Informational-Therapy

Alrite, tis time, i have alot to blog. Been storing alot of details and didnt realli have the time to blog everything here, or in short --> im lazy. :P

Firstly, lets start with a roster of events.
1) Got a new com from HP.
2) Xu wei lun passed on.
3) Nearly did something.
4) Started project.
5) Repicked guitar.
6) Met up with peter and sean
7) Donuts factory.


K, now the details.
1) Got a new com with the signing of a 2 yr plan with starhub. lolx. Pumped in $408 to upgrade the thing. So now damn fast my com. heehee

2) Beatrice Xu Wei Lun passed away from an car accident on 28th jan 7.57pm. Made me rethought about wat life realli means and the fragility of life. She's pretty, talented and quite young, yet in just a few hrs time, she left the world. We never kw what will happen tml, so shouldnt we cherish wat we have todae and do wat we want to prevent regrets? Tat's y if u like someone, tell her/him that, dun wait, fate doesnt wait, why should u? Same for grudges, dun bear grudges against ppl for too long, life is much happier when u are at peace with the whole world.

3) Do you ppl ever had an experience when u kw u are supposed to hold someone's hand? Everything seemed so perfect there and then? Well, i guess sometimes u just kw tat though its the time alreadi, u suddenly know tat u dun feel tat way for tat person. Simply cant. Cannot. No way. So u didnt held his/her hands. I guess its better tat way for both persons ba. Dun feel for tat person, then dun lead tat person. Its beri hard to reverse the effects after u held tat person's hand. Thank god i did not make tat mistake. Realised i did grow up. hahass :)

4) Finally started project with nich and the gals. Met up, discussed job scopes and then assimilated jobs accordingly. Toking about tat, i havent even did my part. Gosh, i am so forgetful, i onli recalled when im typing tis. omg... =.="" Anyways, we met up at city hall the other day, and we chatted abit about ben. Remember tat hypocritical guy i was toking about? That i known him during army time and he didnt recognised me? Okays, forget nvm. lolx. Anyways noone realli likes him i tink, and im not someone to hide wat i feel ba. I dun like him, i voice it out. Why i dun like him, u want can ask me directly, i dun wanna write negative stuffs bout him here. :)

5) I was surfing thru the web for guitar tabs earlier, and i suddenly tot about the days where i strumed and singed with the guys during my poly days in NPS. Totally missed those days, when we are basically free and easy, after practice or camps or watever events, hoe pin will take up the guitar and started strumming some songs. The guys naturally will follow suit and the rest without guitars will sing. Though dun realli sound beri nice with alot of deep voices singing, its damn enjoyable. hahasss. As for me, i onli kw how to strum Qing Fei De Yi and Guan Huai Fang Shi. hahasss, im not as good as hoe pin on the guitar mah, he is guitar god leh. siao siao. :P Anyways, since i missed those days, might as well take up my old guitar and started recapturing that kinda feeling once again rite? right. i did just tat and well, i admit im abit rusty, but still, music is my passion, i still am veri sure of that. :)

6) Met with peter and sean at cityhall (again =.="). We went to have a cup of kopi at starbucks and sat there chilling out toking about guy stuffs. hahass. Well, if u tink we tok about gals, wrong, we toked about politics, the society differences globally and the stereotypical perceptions of singaporeans. We also expressed our personal experience regarding the above topics and i realli gained alot of insight from chilling out with them. Im glad to have such good frens tat can tok about these intriging issues rather then toking nonsense with my other frens. I have 2 cathegories of frens, one type is crappotypical ( new phrase invented by me. lolx) and the other type is those i can engage deep-tinking conversations with. There's a few that transcends both sides, meaning i can crap and tok serious with them. Peter and sean are among them. lolx. I realli wished i can find someone of the opposite sex that fits the bill. I dun care how she looks like, as long as she look human can le. I want chemistry, i dun need a vase. Argh, i wanna write something here, but i kw i cant. i just cant, its too bloody obvious. Haiz... Lets continue with the nxt event ba.

7) Donut factory is located at raffles city basement. And their Q is DAMN long sia, i wanted to try it, but the long Q totally deterred me. lolx. But their concept will spark off another 'bubble' i tink. Soon enough, it will be like the bubble tea concept, shops will open all around and then when the market gets over saturated, BURST! hahass.. but i tink i will try donut fac's donuts someday ba, when i have the money to buy 20 donuts. ( If wanna line up, at least line up to buy 20 donuts for family mah, dun dumb line up 2 hrs get 2 donuts. I am smart. WUDI! ^_^V )


Jason's Famous Quotes: Do not judge a book by its cover, read the sypnosis at the back of the book. :)

Did You Know?: Fat is now the IN thing.

Verbalization

Hmms, sometimes i wonder, i blog so much, but do i read other's blogs? lolx. Right now im a regular reader of just 1 blog man. Gosh. i tink i need to look for more blogs to read? But nonetheless, tat single blog tat i read regularly is quite interesting lah. Anyways todae, went to bugis with dumb-dumb to walk around b4 going for nich's bday celebration at arab street.

Last min change of plan, celebration postponed to 8pm meet at bugis, and well, since we are at bugis, then dun need to move lor. wootz. Swuang, im lazy to travel anyways. :P
Anyways onli me , eli, ah tan, rei, XH and nancy there nia. So we ate at TERRA CAFE at bugis and as usaul crapped alot although mostly is still bullying nich. lolx. On his bday we still bully him sia, we are inhuman.. LOLX

After the celebration for him, Rei ,ah tan ,nich and me went to play pool at pool fusion lor. Nabei todae must be damn suay sia, we played doubles and my team (which consists of nich and me) lost 6 - 0 to tan's team. Omg, wtf man, 6 - 0??? LOLX? hahass, but the game is fun lah, long time never play pool with the guys alreadi. good game guys. :)

Was on the bus just now when my IPOD played Jay Zhou's BAI SE FENG CHE. And then a sudden idea hit me. I know this might sound silly and childish, but i never said i wasnt, just that im not TAT childish. LOLX. Oks, not funny, was toking about bai se feng che right? For those ppl that dun understand, bai se feng che means white pinwheel. And i was tinking nxt time during my gf's bday, i will decorate an area with white pinwheels, meaning the entire area. And so i will bring her to eat, then blindfold her, flag a cab and then bring her to tat place before removing her blindfold, and then proceed to sing for her. LOLx... on second thoughts, maybe use speaker blast ba, cause later if i sing she puke how? :P hahasss... so funny if she pukes on me lor. :P Okays, i kw its abit dumb and naive lah, but im like that when it comes to love lah, cant realli help it mah rite? :)

10 more days. Just 10 more days to endure before i finally break free from my 'chains of self-promise'. heehee. Alot of things changed mentally loh, was toking to kuku todae about how i tended to stick to goodlooking ppl more in the past. hahass. I was telling her about some examples of people i saw on the mrt that sets me thinking about prejudices against ppl. I used to hate banglas in the past, i tink they are lecherous and low-grade people. I know its extreme, but alot of singaporeans also think in that way, im just a honest one tat's willing to admit. :)
But in actual fact, they are humans too, they have parents and a family to care for, tat's y they travel overseas to earn money to feed their families at home. They cry, they bleed and the fall sick just like anyone of us, the onli difference is that they were borned into a veri different part of the world. The same goes for people from china. Why do we receive and treat caucasians with respect whereas we tend to do the opposite for asians? Does being ang moh automatically makes u of a higher hierachy then the rest of the world? The global racism problem stems from a beri simple root --> we stereotype too much.

People tink tat caucasians are romantic and makes good lovers. But in actual fact, more caucasians divorce or kill their spouses as compared to asians. Their children's upbringing is much less effective then asians. Its all based on statistics done by specialists in case u tink im crapping. Therefore i proclaim being ang moh does not equal superior. Some ang mohs tinks they are superior, which is a rampant trait with some singaporeans also. Having some extra cash ultimately pumped their balls up to such an extend that they think they are all mighty. The above statement is from experience working at starhub. :)

All in all, im not criticising ang mohs lah, just wanna quote an example how rampant stereotypical ideologies are running deep within the globe's veins. So in the event u tink that some races or types of people are superior then other species of homo sapiens, try to visualize and analyse ur judgement from all aspects and perspectives, u will be surprised. :)

Alrite, enough about global-social psychology. That's quite a huge topic to touch on anyways, will blog more on jason's psychology nxt time. hahasssss.... kks, time to retire for the nite. Chowz~~


Jason's Famous Quotes: Some things are so hard to verbalize, it sorts of cannibalize my heart.

Did You Know?: People tend to fall in love with people they shouldnt be falling for. It always happens.

Elephant Glue

In the mood, so i blog. Whole day at home. Slept till beri late, woke up around 2pm and started to game. Muahah, finally have a whole day to myself for gaming. wootz. Anyways nothing much these few days, yesterday nite i packed my cupboard which completes my room packing. Sandbag's up and weights arranged nicely alreadi. Tml shall start my training once again. :)

Nxt week should have lots of free time since i onli have like 2 days of lesson. lolx. Was considering calling office to see nxt week have any roadshows anot. hmms. maybe tml will call ba. Toking about calling, knn the cb Hewlett packard still havent call me regarding my damned PC. Cb one, its around 1 wk le lor, i paid last monday and till now no call no nothing.. zzzz. Call their hotline, as usaul its so 'hot' that u can NEVER get in. hmph...

Okies, now lets tok about something else ba. One of my good fren is having some probs. What happens if ur partner gets over sticky to u? Even ur best frens also noticed that tat person is over sticky? Hmms, putting myself in my fren's shoes, i will definitely freak out if my gf is super sticky. I am a nomad, i want my private life and i have my frens. I cannot 24/7 stick to my gf de, i want someone tat loves and understands the value of freedom and privacy. Husband and wife also dun 24/7 stick one lors. For a relationship to go the distance, u dun need to everyday meet and see each other's faces. What matters is the Quality of the time spent, not the Quantity.

So u see, even if she 1 whole day dun contact me, its okay. Even 1 sms in 2 days is fine with me de, as long as i kw she's safe and sound. heehee. Alot of things is realli not within ur control de, especially fate. Even if u 24/7 stick with her, one day she suddenly see a guy and falls in love with him, it can all happen in 5 mins. Trust me on this one, i've been there babe...

Alrite, so lets come back, its know as the SUPER GLUE COMPLEX as dictated by Dr Jason Lam (Ph.D Humanolovetology). Its a condition where the subject is overly obsessed with another entity (in this instance, a human) and will attempt to attach him/herself physically to that object of desire. :) Alrite, so ppl, hands up if u want someone to be superglued to u like some extra piece of tumour/parasite growing on u.... if u raised ur hand, then u need a doctor. fast. LOLX

Alrite, crap enough le, im satisfied with my update le. muahaha. Damn tired, tomolo still got morning class. hahas. :P NITEZ!


Jason's Famous Quotes: If i am abnormal, who is normal?

Did You Know?: Legends are fabricated by people tat dun kw the complete truth.

Sin and Sinsibility

Sometimes i feel its crap when people say --> "We are too good frens, we kw each other too well le, lets just stay as frens :)". The above is another senseless excuse to reject someone. lolx. A partner is supposed to be someone that knows u better then other people, sometimes even more than u know urself. That's why he/she makes u whole. Humans are flawed for a reason, and that reason is our other half is with someone else, and when u find him/her, u will be whole again. :) I know, some may tink tis is nonsense and bullshit, but tink properly, if u realli see beyond lust, the deeper side of being with someone is to learn to become a better person.

Its just something i thought about during boring MGMT ACCTs lecture todae, it happened to somebody else and was considering how dumb the excuse is. Im still serving my sentence and i have 16 days left, wootz! I actually managed to realli keep to my personal promise. *PROUD*

Skool started a few days ago and things are starting to get stressful. Knn the Marketing project is so farking rush lor, nabei one, in 3 days must alreadi kw what to do le. Cb sia. Then the Accts even worse, 3 days alreadi and i still dun kw what toking her sia, the RMIT lecturer realli abit hard to comprehend lors. Her sentences sometimes dun make sense sia, beri confused =.=....
Comm Law is still okay, the lecturer is quite humourous and therefore makes it enjoyable.

Anyway marketing-wise, i will be doing a marketing proposal with regards to Shangri-La Hotel. wee you wee, we're the only grp that is going to do hospitality lor, siao siao. :) Next we come to
school social life. Things are fine and dandy with the guys and gals, realised when u see things and people from a different perspective, u will notice lots of difference. Hmms, one more thing, when there's someone tat's realli sensitive and u wanna blog about her, how do u do it so that it wont offend her ah? (?.?)

Alrite, now we come to my emotional section. This long period of abstinence from affairs of the heart made me see clearly wat i wanted. Lust and love is completely different issues altogether. Chemistry is what binds, and looking back, there's someone that i realli feel the chemistry with, yet well, right now tat person is unavailable. lolx. Sometime irony makes life realli realli interesting ya? :)

Jason's Famous Quotes: Innocense is the purest element.

Did You Know?: Perception is Reality.

Pigeon-ti-flyed

Veri vulgar entry. Dun read if u are allergic to vulgarities or ur status is excuse vulgarities.
Tis morning, a cb kia sms me ask me evening go la kopi. Never confirm timing, just say going out. Ask further, say in the evening, acknowledged. Meeting sean in the afternoon for tea and discuss who is the fucking cb kia that keeps have no balls. Not angry at the balless one, juz tat i bad mood so i scold. I accept ppl's thoughts and like to debate, so i dun get realli angry or watever, to each his own and i kw everyone have his own perspective. Im angry with that fucking cb that put my aeroplane. Put aeroplane nvm, dun even cb bothered to reply sms.

Story goes : Met sean at 2.30pm to la kopi and chat and walk around town. Went to starbucks wisma atria, sit down, nua, la kopi, tok cock, sing song, play mahjong. Rhymes right, anyways delete the play mahjong, cause starbucks cannot play mahjong. When chatting with sean, smsed the fucker to ask "Are we meeting in orchard?". Got a reply "Ya, most prob.". Continued chatting with sean on the birds and the bees and school work and stuff and results...etc.
Was wanting to go home around 430pm, but i stayed in orchard till 630pm because cb says he 630pm off work. Smsed him around 6pm, "What time u reaching orchard?". Got a reply "Ask XXX.". Proceeded to sms XXX. No reply. Puzzled, sms cb again "XXX no reply, so later what time u reaching?". Got a reply Ask XXX, i lazy to sms and reply.". Nabei chao cheebye, knn he call me come out he knn tis type of fucking attitude, fuck him. Then im pissed, called XXX directly to ask. XXX picked up and said we not meeting, told him cb kia say we meeting in orchard, he shouted to cb kia to ask, and replied " we not meeting le."... FUCKING CCB, GAN SI LANG TULANZ, firstly, he's at work, cant he juz fucking walk over to XXX to ask him whether he still wanna meet anot then sms me? If he's lazy nvm, then at least fucking hell inform me mah, ccb, still tell me he dun kw, which means if XXX dun reply my sms and i call him he never pick up, i fucking ccb wait till 10pm? FUCK HIS CB FACE LAH, FUCKING CB KIA!

Didnt kw he was so fucking irresponsible, anyways it took just one incident to see wat kind of fucker he was. If u put aeroplane, a sms to say paiseh or anything also song, knn tat cb kia didnt even bothered to sms. Well, tis type of cb attitude, who can stand? 2hrs in orchard is nothing much i know, but its the fucking cb attitude problem. He wants attitude rite? Next time he fucking hell need my help, he go eat himself, fucking ccb. I fucking hell MSN nick also change le, he jittao dun dare to fucking hell msn me to say anything. FUCK HIM MAN!
Damn cheebye irresponsible, i fucking hell spit on his integrity! PUI! __

Alrite, feels so much better after typing all that. wootz. I know, i might be a normal and frendly chap that can joke around and can take jokes, but please dun assume i dun have a temper. I always see ppl throwing tandrums or acting tulanz or watever, but mind u, when im mad, im realli crazy. I will not vent my anger at my frens or close ones i once again announce, but when u realli see me tulanz, u will kw wat is fear. Alrite, i dun wanna further emphasize le, im like promoting myself to be a fucking violent freak. gosh. Anyways sean and me discussed some political issues and stuff, and we came to a familiar topic: RESERVIST.

Sean's reservist unit is some wulu unit in kranji camp i tink, and well, he's not called up yet. Im the second in our army frens to be called up for reservist, first one was zhaowei. Sad but true.
Peter went to Cambodia and Laos to backpack alreadi, so he's not in the country. Quite interesting to have a fren like peter, who likes to backpack to minefield laden areas of the globe. hmms, i must admit, he have guts and his balls are definitely bigger then mine. Imagine, taking a tourist bus to the hotel, and on the bus besides the tour guide, there's 2 gunman taking AK-47s to protect the bus because some days ago, some guerillas attack and killed the entire bus of tourists. At least that's wat i remembered hearing. What the fuck man, i wouldnt even fucking dare to get on the bus after hearing that lor, imagine u happily taking the bus, then suddenly a bullet hit ur head and u instantaneously die from a headshot? WTF? Gosh...

Part 2 of peter's scary story is the minefield walk. Knn they have to walk thru a minefield to get to some secluded place, and there's onli 2 lines of white tape to mark out a safe route thru the minefield, wat if u accidentally step OUTSIDE the lines? Or accidentally drop ur bag outside the line? I guess they need like 10 days to slowly pick out pieces of u from different places... Peter have guts, tat one i give it to him. lolx. He says he's going to Tibet and Nepal next, which is MUCH MUCH safer then Cambodia and Laos thank god... I wont be surprised if he suddenly says he's going to North Korea or Iraq to backpack....lol -.-""

Sean and me are quite simple, we just wanna go taiwan to backpack. Simple, safe, fun. I know we are balless, but i rather be balless then six feet under. hahass. :) Peter maybe u can join us when we go taiwan ya? Safer lah, me n sean cannot take much AK-47 bullets, one or 2 we jittao lie down bite the dust le. LOLX :P

Alrite, i tink i end here le ba, wat a fucking cb day sia. Heng im meeting sean first, imagine i cb went there and wait, then tio put aeroplane...zzzz. Bitch finish, forget it. Tomolo's another beautiful day to nua at home. Maybe go gym?


Jason's Famous Quotes: A small phenomenon displays the characteristic of the large entity.

Did You Know?: Most internet investment programs are money launderers.

Lethargy

Was coming back from jp after dinner with ah wei and his gf when we saw something at the depot. 3 boys were bullying a malay kid and being pushed around, all of them are around 15 yrs old. Right there, i recollected my younger days and find tat its beri childish. hahass. Anyways i wanted to help the malay kid, but in the end found it troublesome lah, they didnt reali hit him, just push him around and scold him nia.

On the bus home after that incident, i was tinking wat if it was my brother that got bullied? Well, as usaul, violent me pictured myself banging their heads against the wall till they bleed like siao then finishing them off with a rubbish bin/chair/table/watever-i-can-get-my-hands-on crashing down on them. hahasss.. muahaha, violence! promote it! >.< LOLX.

Okays, jokes aside, these few days im damn slack, hahass. sunday i was working at expo, then i rejected monday and tuesday's work. hahass :P, so in short, these 2 days i slacked like nobody's business. At home play game, then sleep, wake up play game, then sleep...etc... lifeless hor? knn i also kw, but i like nuaing, wat to do? :)

But the most memorable day this week was on saturday ba. I met up with my frens from NPS like ah kuang and ah heng they all. Went ice-skating and i fell down 7 times lor. Knn my whole body is aching and bruised from all the falls, but the weird thing is, i find it fun! Simi lj sia? ?.?
After that, we went singing at partyworld clementi! muahah, finally can sing lors~~ its fun lah, with ah heng and kuang around, cfm fun one. lolx. But the weird thing is james is there also and as usaul, everybody hated him. haiz. i tried to forgive him le lor, so its okay with me, but the others were complaining on the cab home. LOLX. So i also join in the fun lor. hahass, zhaorong was super agitated seh, he hate james to the core sia. Damn funny sia. lolx!

Alrite, now lets tok about something more private ba. For the past few weeks, people have been coming into my life. People, as in human beings. More frens, more chemistry, more tendency to stray from my remaining 36 days 'sentence'. I admit a few people shook my resolve, but in the end i tided thru it all. lolx. The one that created the most unsettlement is a future childcare teacher that is 19 yrs old. Smart, eloquent, fun, average looking, sociable,sings,not-childish. Well, tat's a brief summary. hahass. I got over it le, so im fine and dandy and on my way to finish my 36th day of my isolation. And most importantly, when i say someone is interesting/pretty/nice, it doesnt means i wanna go after that person. For goodness sake have some maturity to differenciate between admiring and interested.

I tink my singing improved le, heehee. That day i evaluated my own singing and i realised i improved le wor~~. But still need to practice more if i am to sing duet with aiying ba. Her level is damn high lors, i tink if she go superstar cfm among the top few. The superstars tis time mostly cannot make it de. Singing wise realli cannot make it sia, only a few stand out from the crowd. Up till now there's 2 girls that i tink sings realli well among my frens--> aiying and clarice. lolx. Then when it comes to guys, sad to say, most of them cant even make the grade, onli a few are average singers. Maybe zhihui ba, he can sing those beri powerful cantonese songs by jacky cheung. He got the manly and powerful deep voice. lolx. I tink onli him nia ba, the rest is realli normal singers. Among them, the worse guy singer i knew is james. He tinks he sing like jeff chang and fei yu qing, but he realli sing like a dog. lolx. Not because of prejudice, but yes, he realli sucked. :P

Im drowning in fats. yes, its that serious. sad. fatter and fatter omg. i tink soon i can roll around like a ball le. cb one. Now i cant even box sia, my stewpid cabinet is blocking my sandbag and i have no place to push it to. kaoz. im supposed to throw away tis old cabinet when i buy a new cabinet, but i haven found one that i liked yet...

And finally, regarding my tagboard, it has became war zone. lolx. War of the golden era VS unknown new medic. Lolx. But its good lah, controversy is healthy for the human mind. Tag on baby! TAG ON!


Jason's Famous Quotes: New Year resolutions are meant to be broken.

Did You Know?: Guys pierce ears in the past to ensure they wont die young.

Novelist

Was taking the bus home ytd when i saw a guy wearing a shirt with a beri meaningful logo. It wrote ' To Err Is Human, To Forgive Is Divine.'. The phrase sets me thinking and i realised just how true it was. To forgive, its something everybody have done before, but can all things be forgiven? Then ironically i chanced upon another phrase on the internet, ' Women Forgives But Never Forgets, Men Forgets But Never Forgives.'. Linking the 2 phrases together leads us to a single conclusion--> Women are divine and since forgetting is a type of erring, men are human.... LOLX.

Alrite enough with word play. Seriously speaking, forgiving someone realli takes alot of effort. Hating is not as taxing as forgiving somebody although some ppl beg to differ. I am a human, i do hate ppl also. Most notably the first person on my hitlist is a secondary school guy called Domanic, he is public enemy number one during sec school days. lolx. He spouts nonsense to insult ppl, super tactless, likes to comment on strangers in public aloud, burps super loudly after eating food PURPOSELY and thinks he's realli goodlooking and gals will die under his hands. Has a huge ego and is super childish mentally. Even up till now, some of my sec frens tat were in contact with him also commented that he is still the same as before. I saw the death note 2 premiere yesterday midnite and IF i have the death note, i will write his name down. Yes, my hatred was that deep. So u see, i was telling myself to forgive him, yet i cannot do it, i dun understand y. Am i still immature to cling on to something so ancient?

Talking about death note, i believe people mostly will have personal use for the note provided they have it. Ask yourself, do u have someone's name that u wanna write? Sincerely ask urself, no matter ur answer is yes or no, both of these answers hint abit about ur mental state. For myself, im a honest person, so i do have names to write. :) Or maybe just one name ba, the domanic lor. lolx.

Okays, the above is just a thought after i watched the movie. Its not bad, those planning to watch it most prob will get their money's worth. ^_-

Was chatting with my sec skool buddy fadhir ( yes, he is malay, ironically. lolx) on msn tat nite when he reignited my flair for novel writing. We were toking about eragon u see, and i suddenly remembered that i wrote a novel when i was 14 yrs old and fadhir was the onli person that kws about it. hahass. Then i went rummaging thru my files and folders from primary school days ( the paper type, not the software files.. -.-) and voila, i found it! Wow, it realli amazes me how imaginative i was even though i was so young. The novel is titled Dragon's Eye and it recounts the tale of young boy ( yeah i kw, its a boy again.. zzz) who was the sole survivor of a Dragon Clan. The novel is quite complete with a HUGE world, evil villians, and the most interesting part was, i created and sketched 24 legendary weapons each complete with its veri own explanations and magicks. There's swords, spears, maces, bows etc.. hahasss

And yes, i most probably will do a reediting of the novel and maybe upgrade the language abit more to substantiate for a more mature crowd. So yes, im writing a fantasy novel beri soon, and i shall try to insert some more characters and expand the 'vision' of the world. Wars and battles of large scales are a staple and finally finish things up with a touch of extreme creativity. :)
All the above will definitely take some time, because im starting school soon in 3 weeks time. Studies are more important, so most prob will study HARDER nxt sem. Faram( final fantasy prayer.)

Yesterday went for my company's chalet at downtown east. Met up with weikoon and a few others at bugis first to buy present to exchange at the chalet. Reached chalet at 6+ i tink, lolx.
Saw lots of people there, most of them i kw, but some of the 'finer' ones i dun kw. LOLX. When i say finer ones, i guess my close frens kw wat i meant hor peter? sean? kuku? hahass. :P
Well, seeing and admiring is not sinning mah, anyways i still have 46 days of 'sentence' to serve before i can officially start all over again leh. hahass :)

The finest of them all was ironically corinne's sec school fren. lolx, i was sitting with corinne and suddenly this beri beri pretty gal came and looked for corinne. I think she's called theresa or sumthing lah, she came with her bf ivan ( which is boss's younger brother.. -.-"). Number 2 and 3 were in a group of 3 gals. They came with boss and i tink their names are rachel and mandy if my memory doesnt fails me. lolx. Not too bad lor, got gals to see, food to eat and frens to tok. wootz. Then went to play blackjack with boss and i won around $8 then have to zao le. sad lors, can win more de, but i alreadi steady with ah wei to watch death note at 1120pm at jurong point mah. kaoz. In the end im still late. fark. zzzz

The nite b4 i went to meet the guys from army days for some drinks and chat. Everyone looks the same, even uncle sam our senior medic also looks the same leh. hahass. Dev i tink grew fatter maybe due to eating too much australian food. LOLx. I met vincent, who is coincidentally a veri close fren of one of my OG frens. Small world sia, hahass. Anyways vin is a nice guy and he is damn steady, so most prob will join our little Armour Medics Gang. hahass :P

Okays, enough crapping le. Im beri tired todae, i OVERHAULED my room todae sia. Knn whole day at home clean up, damn tiring. Tomolo got people come paint my house, wootz!


Jason's Famous Quotes: Character is more enduring then looks.

Did You Know?: Guardian pharmacy is called Mannings pharmacy in Hong Kong!

Rain

Didnt blog for a few days cause i was well --> lazy. Watched DEJA VU with ah wei and his fren jingying. The movie was not bad, abit technical but still can understand the time and space folding concept. Makes me think about if there is a possibility of going back to the past and prevent or change something from happening, where would i be now? Alot of things wouldnt be the way that they are now, a stalemate which seems to be endlessly hopeless.

im sporting a new hairdo now, beri beri short no thanks to my stewpid encik during reservist.
A encik is a term we soldiers call out RSM ( regimental sergeant major) for those that dun kw. He damn garang lor, made me cut my hair so short. zzzz... Anyways reservist was a breeze because we kinda slept thruout the entire affair. U see, my unit's training was in june and i deferred that, hence i had to be attached to another sister unit for makeup training. Around 8 guys were with me and we were the 'outcasts' or 'invisibles'. lolx. Nominal roles for the training didnt have our names and hence we cant join the training and ippt. Wow, i went back and realli became a caveman---> Eat, Shit, Sleep, Play Cards (and the cycle repeats itself...) . Although some ppl tinks that its so good to be so idle, i beg to differ. Extreme nua-ness leads to super low physical metabolism and that means fat and useless. zzzz

Got to kw 8 new frens during tis ICT and as usaul, all seems fine initially. During the last day, some ppl (2 in particular) displayed 'patterns' and im juz standing aside and seeing how things unfold. Imagine asking a favour from someone and u get shown the black face, how would u feel? An old saying 'a frend in need is a frend indeed' realli hits the spot. Watever sia, fuck them, we onli meet once a yr for maybe 2wks max, so who the heck cares wat kind of fucks they are? :)

The day b4 went for primary school gathering (I know, im super busy these days. lolx) at cineleisure KBOX with buffet. wootz. The buffet was not super impressive, but at least some food were still edible, there were even oysters though i dun realli like oysters. :p The guys and gals from xingnan primary are still fit and healthy, a few guys got hitched up and brought their gfs along to intro to us. hahass. Its quite surprising that after like 11 yrs, we still meet up, i feel blessed to have them as frens because who the hell meets their primary schools frens nowadays? hahasss :)

Lots of appointments nowadays, going to meet the army dudes on thursday nite for drinks and chat. Then most prob around christmas having a sec school gathering. wootz, im meeting all my school frens within this mth sia. hahass. Looking back, my life isnt tat bad after all, seeing all the ppl that walked most of my life with me again made me realigned myself with my world. I see the world in yet another different aspect again. hahass.. :p

Adel went back to work at starhub le, i sort of wanna go back, but if i go back, its because of her or because i need a job? Going back for her is dumb, going back for a job is the correct attitude. In the past i screwed my job because of her, i keep getting preoccupied with her and well, i realli screwed my job. lolx. Jerjer is working at SH now and he was calling me to go back to work there when we were chatting at KFC the other day. Should i or should i not? Or can i?

When someone tells u ' i dun read ur blog' , what does it shows? It means that person dun care at all and u are just another organism among the thousands in that person's life. Though u qualify as 'fren', but u belong to the cathegory of 'acquaintance'. There's a microscopic percentage that that person lying, but still, its microscopic. Therefore being totally and entirely devoted to that person is abit pointless and insane. I know, dramas and movies always portray that in the end after donkey years, tat person will realised that u are always there and stuffs like tat, but in real life it doesnt happen that way. Even if in the end u were with that person, tat person is with u because he/she have no more choices or sympathizes with u. Its tat simple.

Its brutal but still i need to say, no matter how huge the rain, if someone does not wanna be hit by even 1 single drop, he or she will never be hit by tat drop.

Been raining continuously for 2 days alreadi and its still raining. And as u ppl mostly kw, im veri sentimental when it rains at nite. As usaul i was tinking about the thing that bugs me the most in all my 23 years of life. Im not whining mind u, im just trying to solve a veri veri difficult life puzzle. And wish me luck, may there be a day when i finally solve tis life puzzle. :)

A huge ulcer under my tongue have been bugging me for the past 2 days. I HATE ulcers, they're damn irritating and take ages to heal, especially on the tongue area. I have applied salt, bonjela, watermelon powder, they all dun help much although they did help abit. Therefore i have been toking like some retarded cow with too short a tongue. Damn sianz, i couldnt even work because my line of work needs my oral skills. Oral skills is verbal skills, not the 'other' oral skills. LOLX

K lah, its abit late le, i guess its time to sleep. I have lots to blog, but well, dreamland needs a superhero. :p

Jason's Famous Quotes: 心雨永远都淋不到不想被淋到的人.

Did You Know?: Salt melts slugs and snails.

RESERVIST

Nxt week going back for reservist. Fark. Need to go back to camp and cut hair. FARK LAH. zzz
Alrite, so lets recap wat happened. Ytd went shopping because got my pay le. Tis time, its budget mode. lolx. I spent around $100 onli ytd. Bought a watch, 4 t-shirts, a aviator sunglass and ate good food also. muahaha. :) The aviators cost $12, the watch $10, the heineken and redbull t-shirts were $22, and finally 2 hangten 'BIGFOOT' t-shirts for $10.80. LOLX. Ate carls jr for $12.80, then ate Ben & Jerry's phish food cone $4.50. Hmms, not recounting its not even a 100 bucks. lolx. Super budget. But i LURVEEEE my heineken t-shirt, damn nice sia. The glasses also super nice, damn cool. :) Now the final piece of the puzzle is a change of hairstyle and colour.

Wootz, new image when skool starts. though i will most prob be as fat, but will slowly slim down cause nowadays keep going gym and pool to train. heehee. I still have 60 days left. My results came out the day b4, and i got a 2 distinctions and 2 credits. Fark one lors, my result sucked. Accounts and Stats should get High Distinction, yet i onli got Distinction. The my OB and BC totally screwed up, onli got credit for them. Kaoz. It seems i still cant keep my promise to get all HDs for my subjects. I failed, i cant even keep a simple promise. haiz.

After the results came out, went to have dinner with my OG group supposingly, but when i reach there, its onli the guys. lolx. Onli rei, nich, XH and ah tan there, lolx. But nvms lah, for watever reason the others were not here i dun care, cant realli tink too much rite? heehee :)

Okays, so now we come to my farking tagboard. I tink its faulty sia, sometimes cannot tag lor, nb i wanna reply ppl also hard. Most prob if tis continues i will change tagboard. -.-"

Well, i shall reply tags in my entries for the time being. A anonymous tagged and poped tis question to me ---> ( if you meet someone whom has the sweetest smile, good character, intellectual n always looks at life positively, would you go for her? even if you might not haf the time, effort n $$ to commit in a love relationship, plus the status btw the other person different from one another......would you? )

Answer: Yes. Sounds selfish, but yes. I will definitely go for her. Time is under ur own control, if u truly feel for her, u WILL make time for her. Effort comes naturally if u truly like her, dun say u dun have the effort, if u like her, then do something for her. And finally for money, tat's the most problematic part. No money, its realli quite hard, lolx, but its also the problem with the simplest solution. Go work part time or watever to get money ba. :)
As for the status, when u like someone, there's no status to consider. U are who u are, if she likes u, she likes u for who u are. If she tinks u're not worthy, then in the end, how worthy is she? All human beings are borned equal, hence dun feel inferior. But before starting anything, pls pls pls ensure that u like her for HER, not because she is pretty or have big assets. Give sometime to tink about why u like her. Onli when u confirm that u are sincere then go for it. If not, dun even start.

The above question made me tink about adel again, she is all the above, and the status gap is personified by the invisible barrier between us. Okays, enough about her, toking about her fills me with ... well...a sense of loss. Haiz. Somethings in life juz doesnt go ur way, no matter how sincere u are....


Jason Famous Quotes: Like poles repel, Unlike poles attract.

Did You Know?: Apply Vaseline on the ends of your hair to prevent split ends. :)

Totaled

Yawnz, tiring day, was supposed to go swimming with stuart in the noon. Last min stuart called to say he's going earlier because MC dun kw how to swim and he needs to protect him.. -.-"" Gay shits. lolx. But i told them to go ahead because i needa sleep more. Sleep is the most important aspect in my life according to me. muahahah. :)

Whole day rot at home till round 6pm went to meet peter to la kopi. Still fun and nice to chat with peter after sometime, chatted on some simple issues in life and recapped about life in sungei gedong last time. lolx. Tomolo morning going to the new gym with richard and zhengyi because we are all getting fatter by the day. Richie is not fat lah, but he's starting to become abit chubby ( according to him) and zhengyi belongs to the same cathegory as me --> Fat Fug. LOLX

Alrite, lets take a look at my busy scheldule ba. Tomolo not working, wed most prob not working also because im bringing corinne to office for training in the noon and meeting the OG ppl for dinner at dhoby ghaut. Results coming out the same fateful day and so i hope can pass ba. Then on thursday go back office again to get pay and see how much i get ba. Haiz, didnt take account of the days i worked so i dun realli kw how much i will get. smart rite? zzzz.

Im starting to like my blog, it simply oozes honesty and there's no trace of any fakeness here. What u see is wat u get. Im fat, i admit. Im farked up, maybe. But im honest no doubt. Why hide what u tink? Voice it out and let ppl decide whether they agree or disagree lor. Some theories or mentality may be wrong, and hence they need correcting. Controversy creates conversations and therefore we can fish out the psychological tendencies of a individual by gathering the reactions. :) Was chatting with peter just now when he was telling me he's gonna start a blog soon and he didnt want a dry and boring blog. lolx. Was telling him to either do a blog on psychology (tat's wat he studies) or some controversial issue so that it wont be boring. And then i reflected on my blog at the same time while chatting with him. heehee

Alrite, lets get down to business. New theory time! Watched Superman Returns on my PC ytd nite and was tinking about superheroes. Was 'paying my water tax' in the toilet when i suddenly realise wat is the most valuable item in the world. The most valuable item in the word is dependent on the degree of need of the item. Its realli simple, wat u need most at a particular moment translate into the valuation of that item. Ask urself this, when u have a million tons of gold in the desert and u have no water, is water more valuable then gold? Or when u are alone on an island without food but full of diamonds, wont a single bread be worth the world to u? Therefore i came up with tis theory that the valuation given to a entity is directly proprotionate to the level and degree of need of that entity at a tranfixed timeframe. Yupz. Its completely correct from my perception, if u tink there's some variations or have objections to this theory, feel free to tag and reason with me. heehee :)

Jason's Famous Quotes: When ppl run out of quotes, they crap.

Did You Know?: True intent will be revealed during adversity.

Essensification

Tired legs, sore mouth and heavy eyes. Tat's the toll work has took on me. Im damn tired todae at work sia, keep stand there promote cards and walking around spying on the stewpid kids tat were doing a OCBC assignment. Was posted to IMM todae with shane and edmund, all guys, good to tok cock and crap rubbish with. Look at gals, give comments, relate to past humourous examples (if any), then stare blankly into the crowd looking for a potential customer. Whole day was repeating tis routine until boss called and told me to go spy on some kids he employed to give flyers. Spied and felt like a fat 007 doing a FATSINO ROYALE. okay, not funny. nabei. -.-"

Top sales among the guys todae mainly due to my exceptional luck. I mean when 'edmund-and shane-stopped-customers, they-come-directly-to-me-and-asked-me' kind of luck. Wat fark man, should have bought TOTO or 4D todae, most prob will tio. heehee. :P Alrite, lets come back to what i've been thru tis few days. Yesterday ( friday) was at wisma atria's 'outside-mango' booth and tat place totally sucked. I hate outdoor roadshows cause i keep sweating and become sticky like glue. Then i totally no mood to work at all. completely totally no mood. So my sales sucked ytd, juz 2 sales as compared to todae's 14. :)

I guess when a person is tired, he starts to tink about some life issues. At least that's wat i am, when im realli tired, i recap on wat my whole life was about and the ppl in my life tat made a inpact. Todae was one of the days when i was realli tired and burned out. Was on the shuttle bus from IMM to Jurong pt after work juz now, and was recapping about my army life. On the 11th dec, im going back for reservist, and they say 'PLS COME WITH A DECENT HAIRCUT AND NO DYED HAIRS'. Fark, my beautiful long hair is going to get sniped off? no way lors, im totally sianz about tis, i want my long long hair lors. was planning to dye it ash blonde (refer to previous entry) lors, kaoz. Anyways, was tinking about army and the changes it brought to me. I matured quite abit inside army, but still im lacking in some aspects that im currently learning slowly.

The other time when i was realli tired was after the first dragon boat training during my poly days. I ran and ran till i sort of felt giddy and lacked oxygen sia... Then after the training was weights session. Gosh by the end of the training, i take the bus home also nua like dun kw wat sia. lolx. damn funny, when i was giddy, the onli thing on my mind is huimin sia. sort of dumb but its true, my whole mind is huimin during that short period of time sia. lolx. Anyways that was the past lah, during my poly days lors, so many yrs ago. :)

My msn nick is still counting down to her bday although i kw we cant click. Its a deadline for me to change myself and till the countdown is up, im not going to go after any gal at all. I must have the discipline to stay true to just one, so this period will be a buffer period for my change. Yes i admit i do look at gals and sometimes do fantasize abit. But i kw deep in my heart that i will not go after anybody till the countdown is up. Simple. 66 more days to go. Wish me luck.

Now we come to a topic tat is quite interesting, at least to me.
*Disclaimer: What is said is wholly my childish tots and does not stands for the truth.*

Gals like to get cheated. Gals cannot stand honesty. Gals like hypocrites(i forgot the spelling). Gals like jerks. Gals tink jerks are good guys until they get cheated and realised tat the jerk is a jerk. Gals cant stand honesty, they want a hypocritical guy that seems nice and frendly and they tink he is a good guy.

Guys are evil. Guys like to cheat gals(nothing else to cheat). Guys refrain from honesty. Guys tink they are good guys. Guys tink they are the best(ego). Guys like to act and live behind a mascarade. Guys are 99.9% horny (yesh, including monks). Guys over fantasize. Guys want a girlfrend that is pretty, sexy, willing-sex partner with a no-resposibility tag.

The above is what i derived from a sample taken from the people around me, so might not be true. Anyways, as i was saying, guys like to act nice to a gal first, then slowly go in for the kill. especially towards pretty gals. I was like tat. I am no like tat now. treating someone nicely from the bottom of ur heart is much more important then just putting up a nice front. Yes i kw, most gals are suckers for hypocritsy, but u cant blame them, they were made like tat. Same with guys, we were made horny and nothing can stop us, no even buddha. Its onli how strong ur willpower is to control ur horniness. lolx. Anyways, i realised some ppl are slowly falling into traps made by guys, and i totally see everything unfolding as what i have predicted. But i dun tink i should say anything, because the person wont believe me anyways. :) But all the matured gals i kw have been cheated by a jerk b4 and they grew up from tat incident. So i do have the conclusion that gals onli grow up and understand the cruelty of the world after being cheated by a guy. They kw the beri simple logic tat a guys word is 98% lies, 1.95% crap and 0.05% truth.

Always remember, onli 0.05% of a guy's words are true when they tell u how much they love u or watever their brain can tink of. Im a guy and im guilty of that also. But i dun care, i wanna be honest and put everything down here so tat the person tat is supposed to see it will see it a pull the brakes in time. Anyways to that person ---> good luck, have fun. :)



Before wrapping up everything, i juz wanna inform my dear diary tat im considering taking up photography as a hobby. I wanna capture the emotions, beauty and ugliness of human nature. Most prob will be doing digital photography ( professional cameras are too expensive, especially the pic-developing part.) for a start and maybe i should get a good digital camera soon. :)

Jason's Famous Quotes: Naivity is a double-bladed sword.

Did You Know?: The best investment in any business is ur heart and soul.

Controversy

My hair is getting longer by the day. Lost my wallet ytd. Someone found it and info counter returned it to me. Money and EZlink gone. IC and 11B intact. Total fortune around $20+ gone, but IC and 11B intact, so at least wont get fined $100. -.-" But the thing that matters most is the wallet itself, its a gift from my OG frens. No matter what ppl tink, i realli do treasure it alot.

Met up with yuyun todae while im working. lolx. I went MIA for 30 mins and when i went back got a scolding from raquel. lolx, she's not realli evil lah, i kw she backstabs and likes to quarrel, but aunties are like tat one mah, rite? hahasss. so anyways let her lors. I've been working in the company for around 3 weeks now and i sort of seen thru some ppl rite from the start le. All my classmates have a job of some sort and everybody is busy earning money to fund the nxt semester. Realised everybody have their lives to lead (duh~~~) and their own problems (fark me...zzz).

In my line of work, i met another guy that i wanna hoot( as usaul~~). Tat guy, he watch out ba, he snatched my fren's sales and he tinks he is beri zai. Shall i show him my dark side? hmms, lets see how the thing goes ba, he's abit small size, so i dun wanna resort to violence if possible, he might die after taking a blow from me. ^_- Okay, now i finish complaining about tat fugger le, feels abit better ba. lolx.

Toked to ah wei abit about my business idea, and for once, he agreed with the plans. lolx. He is a beri pessimistic person and for him to agree it realli realli must be a veri good venture.. -.- And i will be roping in elissa and one more person to set up a 4 person partnership ba. Ah wei is my best bud, and i kw he have a veri cautious and sound mind, he's like someone tat pulls me back to earth everytime i fly too far. Elissa is a veri responsible and trustworthy person, though i've onli kwn her for half a yr, i kw i can trust her with important jobs. :) And the last person i will find is either stuart or richard. Richard is also someone i can trust to do the job rite, stuart also is a veri entrepreneurial guy i kw tat is dependable, but he have a 20% tendency to run off with money.. -.-"" lolx

Tomolo is not working, so have lots of time to rot at home. heehee. Will need time to watch miami vice and a korean movie. lolx. And well, after the loss-of-wallet incident, i learnt to TRY to not take things for granted. heeheee. And my job is quite enriching, because i always seem to get professional ppl ( eg: bosses, pilots, general manager etc.) for customers and i like to tok to them and get to kw their life experiences and what they went through. I learnt alot from them and when we're done with the forms and mailing, a good handshake to seal the deal is wat i always do. A good handshake signifies wat makes a man and how successful u are, i like the feeling of a successful handshake. :)


Jason's Famous Quotes: Luck is the rare phenomenon when the enviroment changes to suit the man. ( My veri own statement when i was in sec 4. heehee :P)

Did You Know?: When i dun show my dick doesnt mean i dun have one. Same for temper.

Playlists

Habit. When im bloggin, i always like to listen to my special 'sentimental' songlist. lolx. Brings me into the mood to blog. Well well well, so u ppl wanna kw wat's in my playlist rite? hahass, it changes periodically but there's a few songs that are basically 'embeded' in the list and wont change no matter wat. Before i continue, tis is a sentimental entry, so dun tell me not to blog about love and romance, im onli stating the reasons for the songs, not on a emotional basis. :)

Alrite, fo those of u tat dun kw, i had an entry in the past denoting that i have songs that remind me of somebody. Meaning that some songs always brings back memories of some particular person in my life, and yes, those ppl im toking about is gals in my life. Most ppl just listen to songs and like the songs, but i for one will always attribute a song to the ppl that made a significant impact on my life and they did play a part in forging me as wat i am todae. Okays, enough with the long winded explanations, i shall list out my playlist nxt.

My Playlist :

Adeline's
1) Liu Geng Hong - Cai Hong Tian Tang >>> Tis song reminds me of adeline. Alot.

2) Zhou Jie Lun - Feng >>> Same as above, because its a prelude to cai hong tian tang's mtv.

3) Cao Ge - Superwoman >>> The onli time we went for ktv session, she said she wanna listen to tis song, so i sang tis song for her. Though its a small thing and i sang like a dog, meant lots to me.

4) Lin Junjie - Zhi Dui Ni Shuo >>> Tis is obvious, i said sa lang hae you is onli for her, and its realli onli for her. This is the song that i will never ever forget for life. never, ever.

5) Aaron Kwok - Deng Ni Shuo Ai Wo >>> Well, tis is wat i hope for, but i guess it wont happen after all... will it?


Corinne's
1) Sammi Cheng - Mut Kai >>> A canto song, corinne is the onli one that sings and listens to cantonese songs with me. Its her favourite song.

2) Zhang Dong Liang - Ji Mo Bian Jie >>> A song she cherished when the one she loves cheated her. Yet she dun kw that someone else was there for her all along then....

3) Li Sheng Jie - Shou Fang Kai >>> When i finally got over her, tis song realli helped me alot because i told myself giving up means giving her happiness. Turns out that i am wrong. -.-"

Huimin's
1) Chen Xiao Dong - Tie Xin >>> The first song that started me on pop music. Its the first song on the first CD i bought and the first time i fell for a gal.

2) Chen Xiao Dong - Ai Ni Duo Ni >>> Totally wat i was doing during that period in sec skool. lolx, its quite funny tinking about how shy i was back then in sec skool. hahass...

3) Jacky Cheung - Ni Zui Zhen Gui >>> Her favourite during that period of time.

4) Celine Dion - My Heart Will Go On >>> This song is sang during sec 3 orchestra camp, the first time she held my hand and led me to dance with her....

Alrite, the rest i nxt time then type ba. Getting late and tml im working. How i wish i can rot at home and money will come rolling in. lolx.. alrite, tink too much. hahasss :P Anyways, the above is onli reasoning for why i like the songs, not some sort of declaration of love of watever those shit brains can imagine. Dun be so complex mentally, be simple, tink simple. :)

(While working ytd, someone told me about someone and i was abit surprised that that someone the someone was toking about chose that something that im using now. So to that someone, thks. I know i couldnt tell tat someone verbally, so i thank tat someone here ba. ^_^)


Jason's Famous Quotes: Man forgets but nvr forgives, woman forgives but nvr forgets.

Did You Know? : Music is the best language ever invented by man. Yes, its a language.

Time & Tide

Its those nites again. Emotional high-tide again. Or maybe call it loneliness ba. Hmms, sometimes i realli wish there was someone by my side that i can share my woes and happiness with. I know there's always frens, but there's some things that even the bestest of frens will not understand. Yesterday nite had a veri veri funny dream, i dreamt of someone in the past. hahass, its abit ironic and sudden. But the past seems to be coming back in my dreams these days. Hmms, izzit time to confront all those past memories and sort things that i left dangling in the past?

The logic of the world is veri simple, you can never escape from things and events, they will eventually come back to haunt u for a solution. Yet toking about tying up loose ends is much more simpler then actually doing it. After all that i've gone thru, i now understand how come ppl dun wanna grow up. With age comes resposibilities, and some responsibilities can never be fulfilled. Tell me someone who is at the age of 23 and has no problems at all, i will swallow my monitor on the spot if someone like tat exists. I dun fear problems, they forge a man out of a boy. I believe humans are meant to go thru hardships and learn from the experiences, we are after all animals, primal instincts will alway be present to make us seek the easy way out, yet to overcome these instincts will bring us further from barbaric customs.

Im philosophising more and more these days, am i getting older and thinking much more? hmms, nvms, shall tok about something more jovial. Am planning to revamp my doghole, need to go ikea to shop for some cheap furniture( especially a dbl decked bed with a sofa below), then go downstairs buy some paint. Also require a huge beanbag to sit on and slack to play ps, and if i have some money left, will proceed to buy some carpets to put on the floor. Anyways, will find time to draft out and measure the dimensions of my room and find the perfect furniture for my room. Im a engineer remember? hahass :P i tink all the above will happen just b4 chinese new yr, when i've saved enough. Im tinking of painting my room lime green and buying some glass furniture, which will have a elegant and simple classy touch to it. Table, chair, cabinets all made of glass or fibreglass, all transparent. And the new bed frame i shall choose white to complete the clean look. clean and simple. Wootz, CLASS. But i calculated the budget to be around $1000 bugs.... fugging ex man..

Measured biceps todae, shrinked till cannot alreadi, was 14.8 inches during peak, now its a meager 12.1.... The waist still okay, nvr increase but still as fat. Weight maintained but i guess its more fats then muscle mass. Health-wise, i tink im declining alreadi. Will be dead by 50yrs old if i dun do something soon. lolx. The worse is im gonna fail my ippt! FUG! Remedial Training, here i come!

Jason Famous Quotes: Being touched by an angel also means u are under the curse of the angel.

Did You Know? : Melt someone's heart too much, and u will drown in it.

V . U . L . G . A . R

Alrite, i kw people are beri happy that im back again. lolx. Thks to jer, he helped me got back my net till 25th, muahaha, heng last time i helped him b4. wootz. Well , tis 2 weeks i've been rotting at home playing final fantasy XII since i have no net. thk god that FF came out on tat day i got DCed, at least i wont die from boredom at home.

Well, yesterday or should i say saturday, i started work at the credit card company. Elissa introed me and the ppl inside are still alrite, but thing is im still quite slack. muahaha... :P
I knew a guy from on my first day of work and alreadi im starting to refrain from speaking with him too much. In my honest opinion, he likes to talk nonsense and is beri loud, just like me in the not so long ago past, i do tok rot and cock sometimes, but im trying to crap less unless im with ppl like kuku or the buds. I discovered that people dislike overly noisy individuals, so im lucky to have noticed in time, and when he started babbling about his achievements and whatever stuffs i further saw another me in him. Proud and ignorant beyond doubt. Lolx, shyts, am im critising myself or him sia, hahhasss, maybe its good to look back and compare who u WERE and who u ARE.

But seriously when he toked to me, i juz silently smiled back and gave 1 word replies, it realli personifies the incredible childishness and lack of maturity. Im not beri matured, but yet i can seem so much more mature when compared to him. I finally understood and saw why i am labeled childish by her in the past. I do agree now. Okies, enough bad toking about people, im actually analysing myself more then him. hahassss.. :P

Work so far is still alrite, but the long standing hours are abit shag. I tink if i continue with tis job, i most prob will slim down provided im not working with kuku. lolx. Sat i worked with her and she turbo wanna eat tis and eat that, so as usual, being with her = eat and become fat and complaining about it at the same time. LOLX. Todae i worked alone with some people i didnt kw and i onli ate a bowl of noodle from 11am to 9.30pm. wee you wee, no food lors, onli drink water nia. lolx. tml i wanna go swimming, but stuart is having lessons. So in the end i tink i sleep thru the noon and then wake up start my weights ba. Should start weights le, (again...) i farking hell have no determination lors, i keep skipping my weights sessions man, how the fish am i going to be more defined and lose the stewpid fats off my farking face? zzzzz i onli have 85 days left lors... cb one, i dun like to curse but i realli farking hate my attitude sometimes. Discipline is realli not my forte, i need a discipline master.... or on second tots, a discipline mistress.... lolx :P

okay, now we come to the lewd part, for those ppl that cannot take it, dun read. i repeat, dun like? dun read, wanna read, swallow it whole.

Knew a guy called ah-cai on sat on the job, fun guy, abit egoistic but overall a okay dude. He lives in hougang and me in boon lay. so on the job, we obviously oggle at lots of gals since we are doing sales, and we came to a conclusion on a veri peculiar occurance. Gals from the east side have bigger boobs then other areas of singapore. We are not perverts lah, but generally speaking from our observations. Is it the water there? or the food there? Is it that the water content is different tat's y it encouraged growth? hmms....I tink they should do some research into this phenomenon and find out the truth and reason behind it. lolx....

Alrite, enough lewd jokes. Lets go to something more interesting. Its philosophy time again! wee you wee! On the mrt trip home, i philosophied a new theory, called the Persisten-turity Theorem. It denotes that no matter at what stage of maturity someone is, he/she will always have a immature counter personality in him/her. And in order to balance out psychologically, the person have to release the immaturity on something or someone. Some ppl play games and display childish emotions like scolding and insulting the other gamers. Alot of other ways are also commonly seen, and i do observe them in ppl. So u might see a cool guy being cold and manly, but when he watches soccer, he instantly become a hallowing and noisy retard. Understand? :)

by the way, the heading have nothing to do with the entry content, i just tink it looks cool. heehee. :p

Jason's Famous Quotes: Responsibility and Sincerity are not consistent.

Did You Know? : Some homosapiens are only partially evolved. Mentally.

Examinotopy

Im am blogging from skool. If u guys noticed, i've been missing online for a few days alreadi. lolx.
the reason is beri simple, i nvr pay bill mah, so my connection tio cut. hahahass... farked up feeling lors, i need a job that pays fast cause i want my net back, without net life is sooooo no life. At nite cannot play games with the guys leh, damn sianz. Realised i took my net for granted le, lolx, didnt knew i grew so attached to the net. especially msn, when everynite i will update the days left in the countdown. But fraid not, i have made a mental note on the days left alreadi, so the date will be accurate when i get my connection back. wootz.

As a side note, i juz finished my final paper and i tink its farked up. haiz, all my papers i tink is farked up, am i overworried or juz simply silly? Nvm ba, shall not say more. The more i ponder, the more sianz i am. Yesterday finally started on my routine again after slacking for so long for the exams, i am getting fatter and fatter... zzzzz.... nvms, the swimming pool beside my house is opening soon, and that translates to daily swimming and tanning for me! wee you wee! I dun like to run, but i love swimming, the tranquility that comes with being underwater is realli so soothing mentally. Eat less train more, i have 94 days left.

I am wat i am and i like wat i am, mentally tat is. One thing i learnt in life is dun assume. Assumption screwed me in a couple of times. When u dun kw somebody, dun pretend to kw him/her, trust me, dun try it. And to pick up the pieces after that is realli tedious and tiring, but u kw u cant leave it there, its like some thing pricking periodically at you mentally. Its okay if u dun realli care about that person, but that person keeps poping up in ur head every now and then, that is wat i call torture. Psychological burden they call it, and its not something u can put down, the only solution is to SOLVE the problem. Okies, that ends the psychology lesson for todae.

Jason's Famous Quotes: The Moonlight Shadow is a replicant of the moon's essence.

Did You Know? : Lust is the primary motivating factor for men pertaining to commercials.

Powers!

Todae accts exam. No stunts this time, relatively easy but thanks to farktart me, i tink im failing tis one. zzz.... let me tell u why, i nearly didnt went for the exams todae because i remembered someone telling me accts is on tuesday.... kaoz, heng ytd midnite i SUDDENLY wanted to see the exam timetable, maybe its my spider-sense or my extrasensory-perception at work ba. lolx. Anyways thanks to watever caused me to check, i went for todae's exams with juz 3 hrs preparation. Knn i didnt study for accts fully lors, i tot still got 1 more day to choing mah.... zzzz

This few days have been downloading movies to watch, i watched LONG HU MEN, SHINOBI, WO HU le, all dvd quality ones... wootz... lolx... and now i have THE HILLS HAVE EYES, and POPULATION 143 and RE-CYCLE to watch. muahaha........piracy is fun! Anyways my fren and i had tis beri intellectual conversation tat day regarding piracy and ethics and everything, in the end we came to tis conclusion --> piracy is a reaction move to counter the ever-rising price of stuffs. The companies and other entities are fleecing consumers more and more, i understand they say tat costs are rising on production and stuffs, but come on, who sets the benchmarks? They themselves set the benchmarks. so in the end, they are unreliable sources of benchmarking. And since the masses have no way out, they resort to piracy. If they reduce the price of original stuffs, who wouldnt buy them? Its because their greed prevents them from reducing the price and its a cheaper alternative to launch anit-piracy campaigns as compared to harming their profits. hmms.... at least that's the outcome from the discussion. Maybe we should analyse tis perspective again ba. lolx.

Ya, as i was saying, i keep going to macdonalds near my house to study with stuart sia. lolx, i didnt realli know tat we will click well because last time in poly i used to condemn him. hahasss, i still remembered when we went to gym with ah wong last time, stuart always complain about tired and he couldnt even lift 5kg.... -.-""" gosh.... but now he's running alot le, so in short he is fitter then me, im a fat fark. zzzz... But anyways, we click quite well, and we always discuss intellectual stuffs that most other guys dun discuss de. Sometimes we do tok about gals, but i always try to change the subject or remind him tat i dun wanna tok bout gals. What for tok so much about something u dun have? And when i tok, i tink, i dun wanna tink about other gals, 1 is enough. Just 1, no more. ^_^

And let me tok abit about the 1 and onli can? hahass, todae when i was going home, i saw a adeline look alike on the bus. kaoz, super look like her lors, from all angles also look like her, but is younger version lah, around 17-18 yr old ba. then on the same bus at the traffic light, a boon lay garden school bus with the logo stopped beside my bus. Gosh... boon lay garden instantly reminded me of huimin... lolx.. i remebered i even went back on teacher's day with her to her primary skool when we were sec 3... hahass... the good old days.... kks, enough, if not peter will say i keep tok about love le. hahass.. :P

And to end this long entry, i smashed my knuckle ytd -.-... nb i was walking pass my sandbag, so i casually threw a few straights, but i sort of got over enthu and smashed the side of my knucle against the bag.... knn i jittao high and my hand instantly orh-chean lor.... so pain sia, now i cannot punch, if not hand will pain.. zzz... need at least 1 week to recuperate ba... haiz..... sad....

Jason's Famous Quotes: The person u hate most might actually be your life partner next time...

Did You Know? : My ancestors was traditional chinese physicians.... 0.O

Jasonisitivity

Todae was OB exam. I tink i most prob failed it. The format was entirely not the same, and im supposed to be veri prepared for it, because i did put in effort to study. Yet once i entered the exam hall, my brain seem empty and i cant realli tink of watever i have remembered. And the most surprising thing is the questions are totally different from all the past year questions. Moral of the story, someone pulled a stunt on us. All of my frens cannot cope with the paper, not even one told me he/she is confident of securing a distinction, much less a high distinction. Why? OB is supposed to be my most passionate module this semester and im supposed to get a high distinction for every module. I once told her that i will strive to get high distinction for all my modules and get a degree with a high distinction, but it seems my abilities arent proving my promises. Disappointment always visits at the strangest times, and its like deep into the night le... -.-""

Tomolo need to study accounts le, i realli hope for my other paper, i can do well.... i realli dun wanna default on my promise....

Alrite, this few nites, beetles or some sort of unknown bugs have been flying into my room. They are big, hard and can fly at amazing speeds. Totally irritating. I can bear to kill them by smashing them, cause its beri gross, so in the end, i used a zip lock bag to catch them all, gotta catch them all! ( pokemon anyone? -.-"") right now i have a proud collection of 4 in my bag within 2 nites, and they are still alive and kicking.... gosh, they are hardy creatures ya?

How many of u imagine and fantasize and reflect? Do u tink about the day's event and recap the happenings like a recorder and start to analyse ur own behaviour patterns and reflect on them? Sometimes mentally im like a pool of stagnant water, and that is the perceived equilibrium that i always seek. With nothing mentally, no mental burden, no complex psychological issues, life is so much simpler. Some people managed to maintain and lead a life without any worries, but those people are much more naive. i guess its a fair deal, u earn social and life experience then u trade off ur simplicity and pureness of heart. Its a matter of survival in the world after all, a simple and pure heart wont get u anywhere, deceit and hypocriptical guides and leads u to your specific desires. OMG, OB again... fark... zzz, y am i so flooded with OB man, fark lah....zzzzz

Not in a good mood to blog, so shall stop here. Wish me luck for the remaining exams.

Jason's Famous Quotes: Promises are NOT meant to be broken. (I erred, so im trying not to break one again... sorri bro, im still guilty for tat event.)

Did You Know?: I have a pepper lunch coupon valid until 10th december 2006...

Screwed

Just reached home from school. Todae was accts revision lesson and its sort of boring, because balwant onli went thru a few questions then proceed to have consultation session. hmms.... After tat, went to study with alina and elissa. Halfway thru our studies in the study room, there was tis malay guy that tinks he is the boss and storms out of the room claiming we were noisy. -.-" I do admit initially ben was abit noisy lah, so ben went to apologise to that guy, he gave attitude to ben and when told me i was veri buay song alreadi. Ben was saying 'if last time me, i will hit him alreadi', and mentally im like 'haiz... dun so kiddish leh... -.-""'...

Then the storming off came when ppl left and entered the room, so there was a commotion mah, not our fault le lors. And ben was pissed, so he shouted a 'fuck off' when the pig left the room, after 10 secs, he came back in asking who said tat phrase. I was staring at the pig in the eye because i alreadi hot le, was expecting ben to own up and if a fight ensues, i will step in lor. But to my disappointment, ben kept quiet and looked down on the floor.... gosh... If u said something, u should own up mah, i kw he dun want trouble, but own up lah, dun diam diam sit there like a pigeon mah. I believe in being responsible for what u did and said, if its me, i cfm stand up admit de lor.... -.-""

Anyways, that pig went to complain to the librarian, and when the librarian came up to scold us, one of the guys (i dun kw him) retorted and scolded the librarian for not getting her facts rite and started scolding us. lolx.. damn funny, then people started joining in also telling her the problem dun lie with the people in the room, its tat pig, he's level of tolerance is too low le. hahasss... damn funny.. but i choose to keep my mouth shut thruout the ordeal, because i kw, once i speak, colourful words will come out. So ya, i also became sensitive to people and didnt say anything at all while at the same time analysing the situation.

Hmms, it seems the self-correction is taking effect le, i realli can start to tink in other's shoes. The librarian also quite sad lors, she's onli doing her job and tis is the treatment she got. But it all boils down to the pig lah, if he cannot stand the noise, then go toilet cubicle study lah, there confirm silent one, unless got occasional 'PUUUT!' or maybe a satisfactory 'AAAAHHHH~~~~!!!!'... hahass.....!

I was so amused by the incident that i sort of smiled to myself like a sick bastard while i was staring and studying my OB lors... lolx, why is it so funny rite? simply put, my brain is using OB to analyse that pig's behaviour lors~~ hahass.. ge funny.. ~~~ ( we sort of endangered tat pig's safety needs, so tat will lead to jeopadizing his self-actualization needs and when he left and came back, he wanted to fulfill his esteem needs... LOLX)

Okay, screw him, lets get back to life, exams is onli a few days away, and i havent finish revision or should i say, i havent started on stats and BC yet... fark lah... die le lah....... i kw i wont fail the exams, but i wanna get a HD leh. I gotta put more effort if i wanna get HD ba, i promised her tat i will get HD for all my grades, so i must do it no matter wat. Promises are meant to be kept, and i totally intend to keep these.


Jason's Famous Quotes: Humans like to assume split identities.

Did You Know?: The haze makes people dumber.

Complacense

I have wasted a week. Sad to say its true. a week of my life is spent gaming and not studyin when i should. haiz, ytd go out until super late also. hahasss... But i feel sort of guilty, yet i did wat i did because its ethnical. gosh. Its about sean, eh bro, if u're reading tis, sorri for not making it for ur grandma's funeral ya? im going to a fren's birthday at nite so i cant go to a funeral then go ppl's bday, hope u understand bro. Chill man, dun tink too much yeah?

Anyways, b4 heading over to jean's bday, went back to NPS to see how's the Family Concert getting along. Saw the usaul suspects ah kuang and zhaorong there, and james was there again. lolx. The dumb guy that bought APOLLO CAKEs for our concert 4 yrs ago as refreshments. LOLX.... recalling it makes go gaga, lolx.. still remember jiayan's astonish face when tat fruitcake reported back with 2 bags of APOLLO! LOLX.... Where got ppl so stewpid one? hahass... was recounting the incident with zhaorong ytd at the concert and we laughed like crazy. hahasss...
But the sad thing is most of the alumnis didnt realli came back to the club. haiz... time realli tears people apart. The times with ah pin and the guys, strumming and singing as a group realli brings back memories...Even the period where we were illegally in the music room staying overnight, the horrible nite that all of us were bunched together and not making a sound because EVERYONE of us felt and saw the 'lady in white'.... Fark man, tinking about it sends shivers down my spine especially since im typing tis entry in the middle of the nite. We didnt sleep tat nite, waited for the sun to rise and that sort of took eternity, even going to urine also dun dare... kaoz...

okay, back to the concert, i feel that the standard is not there anymore. haiz... during my time there was still some standard to the pieces and the our techniques and style were also prim and proper, but nowsdays i sort of see alot of slack. Nevertheless, the freshies and the members did their best and i did see some hard work. Good job guys and gals, but the next coming battle is Virturso, i hope the standard is higher, cause Virturso is a formal concert, not like family concert which is informal.

Halfway thru the concert, i gotta run cause im rushing to jean's bday, and when i reach pasir ris park, i farking hell step into a mud pile. knn luckily im wearing flip flops but the mud flooded my jeans and foot, i hate that kind of nua nua squishy feeling. So in the end, i lan lan went to toilet to wash up lor. Then finally went to the BBQ and eat some beehoon then stand around see the guys do funny stuffs. As usaul, alot of ppl were looking at rei , i was sort of people-watching and stoning around therefore casually noticed the glances. lolx, standard ba, rei is yandao and he's a good person, at least better then me tat is. hahasss. ^_^ Then after that, we went out in 3 cars and did some late nite activity. Visit a multiracial temple, haunted places, see bapo and geylang-rians, and finally eat tau hui. Fleeting glances and distain mixed with curiosity. So i reached home at around 5am. Once i woke up i played game again. lolx.. bad student. :P

Tomolo MOST PROB will do some running and maybe a round or 2 of shadow-boxing ba, if im in the mood maybe even heavy bag training? lolx... but i tink the highest possiblity is me slacking off the day AGAIN. grrr... i have a deadline to meet and here i am, slacking like mad. Cannot be complacent le ba, i onli have 111 days left. kks, must persevere! GRRRAH!


Jason's Fabulous Quotes: A change of pace in life will yield both detrimental and incremental behaviours.

(NEW!) Did you kw? : Ramli burgers supposingly funds a cult. O_o

Irony

I feel so misunderstood sometimes. Human beings like to jump to conclusions. That is confirmed. Why judge a person so quickly? How deep do u kw that person? Im not trying to hit back or anything, ask urself deep inside, are u superficial? I know i am, sad to say, im among the most superficial among homosapiens. But i know that, and i try to know more about ppl i have a prejudice against, because that is the onli way to overcome stereotypical opinions. Anyways i totally understand some ppl will tink otherwise and think im spouting nonsense again. hahasss, well, my mentality is still beri simple. I am wat i am, and this is my blog. i write what i want and i am what i am. Yes i can change, yes i am changing, but within my soul there is still integrity. Im not a plasticine, i cannot be moulded to suit every single person and i wont. So understand that, and when reading my blog, keep a open mind. Whats the use if u read wat i write, and feel offended and u keep coming back to read and make urself more and more tulanz?

Hao le, the above is food for thoughts, and please dun say i kw gals. i dun kw them at all. if i kw gals that well, why am i still single? Its obvious rite? I dun tink i kw gals well and i certainly dun. Each and every person is different, and everybody went through different upbringing and hence have differing cultures. What is acceptable to someone may not be so for another person. Okays, enough blabbering le. Im tired of typing le. ^_^

Kks, todae went back to skool to finish and hand up my database assignment. Im a last minute man, and therefore, i do things last min. hahasss :P Then at around 6, i took a bus home, and once i reached home, play game! wee you wee! But gaming is starting to get boring le, haiz, i guess things do get boring sometimes ba. But i play play play hor, then lost track of time. Was supposed to go the sean's grandma funeral at 9pm de, then i forgot.. -.-"" But chill, called sean and told him i will b going down tml afternoon. So tomolo will be leaving house at around 3pm ba. Its at woodlands lor.... abit far sia. hahasss.... Then after that will be going back to NP to show face for family concert, then at around 730pm, most prob will leave for jean's bday at pasir ris. lolx. LONG LONG LONG day tomolo, hopefully im still alive by then. wootz. relax.


Jason's Famous Quotes: Time always compels.

Politics!

Hmms, im veri happi, alot of ppl tagging in my board. muahaha! Aiyah, its juz a story mah, lolx, im sooo into story telling rite? hahass. not funny. sua. -.-"" Alrite, if dun blog about love hor, ehs... blog about philosophy want? Anyways i not realli blogging about love mah, its not like im writing which gal i am into rite now and stuff lors, its juz emotional-philosophy lah. But hor, i tink for tis entry i make it more... global ba.

North korea, a country that is virtually a hidden entity in the current modern global village. Its still practicing 'extreme' communism and has a silly looking farktart for a leader. lolx. we have to agree kim-jung-wat-the-fark looks a little nerdy. hahass... anyways, they are currently luring the world to wage war on them by running a second nuclear test. Sometimes it just makes me wonder how silly can they be? Trying to reinforce their ego by doing things that is completely senseless. Why the hell would u wanna incur the wrath of the entire world and expect to survive?

From a economic point of view, north korea is trying to force the US to agree to its demands and give economic aid to help the country. But the fools also should understand, that what happened in iraq can happen in north korea. Well , coming to tink of it, its a totally different context. lolx... contradictory rite? North korea, being a asian country certainly have alot of differences from iraq, and as a side note, we need to understand tat iraq belongs to a specific ethnic group. Hitting on iraq has benefits, while hitting on north korea does not have any benefits, and as we kw, the US always consider gains above anything else. As we can see, hitting on iraq gave the US a hold on the middle eastern oil monopoly.

Coming back to north korea, we understand that the south koreans do harbour a hatred for the US and they consider north korea as a brother although they have a long running war between them. Some south koreans even have relatives over on the northern border, and hence, waging war on them will eventually result in dead relatives. lolx.

So the question now is = will the US attack north korea?
Answer: currently NO. because US have just ended the iraq war, and is preoccupied with the war on terrorism, so resources and manpower wise, they are spread quite thinly. Even if they are realli bent on waging war, they need allies from south-east asian area.

Okay, i kw the above is abit boring, but can lah, that should suffice for now, i can write a entire thesis on the above topic and blabber on and on. But im not going there, cause too long, im dying to sleep anyways. hahass. And one thing about the previous quote, im not a male chauvinist pig, i saw ppl saw tat phrase in a drama, and so i put lor. Its just food for thought, not realli my thoughts. hahass.
(P.S. If its realli true, then i should have melted someone by now....)


Jason's Famous Quotes: Noone totally understands him/herself.

心 雨

Things always come a full circle. And its quite funny sometimes. Let me quote an example, what if there was this person that is changing and waiting for another person, yet the other person, is changing and waiting for another person? hahass... complex rite? actually there's onli 3 person in the loop, and the first person, is realli trying beri hard to change to wat the second person wants, yet the discovery that the second person is changing for a unknown third person sorts of surprised the first person. The first person came to the above conclusion from some unrealible source, maybe its just a song lyric, yet after attempting to decipher what song the lyrics belongs to, the person cant find it. Which means for a veri rare period of time, the second person has shown her thoughts. Is the first person jumping to conclusion? over-sensitive?

Well, lets try to give my example some names. hmms. lets name them A, B and C respectively.
But C is redundant anyways, cause my story revolves around A and B mostly. hahass..
Its sort of sad for A, cause A didnt tell B tat he/she is changing for B, and B wont find out until a specific date. But B is changing for C though, but B understands that its too late now that he/she have changed for C alreadi. So in the end, wat is the answer or outcome of this complex changing and waiting game? And will B ever forgive A and try to give A a chance? Will the rain in A's heart ever touch B?

Hahass, alrite le, enough of complicated examples. kks, todae was a normal day as usaul, started my revision finally. hahass.. 3 chapters of OB... i tink tat should suffice for todae ba, tml need to rush the BC access assignment, so hopefully can finish by tml. ^_^

And ytd i went tanning rite? i tink i over tanned my neck and now its red and itchy... sianz... cannot scratch too much, if not veri ugly... but realli veri itchy mah... sianz... farked up one lah. Maybe im allergic to sunlight? hmms.. cannot be leh.... nah, sua, dun care. by tml will be okay le ba. heehee.


Jason's Famous Quotes: Girls are like ice-cubes, no matter how hard, they will still melt one day.

Monotonotivity

Went swimming and tanning todae. Realised different perspectives yields different reactions. Will let time tell.

Todae's swim and tan was a timely one. Had some time underwater to think again. hahas... water seems to calm my mind and give me alot of space to reflect. The vastness of the pool eventually seems to make my tots bounce around the pool and come back to me. okay. tat description sux. lolx.. kks, so todae went swimming with stuart, and he told me he got kidney stones..-.-....seriously.... he's abit worried lor i can see, but wat to do? i can onli advice and console. hopefully it helps ba.

After tat, we both went to drink papaya milkshake at the hawker centre nearby cause stuart says its good for shitting... -.-"" my frens can be so lame sometimes ya? hahass... Rite now, im downloading the game 'romance of three kingdoms 10' now, and the news reported some ppl were caught downloading music from the net todae. hmms... game is not music, so i wont be caught rite? rite? ya. rite. :P

The haze. i hate it. it made alot of ppl sick and tat is totally fucked up. I dun tink i can write any evil comments on the country tat made the haze here, cause i will go inside sit. so i shall subtly say tat the country is dumb can le. k, end of story. Actually hor, i sort of wanna redye my hair leh, cause the colour is growing out le. hmms... wat colour should i make it leh? hmmm.... gold? nah tat one too ah beng... purple? dun ba, like dog like tat.... red fades beri fast also... haiz... i tink copper brown is still the best for me ba.. lolx...


Jason's Famous Quotes: The world does not need anybody to spin.

Reminisence

Hmms, yesterday went back to NPS for the camp. Corinne was late, so i went in myself first, and i called ah kuang, he told me to help out as a game com... -.-"" My mind goes: ' im a alumni and i came back to catch up with the other alumnis, and nw u call me do sai kang?' . LOLx, but anyways, i helped out cause ah kuang is my best bud in NPS mah, so watever laziness juz sorts of dissipates. Nich and xuanhe smsed me to go ah tan house to play mahjong and to tok things out cause they kw im unhappy with wat happened in the previous entry. But thing is im busy, and im in NP, so i couldnt go meet them. I tink as long as they kw its unfair to do this to me and stop doing this childish stuffs, im glad le, dun need to take any further measures ba.

Up till now, my problems are actually quite transient as compared to my fren's prob. Maybe not fren, acquaintence during NS ba. I read his blog and realised one of his frens juz commited suicide, and he tinks he didnt do enough to stop his foolish act. Therefore he is critisizing himself for not doing more for him. I dun have such a tragic experience b4, hence i will nvr kw wat is the feeling like to lose a fren when u can actually save him/her.

Anyways, back to the camp, they played a murderer/treasure hunt game and as the name suggests, we have to RUN AROUND NP. Gosh, its been 3 yrs and here we go again, running the polytechnic and sweating like a dog once again. hahasss.. corinne and zhaorong was with me and we sort of sweat like mad. Poor corinne, she's having gastric flu and still have to suffer with us. haiz, ke lian de mei ren. hahasss :P Then she left at around 10 when her bf came to fetch her. After that, its juz me and gay zhaorong. hahass... The club's freshies were a veri interesting batch, lolx, they reminded me of myself when i was young and naive. hahass... When the game ended, its alreadi 12 plus so i cant go home. -.-"" Fortunately, ah kuang brought extra clothes, hahass, and so i borrowed his clothes, BUT i have no towel, so after bathing, i used TOILET ROLLS to dry myself. In all my 23 yrs, i have NEVERED dried myself using toilet rolls after a shower, so its quite an experience. ^_^.

After a nice shower, i sat down and had a good chat with ah kuang and company, and naturally, ah kuang asked me now im on which gal. And when i told him i have no gals now and is changing, he thought it was a joke...-.-"" After i told him seriously i realised what's wrong with me, he sort of surprised me yet again. He told me all along, he tot my attitude towards gals last time was fucked up. He told me that i was super ultimate flirt. I can put effort on a gal during a period of time, and infront of tat same gal, i can be veri veri close with another gal. And hence even if some of the gals liked me, they also didnt realli did anything because gals simply dun like flirts.
I took it all well, and i sincerely admitted tat i was wrong. Ah kuang said i had the charm to click with people veri veri quickly, and alot of people got close to me, especially gals, but i did not kw what is the limit to closeness, hence sometimes when the gal i liked saw me so close with another gal, obviously they will be turned off. Alrite, so i nw i kw. Maybe i should ask my close frens out one by one and asked them about myself. hahasss..

After that, ah kuang went to sleep ( he told me to stay for the nite, and he happily went to hug qi mei and went to sleep...) and i there like a dumb dirk. lolx.. so i went to play card games with a few freshies. okay, its not on purpose that they are all gals, but there realli is noone else alreadi. The guy freshies are either asleep, or playing guitar their own guitar at one corner silently. How u expect me to approach them when i didnt played a proper guitar score for almost 3 yrs? And well, i onli played CHOR DAI DI with them lah, nothing much, i mean they are onli 17 yrs old, same age as my sister lah, so i treat them all as sisters. hahass. And i realli did not tink too much this time, i kw im changing and im starting to see the positive effects. ^_^ Its 118 more days and i need to change physically also. I want a near perfect me for that coming special day.


Jason's Famous Quotes: Money is the ultimate god.

Stereotyped

What's the feeling of being ostracized? guess everyone felt it b4? yupz, it sux.

Todae went skool for BC lessons. Was lost thruout the whole lesson because i nvr bring my assignment. lolx. Im getting more and more lazy these days, i dun even wanna update my blog, the deadly slacker virus has caught up with me again. gosh.

Im forcing myself to write something here in case ppl tink im dead or something. As usual, have been tinking and reflecting on some stuffs. Am i MCP? Well, im definitely not, because i dun feel women are inferior. My mum single-handedly brought up my siblings until we are old enough to care for ourselves, whereas my dad onli came back last yr. Who am i to say women are inferior? My mum is a veri good personification of a veri strong and independent woman. Okays, why am i saying this? simply because ppl sort of misunderstood me to be a MCP, i might look like a pig, but im not a MCP. Ppl like to judge without even trying to kw me in depth, and sad to say, i treated them as frens. The disappointment is realli overwhelming, they dun even have to courage to voice it out to me. All along, i've been brought up in a upfront-in-ur-face enviroment, and i appreciate honesty more then anything from frens. Anything not happy, say it out, pull me to one side, tok things out, that would be my preferred move. Im matured enough to receive feedbacks and criticism, i wont be pissed and shout back. And the thing is they dun kw i am such a receptive person, why? They didnt took the effort and time to kw me as who i am. I kw i might spout nonsense and stuffs most of the time, but i realli felt those were jokes, if they feel uncomfortable, they can tell me. Like tat time, i used too much vulgarities, a guy got abit unhappy and told me, and till now, i dun use much vulgarities with him le.

Okies, the above said, lets come back to my boring yet interesting life. Yesterday nite, i was plagued by mosquitoes and couldnt sleep..-.-.. i hate mosquitoes, so many stuffs get extinct everyday, y mosquitoes couldnt be extinct? i mean they are totally useless to the eco system ( okay, maybe as food for some silly bugs) and they are PESTS, even rats have more use then them. I wished someone can wipe out mosquitoes one day. Let them be extinct. Screw the mosquitoes!



Jason's Famous Quotes: One of the greatest pain known to mankind is the pain of betrayal.

Purity

Hearts come in various forms. Mostly tainted, some half half, and a minority pure. Pure hearts come in 2 forms also, one is born pure, 2nd type is bleached pure by someone or some event. Being bleached pure is a veri painful process, and in some cases, there might be scars left in the heart. Okay, the above is not some description of my pain or watever, it just suddenly passed by my brain and i became abit philosophical. lolx...

Okies, onwards with that stuffs. You kw, i just realised something ytd. Tat day i went out with haojun they all, its exactly 127 days to a special day. lolx. and it fits the song by kangta and vanness '127 days' perfectly. hahass.. coincidence? dun tink so, i will change and by the 127th day, hopefully im a new guy that is finally worthy. Sometimes people do say realli harsh stuffs about me, but sometimes they are right lah, its impossible watever ppl say about u is fake de mah. rite? hahasss... right now, its 124 days and counting....

Ks, and from hereforth, we come to the nxt topic. Sometimes, people dun seem to be what they seem to be. And sometimes, a barrier of sorts developed over time due to some silly misunderstandings in the past. The wall will be there, no matter how hard u try to knock it down, the harder u try, the thicker it gets. How to break the wall? simple. time. Time will errode everything slowly day by day. Its the ultimate weapon. Its also a double edged sword, and in this case, it serves a positive purpose. lolx. Hopefully one day when we see each other alone, a simple smile and a simple hi will actually serve to be the first step to breaking the barrier ba. How bad is the barrier? have u ever had pause typing infront of the computer in msn just to tink about wat to say nxt? There is never a lack of topics, its just some things u deem as politically incorrect u dun dare to type it out for fear of irritating the other person.

Okays, enough about philosophy, lets come to the most exciting part, my day! wootz, todae was a fruitful day, whole day at home play game with ah wei and ah leong. lolx.. tat's wat i call fruitful? hahasss realli nua todae lors, i love rotting at home, save money, no troubles, wont eat too much. hahasss.. But seriously, when i wake up later, i need to study abit. lolx. exams are round the end of the mth le, its time to mug again. wee you wee. in all my life, i didnt kw wat is mugging, cause i dun study at all in the past, and tis few mths, i learnt wat is mugging. lolx... god kws wat the fark was i doing in the past. hahasss... anyways, will aspire to get good grades.

Aiyah, dun kw wat else to blog le leh, life is monotonous and peaceful, a tad too peaceful. hahasss... Tomolo go where to study leh? hmms... (124 days...)



Jason's Famous Quotes: Somethings just cannot be forced. Understand that, and u will live a better life.