Merry (not) Christmas

This is a christmas entry, and true enough, its not a realli merry christmas after all. There's so many things that i haven realli done or account for, yet the year is alreadi drawing to an end.

Never mind the new yr resolutions, never mind the things, but this year, although things are in the direction that i didnt want to, i have to accept it. I always tell myself, things are clouded or seem to be disastrous, because there's a reason behind them all. In short, everything happens for a reason.

Toking bout christmas, we tok about presents. In life, sometimes u always have desires and wants, but somethings come with a responsibility. The question is again not whether u can get what u want, but whether u can handle the responsibility. Trying to see things from a alternative perspective often shed light onto some grey areas.

To me, when u wan something, u have to be able to take care of it or be responsible for it. And henceforth, the responsibility thingy, im kinda misty in that sense. Can i realli handle it? I do doubt so sometimes, therefore there's this lack of confidence.

I wanna confess that i kinda tried to lied to myself abit sometime back. Yet this confession is best left untold, i dun wan things to spin further beyond control. Im left reeling back from the aftermath and the amplitude of events. Irony is indeed a trueism of life.

Alrite, was having dinner with nich, eugene and jiaying at bugis just now. Chatted bout studies and the coming semester, complained about SIM and RMIT's admin and system. Yes, i whined about the guy's part-time switch again. Sigh, everything about next semester is alone.

Eat lunch alone, go lecture alone, do project alone (almost), go out alone after skool, sit in lecture alone (mostly) etc. I most prob will develop autism. But well, there's no feast that goes on forever, we do have to live alone sometimes, so yeah, its that solo time again. Just suck it up and get it on, i should.

*Oh yeah, before i go, below is the group picture taken of the medic outing that i was toking bout a few entries back. Since blogger cannot tag, i went to tag the ppl myself. hahaha*