Ensuing Serenity

3 weeks and counting without net. Sad to say, im not connecting back until after exams, simply because i need to study. Its been ages since i've DOTAed with the guys, i guess they're missing me like mad. Anyways being offline has its benefits, to me at least. Im staying in skool to study till quite late, because go home also no net. There are other subtle benefits as well, which i will not address here.

My revision is going quite well, im confident with ER, Comm Law and Finance, but HMT is fucked up. If i can get a PA for HMT, i will be satisfied, simply because the fucking lecturer is a piece of useless shit, and the lecture notes he gave were similar to a photo album with pictures of insane old fucktarts that died ages ago. People that tried damn hard to make management as complex a topic as possible so that we will have a hard time with the module named HMT. Fuck.

Like what eugene and me agreed upon on the bus ytd nite, our finance lecturer is that kinda guy men wanna be when they age, our HMT lecturer is the exact opposite. I guess enough about HMT, i can never finish complaining.

Now we come to the infamous 'Indo' girl. There's this gal in skool that caught our attention, she's this indonesian chinese gal that everybody agrees is hot. Some say pretty, some say hot, i say my O is prettier and hotter. She wins this indon girl hands down, to me that is. Heh.

My O : Gal~~~

Jason's Simplicity : Its just a means to an end.

Ex-Communicated

Baby,baby,baby! Dun ask me why, i just love to say that nowadays. Im DCed and therefore im living without net for like 1 week already. Im using my bro's com to blog now, kinda sad man. Exams coming in 2 weeks time, and therefore im mugging alot nowadays.

Most of the stuffs are on halt for now, due to the beloved exams. Exam period seems to have a stasis effect on my life, almost EVERYTHING halts. No ktv, no mahjong, no going gai gai, no training etc. The only thing i look forward to is going to school to study, which only 1 - 2 hrs of the time there is effectively 'studying'. Dun kw why, but im that kinda person that dun like to stress myself too much, i study as much as i like and then i switch off. Cannot study finish, nvm, just summarize up the stuffs will do. :)

The guys are great frens to be with, full of crap and nonsense, yet the jokes are not too childish. We're planning some kinda OG outing after the exams, and tentatively its either KTV or bowling. Lets see how things go ba. After exams, i have so much people to catch up with, i hope my wallet can take the impact. Being poor is so sad.

A new competitor recently came up and ah wei is stressed. Sometimes i tink besides having a capable buddy as a partner, we need some good and efficient partners too. If somebody is given a task to complete, and after 3 mths its still not done, that person is useless. The magnitude of the job isnt that epic, its just some routine job that he has the exact expertise on, yet he failed to deliver. Lousy. Therefore, ah wei and i kinda pray that the person do that job fast enough, if not, we confirm up the lorry. Sibei Sad.

Enough about sad things, lets tok about somebody that makes me happy whenever i see her. My O! She never fails to bring some sort of unknown happiness to me though she doesnt know it. Someday baby, someday. :)

My O : My horoscope says what is not possible is actually possible. true?

Jason's Simplicity : Wishlist --> Pass Exams, Successful Business, Get Her.

Heh

Its a wonder im still blogging here, theoretically my net should have been cut ytd nite. Anyways whatever, since i have the connection, lets blog. :)

Todae was a happy day, went skool for HMT last lesson and wrapped up HMT project. Tomolo there's comm law test, i just finished studying. Tomolo gtg skool for test and to sign the HMT project before submission. Should be a good day tomolo, i foresee i will be happy again tml, hahas, the reason i shall not say. heh.

Im gradually changing i noticed, the more stuffs i watch and observe, the more im changing. Maybe u get influenced by people u hang out with, i used to be more subtle in the past, but recently i identified a raging masochistic urge rising within me. Something simply clicked in me and im going into vagrant mode. What influenced me? I dun kw, maybe its my O?

Whatever i change into, im still the old jason in front of the folks. I will still tok rot with the guys, i will still go gaga infront of my O, that's for certain. Change shouldnt have such a impact on ur frens to the extend that they dun even kw u for who u are anymore.

The air in school is heavy with the exams just around the corner. People start to show stressed faces as they realised to their horror that thruout the semester, they didnt understood much. I belong to the drifters, people that drift along the semester. Im not flustered, because within me, a cool and calm soul operates. Cool...japuteh....

Mystic black, after exams i shall dye my hair tat color. Black is the in color now, and i want a purple tinge to differentiate from those normal jet black hair. So its either mystic black or dark purple. Im trying to leave long hair as well, because i dun have any reservist this year, so i have the luxury have having long hair. song. ( Copper red also seems nice, hmms...)

My O : Seeing is enough for now.

Jason's Simplicity : I might not be the best man on the block, but i do try to be one.

Random

Epic question invented to kill men: If ur mother and ur wife dropped into the sea, who will u save? Both cant swim, and u can only save one. The answers that we guys give are dumb and will effectively label us as a unfaithful or unfilial person. So what would be the 'perfect' answer to this question? Hmms...

The mother spent so many yrs nurturing u, providing for u, so to somebody that's filial, they would choose to save the mother. Yet on a practical aspect, the wife is the one that will accompany u till ur grave (theoretically), so saving the wife ensures that the future is never lonely. Coming to terms, u can easily get another wife, but u only have one mother. So how?

Ultimately, it boils down to what kinda person u are, emotional or practical. Everybody have a different answer for this question, that's why i say its a dumb question. I will never allow them near the beach in the first place if they dun even kw how to swim. Duh.

I finished the Jap Hana Kimi just now in the afternoon. Ending is nice, i like the part where sano kissed mizuki, the ending is definitely better then those shows where one of the folks die in the end. Shows should be entertaining rite? The scriptwriters are abit sadistic leh, write till the main leads die until so cham. Example is those korean sad sad shows, autumn in my heart etc...

Later i most prob will get DCed, so i guess i end this entry here ba, when i get reconnected back then i blog in my next entry. :)

My O : Will what i feel become real?

Jason's Simplicity : A last minute man gets last minute results. Me.

Emo

Middle of the nite, listening to TONG KU DE REN by WU BAI, pondering about the issues in life. Listening to the tune, i cant help but feel helpless against the tides of fate. There's so much to life, sometimes its overwhelming. As a man, u cant give up, and therefore you have to persevere no matter how intimidating the odds. In the past, people can adopt the spartan code of bravery, where its said tat the spartans never ask how many, they ask where are they.

In the present, adopting that move is plain suicide, tat's y bravery always pales in comparison to brains. Brave men are controlled by smart men, its a social fact. I dun kw how come i digress so much to tok about something so vague. Crazy me.

Seeing Naka the other day reminded me of something. Naka is fit and bulky now, he joined our school's dragon boat. Haiz, i wanted to join, yet i dun have the intention to spend time going to kallang to row. Every friday have to go back to school in the evening to train, im too lazy to go back to school, its too far. Me and my whiny whinings.

And thanks to nich, who chose to walk pass a rarely walked pass area in school, i saw huimin. She's still as lovely and she seems happy, so i also didnt went to greet her. She's the only girl besides my O, who will make me go gaga and act like some shy school boy. I dun understand how come she has that kinda grip on me, but i dun care anyways, that feeling is nice. :)

Okies, now its qing tian, jay zhou. Nice song that bleeds the tears from ur heart. The song sings of a past love, the kinda sweet sweet love that brings everybody back to who they realli were, naive and innocent. Winds of time changes everything, even souring a sweet love to something that isnt even recognizable. Though new season always comes, the sweetest memories will always be the times spent in the past with that somebody, though its never meant to be right from the start.

Im not speaking about myself, i dun even have the luxury of being in a sad love story. Its more like a innate feeling that the song brings out in me. Like i said before, different songs holds different meaning to me. Some of the songs remind me of that special someone during a period in my life. Everytime that song plays, i become a emo kid, the details of that past that was not to be replays itself in my head once again. Being too emo isnt good, because its a weakness, urban people should have a heart colder then steel. Ironically, i would rather be a creature of emotions, then a iron-hearted man.

Exams are coming, i shouldnt be tinking so much, studies should take precedence. Revision starts tomolo, and the no life period begins once again. After so long, loneliness should have became a habit already. Most prob the curse will continue, and its juz not meant to be. Unspoken, yet oh so obvious.

My O : The cold rain trickles or pours?

Jason's Simplicity : Being simple, isnt simple at all. It never was.