EMPTINESS

This few days, i've been loading tis blogger screen and then dun kw wat to blog. its been ongoing for a few days alreadi, and todae, i blogged.

A couple of things happened to me and i was tinking thru them tis few days too. Im not unhappy, im just hmms... concerned u might say. Yesterday was quite uneventful, i simply went back to skool and as usual, i was late for OB lessons..-.-"" Then after that went for lunch with reilly and xuanhe. Rei and i were discussing over lunch tat our OG is splitting le, and we both agree on that. its obvious, everyone is going their own ways after lessons, even sitting also got some distance. I guess things dont last, and each and everyone have their own new frens and stuff ba. I sort of wanna voice tis out to the ppl, i realised most of them kw all tis is happening, yet dun realli see the need to revert back to how we were b4....

Anyways, after lunch is accts, and as usual balwant was a veri engaging lecturer, and puts forth the topic veri clearly. I respect people tat can give good lectures. And during the lesson, my eyes keep looking at someone, i just cannot control them. lolx.. gosh, im not gonna say who im looking at, but rest assured its a gal. Anyways looking is free mah, i kw she's not gonna be mine anyways, unless pigs can fly. hahassss..

After skool, sat down and chatted with nich and elaine and jeanette. Toked about some dumb stuffs and sort of nua around outside the lecture hall. After that i reached home and bathed, then went down to eat dinner with aiying. After sending her home, i gamed till 5am then sleep. that ends my day yesterday. hahass.. boring....

Alrite, now lets carry on to my thoughts. Alina is having a veri difficult rite now and life is realli harsh on her. hmms... but i kw she can tide thru this whole thing de, she's a strong gal mah. cfm can de. hahass... I can sense sadness in people, and that is what troubles me alot... i can sense nich also have something he is hiding, some sad stuffs but i feel he wanna keep it secret.

So, regarding the one tat condemned me, i still tink she is condemning me leh. Dun kw y, i simply feel tat way, maybe she didnt speak much to me? hmms, thing is this, why am i so concerned about whether she condemn me anot? lolx... gosh, sometimes life is intriguing rite? But i kw, if she's reading tis, she will feel im damn er xin and disgusting. hahahass... The thing about me is that im unsettled, its always the case. Well, who will be the one? dun kw, but i kw im super attracted to her, i hope she stops condemning me soon and at least try to be better frens ba.

Nxt week will try to ask strawberry-soursop out for lunch at NUS ba. She told me she's quite free nxt week, so maybe can catch up abit with her and see how's life going. Its alreadi been around 3 mths le, so maybe when we see each other, things will be fresher? And it will be the first time i spoke to her verbally after i gave her 'it'. I guess she forgot all about 'it' le ba, the magic 'it' brought...

My heart has castle, and in the castle lived a few residents, and i dun kw which one is the queen that will rule the castle. Its obvious, and the thing is, there's onli a few residents that realli touched me. Im brutally honest now, onli 4 of them realli made me took a long and understanding look into their eyes. So many unspoken emotions were passed thru the eyes, and yet i was not fated to be the one to take care of them. Well, a tinge of regret is always there, but i kw, the future awaits me. And like what xuanhe told me on the MRT 2 mths ago, 'dun look for it, they will come for u.'....

Jason's Famous Quotes: Todae no quotes, so i give u the 10 commandants of Jasoniology.

1) Thou shall not lust after thou's frend girlfrend. ( But she IS interesting... lolx)
2) Thou shall not use force. ( im a refined man..)
3) Thou shall not badmouth ppl or organisations. ( I failed tis one....)
4) Thou shall not fall in love with ur classmates. ( Its obvious...)
5) Thou shall not oogle at girls. ( Do it discreetly.)
6) Thou shall not eat too much. ( totally crap.)
7) Thou shall not give up on training. ( Shyt..)
8) Thou shall not be too sentimental. ( Seriously..)
9) Thou shall not be hypocritic. ( Finally one tat i passed!)
10) Thou shall not overcommunicate. ( erms...)