Whole day at home. Rot. Im dying. Omg, i so poor now man... hopefully tomolo the job agency get back to me, i need a job veri veri badly man... hahass... i checked up on the SIM tuition fees ytd from peifen. Its like 5.6k per sem ... damn ex man... then there's like 4 semesters which totals the amount to 22k+? kaoz... Its so ex lor.. and there's transportation and daily expenses leh.. kaoz... i tink minimum need like 40k? omfg.... T_T

I've been sleeping veri late these few weeks and im like veri drained mentally... i've been tinking on some issues these few days b4 i sleep at nite. Girls always take me as a veri good frend rather then a prospective boyfriend, the question is why? After some pondering , the answer is actually quite simple, im juz too good to the girls i like, and i dun realli express wat i feel for them until its too late. They dropped hints which i never realli saw them coming. gosh.... Its realli ironic when im like the love guru to the guyz and they always asked me for ideas when it comes to gals, but in the end, my love life is so farked up. LOLx... The worse thing is, the ideas i give to them ALWAYS works. I myself knows how to treat a woman like a lady, but i basically didnt have a chance to realli have a girl i can call my own... The feeling of holding someone's hand and sensing the warmth of her palm meeting my own palm is like 2 hearts becoming 1. This feeling i know, i once held the hands of the first gal i have ever loved during my sec 3 orchestra camp. hahass.. we were playing a game and she volunteered to partner me although im realli realli fat then....
hahaha :P I remember i turned realli realli red man, hahasss, but she's veri encouraging and was leading me thru the dance. LOLx... its realli sweet memories and these are the bits and pieces that makes life worthwhile. ^_^. But wat the hell man, she's getting married soon to the guy that was my love rival then. You know wat kinda feeling tat is? The first love of ur life is getting married to another man? hahaha, its a bit bitter yet sweet because you know she will be leading a better life then she would have been if she was with you. There's also a nudging pain that will never subside man... but watever lahs, im a man, so i must learn to live with all these.

But that guy's rich mah, so basically im nothing compared to him.. = = money makes the world goes round. hehe. face the facts, these are all the facets of life.

Alritey, its time i go sleep le ba... hahas... whoever is reading this, feel free to tell me wat happened to your first love ba. hahass.. :P

(And one more thing, im also glad to have known you RXrocks. LOLX. :P)