Subtle Affection

Im a complex person, contrary to what i tot initially. I always tot im a simple person and i believe in simple happiness, but i realised that i am not tat simple after all. I wish im a simpleton that isnt that simple because being too simple is too simple for my own good. understand? Nevermind.

Things have been making me crazy mentally these days. The reservist issue is hopefully resolved after i consulted with my MP ytd. Financially im surprisingly quite stable with SOME excess nowadays. Will be TRYING to save up enough so that i can either go taiwan or start investing by the next holidays.

I preach simplicity, yet i dun think simplicity. I want a simple relationship, but i cant stop tinking about complications after witnessing alot of unhappy incidents that happened to my frens. I just wanna love and care for someone without any complex issues, is it that difficult? I know its dumb to say that because its like wanting a perfect relationship which is not possible, but i will try my best, is it tat hard? Sometimes maturity and fantasy counteracts to such an extent that u wouldnt even contemplate experimenting. That's why i say, life sucks, take drugs. haiz... There's someone i care for yet i dun kw what to do, and no, its not my obsession im toking about. Gosh, im damn obvious. -.-

Okies, new skool term, new modules, new headaches. A good point to note is new ppl, the mediacorp actress ezann lee is my classmate in commercial law, not that its a big hooha, but its just that its kinda rare to have a celebrity for a classmate. And i saw the infamous pervert from the 38th batch that used to terrorize gals in his class, and well, he does look like a perv. Im damn kaypoh and keep asking kuku to show me who tat dumb fellow was. lolx! And the discoloration of people continues in my eyes, looks seems to fade into nothingness slowly and im getting bored of looking at gals. Yesh, u heard rite, i am BORED of looking at gals. And i dun even look at guys, so im not turning gay, no worries. :)

Im more interested in my studies this semester, simply because i failed my a module for the first time in my 24 yrs of life. I NEVER EVER failed a subject/ module before, so this is realli a 1st. Realized as i went along, the code of conduct that i made for myself have faded in priority, i am supposed to STUDY, not relive POLY SLACKING DAYS! So yesh, this sem will be refocusing my efforts on my studies, they are more important things then other mundane stuffs. In my life, there's now a few top most priorities, which includes studying, mahjonging, gaming , learning the market, conceptualizing business ideas, planning to travel and last but not least, earning money to fund the above endeavours. =.="

And lastly, as a ending paragraph, i have a few golden words for myself in future if i made the wrong decision and would like to review my life from my blog. "What is virtual can be real if reality is brave enough to face possibilities. Without the hesitant facets of life, there cannot be an authentic form of bliss. Remember that no matter what happens or what route u take, u will eventually reach the end, and no matter how long the night, the sun will always inevitably rise."

Jason's Famous Quotes : Courage is the trademark of a true man.

Did You Know? : Some people like to dig a deep shit hole, and then jump in themselves.