Rewritten Feelings....

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我那么爱她

歌手： 蓝新翔 专辑： 我的故事

直到爱消失我才懂得去珍惜

身边每个美好风景只是它早已离去

直到我想通她早已经不再对我留恋

最后的我开始了一段挣扎

我那么爱她为什么不把她留下

为什么不说心里话

我深爱她这是每个人都知道啊

我那么爱她为什么不把她留下

是不是我有深爱的两个她

所以我不想再让自己无法自拔。。。
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Todae rotted at home for the whole day tinking about some stuffs.i need to sort out my tots, and the worse thing is tests is juz nxt week... urghs... constitutes 30% to final results, so i realli need to get over all these things fast.

Life is realli quite fascinating, it juz have a tendency to twist a beautiful story with some grosteque end. And the same goes for a reverse situation. Hope, is a wonderful thing. When i was feeling hopeless yesterday nite, someone brought me hope.

But is that hope what i want? Am i over stupendous? I do tink im over indulgent in the emotion called love. I did an assessment of my mental state tis morning while i was training. I asked myself a few questions that i would normally avoid. Its about how i feel, i realised i didnt realli face tis few questions, i've onli been avoiding them or finding excuses to tell myself that i am right.

The above resulted in my actions not tallying with what i say ; totally contradictory. I say one thing, i do another, because i avoiding facing myself as a whole. Judgementally speaking, im afraid to kw the real me. Its like commiting the japanese act of belly-cutting, when u realli examine urself after cutting urself up psychologically.

And todae i did just that, which lead to me discovering another me. The dark and hideous me. Im not what i tot i am at all, im just a image of a few different entities which i tot was prim and proper. I was wrong, and i have found myself. From tis day onwards, i need to change my mental outlook and commit to a more sincere me. Sincerity not onli towards people, but most importantly myself....

JASON'S FAMOUS QUOTES: Self-discovery is a life long journey.