Chiseled

Would u prefer a ipod or a psp? For me, its ipod. heh. I dun like the idea of playing with a handheld in public, i rather spend my time listening to songs and tinking new ideas for all my different interests like new melodies for songs, new business ideas, and yes, most of the time, gals.

Im being told to bring a psp to skool and play in skool as a kinda publicity stunt, but i seriously dun like to play games in public, i feel like a kid man. gosh. But well, for business, i have to do it, so ya, lan lan. Maybe put shows and movies in ba, can at least watch ba. hmms.

Next monday skool starts, and i have a feeling its gonna be a routine semester again. Sunrise sunset kinda routine. ah watever, im starting to spout nonsense again. And i after so long, i still feel tat a guy shouldnt have a blog to show how soft he actually is inside. i kw, im contradicting, but watever the fuck lah, i aint tinking rite now. hahahass

And yes, im evolving mentally yet again. This time, its starting to contradict my values from within. Im getting violent again, must be the recent involvement in basketball. As i have said, im becoming crazier now, im falling in love with sports of every kind. Especially those can do stunts one. Heck whether i can slim down anot, i just wanna enjoy myself, slimming down is a bonus, what matters is the fun. :)

Was toking to sebastian and chatting about the starhub days. Those crazy things i did back then was simply put, crazy. hahass. I do regret acting so impulsively then, because till now i still didnt say a single sorry to her. That is why i have sworn off doing anything romantic for anybody that im wooing, because if u over did it, then its hard to even be frends. No more scrapbook or what fuck shits until she's officially mine. The best part of you must always be reserved for people that reciprocate your love and who u are, not for somebody that is still a question mark.

And there's another person, that i dun even know whether to apologise anot, because im still abit confused on what actually happened. But no use saying so much, its ur actions that determine how sincere u are ba. Enough said , dun need to publicize so much, just be nice to that person can le.

Another issue is money. i am poor. period. Should i withdraw the profits? I tink i endure ba, the profits are meant to be stored to around $1k then used to buy stocks as a form of investment, so i shall endure. So tentatively, im poorer then bangalas and im still waiting for starhub to have roadshows so i can work. No more credit card for me, their pay system is fucked up now, so i rather dun work for them, how the fuck can i get $0 after selling 20+ cards? Argh wtf man.

And so i shall have a job that will allow me to wear jeans, wearing pants is so not me lor, i more a jeans and t-shirt guy, ur typical guy that is lazy to dress up, except for special occasions. :) I know im fat, but im learning to love the lard, slim or fat, u have to live your life. Happiness is a choice, its never given and never taken, its chosen. If i like somebody, and they ostracized me for being fat, they aint worth it in the first place.

Being fat is not a sin, its just a exterior shell that shows ur lack of physical activities. So if somebody shows u attitude or condemn u because u're fat, they aint that fucking sane after all. Its just some opinions i have towards people that tink fat fucks are good for nothing. Im recalling some past events that made me so agitated all of a sudden. Its regarding one guy called dominic, anyways fuck his 18 ancestors, that pua cb kia. (I have alreadi forgiven him, but the sudden tulanness juz came up, so ya. hoho)

And so, my 2008 resolution is made, but yr in yr out, how many people actually stick to new year resolutions? lolx. Watever lahs, at least im veri sure what i want this year, except for the dilemma that i was toking about in the last entry. But things will iron themselves out in the end, in the meantime i needa set up the foundation for greater things to come. My visions and dreams, they're there for the taking.

Lastly, to reflect upon what alot of frends say, im too preoccupied with affairs of the heart. Why should my life be entwined around romance when my purpose is to build my business empire to leave a legacy for the future? My main focus should be on my ambition and aspirations, not on gals. If one person says so, its just his opinion, but close frens like peter, sebastian, ah wei all told me to refocus attention on the bigger picture in life, family, career. I tink you guys are rite. Definitely. No point chasing skirts when i could be building a better future for myself. Skirts and fate are products of nature, and they will come naturally. :)

Jason's Enlightenment : Alot of things have gone unsaid, but will we get the chance to say them tomolo?