Overwhelmed

Things have been a roller coaster ride these days. I wondered is life going uphill or downhill, i seriously dun know at this point of time. Im happy for all the right reasons, yet doubtful for all the wrong reasons. I am going against the tide, at least that's what i choose to believe.

People say lots of stuffs, and i beg to differ, yet i cannot simply wipe away stuffs that make sense. Some of their analysis makes lots of sense, and worse thing is, different people tells me different stuffs and advice. I hate that kinda feeling, when i feel myself being so easily influenced by whatever other people say.

And so im determined, i like her enough to go against logic and go against tide. I might be fat, i might be rotund looking, i might not be yandao, i might not be talented, but fuck whatever ba, even if there's a 0.0001% chance, i dun mind going against the world if i have to, because i like her.

I've been trying to make it bloody obvious, because the time has come to take action and give it a try. What meimei says is also correct, things are unpredictable like the wind. In the first place, why bother to predict? So what if failed? Will you die? No. So pick up the pieces and carry on, im halfway there to the destination, so why not finish up what i started, rather then leaving it dangling in midair.

Ah well, like i always say, there are times where u simply wanna heck the world and do whatever u want. This is such a time, i kw they meant well for me, but they built me up, and now they're trying to tear me down for my own good. I understand their kind intentions, but just let me walk till the end, even if i fail, i do not wanna fail with regrets.

Handed in WIL project todae, anyhow do then hand in. I dun tink i will get high grades for this one. Heck ba, i still need to juggle my other stuffs as well, seraphine is doing well, and im veri busy over the orders, group projects are back to haunt me and RT is making me damn tired, though its good for me.

I have decided to take a drastic measure to shed lard, its a method u dun wanna know about. I need to pass my ippt, and so i have been saying from ages ago. I dun wanna be a NATO, no action talk only, so ya, try harder dude.

Life and it's irony, things might seem good, but actually they are bad, and vice versa. Why the fuck are there so many masks and complexity in life? Gosh, fuck me.

Jason's : Against time and against tide, who shall prevail?