Closing Time

The clockworks of Fate are moving once again. I feel the downward spiral now, but its a good time realli, cause negative stuffs kinda spurs u on to do things u normally wont do. And that gives u a perseverance and determination like no other.

I think things are getting simpler and simpler. People keeps things from me, and yeah, i do understand why. Some laugh, some ridicule and most dissuade. They just wanna hear one sentence from me, a veri simple sentence consisting of 3 words.

Sad to say, people look down on me, and its understandable, cause i've been a NATO all these while. Even after these times, im starting to doubt myself. But nonetheless, i've gathered myself again, now focusing on myself. Who are the true frens? You never know how dark a person's heart can be. You never know...

Alrite, that shall be the last entry for the that event ba. Shall focus on building myself now. Where are those frens that will stand by you no matter what? Those frens that believe in traditional loyalty? Those that will tide through hardships with you? Those that will lend their hands to you no matter how tough the going gets? Those frens that will be steady with you all the way, never betraying you and keeping stuffs from you? They never existed.

Ah well, u cant depend on people, the only one u can depend on, is urself. So ya, im on the 4th day of the low carb, its working, i feel something burning within me, so im kinda warm like a furnace. Hurhurs. Tomolo will start phrase 2 alreadi. Im happy because im veri determined now.

Im sick of chicken now, i shall stick to tuna. Chicken is veri mafan to prepare lah, and i fucking hell bought 1KG worth of fillets from NTUC, then within 3 days must finish it. So i kinda eat chicken for the whole day todae. Fucking sick of it can? Definitely no more chicken, for a week at least. Im sticking to tuna. Tuna tastes DAMN nice with lettuce and tomatoes. hurhur.

Im so glad that i knew muscle-man kert man, he gave me ideas on stuffs and is also a martial arts fan. heh. This holidays, might be the turning point of my life. Notice the MIGHT be, cause like i said, im still doubting myself. If my plan is successful, then maybe i will go join kert's MMA dojo. :)

Ah wei's business is starting up soon, after nearly 1 yr of planning and getting ready, its rolling out in mid june, or so he says. I hope it doesnt gets procrastinated any longer, its been so damn long that we lost the market initiative alreadi. Sigh. But since he insists his plan is much better then the competitors' , i chose to belief in his ideals. :) If this works, ah wei will be swimming in money. hahass. :)

There's a new singer on the horizon, his name is Wu Jia Hui. His song 虽然我愿意, is damn nice. He wrote the song himself i tink, another talented fellow in the musical field. Makes me wonder how come i can never write songs as nice as those written by them. Izzit lack of romantic experience, or izzit lack of creativity? I tink its both.

Im not a very superstitious person, but i tink the prophecy on my japan trip is coming true. Im still keeping my fingers crossed lah, but yeah, i do hope things go smoothly this year. And to those people that wanna watch show, u most prob wont have a show to watch.

P.S. : Who is the 'alert' that tagged on my blog ah? Its not sebastian, who are u?

Jason's : Naive no more.