Dad

Its been sometime since my last entry. Alot has been going thru my mind as usual. A few things are actually quite obvious, and i do think i need to rectify those aspects of my current life.

When a dad has to buy his own cake on father's day, that goes to show he alreadi expected his kids to not buy a cake for him and it also shows he wanna celebrate father's day with his kids. But the dad is a man of few words, who cares for his kids silently behind their backs and provides for them.

Yes its true he made mistakes in the past, yes its true he did hurtful things to the family, but who doesnt make mistakes in life, who doesnt learn thru experience? A man who knows how to turn back and return to the correct path, is a man who will gain my respect. Someone who wanna picks up the pieces and return to his family, is someone i will truly call a father.

And this year's father's day, i reminded my siblings to get my dad presents. He is after all, the man who sweats and slogs all day at work just to support my siblings and me. And as a guy, i understand we usually dun realli know how to express love explicitly for loved ones, our way of caring is subtle, but its there. =)

Training wise, things are starting to look better, and i need to force myself to get back to the low carb diet. Im kinda addicted to fish noodle soup these days, dun kw why. hurhur. End of the day, its crucial that i revert to the diet again, because the lard wont burn if i dun do something bout the shit i put into my mouth. heh.

Romance wise, i tink its realli realli obvious. There's something that i wanna say, but after thinking thru, i shouldnt be so absolute in my declarations. Wat do i wanna say? Simple, i wanted to tell u guys that i found somebody that i like from the bottom of my heart. Yet the maturity gained from the past experiences persuades me to retain abit of doubt.

The simplicity, the forth-rightness and in-your-face-with-nothing-to-hide attitude, that's one of the many stuffs that make her unique. It goes to show that if u realli patiently observe and understand somebody, be it explicitly or implicitly, you will realised a person's true nature. Although i dun kw how she realli thinks, im veri sure about how i feel.

Like i said in all my previous posts, chances are veri low, even pathetic. Yet something keeps telling me to at least do something about it, dun just dismiss it as impossible like everybody else. Im willing to spend time to learn more about her, so why not go the distance and reach the finish line?

Ah well, say, who also can say, its the actions that matters. Im trying to do the practical part these days, not just theory. I just hope i wont be a disturbance, i dun wanna end up being some irritating dick that informally terrorizes someone that i realli like. hahahas!

Jason's : I was realli happy. realli realli happy. =)