Emo

Middle of the nite, listening to TONG KU DE REN by WU BAI, pondering about the issues in life. Listening to the tune, i cant help but feel helpless against the tides of fate. There's so much to life, sometimes its overwhelming. As a man, u cant give up, and therefore you have to persevere no matter how intimidating the odds. In the past, people can adopt the spartan code of bravery, where its said tat the spartans never ask how many, they ask where are they.

In the present, adopting that move is plain suicide, tat's y bravery always pales in comparison to brains. Brave men are controlled by smart men, its a social fact. I dun kw how come i digress so much to tok about something so vague. Crazy me.

Seeing Naka the other day reminded me of something. Naka is fit and bulky now, he joined our school's dragon boat. Haiz, i wanted to join, yet i dun have the intention to spend time going to kallang to row. Every friday have to go back to school in the evening to train, im too lazy to go back to school, its too far. Me and my whiny whinings.

And thanks to nich, who chose to walk pass a rarely walked pass area in school, i saw huimin. She's still as lovely and she seems happy, so i also didnt went to greet her. She's the only girl besides my O, who will make me go gaga and act like some shy school boy. I dun understand how come she has that kinda grip on me, but i dun care anyways, that feeling is nice. :)

Okies, now its qing tian, jay zhou. Nice song that bleeds the tears from ur heart. The song sings of a past love, the kinda sweet sweet love that brings everybody back to who they realli were, naive and innocent. Winds of time changes everything, even souring a sweet love to something that isnt even recognizable. Though new season always comes, the sweetest memories will always be the times spent in the past with that somebody, though its never meant to be right from the start.

Im not speaking about myself, i dun even have the luxury of being in a sad love story. Its more like a innate feeling that the song brings out in me. Like i said before, different songs holds different meaning to me. Some of the songs remind me of that special someone during a period in my life. Everytime that song plays, i become a emo kid, the details of that past that was not to be replays itself in my head once again. Being too emo isnt good, because its a weakness, urban people should have a heart colder then steel. Ironically, i would rather be a creature of emotions, then a iron-hearted man.

Exams are coming, i shouldnt be tinking so much, studies should take precedence. Revision starts tomolo, and the no life period begins once again. After so long, loneliness should have became a habit already. Most prob the curse will continue, and its juz not meant to be. Unspoken, yet oh so obvious.

My O : The cold rain trickles or pours?

Jason's Simplicity : Being simple, isnt simple at all. It never was.