Dark*Deeds

I sometimes do wonder, how would i handle a betrayal, or people plotting stuffs behind my back, planning to sell me out after they've done using me. We humans are dark and selfish, that includes myself as well. There are some people u trust and treasure, and there are those that u deemed as expendable. Everybody have a priority list, and the positions of the various people goes up and down with ur proximity to that person.

Was tinking about this not because i was betrayed or something, its just recently we're going to do something quite evil, but its for the greater good. Sometimes people understand and kw that someone isnt cut out to lead, its time they took action and have ambitions of their own.

Therefore i think the corporate world and society is just that, bright on the surface, dark beneath. People u meet in life, is like tools sometimes, only the selected few that are closer to ur heart are those u called true frends. Personally, there are people in my life that will never ever think about betraying or selling them out, because i know, they will be the only ones standing with me when things spin out of control.

In ancient times, loyalty and honour are the conducts required of a man, yet in modern days, both these values are dumb and naive. Its a dog eat dog world out there, either u eat urself or be eaten. Im a sensitive person, that's a good and bad point sometimes. Bad, because i tend to think too much over silly details, good, because i see people's true nature easily. It's saddening when u see people falling for somebody's 'good intentions' when infact he/she has a modus operandi.

Its realli veri hard to treat people as people without being biased and stereotyping them, believe me, i tried. For example, guys are usually better to gals as compared to guys, and all the more so to pretty gals. Anyways how did i come so far? i digress too much i guess, lol.

Courage, something that is sorely lacking in modern day men and a widely misunderstood concept. It's meaning differs from person to person, and todae, i shall lecture on my take on courage. :)

Courage, the more educated u are, the less u have generally. People who are smart factor in alot of external conditions before arriving at a decision, and the decision rarely falls on the aggressive side. Being passive has its benefits, yet it does not gives a yield. And so the age old question pops up, would u risk being harmed in the process of getting something, or would u rather stay put and hope the man above bestows something upon u?

Hot-blooded males believe fighting and standing up to someone or something is courage, the ability to decimate and destroy ur enemies despite overwhelming odds is courage. And therefore they are labeled as dumb barbarians. Violence does not equate courage, although there are times when they do co-exist. True courage stems from knowing what to do at the right time and proceeding to do it without hesitating.

I know, this entry seems abit here and there, but im getting tired, its like 5am in the morning, so bear with me okay? :)

After the lengthy crap above, its time to come back to my life. Boring life. I've been watching japanese dramas online these few days, no job info from yun, so technically im rotting at home. Regarding my obsession, i leave it to the entity call fate ba, no point tinking so much and in the end cock up right? ya, correct, smart jason.

And ending this long and bo liao entry, i still tink noone realli understands me well, seriously. I need to find someone that understands and is WILLING to understand me well, i feel too bottled up sometimes man. Argh, watver lah, its hopeless, realli.

My O : This will be the last entry for u O, let fate decide ba. Keep smiling always. :)

Jason's Simplicity : And so another cycle of my life ends. What's next?