Haiz... nbz... my internet connection cut off tat's y nvr update for soooooo long... -_-"
anyway, life is more or less ok now lah... my brothers n sisters went to malaysia liaoz, n my mum's alone at home while im in camp. im not a realli filial kid but i still am worried bout her...hmm... last sat i went clubbing with the dudes n bitches, we didnt have a whole lot of fun but its still enjoyable lor... i remember we could'nt finish the martell, so we kinda distributed the remaining to our frendz nxt table. C, we r good guyz after all yeah? ^_^. When we finally finished with our 'charity' work, we still have a jar of vodka lime left. guess who swallowed the whole jar?? hehe.. But tat nite, i was quite sad realli... im trying to shun away n dun contact her tat much, while in my heart im still worried sick about her. i realli wanted call her, but i juz cant do it... the feeling realli sux, the whole nite i've been tinking of her...dun condemn me as a coward immediately, if u r in my shoes u will feel the hopelessness of tis whole thing. believe me, u seriously dun wanna go there. T_T . Deep inside me, i know n am veri certain i can give her happiness, but the gist of the problem is whether she WOULD give me a chance or not. Im not prepared to ask her a second time though, it juz isnt viable at tis stage.
Lets go on to another topic shall we? ^_^. the new year is round the corner, have u decided on a new yr resolution? My resolution is to go back to doing wat i realli like best. Boxing. hehe.. i dun seem like it but i love boxing... the sweat n the training involve is so interesting tat u nvr wanted to stop except for fear of dying from exaustion. every jab n straight u put out symbolises the will to continue the fight... the hook n uppercut epitomes the final cut to the ensuing battle. tat's wat i call classic. ^_^ . Its mostly for self defense though, i dun believe in hitting other people for the sake of hitting him.( except for cases where my frend is being bullied lah, im veri protective of those i call my true frendz... ^_^) I tink tis mth's mood outlook for me is blue n gloomy, unless someone comes along n proof otherwise...(u know who u r..^_^)