My frendz n i r getting better at DOTA liaoz.. wahahah, we play nearly everynite since i can stay out now. WAHAHAH.. WUDI! The dark circles r getting darker liaoz, im beginning to look like a panda liaoz... haiz... suck thumb ba, wanna play game then must endure all tis...-_-"" Yesterday morning hor, i saw a single pimple starting to form on my face leh... kaoz.. at the middle of the nose somemore.. pui... but i wudi one, i turbo wash face n care for the stupid spot, now going down liaoz, wahahah... me pro at killing pimples liaoz. ZAI...
hmm, wat else to say leh... ya ya, i nearly forgot, now im realli into 2 song s sia, veri nice songs n realli says wat i feel now.^_^. first is Ai Cheng's 'Ai Shi Ru Ci Bu Rong Yi' , second is Liu Zhong Yi's 'Shi Lian Biao Chian'..
Both r realli nice songs, n they realli have meaning sia... ^_^ I also bought a pair of new handwraps! very nice one leh, red adidas wraps! WUDI, now i can box fashionably liaoz! heehee... but im not throwing away my old pair, got feelings one leh... i will still use the old one, rotate schedule lor! heh heh, im so smart rite? I was tinking about the yellow n blue ones though... lolz.. to those who knows me, my mentality is the same with gals, when i have tis, i tink of tat, maybe u call tat flirt or tat im a insecure guy lah, but have u ever tot wat if one of them realli had been with me? noones knows wat i am when u havent even try me. ^_^. Im honest n i know im such a guy, so i might as well tell the whole world tat lor. Im born tis way, i cant change it myself, so maybe SOMEONE will change it for me..*_*

Neh neh.. i juz got trashed in DOTA... pui... they lame one... use lame heroes... -_- __ Damn shag sia... yesterday nite onli slept for 4 hrs... yesterday i duty mah... so i nvr come home... i send a patient to NUH from 6pm to 3am leh... jin g y... duty sux... i nearly up-lorry sia... tiu... >_<"" Im kinda delirious now lah, so wat im typing might not make much sense... i dragged myself up to finish tis entry so tat ppl like U knows wat's happening in my life.. hehe.. If u're not interested then u wouldnt be reading tis, would u?? ^_^ now now, lets recount wat happened today... morning i got up n collect breakfast at 7 am, then i 'nua' around the med ctr up till lunch time, when i went to throw rubbish, then at 1230pm, i hide in the lecture room n zzz...BUAY TAHAN LIAOZ!!! i need to go for OPERATION BOMB IRAQ liaoz... the goods already at custom checkpoint liaoz... i now need to go 'unload' liaoz... BYeZZZZZ

Im VERI tired today... zzz.... yesterday i went for range, we end only at 10pm sia... when i reach camp, i have a choice to either book out n take cab home, or stay in camp n book out the nxt morning.... i took option 2. i slept in med ctr till like 745am tis morning, when i was on the bus home im feeling realli shag like dog alreadi. haiz...but the good thing is i monday off sia, bad news is noone is going out with me...-_-"" sianz.. ah-wei n richard book in liaoz, all the other guyz either school or in camp. I tink monday suck thumb camp at home better ba. Hot sia, nowadays the weather damn hot, my aircon spoil somemore... jin g y.... lousy aircon, got money i sure buy new air con .... >_<" tiu, now my life is like waiting for something to happen sia, dun know wat big thing will come into my life leh.... Maybe tomolo i go orchard walk walk alone ba, most probably will pick up $5000... wahahaha

Jin G Y.. haha... the phrase is so catchy sia.. wahaha.. its a phrase from the CD-Pro2 Spoof... wahahaha... Tis Week is damn busy sia... im having range tis week so everything is so hectic man... i have to work at med ctr N go for range refresher at the same time...god, im realli damn shag tis week sia...Yanz msg me tis noon to join them for chingay on sat...i wanna go leh, but i have range -_-" jin g y... kaoz... n im the onli cock whose going to shoot on sat, the rest of the guyz r shooting on friday... damn... haiz... sianz, anyway, since im going for it, i might as well get a marksman ba, i know i can do it one... One thing is for sure now, im going to burn my sat till midnite... haiz... sian ah... im going taiwan liaoz, but i still have some unfinished business here sia... Tis few weeks i've been learning some new songs liaoz, woohoo, i juz learned lin junjie's 'hai pa' wahahah... wudi! I LONG time nvr go ktv sing liaoz... sianz, the last time i went was like 2 weeks ago sia... im getting a bit rusty liaoz... jin g y... now already so late liaoz sia... i tomolo need to book in in the morning leh, i secretly stay out one..haha.. if get caught maybe will go jail, but who cares? A man must have a limitless heart so as to contain all the troubles n problems tat is thrown at him... hehe... 男人的心胸，应该容得下天下。。。

Gong xi fa cai! Tomolo chinese new yr liaoz, happi sia, going to b rich liaoz...wOOtz....hehe, song sia. Nowadays i always play DOTA at nite with a few 'zhu peng gou you'... haha.. hmm, time flies veri fast sia, i also dun know wat to do liaoz, i dun wanna rot here till i die leh... T_T... Yesterday i spoke to yuyun online regarding some things, n i guess she do have some point there, i realli didnt do much for 'her'.. how i expect ppl to accept me easily? So in the end i still suck thumb blame myself lor... haiz ,dun tok bout tat liaoz, today is suppose to b CNY eve, so i should b happi lor. Wat past is past, i cant realli change the facts mah, so i have to get on with life lor...(dun know whether got hope anot ah...) I tink mostly no hope one lah...hehe.. ^_^... Life is quite relaxing now sia, i tis week whole week off leh, i realli wanna go singing lor, but noone wants to go with me..(i tink..) i maybe wanna go orchard shoppping also.. hmm... i tink tis week my wallet will b veri light sia... i wanna buy alot of stuffs lor, things like Ipod mini, Levi's jeans, Digital camera...etc... kaoz, even if i got $5000 also dun know enough anot ah... too many things to buy liaoz, but too little cash... CAI SHEN YE, pls bless me with ALOT of money tis yr hor.. hehe...i not greedy one, juz 5 million dollars enough liaoz. :P

Today is a cursed day day sia, i tink my frend dev did something wrong yesterday sia, if not how come he do duty got so many casualties one...kaoz... today i nearly died from overworking sia, though i saved 2 life... sianz... one is a motor-bike accident n the other a heat cramp case... -_-" Now im typing tis before i go home sia, i feel realli shag n hopefully tomolo will b a better day.. ^_^. Hmm,i realli wanna eat the mee siam at the canteen now leh... tis morning had it liaoz, now got craving again.... but i cant go lah, my weight is shooting up faster then the falling stars sia... haiz, y must b so fat one? Being fat is realli boring, though ppl tell me im cute hor, i still dun wanna b so fat, because will die from alot of diseases!!! T_T.. i dun wanna die....*SOB*SOB*... Hmm, regarding the question yesterday hor, i tink i go NTU better lah, strike out so early on my own also not so secure mah. hehe...O_o Alot of things also c thru liao loh.... ^_^. Nxt wk is chinese new yr liao, so will b veri sianz, although will b rich lah.. hehe... i can finally get my ZEN micro liaoz!! YEAH!!! Then i can sell my old creative MUVO to my sis for a profit!!! WAHAHAHA..*EvIL^SmiRK"..

Wootzzz... im doing duty now n yet im still online typing tis.. its only means one thing---> IM SLACKING..hahah.. anyways, im feeling a bit upset now lor... haiz...u ask me wat's causing me grieve? hehe... i tink she knows lah...:P Today was a veri busy day sia... nearly died from mental stress. kaoz, so many ppl report sick sia -_-"" gan tulanz sia, all chao geng one. I even got one reservist coming back to declare he's gay sia... sianz, i still cant 4get the way he looked at me...eeee .T_T. One of my good bro peter went overseas to india liaoz, he wont b back for 3 mths sia, now who go eat nasi lemak in the morning with me ah? Another bro is going to brunei soon, which means i need to book in on my own liaoz, which in turn means---->money lost!!! .... Sianz, nowadays the 'fist' ABIT tight, still waiting for the damn payday.. hehe.. yar, nearly 4get to tell u, i met a reservist today who offered me a position in his company when i ORD leh... im sure he isnt evil, so now im considering whether to continue go NTU or work at his company... haiz... but hor, working at his company requires frequent overseas assignment leh, like tat i cant c singaporean pretty gals liaoz... sianz... ^_^

Wahahaha.. today is yan's birthday sia... i juz came back from her chalet. She seems happy today, which in turn makes me happy...^_^... The only spoilers of the day is big-fat-short-lennet n hip-hop-dog adam n his gf.. Kaoz... the fark-shit lennet only know how to sit n eat... i juz realised there's a guy who is more fat fark then me sia... he even have the cheek to command me to BBQ food n DELIVER it into the ROOM for him... Let me tell u tis, if today not her birthday, i surely fark him till his dick spoil sia... kaoz... tua lamer... __ I hated lennet rite from the start liaoz, he has been a pain in the ass all along, i wonder how he managed to evade the butcher's knife till now sia... ^_^. Now it's adam's time... tat piece of shit is realli too much man... he only know how to lay down on the bed n hug his ugly gf... we the guyz r doing work setting fire n trying to make yan's bday a success while he only 'nua' there. Tell u something, a man's worth is reflected on his actions, adam is definitely not a man, she's a ah-qua..HAHAHAHa...I dun know lah, but i realli find him disgusting, hopefully when he goes NS he will die inside... hahaha*eViL^SMiLe... sometimes i tink tis 2 disgusting guyz should search within their souls, they have been commiting so many atrocities.. juz dun let me c them outside... assholes..__ Yanz, if u r reading tis hor, pls dun angry can? i know they r ur frendz lah, but tis blog is machiam my diary lah, so i write wat i feel mah... so if u read liao tulanz hor, dun lah.... ^_^.. hehe... remember nxt week we go sing k? *_*

Its been a veri long time since i updated.. its again due to my laziness...hahahah.... yesterday i juz went singing with yanz n april...hmm.... their singing is not bad lah, but i tink i sang the most thruout... hahah, typical me again, microphone-napper :P... I've decided to change my style liaoz, i tink i will try to adopt a more manly style, short spiky hair with short stubbles. But i still cant wear contact lenses leh, kaoz, dun know y leh, maybe i should try somemore lor, contact lenses more comfy.....or is it?? ?_? Life is always like tat one sia, old one dun go, new one dun come... hmm, though im a veri emotional n nostalgic person, life has forced tis fact onto me... i now know sometimes old things will rot n need to b thrown away.... its the same for love too, i guess its time i throw away those memories liaoz.. hehe.. i realli intend to do tat now because of wat yanz said yesterday... i always say, but nvr do. i know she's rite... I should look forward to the future instead of living in the past... T_T Bye memories....

wah... im getting incosistent with updating tis blog liaoz... haiz... :P Anyway, yesterday b4 i booked in, i saw the channel variety show 'top fun'.. n guess wat, i saw the asshole of sg idol.... the gladiator guy who declared in his website tat he is the most handsome guy in the world... wat an asshole man.... haiz... maybe he is suffering from some unknown illness, but i tink he have a serious problem on his hands... he seems to tink he is god's gift to mankind but wat he realli didnt know is tat he's juz another piece of shit... im not always tis critical about a fellow homo-sapian but i seriously tinks he is still stuck in the monkey phase of human evolution... haiz... everybody is laughing at his stupidity n hopelessness n he tinks it is because he's famous... god save tis forsaken soul... but acting silly has it's limits... the farker actually exposed himself to the judges, i mean wat farking sound man will do tat on national tv?? wtf is tat idiot tinking?? i guess its juz sooner or later tat cockanathan will get walloped in the streets lah... singapore now has a single enemy, he's now an enemy of the state... hehehehe... :P ( wat i juz typed is juz my own opinion, if u realli tinks he is cute, immediately look for a psychologist or seek neural therapy.... hahaha)

happy new year! hehe... finally new year liaoz... song sia, i wonder wat's going to happen in 2005 leh?? hmm.. i know one thing for sure, i wont trust gals again! hehe.. woohoo, im being bluffed by a gal again man, i dun wanna say her name lor, but i have seen thru her liao, she ONLY comes to me when something bad happens to her... im kinda like a bomb-shelter.. hmm... i wonder if nxt time she comes back, will i still willingly be the bomb shelter anot leh?? Anyway, i realli hope tis yr i can FINALLY slim down... im REALLI REALLI getting fatter every year sia... kaoz.. im a pig in disguise man. So 2005, pls help me lose the flab can?? hehe :P
once i get to normal size, i tink i will live happier sia.. although they say fat also can live happily... hmm... y they say tat ah?? (?-?) Wahaha, i juz bought a new beanie todae sia, but wtf man, i look like shit in it... duh, another 25 bucks wasted... damn... i farking look like a nun in tat thingy.. sianz... __ i tink i stopping here liaoz, maybe c when i feel more normal then i update ba...

i finally realised y i cant go after her again liaoz... its because im fearful of being hurt again n i juz cannot take it when she goes on n on about her bfs n ex-bfs.... i realli cant listen to all tat simply because i still feel for her, at least i sorted tat out. I cant go on like tis with her, its juz too much in the long run lah, so i might as well cut off everything with my own hands lor... no doubt i still like her alot, but fate juz can let us b together, so i might as well b cruel to myself, its better then the prolonged pain.. i finally tot everthing thru liaoz, one thing is still hanging in the balance... do u tink i can go after her again? the possibility of us being juz frendz is non-existent, so please give me some clue as to wat to do k? Hopefully the one reading tis entry will give me some answers... thks... ^_^

i juz finished the book 'Da Vinci's Code'... its realli nice. ^_^ Christmas passed without much hassles n new yr's day is round the corner loh... so fast rite? times realli flies man... Another yr passes n 2005 here we come! Hehe... new yr resolution is simple... try to make $5000 bucks from business lah, so when i ord hor, got capital to start a small business lah... Hmm, i only have a rough idea of wat im realli going to do, though im veri determined to start no matter wat... i know ppl tink im naive to tink business is easy to start, but i have a passion for earning money mah, even if fail nvm lor, can try again one.... hhehe... *_* Dun know whether i can earn my first million by 25 yrs old anot leh... haiz... nvm ba, maybe 30 yrs old ba... :P Tis new yr im also tinking of changing my phone liaoz, maybe i buy sony-ericsson phone better, always nokia veri boring sia... hmm.... dun know wat model to buy leh... i also wanna buy some jeans n shirts too, levi's sounds good hor?? ^_^ i also need some nice sneakers too, my old ones going to 'ORD' liao ! Seriously hor, all tat realli costs a bomb hor? haiz... i tink minimum also need 500+ bucks... hopefully god of fortune smiles on me nxt yr, let me get ALOT of cash!! hehe... ^_^ ( haiz.. wat to do leh, greed is one of the seven deadly sins leh...)

Juz came back from marina south.. i went there for steamboat... hehe. damn oily place sia... tis few days i've been feeling quite lonely sia. Todae is christmas liaoz.... let me ask u something, if someone realli treats u as a frend, she will at least send u a merry christmas rite? i've been waiting for a gal to send me a msg to prove tat she's not using me.... i guess im wrong after all, she will only come looking for me when she gets into trouble or feel realli sad... im nothing to her at all. haiz... y leh? Am i realli tat gullible? Maybe so ba, after all i did, she's juz using me... hehe, i tink i've seen thru gals liaoz, im veri disappointed, y r they all like tat? i juz dun understand... i guess tis is wat they call 'Hei Se You Mo' ba... Tomolo im doing christmas duty, so i wont b around to celebrate christmas. initially i tot it was a bad thing, but now, come to tink of it, its actually a blessing. ^_^

Wah... so fast monday liaoz... time realli flies sia, new yr is juz round the corner... hehe.. veri soon it will b 2005... they always say new yr must make a wish, n do u know wat i realli want? Hehe... I dun tink will come true lah, so nvm lah.. ^_^.. Now im veri bored n lifeless, simply because im veri broke now... money reali makes the world goes round.... Watever it is, im went singing yesterday, so im quite happy inside, though im now a poorer fellow... Later must book in liao lor... saturday got christmas duty somemore, im realli unlucky nowadays leh, wtf is the guy up in the skies doing ah? Hopefully he bless me with more money nxt yr sia. $_$

Hi, im here to update again loh!! Wahaha, nowadays veri rarely update liaoz, im kinda busy nowadays.. hmm...The wind seems to b blowing my way nowadays... or is it i have learned to c things in a entirely different light? hehe.. after coming back from wallaby, i came to realise the true meaning of quite a number of things... Things happen for a reason, n the reason will not b known till fate allows u to. Wat seems bad might not b so after all, n similarly, wat's good might not b so after all. ^_^ The journey of life is always a cycle, wat goes around WILL come around, though time is always an uncertainty in such events. If u tink i copy all these from some chimalogy book hor, then sorry lor, all these r from my heart. hehe *_*. I also learned tat sometimes, anger will blind logic which will lead to u doing something realli wrong. Always try to c things in other ppl's viewpoint too, im not a goody-two-shoes, but i have enough substance left in my brain to c tis point. hmm, Im also trying to b nice to other ppl liaoz, i was realli hostile last time, but its being good to ppl is better, i juz feel better smiling at ppl lah. ^_^. All in all, i guess wat im experiencing now is the term they call maturity, i realli tink n feel like a adult now. One thing has not changed though, my dreams n aspirations r still intact. I wanna start my own company at 25, earn my millions n retire at 35 so tat i can bring my wife to c the world. I love travelling, even more so if im travelling with the one n only. *_* I know it sounds crazy n far-fetched, maybe im childish, maybe im silly, but i can always fall back on my heart n tell myself tat i will make all these true. i once met a gal who shares these dreams with me, we used to tok all day about our dreams... but fate juz didnt allow us to b together... So, im now at the first step of my dream liaoz, once i ORD, i will forge a career n start raking in the cash to fulfill it. ^_^

WAhahah... finally, pay day came n i juz went to pay the stewpid bill liaoz.. hehe..good thing sia, finally back online liaoz... hmm, wat to say leh... Yesterday i went to the 5566 n cyndi wang's concert. i was sitting at the front row at the VIP seat too, once again i wanna thank jennifer for the fr33 tickets from her uncle!! ^_^ Nowadays hor,the young gals r realli crazy one sia, they were like shouting at the top of thier lungs juz behind me n i nearly went deaf...-_-"" But i do c lotsa babes there though, they were damn fine gals. Well,lets not tok about gals shall we? hehe. The concert wasnt realli impressive, i would much rather went to jay zhou's concert... im quite a big fan of tat guy, though i wont scream my head off when i c him.. (guys r usaully more composed in tis type of things...) Sianz sia, tomolo i will b missing again, im going for a field camp for 3 days, so though my net's back, i wont b online -_-. But guess wat, i finally picked myself up n went back to wat i realli love most---> boxing! hehe.. yeah, i know im fat n i dun look like it, but i realli love boxing. im also training again, which means i should b losing some weight soon enough (if nothing goes wrong lah..) Im not a violent man though, i always believe wat i practice is only for leisure, not to bully ppl lor... i've seen blade trinity n im veri veri impressed with hannibal king's bod! i wanna train so tat i will look like him...( try lah, i nvr say must mah... -_-) I tink tat's all im writing lah, i gonna go back bunk sleep liaoz, tomolo must wake up early somemore... ^_^.. nitez!!!

Haiz... nbz... my internet connection cut off tat's y nvr update for soooooo long... -_-"
anyway, life is more or less ok now lah... my brothers n sisters went to malaysia liaoz, n my mum's alone at home while im in camp. im not a realli filial kid but i still am worried bout her...hmm... last sat i went clubbing with the dudes n bitches, we didnt have a whole lot of fun but its still enjoyable lor... i remember we could'nt finish the martell, so we kinda distributed the remaining to our frendz nxt table. C, we r good guyz after all yeah? ^_^. When we finally finished with our 'charity' work, we still have a jar of vodka lime left. guess who swallowed the whole jar?? hehe.. But tat nite, i was quite sad realli... im trying to shun away n dun contact her tat much, while in my heart im still worried sick about her. i realli wanted call her, but i juz cant do it... the feeling realli sux, the whole nite i've been tinking of her...dun condemn me as a coward immediately, if u r in my shoes u will feel the hopelessness of tis whole thing. believe me, u seriously dun wanna go there. T_T . Deep inside me, i know n am veri certain i can give her happiness, but the gist of the problem is whether she WOULD give me a chance or not. Im not prepared to ask her a second time though, it juz isnt viable at tis stage.
Lets go on to another topic shall we? ^_^. the new year is round the corner, have u decided on a new yr resolution? My resolution is to go back to doing wat i realli like best. Boxing. hehe.. i dun seem like it but i love boxing... the sweat n the training involve is so interesting tat u nvr wanted to stop except for fear of dying from exaustion. every jab n straight u put out symbolises the will to continue the fight... the hook n uppercut epitomes the final cut to the ensuing battle. tat's wat i call classic. ^_^ . Its mostly for self defense though, i dun believe in hitting other people for the sake of hitting him.( except for cases where my frend is being bullied lah, im veri protective of those i call my true frendz... ^_^) I tink tis mth's mood outlook for me is blue n gloomy, unless someone comes along n proof otherwise...(u know who u r..^_^)

Whew, juz got back home from camp... i am VERI VERI tired...zzz... yesterday nite got 'someone' call me at 11pm n we toked till 4.30am in the morning hor? u know who u r lah, still gei siao...-_-" But surprisingly she called me after nearly one yr sia... I realli didnt know tat we can still tok like best frendz after so long sia, its as if like we never stopped contacting each other before... hmm... is it tat we r juz simply extremely talkative ppl? :P i guess wat's past is past between us ba... time realli does wonders... i realli tot it was impossible to forget her, but i guess i finally am ready to accept her as a normal frend ba. I feel like a shackle have finally been removed from my heart after so long... Im finally a free flying soul again... T_T. But i am veri afraid now, because we r getting close again, wat if the fire is revived in my heart? Wat if i fall in love with her again? Wat if she again smash my heart to smithereens again? Haiz... my mind is realli rolling around now... T_T i know all tis cannot be helped, i've got to sort out these things myself lah. Life always seems to b a cycle, the past will always have ways to catch up with u. Im realli stuck now, should i continue to let nature run its flow n risk the danger or should i always leave a gap between us? Tis is a question tat i have no answers to, do you have the answers?

Sad day sia... i juz found out one of my best buddy's naval diver frend is going after the angel. haiz... i guess good things always wont belong to me ba.. hehe.. life's like tat ba... im not feeling tat good now. T_T i guess the same thing is happening again... i always c the same thing repeating itself... Maybe i wasnt realli allowed the privilege of knowing good gals ba... i know it seems impossible for a good gal to b without suitors, but im juz a fat-fark lah, how to fight with ppl??? Ppl always say tis say tat one, but i believe in 'what will b will b, wat wont b will nvr be'... maybe its realli time i lost some weight ba, i dun realli feel happy carrying around 10 extra kg. I know im cute, but cute got wat fark use? Cannot earn money one leh.. So u tink i should try to go after the angel? Or should i juz fark off one corner? i realli tink i should choose option 2 because i realli dun wanna b hurt again. Corinne dealt enough damage liaoz, i dun realli wanna put my head on the chopping board again... T_T... If u tink im a fat-fark with zero self-confidence, guess wat? u r rite man... hehe.. i should have known better ba... (maybe i belong to the under-privileged club of guys hor?)... I dun know got ppl read my blog one anot leh, but if got hor, u can dun need wish me luck liaoz, havent start i alreadi lost the battle liaoz...T_T... (feeling VERY VERY low morale now...T_T)