Insensitivity

Juz reached home from NTU. lolx... ytd went out with kenneth, haojun, clarence and adeline. Went to eat at swensens, after that adeline left us to join her fren. Then soon after, haojun left us too cause he's going home early to pack. Next thing i kw, the remaining 3 of us went to partyworld to sing. wootz.

kenneth is having his own troubles these days, hahass, didnt catch up with him too long and i turn out to be the onli one among them not knowing about wat happened. I guess i spent too much time with my new frens from SIM and sort of forgot about them. hmms, wrong move it seems, cause they do have alot of feedbacks for me too. After KTV, we went to clarence's hostel at NTU to tok cock and by the time we wanna leave, its around 3am le. So might as well sleep in his hostel lors, since his roommate is not coming back. hmms, well, during the tok cock session, they told me something i didnt kw, and im realli glad i went to catch up with them.

Before i left starhub, i sent a onyx msg to the whole starhub customer service. And in that msg, i wrote alot of silly stuffs that are totally redundant. I wanna say sorri to her, simply because i told her a 'sa lang hae yo' at the end of the msg. After i left, everybody was asking her izzit her and stuffs, and she commented if i actually put her name inside, she will instantly quit. Gosh, im so insensitive, seriously, what i tot was romantic and some fucktart stuff actually caused her so much grief. And throughout the whole starhub journey, i did alot for her yes, but i had a motive also. i want her to be mine. that is so absurd and childish. I might not understand her well, but how come i dun even understand myself? now its been around 3 mths since i left starhub, looking back from a neutral perspective, i realised i totally understood how come she didnt accept me at all. Its not the thing i do, she's touched yes, but it juz ends there, how can u be with someone who is so insensitive and didnt realli communicate well?

Clarence and kenneth then proceeded to start a lecture session for me on ethics. I am totally fucked up they say. lolx, and best thing is i agree! Why fucked up u say? they say i like to put my eggs in alot of baskets, meaning the same thing so many ppl told me, im too fickle. I turbo like so many gals, and in the end i sucked. They were quite surprised(i tink) that i dun wanna get a gf now, cause they grew so accustommed to me blabbering about gals. hahahasss. So all in all, insensitivity is one of the many factors that screwed me up.

I agree when i say what's done cannot be undone, no use crying over spilt milk. Yet i just cannot diminish that sense of guilt for her, because of my insensitivity, i made her life miserable in starhub. Hmms, even ytd going out to eat, she also didnt tok much to me, i guess the trauma was too great? hahasss... nvms, i want her as a fren, so will do things to salvage the frenship. What i destroyed with my own hands shall be rebuilt with my own hands.

kks, enough about her, lets tok about kenneth and the other fucktarts ya? lolx. Clarence the dumbfuck is still the same, turbo crapping and super guai lan. lolx.. and he wanted revenge for the 'cartoon t-shirts' comment on my farewell msg. As for kenneth, he wanted revenge because i mentioned he owed me $5 in my farewell msg! LOLX... he says the whole starhub knows he owe me $5. -.-"" As for haojun, he's flying off on the 29th this mth. haiz, he's a smart kid ya? so he have a scholarship to study chemistry at UK's Imperial College, he's sort of invited somemore lors.. lolx... smart ppl... hmms...I kw i can never be that smart lah, but i dun fuck care, my motive is to be rich, not smart.

I am not a goalless guy, i have ambition, i have plans and i have a goal im working towards. I told someone that i will score high distinction throughout my course and get a degree with High Distinction. I intend to keep that in mind, cause whatever i told her must be fulfilled. She might have forgotten it, but still, once i told her, means i must do it. I meant all in all, my grandma is sponsoring my degree leh, although she's rich, i cannot bear to waste her money. Over my dead body. i rather let car bang and turbo run over me then get a mediocre degree and waste the hopes she placed on me. i want high distinction, that is short-term goal. not as in goalkick or soccer, its GOAL. There's no escape. Fuck u HD degree, im coming to get u.

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