Kids

Sometimes, i listen to people and i feel that they are at the same stage as i was before. Meaning i actually went thru that kinda mentality before. Childish, immature and dumb. Especially when it comes to relationships.

People say they will change themselves for somebody in 2 or 3 yrs time, they made that statement with so much vigor that u will think them as being realli sincere. 2 to 3 yrs later, they changed as they have said, but everything changed as well, the person u wanna change for, turns out to be just another someone. That person isnt what u wanted after all, because with physical change, comes mental change, its unavoidable.

That goes the same for people that say they will wait for somebody, no matter the time. To them, i will say --> fuck u understand? Dun say stuffs u dun mean, even if u do mean them during the time u say them. If u cannot confirm and ascertain that in future u will stick to your promise, dun make them.

Waiting is simply dumb, its not im not sincere, but there's a limit. While u wait and rot and become emo and sad, do she know? No. When u go through all the shit while pinning for her smile, her hand and her hug, does she know? No. And finally, when u are so sincere and keep on doing so many stuffs for her, does she know? No.

Since she dont know a damn thing while u do all these, is it worth it? No again. Therefore, dun bother. If she likes you, she will accept u now. If she dun like you, u can be a casanova and its still hopeless. Period. Like means like, dun like means dun like. Ah, i remember commenting on this in a previous entry, so i will not say more.

In myself, i see myself degrading slowly. Im starting to doubt the sanity of being really nice to somebody who isnt worth it. You only open the door to your heart and your world to somebody who wants to be in it, anyhow open the door, and despair might slowly creep in. Bit by bit, your sincerity is eroded away without any value, and the end result is what we call heartache. Never trust anybody with your heart unless that person proof that he or she is worthy of it. This message goes out to everybody out there. Remember, dun trust anybody easily, even me.

Therefore if u see me still being nice to you after this entry, u should know, u are among the ones that i really trust and like. Frends, gals, watever. Once the trust is there, it is unwavering. Why the sudden strong entry? Because somebody just told me something that i totally disagree with.

He told me he likes this gal that i know so much that he is willing to change himself in 2 yrs, and if the gal is still single, he will woo her. I laughed in his face, told him he is childish and hinted to him to wake up the idea. He's still young, there's so many options out there, he met the gal not long ago somemore. In this 2yrs, he will meet countless other people, and im willing to bet my balls that he will find someone better. Yesh, you heard right, i will cut off my balls if he never change target.

Worse is, when i asked him how come he's so into her, he told me that its challenging and fun. When i saw that, i instantly warned him, if he dares to toy with her, im gonna play with his detached balls. Then he told me he's joking, and everything he said is nonsense. I pua his cb, knn wtf he meant man? Im not happy, especially since the gal is somebody i know. Argh, some guys are just soooo fucked up.

And to add salt to spice, another frend i toked to ytd, wanted to bet with me whether i can get the gal i want anot. I instantly reject. Dramas and shows also got show leh, u DO NOT bet on whether u can get a gal anot. They are human beings with a beating heart, u dun bet on their hearts like some worthless stuff. There's no price tag attached to somebody's heart, so its of immeasurable value. Since we're frends, i gave him my advice and told him never to bet on things so childish. You wanna go after somebody because u realli like him/her, not because of some stupid bet. Fook.

Im beginning to understand how come some people are so defensive and totally close the doors shut. Its just so messy out there, u never know who or what kinda beast u are letting into your heart. Its so serious that some people even switched gender preference or chose to remain single all their lives. Wow.

Went supper with aiying just now, she asked me a very intriguing question. Why do guys change hearts. Um, how to answer? lolx. My explanation is simple, people change. What they want now might not be what they want in future. There's no way to prevent stuffs from happening, my mentality is what comes, comes. When someone wanna leave, no matter what u do, that person will still leave. I will never wanna retain somebody physically, while her heart is not with me. Its like caging a bird and snipping off its wings. Freedom, is something that everyone should have.

As to myself, I dare not say i 100% will not stray ( even if i wanna stray, i dun have the qualities lah, im too fat.), but i will learn from my dad's mistake and never walk his path. One means one, dun let your dick get the better of you. And mind you, good wives are dick-cutters, they will KILL you if u stray. lolx.

This entry is abit long, because its been some time since my last entry, alot to crap about. hahass. Now on to more daily stuffs. My mum has been pestering me to clean up my room since august, and i tink its time to clean up le. hahahas! im a bad son i know. lolx. Im now jobless, and rotting at home waiting for business. Being boss isnt so exciting after all. lolx.

Emotions wise, im now starting to get confused once again. Typical of me lah, there's stuffs i'd better not say here, but seriously, my dream yesterday nite isnt what i call a straight forward decision. Do dreams reflect your sub-conscious, or are they simply opposites of reality and how u feel? The irony of dreams and life. hahass

Jason's Simplicity : All the beauties of life is man-made. The only never-changing thing is change.