Uhuh, What's next?

If onli u realised the courage required. This entry, will be abit darker in nature. I dun know who reads this thing here, but for those of you who is reading this story right from the start, u do understand how much the story means to me this time.

Been toking to people, and im once again reminded of somethings. Shouldnt be that way, but yeah, its that way. I dun usually tok to people on msn, but i recently find gaming to be quite boring, therefore i tok to those acquaintances more to find out more about them. There's alot happening behind the curtains like i said, and u can feel these dark undercurrents flowing. But then again, there are some information that u are dying to know initially, then after knowing, u wished u dun kw. Sigh. Irony.

Last paper ended todae. Happy happy happy. Went out to eat dinner after exams. After that went home. See, feel and then know. Its nearli 6am in the morning and im still bloggin here. Self-explainatory. Enough.

From tomolo onwards, time to pick up the pieces of what's left of my fitness and go about my routine. Not gonna whine bout how much lard i have on me, on the contrary, this time, not gonna say much. Next week is the start of low carb fortnight. I will commit suicide if i eat carbs during that 2 weeks. I will fucking kill myself rite there on the spot. Fuck the fats, like what someone says, its a social stigma.

The heart once again opens wider, and im now able to swallow more shyt. I kinda adviced lots of people on msn just now. A dude asked me about his aimlessness in life. Adviced him and discovered im very strong psychologically. A dude asked me about his gal problems. Adviced him and discovered im very creative. Got fucked upside down by a dude, hung on and brushed off his advice to give up. Ya i know, happening rite my msn? rite.

The world makes me so despondent sometimes man, its stifling just trying to cope with my life and i still have to share some of my optimism with people. Walk the path and though u might not arrive at the destination, u walked. Veri random stuffs i know, there's meaning in them, u just need to decipher randomly. Got it? No? Nvm.

"Dun tok to me until u are awake", i was told. Im not asleep in the first place. Im not blinded mind you. The strength to believe and persevere isnt easy to come by. Its not my ego damn you, im not you, its just the belief in....

Jason's : A immortal god can be slain by a formless sword called love.