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Been slacking, so nvr blog much, anyways not much to blog about mah. so ya.

When a house is dirty no matter how u try to clean it, that means there are rats around. Despicable rats that go around spreading dirt. No, my house and my room is clean and there are no rats. Go figure.

I finally got the answer i have pondered for so long, and so shall be working on what i should be working on. Training is back on schedule, and lets hope this time the effort will bring more results. I know im a joke, and i always will be laughed upon. But laughing upon someone's efforts? There is no link in part 1 and part 2 of this paragraph. Sorry, thoughts abit messed up todae.

Next semester is the last semester, i do foresee it being another routine semester. There's some problems that surfaced, like who to do projects with since people are converting to part-time, but i guess things will sort themselves out in the end. I dun hate anybody now anymore, not even Ben, not even Dominic, yes, u heard it, not even Dominic. I dun dislike chocolate people anymore, i simply dun wan to hate or dislike whoever, even rats. Its too tiring. Im exhausted.

Master plan for the future: get degree, get job, save capital, start business, X, establish Lam Enterprises, settle down, expand asset range, hand over, retire to Switzerland with wife. Simple and brief, but far-fetched and hard to attain. I shall try my best to follow the above draft map, there's bound to be failures along the way, just need to pick myself up and try again until im successful. Tenacity.

Im waiting for that day, so meantime i just do my part, one day things will clear up. Another issue is my best buddy. I tink i should forget all the past unhappiness and let things fade off ba, im fucked up too, dun forget. Yes, i am fucked up and i do and say the wrong things to people. No i dun intend to mince my words, yes i am fuck fuck fucked up. Admitting u're fucked up is the first step to analyse urself. =)

Okays, nough bout me, todae ah wei texted me in the morning, telling me our dear god sister is pregnant. I was like "wtf?", she's like 19 this year and she's pregnant. Never expected her to be pregnant cause though she's noisy, she's not the mother type. And yes, she's a single mum, the guy ran off. Its bastards like these that makes people's blood boil. U have the guts to do something, u have the guts to take responsibility.

Anyways she's still working with a huge stomach, and i respect that alot. Its not easy being a single mum, much less when she have to support herself and her kid. Yes she have parents, but they also can't help much, its her kid after all. I just told ah wei i will go visit her next week cause this week im working at SITEX. Thinking what she's going thru, reminds me of another gal that i kw who i respect alot. I mentioned her in a previous post, and i realli admire people who have the strength to stand up against all odds.

I guess ah wei and me will apply to be the kid's godfather ba, cfm is a cute fellow cause my god-sis also damn cute looking one. There are greater things then my silly little world, perhaps seeing things in a larger aspect will benefit me more. Lets just discard all the useless memories and misplaced trusts.

Final note: Long entry i know, but lets shed some degree of grey on my blog for now. Sometimes blogging doenst realli serves a purpose, except maybe to pacify the soul of the blogger.