Time & Tide

Its those nites again. Emotional high-tide again. Or maybe call it loneliness ba. Hmms, sometimes i realli wish there was someone by my side that i can share my woes and happiness with. I know there's always frens, but there's some things that even the bestest of frens will not understand. Yesterday nite had a veri veri funny dream, i dreamt of someone in the past. hahass, its abit ironic and sudden. But the past seems to be coming back in my dreams these days. Hmms, izzit time to confront all those past memories and sort things that i left dangling in the past?

The logic of the world is veri simple, you can never escape from things and events, they will eventually come back to haunt u for a solution. Yet toking about tying up loose ends is much more simpler then actually doing it. After all that i've gone thru, i now understand how come ppl dun wanna grow up. With age comes resposibilities, and some responsibilities can never be fulfilled. Tell me someone who is at the age of 23 and has no problems at all, i will swallow my monitor on the spot if someone like tat exists. I dun fear problems, they forge a man out of a boy. I believe humans are meant to go thru hardships and learn from the experiences, we are after all animals, primal instincts will alway be present to make us seek the easy way out, yet to overcome these instincts will bring us further from barbaric customs.

Im philosophising more and more these days, am i getting older and thinking much more? hmms, nvms, shall tok about something more jovial. Am planning to revamp my doghole, need to go ikea to shop for some cheap furniture( especially a dbl decked bed with a sofa below), then go downstairs buy some paint. Also require a huge beanbag to sit on and slack to play ps, and if i have some money left, will proceed to buy some carpets to put on the floor. Anyways, will find time to draft out and measure the dimensions of my room and find the perfect furniture for my room. Im a engineer remember? hahass :P i tink all the above will happen just b4 chinese new yr, when i've saved enough. Im tinking of painting my room lime green and buying some glass furniture, which will have a elegant and simple classy touch to it. Table, chair, cabinets all made of glass or fibreglass, all transparent. And the new bed frame i shall choose white to complete the clean look. clean and simple. Wootz, CLASS. But i calculated the budget to be around $1000 bugs.... fugging ex man..

Measured biceps todae, shrinked till cannot alreadi, was 14.8 inches during peak, now its a meager 12.1.... The waist still okay, nvr increase but still as fat. Weight maintained but i guess its more fats then muscle mass. Health-wise, i tink im declining alreadi. Will be dead by 50yrs old if i dun do something soon. lolx. The worse is im gonna fail my ippt! FUG! Remedial Training, here i come!

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Did You Know? : Melt someone's heart too much, and u will drown in it.