A lonely nite, so im here to ease my boredom. Im currently clearing leave and everyday at home 'zuo bo lan'. sianz sia, i wanna find a job leh, but noone wanna hire a 11B personnel. Hmm... everyday rot at home also sianz, damn broke sia. Life is so empty, sort of no-direction at this stage of life... Now that i have so much time, i guess i should make full use of it and map out the nxt step of life ba... hmm... today did almost next to nothing at home sia.. whole day rot n roll. lolx.. rot n roll sia.. hahah.. :P

Hmm... almost 1 mth never blog le.. haha.. im getting lazy le... Actually hor, i forgot i had a blog.. -.-... yesterday went out with yunz and company then yanz reminded me about my blog in the MRT. lolx. Anyway, here i am lor, blogging again. -------> well, so many things happened tis mth sia, but i also veri nua, never realli give a damn to things happening around me. Next week is my last week le, im clearing leave after that, which means im finally getting out of the army le. The flow of time seems to increase as i grow older, or is it that im too nua till im not following time anymore? :P My emotions seem to have faded into nothingness le, i dun realli feel anything for any gal le, am i gay? lolx.. nah, its that i have seen the 'light' le. i realised tis new formula:

Normal gals = Trouble
Average gals = Alot of Troubles
Pretty gals = Death is eminent
Super Pretty Gals = End of the world

LOLX.. But come to tink of it, quite true leh. I will always believe tis theory until someone proves me wrong ba. hehehe.. :P Hmm, now most of my time is spent thinking about my future, which career path i wanna take and what type of business i wanna do. I most probably will be investing in my friends' companies ba. Like tat i can work and get some passive income every mth mah. Bit by bit, i will save up the cash then can invest in more businesses, within 5 yrs, i will have $50,000+ of passive income every mth. And i will expand the investment exponentially, so that before im 30 yrs old, i should have a million bucks to start my own business. All these is based on theory onli, so in reality, there will certainly be some external factor that will affect these plans. watever it is, i wanna be a millionaire b4 30 yrs old. i have 8 yrs to reach that goal ^_^. Wish me luck ba! Nothing much to write le, i guess tat's all ba, i go watch vampire le!

Its been ages since my last post. :P Been busy recently and juz didnt realli wanted to blog. hahaha... I will be clearing leave on the 18th of next mth and man do i look forward to tat. Life is normal as usaul and nothing special happened. I might be starting a business soon with my MO and another frend in a few mths time so lets c how my business goes. hehe ^_^. Daniel also asked me to invest in his com shop venture n i tink i will chip in as a investment ba.. i sponsor some cash and he will do the rest. well well well... i hope i can retire at 30 yrs old and travel round the world ba... hahaha... i cant tink of anything interesting to write leh... haiz.. i guess that's all todae ba... might come back to continue at nite if i got inspiration... :P

Alright, today is monday. i havent been blogging for quite some time due to unforseen circumstances. But here i am again, updating my life ^_^. Well, im clearing leave nxt mth on 19th of OCT le.. hehe, so happi, but dun know can find job anot, because its illegal to work while on leave.-.- But nvm, i got backup plan, if cant find job, then everyday go swim lor. Long time bo swim le, its a realli relaxing activity for me. Lazing by the pool, tanning and toking cock with frendz. sometimes also got gals to see... so fun sia.. :P. Hmm, i havent contacted any single gal for like 1 mth le, haha, except maybe MSN got say hi and bye ba. Dun know why leh, i realised living without gals tat u are interested in is realli....freedom. U dun have to tink too much on whether she likes u anot or is she safe right now anot. Things are simple rite now, my time and money is mine to spend. WUDI! But still.. i still gonna pay my bills which leave me with like $200 to live every mth...T_T.. NS sux... Later im going down to cut hair le, o_O dun know cut wat style leh...

Yesterday was my birthday.. boring day sia.. i whole day do nothing n noone except my family celebrated it for me.. haiz... in the afternoon i buay tahan liaoz, so i alone go down to queensway shopping center to buy PS2 games lor... i bought god of war and digital devil saga... both are realli nice games... GOD OF WAR is AWESOME... lolz... alot of blood and gore, my type of game. :P A lonely, but indeed peaceful way to spend my birthday. I realised that i now have veri veri little female frendz le... not like last time in secondary school... i always go out with a BUNCH of gals after school ..lolz... Those were the days sia.. hmm... although i know time cant be rewinded, but if its possible i would realli do the things that i never did in the past so that i wont regret them now... There is a few things i realli realli regretted doing or not doing in the past... one of them was going after huimin... lolz.. she's my first love and i feel that she's the best among all the gals that i've liked before... There is juz this sincerity in her eyes that make guys wanna devote their future with her... she quite a number of suitors during those days sia.. haha.. but she's settled with jianda from sec 4 till now le... so long sia.. hahaha.. wonder how's she getting on these days leh? (?-?) Another regret is not taking up lessons in boxing.. -.-.. i have the interest and the passion, but it juz didnt occur to me that i should go find some place to learn it.. haiz.. I should also have taken up rugby during those sec skool years, then maybe i wont be a fat piece of lard now.. -.-""... hahaha.. watever it is, im still quite fine with wat i am and how i look now. Though im a bit heavy, i actually get a pass in the looks department. But in future, i dun want a pass le, once i come out of NS and start working, i want a A* for my looks! hehehe... ( okay, a fat A* guy lah.. -.-) LOlz.

Reflection Day. Today i suddenly had a urge to reflect on some issues which have no link to each other at all. -.-. firstly, i remembered last saturday when i went to collect my ipod shuffle, i went to citylink mall alone. In the mrt, i saw a pregnant women standing with a her son and noone wanted to give up their seats for her... im standing so i cant help, but i keep staring at those idiots sitting on the seats to see whether they will 'automatic' abit anot... well, noone gave up their seat until at one station then a women gave up her seat to the pregnant lady. Those people claim they are human, but what i see is something other then that. zzzz. Then now comes the 'project superstar' blind guy, i was realli damn touched by his determination to carry on despite his disabilities and truly, he is a hero. Today is the 17th of august, and its corinne's birthday. 2 weeks ago, i would have did anything for her just to see her smile. But fate has it that i have seen through alot of things in my journey to maturity. I feel im just doing something for nothing, its not like i expect any thing in return but its just... haiz... Believe it or not, i didnt even send her one happy birthday message or contacted her today at all. Im simply sick and tired of this whole thing and just want to give up on everything related to her. My heart is no more with her, i guess she's really happy now that i have truly given up. I have lost a part of myself in my pursuit for her heart, and that is my basic common senses. My heart is now open again, but trust me when i say it wont be easily taken again. Losing weight and self-improvement is the top priority in my life now, and in future after i ORD, i will forge a career that really belongs to me. Can gals be trusted? Are all gals out to take advantage of you if they know u like them? Questions, questions and more questions, these mostly can only be answered by the gals themselves... They claim not to make use of guys, but have they realli considered the possibility of them crossing the line without knowing it? Noone will 'self-dissect' themselves and say that they are wrong, they will find excuses to 'prove' whatever measures they take is the one and onli correct one. Humans are all in all a selfish species, how do i know? well, because im human too. ^_^

Darwin's elder sister is so damn pretty.. lolz... Today i went to darwin's 'army-farewell' party at his house. I also saw darwin's girlfrend there.... Lolz, darwin so fat and lame also can find a pretty girlfriend, i realli suck.. -_-... Anyways, darwin's sister was realli pretty sia, haha, but she's attached to a japanese guy le, they even bought a house le..zzz... But its realli kinda ironic that darwin have such a pretty sister and darwin looks like....um... :P. Enough about her le, today was quite a okay day lah, but i realised my family now is slowly rotting le.. My father is going bankrupt and doesnt wants to support my siblings le..zzz, then my mum also veri jialat, have to work as a factory worker to earn a pathetic $700++ nia. We are now at this pathetic stage simply because my stupid father's money is all cheated by his mistress... zzz.. I dun hate my dad lah, he's still my father after all, but i have no more respect for him le... Other ppl got mistress still will support family and kids one leh, but he cannot make it lah... So i guess i have to have a change of plans ba, i dun tink i will be continuing my studies after i ORD le, i tink i go work abit to support my family through this period first. My mum alone have brought us up till so big le, its time i return the favour le ba. Heng i ORDing soon sia, if this type of thing happens during my BMT then confirm jialat liaoz. I go out also dun know work as wat leh, got what job can earn about $2000 every month one ah? im not selling ANY BODY PARTS hor. hahahah..:P i tink need to go for commission-based job le, so i can turbo sell the product to turbo earn money. wootz.

Hmm, im back here again le.. it seems tis blog is somewhere i can hide away from reality. Life realli is tiring sometimes, and i realised people do change with age. My best frend ah-wei is one veri good example, maybe its ME tat changed... i dun realli know, but his ideals were initially same as mine when we were young... Our principles, our thinking was so alike, but now, it seems all these meant nothing to him. Sometimes i realli tink he's realli childish, but how can i tell him? He tinks he's right in everything, but most of the time its not, he's always finding excuses for his mistakes... Im always keeping quiet and dun realli wanna confront him, but it seems he's going down the wrong road. haiz... I guess change is directly proportional to time ba, i also cant escape the tides of change... What does future have in stall for me? i wonder will i realli be the man i wanna be? can my dreams be fulfilled? Uncertainties are part and parcel of life, and although i dun like them, life wouldnt be fun and meaningful if we knew wat would happen would it? ^_^. 90% of my dreams are all quite unattainable in a practical context, but that doesnt mean i wont TRY... Sometimes people will tink of me as being proud,'haolian' and naive, but my heart tells me i CAN and WILL succeed. Anyways, i juz bought a ipod shuffle today...hahaha... but the guy tat sold it to me hor, realli damn funny sia.... he so quiet one, how to do business? hmm.... but he's okay lah, at least dun have the cock face. Looking back on my previous entries, i tink my blog is getting more and more philosephical ( i tink spell wrong le..:P) le... Finally for a end note before i go gaming again, advice of the day----> DRINK MORE WATER! :P

Reality. I always tot i knew wat it was until someone 'showed' me reality. What will be will be, no matter how hard you try, you juz cant get it. Career is what is important to a guy, and i guess im going in that direction le. Memories are there for us to reminises, not for us to live in them. What is past is past, nothing could turn back time... not even the most powerful man in the world could regain lost time. Right now the time lost when im typing all these is gone forever... and when i tink of this fact, im abit fearful of wat time have in stall for me... No more will love be number 1 in my list.... money and power should be wat a man realli needs....

Oh how have i grown and matured... i did something so brave and forthright yesterday. I finally sorted out our relationship logically and maturely. We will be frendz and there will be no love involved anymore ba, i wont put in any feelings from now on. hehehe. Hmm, im quite surprised i took it so easily man... im not sad or whatsoever leh, juz glad that finally our story came to an end... its dragging too long anyway and i lost enough sleep over her le. Im free now and now, the hunt is on! muahahah... :P

80%. I would describe my confidence level now with this number. ^_^. Although im not realli slim, but i can slim down if i want to. Come on, why make life difficult for urself? losing weight so tat people can accept you? -.-... dun tink too much lah, lolz. Be what you are, because what you are is unique. Others might think or say some realli fark stuffs about you, but who cares? Its too tiring trying to live up to your own expectations le, i dun have time to live up to OTHER's people expectations. :P. Well well well, tomolo im off, im tinking of going to swim leh... hmm, LONG time bo go swim le, but noone go with me damn boring sia. haiz... ! i know le, i call ah-wei go with me lor... MUAHAHA... Today i whole day at home sia, except i went to hougang in the afternoon to lend corinne my camera phone to take pictures of her clothes for her to sell on ebay. lolz, i went all the way there just to do that sia.. hahaha.. :P... i know im stupid and silly, but tat's wat i am. ^_^. I tink tis will be the last time im doing such a stupid thing for her le... because later im calling her to ask her wat she feels. ^_^. hmm... slowly but certainly im going to sort out my life. i have too many unsolved issues and events in my life le, so i need to 'defragment' my life now before it all comes crashing down on me. hehehe.. :P

oooo today saturday le. hehe. im supposed to go back to camp for a ippt cover this morning one, but heng i smart, i call my frend whose doing duty ytd to go. lolz. Yesterday evening i went out with yunz. She's abit upset and im 'supposed' to console her.. hahaha... ^_^. Anyway, im not going to write what is wrong with her here lah, she call me to keep it a secret. lolz. Today i should be going to pray at the 'yue lao' temple with corinne one, but she say wanna bring her niece out, so cancelled lor. i whole day at home so nua -.-, wanna go jog also procrastinate till never go..zzz. i simply sux in the determination department ba. hahaha. Tomolo going to changi airport le..-.-... juz now corinne call me ask me wanna go anot, how can i dun go? hahaha... im quite poor now le, tomolo dun know whether can survive anot leh.. hmm... Slowly but certainly, something in my heart is changing le. i dun wanna write it out here, but i myself know veri well wat is changing in me le. ^_^. Now im tinking about wat to do at the airport leh... c buay sianz... tomolo need to wake up early also sia... haiz... i tink maybe later i try to change the time to later abit, if not i cfm die on the mrt one. haiz.. my total fortune left 27 bucks nia.. how to survive sia? zzz god bless me ba, im finacially quite 'leong' this 2 mths because of my stupid new 3230 handphone, so i have to eat grass this few mths le... zzz.. i sux. Next mth is my birthday le, and corinne's birthday is one week b4 mine sia. hahaha.. what to buy for her leh... i so poor, kaoz... y must i be so damn poor during my birthdays sia? zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Tomolo i will be doing duty le, so most probably wont be blogging here. hehe. recently i have been blogging quite alot because my stupid monitor is spoiled and i cant play games.... -.-... but to look on the bright side, it does gives me ALOT of extra time to tink over alot of stuffs and do some useful things. I hate to admit but i've been skipping my training for like 1 week le.. haiz.. T_T... cannot like tat leh, i tink tomolo i try to 'start the fire' again ba. My weight is maintaining leh..zzz i wanna lose some lah, im kinda stuck le..zzz... hmm, im tinking tomolo bring wat type of entertainment to duty leh? Maybe i TRY to bring PS2 go play ba...maybe... hahaha..
One more thing, the last blog entry was wat my heart was realli feeling. Someone told me its realli realli very touching and i should show it to corinne, but i tink if she found out herself it will be better ba. Simply because i dun believe in telling her wat i did for her, i want her to feel and discover for herself how much she realli means to me. Im not noble, im juz a honest guy who realli wants to spend all my time to give her what has always eluded her......................................happiness.................................

Pain. It can be felt in various forms.. but the strongest form of pain is felt within the heart. When u know u truly love someone, but can not be with her simply because she cant see what she meant to you, the pain is excruciating. A man does not shed tears no matter how intense the pain, but who knows wat happens inside the heart? If she is living happily ever after with someone else, at least you know that she is happy and you will feel naturally happy for her too. How do you explain what you feel if she is tormented by the memory of someone else who did not cherished her? She's not happy at all, she misses him... and the onli thing u can do is to comfort her and try to make her forget momentarily. Seeing her in such pain and hearing the sound of her tears falling to the ground onli makes the pain in my heart goes deeper. Why do she have to go through such pain? im willing to bear the pain for her if its possible, but reality is cruel, i can onli watch on as her heart is being slowly devoured by the past... The sorrow sowed by the guy in her is growing day by day, and certainly is overrunning her... Can someone tell me how do i reduce or even remove the sorrow in her heart? Love is most of the time a torture, but its seeds are always beautiful. If you are reading this, im pleading with your heart now, please wipe ur tears and look forward to the future...

Yesterday i went out with corinne le. ^_^. Well, i tried my best to be realli realli nice to her... she was late and i waited for her at the mrt station with a packet of gummie..lolz, she said she loved gummy mah, so buy her some lor. When we were watching movie, i looked at her sometimes and i realli told myself this.."if she's my gal, i will realli give watever she wants to her juz to make her happy...". haha, im juz so silly and naive right? :P
After the movie, we went to clarke quay to walk walk..but clarke quay under renovation..-.-... sianz, but good thing is she doesnt mind and so we juz simply walked around toking and enjoying the view. After that, we headed to lau pa sat to have dinner, its quite funny there cause we met an uncle selling BBQ sting ray who calls himself 'ELvis Prestley'. hahahaha... he does look abit like elvis lah.. :P After that i went about ordering her favourite foods---> sting ray and chicken butt.. lolz.. i even went to beg the chicken rice aunty for the chicken butt. ^_^.. but she's a great lady and she gave it to me free of charge. 0_O. When she saw the chicken butt, her eyes juz lit up and she looked realli happy... i mean, when u see her light up like tat, the world juz became a better place for me... lolz. Everything was quite smooth going yesterday and im realli glad she looked quite happy. I wanted to send her home, but she was meeting her frend in hougang mall for a cup of coffee... so she called me not to send her home as it was veri far for me too. :P I went to la kopi with my frendz at my house the kopitiam till 12am, then when i reached home, i saw her in msn.. hmm...she said she was not in a good mood, so i LL lor, dun realli disturb her... ^_- She called me at 2am, saying she cant sleep.. she told me she saw a guy's back view who looked like delvin (the guy she gave her heart to but he broke it..) which made her tink about him again. -.-... then she told me alot about him which made me realised how much she still loved him. Im not jealous , juz upset at the notion that no matter wat i did, it can never ever override what delvin did for her. I tried my best today, but one delvin-look-alike sighting spoiled the whole day for her... i realised im realli so small in her world compared to him.. and i onli saw frendship in her eyes when i looked into them searching for an answer. I guess all these have no need to ask le. All the signs are there liaoz, its simply hopeless and i guess another better guy will give her the happiness she wants ba..tat guy is definitely not me, im not being pessimistic, but if u were me, u seriously will see the point. Anyways, im have no emotion now le, maybe u can call it numb le, but i realli dun feel anything now, normal guyz would be sad and in bad mood. but im fine le, i also dun know y, maybe i expected all these all along? hahaha.. :P The conclusion is that corinne's heart belongs to delvin all along and my heart is in the dustbin lor, no one wants it.. -.-... i made the effort and i failed, but im still contented simeply because i tried...i realli realli tried...

I have nothing to say about ah-yap le. zzz, today i was damn pissed off man. remember yesterday i told you ah-yap recounted the stocks? kaoz, he made a mess and today when the stock-checker came, our stocks had so much deficiency... im not saying its entirely his fault, but when we found the drugs he put away, it actually tallied. -.-.. which means im rite from the beginning.... i purposely put some surplus drugs in because i can give the excuse that some ppl never take medication mah, but he go and take them out trying to make them PERFECT. wah lan a, in this world where got PERFECT stock check one? kaoz... i realli wanna vomit blood ah...Y ah-yap so 'xiang bu kai' de? wo de tian ah, wei shen me???!!...Then hor nvm leh, he somemore went to put the drugs he took out into the INDIA store crate ( which i spend an entire afternoon to pack...) without noting down how MANY he put in..-.-.. where got ppl so blur one? C buay tulanz sia... in the end, today we LL have to stay back to count EVERYTHING again... zzz.. and i have to unload everything from the india store crate to RECOUNT EVERY SINGLE F%$K thing.... -.-... we stay back all the way until 7pm then go home sia... wtf, today is friday somemore...zzz..im waiting to see how we survive on monday sia... the stockchecker will be coming back to haunt us on monday... amen.... but heng my mood is quite good actually because im going out with corinne tomolo! ^_^... i wonder what will happen tomolo leh.... hmm...Later i call her to plan tomolo's program with her ba. hehe. wish me luck hor. :P ^_^

Today my monitor screen is not black and white le!, its yellow and dark green sia. siao siao. My monitor nowadays got mood somemore, juz now got colour, now no colour liaoz... kaoz.. -.- hmm, today in camp im not realli veri happi, ah-yap 'tink-not-open' disease come back again. zzz.. he go recount all the drugs today sia. he likes to do extra work, i c alreadi c buay pek chek... yesterday i juz finished everything then today he redo everything... realli for f*%k ( i can use vulgar language because she call me dun use..) sia. Luckily, affairs of the heart is quite okay today. corinne called me to ask me burn her a song by zhang zhi cheng called 'hen xiang ni'. She likes the song sung by derrick of 'jue dui superstar'... but does she knows that i can sing whatever she wants for her? hmm... anyway, im sending her the song later via msn and sad to say, i havent found the song. zzzz. I juz realised one thing about myself tat i didnt previously know.... its tat im realli not a easily jealous guy. ^_^. how do i know? well, she was telling me how much she tot of devin when she heard derrick sang the song, and im like telling her its alrite to tink about him once in a while because she realli loved him. OMG, wat was i tinking man? lolz. but i dun feel jealous at all leh, i even told her everyone will truly loved someone in their life and for her tat guy is devin. Hmm, but i never tell her who is the one i realli loved in MY life lah... lolz. Ironic isnt it? consoling her and yet im not telling her who i realli love...zzzz. WaTeVer lah, i changed my entire mentality this few days le, im tinking in a more rational and practical way nowadays... no more silly 'love till end of the world' crap for me liaoz. Love is not a constant entity. Its something that will morph and mutate into different forms at different time-spans. Its entirely exponential and can easily be squarerooted in the blink of an eye. The factor for calculating the resultant product is a simple yet complex formula in the form of ---> (LUCK + EFFORT) x FATE = LOVE x TIME. For myself, this formula failed, u know y? Because i have LUCK and FATE, but my EFFORT = zero... hence the result is NEARLY zero. lolz... but hor, im increasing the value of EFFORT le. Im learning to plan for dates and face her with more confidence... heheehee.. :P

Finally i finished the stupid stockcheck today. knn one, i work so hard today sia, my engine burned le..-.-.. i now abit sort sort le, then the monitor also PERMANENTLY no colour liaoz... jin g y. Tomolo the commercial stockcheckers will come down to conduct the check le, i tink cfm will pass one, u know y? because i do one mah, how to fail sia? siao siao. Confidence level is at a new high le, dun know y leh, izzit because my room no fan le now feel damn hot? I dun realli know who is reading my blog everyday, but i tink corinne maybe saw my last few entries le, she alreadi 2 days nvr contact me le... i dun know whether this is good or bad, but im not missing her so badly le, because last time she disappear 2 yrs i also can tahan, so now 2 days nia should be okay ba. In life, sometimes you need to change urself to suit the environment, and i am now at a decision point on whether i wanna make a huge change to my life. Alot of factors will impact my final decision and i will be posting the outcome sometime later ba. ^_^. Life is beautiful. Life is holy. Life is at the same time veri vulnerable and brittle, so treasure it i must. No more low confidence days for me le, i dun wanna die as a man who have never truly lived. I might be 'abit' vulgar most of the times but i can be veri refined too. its my choice. When im with close frendz or the army guyz, i curse and swear alot... a little too much in fact. But when im with gals, i hardly use any vulgarities. Tat is wat i call a gentleman though its abit hypocriptic too. lolz. Im typing all these rubbish because im realli damn bored now tat i cant play games since my monitor is colourless le. So whoever is reading this, please tell corinne i still like her alot although we cant be together. ^_^

Tuesday. Evil bad day. Im veri suay today, morning i wake up, look into mirror then discovered i look abit rounder le.. -.-zzz... then hor, i walk to busstop then start to rain... thunderstorm somemore. nin nia a, then i whole body wet le, squeeze up the bus hoping lim chu kang area not raining... in the end, my camp got TORNADO storm sia.. knn. Tulanz, then i went for breakfast with my buddies.. and i got screwed by peter for something veri minor... then hor, uncle sam pressure us to finish the stockcheck by friday... wah kaoz.. then nvm lor, i tot i suck thumb can endure thru mah, but ah-yap so hardworking i cannot slack sia.. -.-
Worse thing is, when im going home, my silly shoes spoil sia... the sole fell out and im dragging my stupid shoes along... so paisei.. nabeiz... then i have to call my kid brother to bring my flip-flops down for me to change sia.. zzzz Today is a realli unlucky day ba... i abit sianz... wish tomolo will be better... :P

Monday. I hate tat word. -.-. Today i book in as usual in the morning and i worked like a dog today again... haiz.. i tot i can slack sia, but well, commercial stock takers are coming down this thurs to check our stocks, so we have to tidy up the stores and drugs... -.-. Its VERI VERI stressful trying to tally up the stocks and im also quite vexed with my private life too. I've always been indecisive and hence im still pondering whether i should stay as best frendz with her or juz flat out tell her i like her. Haiz, if u call me to continue being good frendz with her, im onli suffering more and more as the days go by. But then hor, if i pop the question also not right leh, now's not the time yet. I tink here tink there also no conclusion, so i guess i will have to slog through this period again le.. zzzz. Im feeling damn confident nowadays due to some unforseen powers aiding me, i walk straight and tall but my heart's damn tired le. I treasure her as a frend, but i cant live with her as just a frend.... complex rite? Anyways, sometimes i see the best solution is to simply put down and forget every single thing then fly to australia study to start life afresh. Tat's the feeling i get when i go overseas and tat's one of the reason im dying to travel. I realli feel she knows she's the one im stressing about and she gives me advice to go after gals... -.-... corinne ah corinne, dun like tat le lah, u know something then juz tell me, u cfm know i like you one leh. U tell me when going after gals need to have confidence and all those tips, but do u know i juz want to be with you? LAO TIAN YEH AH, WEI SHEN ME NI ZHE ME HEN XIN DUI WO AH? WO DUI TA SHI ZHEN XIN DE, WO YAO DAI TA DAO TIAN YA HAI JIAO...WEI SHE ME? WO DAO DI ZHUO CUO LE SHEN ME DONG XI? ...but i will still change myself lah, its true though, im still a guy who havent grow up. haiz..