Tetracycline

Its those low confidence periods again. Im starting to feel inferior all over again, its like im inferior to other guys out there. Fat, ugly, useless, poor, stupid and lazy, how bad can it get? I only know how to get lost in music and conceive foolish fantasies, so wat if i keep singing? Can it get me somewhere? And even if i get my studies right, does it realli means a bright future? What sparked all these u ask? Its just that somethings just dun feel right sometimes.

There's a lot on my mind that i wanna jot down here, but i kw i cant, simply because if i wrote it all here, its damn bloody obvious and the repercussions are going to be too hard for me to handle. And im starting to feel some people like to take other people for granted, they only look for u when they need something, beside that, they're just gone from ur life. I dun like that kinda feeling, its like u're some sort of tool, fuck that.

Im tinking of starting a totally separate blog to realli put down my feelings, especially pertaining to the emotional department. I realli wanna pen down names and how i realli feel without restrain, because sometimes things just seems so heavy and u need to unload. Its not like i dun have frens, but most of them just dun listen. And the few that truly listens are far and few between. Im quite lost sometimes infact, those people i call my buddies are those that shrug my stuffs aside and dun listen to me. When they need a listening ear, im there to listen, yet when i needed one, none is available. Its sad, realli sad. Or maybe its just that im just another weak whiner, so maybe they just dismiss me as another dumb fellow.

Sometimes its better not to dig up stuffs that u have buried for sometime, because u might not be able to handle what u manage to dig up. Its funny how sometimes the shits u dig up still holds that kind of despair that has managed to eluded u for sometime. Its like a virus that u quarantined up for a nearly a year, and when u dig into ur heart, u managed to release it once again. The uncertainty and self-doubt that ensues is realli heart-wrenching to the point u have to unload it on a blog. Yes, its that bad.

Pardon me for turning my blog into a desperate final means of venting what is kept inside me, but its realli the onli resort that i have. I tink i should go start another blog, cannot tahan le, i need to write what i realli feel. Thanks for reading this crap anyways.

Jason's Famous Quotes : Hope propels despair.

Did You Know ? : Stupidity is self-wrought.