what i realli wanted. And i realised after i knew what i realli wanted, it just sorts of complicates things again. Well, if u tot the above is about adeline, sorry its not. Realised we dun click, have no chemistry and seriously speaking, stop calling her my 'wife' or watever fuck shit. We are not related in anyway so dun keep calling her my 'wife'. Okays, felt so damn good after pissing off what plagued me for these few weeks. Shall be fine and dandy again soon, albeit not extremely and sincerely happy. Shall only find real happiness when 'its' mine. Patience is realli not my forte, but lets test my limits this time babe.

P.S.: Dun ask me regarding this, i will smile and change subject. U know, i know. Time will tell. (Sry peter, will type something productive nxt entry. )

Jason's Famous Quotes: Tranquility of the soul begins with the heart.

Did You Know?: Carrot heads shouldn't eat carrot cakes, if not will get chopped more.

Informational-Therapy

Alrite, tis time, i have alot to blog. Been storing alot of details and didnt realli have the time to blog everything here, or in short --> im lazy. :P

Firstly, lets start with a roster of events.
1) Got a new com from HP.
2) Xu wei lun passed on.
3) Nearly did something.
4) Started project.
5) Repicked guitar.
6) Met up with peter and sean
7) Donuts factory.


K, now the details.
1) Got a new com with the signing of a 2 yr plan with starhub. lolx. Pumped in $408 to upgrade the thing. So now damn fast my com. heehee

2) Beatrice Xu Wei Lun passed away from an car accident on 28th jan 7.57pm. Made me rethought about wat life realli means and the fragility of life. She's pretty, talented and quite young, yet in just a few hrs time, she left the world. We never kw what will happen tml, so shouldnt we cherish wat we have todae and do wat we want to prevent regrets? Tat's y if u like someone, tell her/him that, dun wait, fate doesnt wait, why should u? Same for grudges, dun bear grudges against ppl for too long, life is much happier when u are at peace with the whole world.

3) Do you ppl ever had an experience when u kw u are supposed to hold someone's hand? Everything seemed so perfect there and then? Well, i guess sometimes u just kw tat though its the time alreadi, u suddenly know tat u dun feel tat way for tat person. Simply cant. Cannot. No way. So u didnt held his/her hands. I guess its better tat way for both persons ba. Dun feel for tat person, then dun lead tat person. Its beri hard to reverse the effects after u held tat person's hand. Thank god i did not make tat mistake. Realised i did grow up. hahass :)

4) Finally started project with nich and the gals. Met up, discussed job scopes and then assimilated jobs accordingly. Toking about tat, i havent even did my part. Gosh, i am so forgetful, i onli recalled when im typing tis. omg... =.="" Anyways, we met up at city hall the other day, and we chatted abit about ben. Remember tat hypocritical guy i was toking about? That i known him during army time and he didnt recognised me? Okays, forget nvm. lolx. Anyways noone realli likes him i tink, and im not someone to hide wat i feel ba. I dun like him, i voice it out. Why i dun like him, u want can ask me directly, i dun wanna write negative stuffs bout him here. :)

5) I was surfing thru the web for guitar tabs earlier, and i suddenly tot about the days where i strumed and singed with the guys during my poly days in NPS. Totally missed those days, when we are basically free and easy, after practice or camps or watever events, hoe pin will take up the guitar and started strumming some songs. The guys naturally will follow suit and the rest without guitars will sing. Though dun realli sound beri nice with alot of deep voices singing, its damn enjoyable. hahasss. As for me, i onli kw how to strum Qing Fei De Yi and Guan Huai Fang Shi. hahasss, im not as good as hoe pin on the guitar mah, he is guitar god leh. siao siao. :P Anyways, since i missed those days, might as well take up my old guitar and started recapturing that kinda feeling once again rite? right. i did just tat and well, i admit im abit rusty, but still, music is my passion, i still am veri sure of that. :)

6) Met with peter and sean at cityhall (again =.="). We went to have a cup of kopi at starbucks and sat there chilling out toking about guy stuffs. hahass. Well, if u tink we tok about gals, wrong, we toked about politics, the society differences globally and the stereotypical perceptions of singaporeans. We also expressed our personal experience regarding the above topics and i realli gained alot of insight from chilling out with them. Im glad to have such good frens tat can tok about these intriging issues rather then toking nonsense with my other frens. I have 2 cathegories of frens, one type is crappotypical ( new phrase invented by me. lolx) and the other type is those i can engage deep-tinking conversations with. There's a few that transcends both sides, meaning i can crap and tok serious with them. Peter and sean are among them. lolx. I realli wished i can find someone of the opposite sex that fits the bill. I dun care how she looks like, as long as she look human can le. I want chemistry, i dun need a vase. Argh, i wanna write something here, but i kw i cant. i just cant, its too bloody obvious. Haiz... Lets continue with the nxt event ba.

7) Donut factory is located at raffles city basement. And their Q is DAMN long sia, i wanted to try it, but the long Q totally deterred me. lolx. But their concept will spark off another 'bubble' i tink. Soon enough, it will be like the bubble tea concept, shops will open all around and then when the market gets over saturated, BURST! hahass.. but i tink i will try donut fac's donuts someday ba, when i have the money to buy 20 donuts. ( If wanna line up, at least line up to buy 20 donuts for family mah, dun dumb line up 2 hrs get 2 donuts. I am smart. WUDI! ^_^V )


Jason's Famous Quotes: Do not judge a book by its cover, read the sypnosis at the back of the book. :)

Did You Know?: Fat is now the IN thing.

Verbalization

Hmms, sometimes i wonder, i blog so much, but do i read other's blogs? lolx. Right now im a regular reader of just 1 blog man. Gosh. i tink i need to look for more blogs to read? But nonetheless, tat single blog tat i read regularly is quite interesting lah. Anyways todae, went to bugis with dumb-dumb to walk around b4 going for nich's bday celebration at arab street.

Last min change of plan, celebration postponed to 8pm meet at bugis, and well, since we are at bugis, then dun need to move lor. wootz. Swuang, im lazy to travel anyways. :P
Anyways onli me , eli, ah tan, rei, XH and nancy there nia. So we ate at TERRA CAFE at bugis and as usaul crapped alot although mostly is still bullying nich. lolx. On his bday we still bully him sia, we are inhuman.. LOLX

After the celebration for him, Rei ,ah tan ,nich and me went to play pool at pool fusion lor. Nabei todae must be damn suay sia, we played doubles and my team (which consists of nich and me) lost 6 - 0 to tan's team. Omg, wtf man, 6 - 0??? LOLX? hahass, but the game is fun lah, long time never play pool with the guys alreadi. good game guys. :)

Was on the bus just now when my IPOD played Jay Zhou's BAI SE FENG CHE. And then a sudden idea hit me. I know this might sound silly and childish, but i never said i wasnt, just that im not TAT childish. LOLX. Oks, not funny, was toking about bai se feng che right? For those ppl that dun understand, bai se feng che means white pinwheel. And i was tinking nxt time during my gf's bday, i will decorate an area with white pinwheels, meaning the entire area. And so i will bring her to eat, then blindfold her, flag a cab and then bring her to tat place before removing her blindfold, and then proceed to sing for her. LOLx... on second thoughts, maybe use speaker blast ba, cause later if i sing she puke how? :P hahasss... so funny if she pukes on me lor. :P Okays, i kw its abit dumb and naive lah, but im like that when it comes to love lah, cant realli help it mah rite? :)

10 more days. Just 10 more days to endure before i finally break free from my 'chains of self-promise'. heehee. Alot of things changed mentally loh, was toking to kuku todae about how i tended to stick to goodlooking ppl more in the past. hahass. I was telling her about some examples of people i saw on the mrt that sets me thinking about prejudices against ppl. I used to hate banglas in the past, i tink they are lecherous and low-grade people. I know its extreme, but alot of singaporeans also think in that way, im just a honest one tat's willing to admit. :)
But in actual fact, they are humans too, they have parents and a family to care for, tat's y they travel overseas to earn money to feed their families at home. They cry, they bleed and the fall sick just like anyone of us, the onli difference is that they were borned into a veri different part of the world. The same goes for people from china. Why do we receive and treat caucasians with respect whereas we tend to do the opposite for asians? Does being ang moh automatically makes u of a higher hierachy then the rest of the world? The global racism problem stems from a beri simple root --> we stereotype too much.

People tink tat caucasians are romantic and makes good lovers. But in actual fact, more caucasians divorce or kill their spouses as compared to asians. Their children's upbringing is much less effective then asians. Its all based on statistics done by specialists in case u tink im crapping. Therefore i proclaim being ang moh does not equal superior. Some ang mohs tinks they are superior, which is a rampant trait with some singaporeans also. Having some extra cash ultimately pumped their balls up to such an extend that they think they are all mighty. The above statement is from experience working at starhub. :)

All in all, im not criticising ang mohs lah, just wanna quote an example how rampant stereotypical ideologies are running deep within the globe's veins. So in the event u tink that some races or types of people are superior then other species of homo sapiens, try to visualize and analyse ur judgement from all aspects and perspectives, u will be surprised. :)

Alrite, enough about global-social psychology. That's quite a huge topic to touch on anyways, will blog more on jason's psychology nxt time. hahasssss.... kks, time to retire for the nite. Chowz~~


Jason's Famous Quotes: Some things are so hard to verbalize, it sorts of cannibalize my heart.

Did You Know?: People tend to fall in love with people they shouldnt be falling for. It always happens.

Elephant Glue

In the mood, so i blog. Whole day at home. Slept till beri late, woke up around 2pm and started to game. Muahah, finally have a whole day to myself for gaming. wootz. Anyways nothing much these few days, yesterday nite i packed my cupboard which completes my room packing. Sandbag's up and weights arranged nicely alreadi. Tml shall start my training once again. :)

Nxt week should have lots of free time since i onli have like 2 days of lesson. lolx. Was considering calling office to see nxt week have any roadshows anot. hmms. maybe tml will call ba. Toking about calling, knn the cb Hewlett packard still havent call me regarding my damned PC. Cb one, its around 1 wk le lor, i paid last monday and till now no call no nothing.. zzzz. Call their hotline, as usaul its so 'hot' that u can NEVER get in. hmph...

Okies, now lets tok about something else ba. One of my good fren is having some probs. What happens if ur partner gets over sticky to u? Even ur best frens also noticed that tat person is over sticky? Hmms, putting myself in my fren's shoes, i will definitely freak out if my gf is super sticky. I am a nomad, i want my private life and i have my frens. I cannot 24/7 stick to my gf de, i want someone tat loves and understands the value of freedom and privacy. Husband and wife also dun 24/7 stick one lors. For a relationship to go the distance, u dun need to everyday meet and see each other's faces. What matters is the Quality of the time spent, not the Quantity.

So u see, even if she 1 whole day dun contact me, its okay. Even 1 sms in 2 days is fine with me de, as long as i kw she's safe and sound. heehee. Alot of things is realli not within ur control de, especially fate. Even if u 24/7 stick with her, one day she suddenly see a guy and falls in love with him, it can all happen in 5 mins. Trust me on this one, i've been there babe...

Alrite, so lets come back, its know as the SUPER GLUE COMPLEX as dictated by Dr Jason Lam (Ph.D Humanolovetology). Its a condition where the subject is overly obsessed with another entity (in this instance, a human) and will attempt to attach him/herself physically to that object of desire. :) Alrite, so ppl, hands up if u want someone to be superglued to u like some extra piece of tumour/parasite growing on u.... if u raised ur hand, then u need a doctor. fast. LOLX

Alrite, crap enough le, im satisfied with my update le. muahaha. Damn tired, tomolo still got morning class. hahas. :P NITEZ!


Jason's Famous Quotes: If i am abnormal, who is normal?

Did You Know?: Legends are fabricated by people tat dun kw the complete truth.