Stagnant Water

Todae wasnt so routine. Supposed to wake up early to go gym this morning at 7am, but i woke up at 7am, sat on the bed for 5 mins, then suddenly i concussed. Next thing i kw, i woke up at 9am. gosh. I had a sudden loss of consciousness for 2 hrs, hahahass.

Anyways, had lecture todae, im late as usual. Marketing wasnt veri interesting, lectures are not veri interesting in general anyways. And then there was project discussion. The thing about project is, they're quite interesting although tedious. U kind of get stuck everywhere and u have absolutely no idea how to start. Ah well, things always seem to straighten themselves out and deadlines are always met rite? yeah. =)

Supposed to join the guys for a run, but remember i have to go gym? So i rushed home to get to the gym before they close. Evening gym is fucking crowded man, i dun wanna try it again. And there's this fucker, i put my towel on the machine to 'book' the machine cause im going to get a drink, its like 5 seconds? Tat cb took my towel, put on another machine then snatch my machine.
And so, when i came back 5 seconds later, i gave him the meaningful stare, and i was supposed to ask him what is his father's name. Yes, i wanted to make sure his dad wasnt lao lee before i whack him. But, i didnt do silly things lah, i was kinda chuckling to myself at my crazy violent thoughts. And so i stand beside him and waited lor, wat to do, im supposed to be grown up and not quarrel over small things. Yes, this blog is a place where i am childish and i can vent my violent intentions. muahahahah

And todae's training was kinda tough, cause after the day, i was quite drained, but nevertheless, trained till muscle fatigue, focusing more on the arms. The next session shall be toning, so wont do heavy weights. And kert just reminded me, i gotta do more cardio. So my new schedule will be gym and roadwork one day, swimming the next. Yupz, more cardio, i need to lose my round face, its making me damn depressed. hohoho

Just a random thought on the bus home, there are people in the world that look down on you, and give negative comments. To me, these people are there for a reason, to spur u on and test ur patience. Some people think they are so hunky and stuff, but deep within their souls, wat are they made off? Im not a veri clean soul for your info, but i do not look down on people. No matter how fucked up i am, i will never look down on a person, unless of course, that person is totally fucked up. Ben is a good example.

And so, there's lesson tml, and tml is wednesday! yeah! Thursday there's a 30% chance of going k-ing, because ppl might fly aeroplane last min, so the status is like KIV. Ah well, me and my boring life. Oh ya, before i sign off, gotta tell u people one more aspect to add to my travelling dreams.

Im gonna start a travel-blog when i start to traverse the globe when i have the cash. You know, go everywhere and take pictures and find out more bout the culture there, then post it all up in a blog as a sort of album. hohoho, tinking bout it makes me excited man, i love travelling.

Jason's : If only i am him.

- - - - - -

Sometimes, in life misunderstandings happen, and some misunderstandings are veri hard to clear up. U might not think they are misunderstandings, but have u ever given a chance to the other party to explain?

Normal life as usual, went down to run just now. The same old usual route, i tink the next run i will go explore NTU ba, its mostly upslope, so the resistance will be greater. Wasnt veri effective these 2 days, supposed to be on low carb, and i kinda ate chicken rice. sigh. Where is my determination man....

Will be heading down to the gym tml as usual, and i always feel veri excited and happy to train, i dun kw why. Maybe its the feel good factor after every work out, or maybe im juz trying to occupy myself with some thoughts to distract me from tinking too much. Ah well, watever it is, it makes my training more effective in a way.

A quiet nite tonite, as is every nite. Looking around my room, i am realli freaking disorganized and untidy. Papers lying all around, clothes strung all over my bean bag. I tink i needa pack my room sometime soon. Lots of things plaguing me now, the projects have started unofficially and the fucking reservist matter havent been settled yet.

Im always fucking tulanz when i tink about the reservist thingy. I just wanna study in peace man, not wear green and go sleep with the mosquitoes. Fuck my CO, hope his dick grow mushrooms. Fuck.

And so, as i was saying before the vulgarity outburst, i needa pack my room. Oh ya, i watched Harold and Kumar, both the movies were damn funny and i had a good time laughing at kumar's antics. And i was sooooo damn impressed by how kumar scared the shit out of the old auntie on the plane. hahass, u guys should go watch it, the full name of the movie is Harold And Kumar : Escape From Guantanamo Bay.

Tomolo shall do my projects. I dun wanna piss my frends off. The other day, i tot it was SM group project meeting, which turned out to be MR, and so i was fucked by the guys. Heng it's with the guys, i can imagine i will literally die if its... ah well, gotta organize myself and get my shit in position. Projects here i come.

To end todae's update, i shall tok about my day todae. Interesting rite? Went to have brunch with my mum and grandparents at bukit merah market. And as usual, the chit chat with old folks never fails to amaze me. They always have gems of knowledges to impart to you. And as things go, my mum was complaining about me not having a girlfriend. And my grandfather said something quite interesting. He said in cantonese : " 缘份未到.".

Jason's : Im out of gas finally. Let god take over my fate.

Bird Bird!

I rarely blog these days, due to the simple fact that i have a drought on ideas and topics to blog on. If i blog about how much i like her, u guys say i am too crazy over her. If i blog on politics, i might a free stay in changi. Worse still, i might blog something that piss people off and they will come kill my whole family. So ya, i will stick to telling u guys my daily life and bore the hell out of u peeps. =)

Todae went to gym as usual, trained hard, but not hard enough i guess, though i trained till muscle fatigue. I know i shouldnt rush things, so wat to do, go home lor. Will be running tml evening, and most prob swimming on saturday if the weather permits. Training is now part of my life, and there's one other thing i wanna make a part of my life. Okay, im not supposed to tok bout her tis entry. hahass.

And in the evening, i went back to NP Strings, my old guitar club at Ngee Ann Poly. I dun kw almost everybody there man, im realli getting super old, and its been like 3 yrs since i realli went back to take a good look at my club.

I went on a tour of sorts, i was the onli guitar alumni there, and i kinda patrolled around like some VIP on inspection. lolx. I hope i wasnt a irritant lah, i was walking around tinking about the good old days, when i was still kiddish and in my 18s. All the things that happened at every corner slowly floods into my mind.

The staircase outside the clubhouse: I asked somebody to be my gal here, and i repeated 3 times before she got the msg. hahass

The music room where we practiced: Where most of the memories are, spent a dark nite here with a ghostly encounter, cracked stupid jokes here, practiced hard for concerts here etc. And yes, i met corinne here.

The store where we stored the equipments: Stupid place, hot like fuck with no ventilation. Used to be and still is a rubbish dumb.

The clubhouse : place to slack and hold meetings. i remember the quarrels the committee always have, and i used to chuckle at one corner at their anger. I mean come on, got need to quarrel meh, tok nicely lah. And the hole tat the 'supposingly' veri furious derrick or derence or watever-his-name-is punched in the wall is no longer there. Dumb fellow. totally stupid.

So you see, though the place is kinda small, lots of memories came back to me when i was looking at the old pictures of NPS during my days. I wasnt a cam whore, so i didnt have much pictures, but those few i have, i was realli fat sia. (I know, im still fat now. haha)

Didnt tok to those people i dun kw, im now anti-social. weeee. So like i was saying, i listened in on their practice for the upcoming concert, and i must say, i am disappointed. The standard isnt there anymore and the ensemble wasnt realli tat great. Im not good i know, but still i must say, they realli need to buck up, they have 1 mth left to the concert. sigh.

Going to skool tml to do project. Haiz, sibei sian, need to go back to skool all the way to do project, yet lan lan must go back. I kinda tot i can go swimming tml afternoon lor. Nvm, dun whine, project must do, its a responsibility to my group.

Going low carb again, though i just ate nasi lemak juz nw. Argh. That officially means i cannot touch any starch for the rest of the week till next friday. wah lan, fuck me. From now onwards, no starch or sugar, or its suicide for me. And yes, i will start to drink iced kopi-o kosong before every training session to get some caffiene into my system to aid metabolism. =)

Jason's : It never was a crush. Im serious.

Juiced

Again the wheels are moving, and again i feel sick and tired of change. I dun kw man, seriously i dun kw. But like i said all along, im quite certain this time round. Veri veri certain.

In financial need again, as usual. sigh, and im such a nice fren, i even forked out my last $50 to help my fren with his website. yeah, its hoohaa.com. And those reading my entry, if u people wanna join hoohaa, put my nick aegisx as the referrer, and that will entitle u to 5 additional bids on top of your 20 per mth.

The various parts are growing, and i like how i look in the mirror. Day by day, after training, the shape kinda jumps out of my lard slowly. So now i need to keep buring off the lard and building what's underneath, with time, will definitely get sean faris or christian bale's body. Or so that's i try to motivate myself lah, dun laugh at me. hahass =p

Went to look for my MP again regarding my deferment for this semester. Why the fuck do my CO keep forcing me to go back man, do i seriously look like i enjoy giving up studies and go rot in camp with uncles? Sigh. Why must the stupid reservist clash with my semester man, just fucking post me into a unit with the other tertiary dudes and i will gladly return to serve the nation. (My MP Alvin Yeo is a veri nice fellow.)

Tomolo is will be having marketing minor in the morning, and then go NP to train in the afternoon, after tat go for international finance class. Thinking bout training makes me excited man, im looking forward to sweat and train. heh.

Oh ya, i nearli forgot, tat day i went to SIP's outing, and knew a few new people. The president eugene wasnt a bad guy i realised, im juz prejudiced because of my own judgement lah. And as usual there's edmund, the hyperactive guy from port dickson. He toks lots of rot and craps, kinda funny because he always embarass himself infront of people. Hahasss

And edmund asked me one question which i did not answer. "Why you dun speak to the gals one?". I kept quiet and walked on, ignoring him. I mean, what's there to tok about? I just find it a chore to ask people stuffs, im starting to tok less these days, because im afraid i might say the wrong thing.

And there's this fat fellow who is quite interesting. I forgot his name, though he added me on facebook, but he looks totally like a uncle. Surprisingly, he conducts himself well, and his craps are quite high leveled, takes a smart person to laugh at his jokes. He got charisma, that one i give it to him. Those ang moh type of charisma with your homely uncle physique. hurhurs

And then there's tsai or sai or watever is his name lah. He's from myanmar though he looks like 80% like an ang moh with black hair. Stick thin, veri unique dress sense and i tell u man, he is one pretty boy. Im not gay, but i cant help noticing he looks extremely pretty man. Huge eyes, small mouth, sharp nose, wah lan eh, tis is the first guy fren i have that looks super pretty sia.

Finally there's this indonesian chinese guy called joker. Yes, the pronunciation is joker, though i dun kw how to spell his name. Speaks chinese (duh...) and urm.... tat's about it. Nothing impressive about him, loves to grab attention though. So you see, i keep quiet in a crowd, but i am veri observant.

What else to update u people... hmms.... business wise, i have lots of opportunities all of a sudden. People are asking me to help them out. Most say they trust me, but i tink they cant find other people lah, so have to settle on me ba. A frend asked me before, why dun i strike out and start something on my own?

To answer that question, i realised im not ready to go solo yet. There's alot i have to change, especially my lazy attitude. Going solo means u are responsible for urself, and i dun give much emphasis to myself. I will feel responsible when im doing stuffs with people, cause i feel they trust me and i should do my best to uphold that trust. Alone by myself, i onli have to answer to myself, so yeah... -.-

Jason's : Every song tells a story, will i write my story into a song?

突发奇想

突然之间，我竟想以中文来记录这次的日档。 这几天以来，我更加肯定我真的爱上了训练。 每天都想着去跑步，真他妈的，如果我早一点有这种思想， 我早就已瘦下来了。言归正传，昨天和同学们去看 “赤壁”， 很不错的一部片子， 虽然有些地方做的有点跨张。 奶奶的， 关张赵三名猛将就将两千名士兵杀个清光。 哇靠， 有够变态。

开学以来，我每天上课时都很开心，虽说都是一样的人， 一想到每天都有东西做，就有一种无名的喜悦。当然，能让我最高兴的，也只有一个人。 *笑*

反正贤着，就把一首老但很猛的歌贴给大家过阅吧。这首歌是澳语的哦！

我有我路向
成龙

词：黄沾 曲：李宗盛

大时代 放眼望 急风中
我要有我路向
我有我 小岗位
我有我美丽梦幻小小理想
这世界 云迷雾障
去试试我志向我有我主张
对准风暴 挥出每滴能量

大时代 远路更长 天风中
我有正确路向
我有我 好岗位
我有美丽梦幻好好理想
这世界重重路障
更要试我志向我有我主张
不奢望 只想发热发光

自由自我 匹马单枪
那管东方西方北方我奋身上
全力去尽我心 爆一声笑声
毋负你满心渴望
未惧万难 不怕苦干
淘尽我我满身力量

凭我匹马单枪我东方西方北方
我奋身上全力去 尽我心
一声啸响 男儿又爱你满心渴望
莫负热望重望 万难千困我干
淘尽我 我满身 力量
流尽我 浑身血汗

阿蓝 ：这首歌，越听越猛！

Royal Ramblings

Todae, i got a question to ask u peeps. Do you think that there is another person who looks exactly the same as you, living somewhere else in the world? Its abit crazy to be tinking bout such things when everyone is like so stressed up with life itself. hehe. But seriously, if there is indeed an identical person, then the onli thing that separates us is our personality. Personalities are unique, might be similar, but i dun tink its possible to find 2 persons that behave, eat, shit, sleep and perceive in the exact same ways. Even twins dun do that, do they?

I once said i like to look up into the skies, simply because im quite intrigued by the fact that no matter how different we are, whether we are frends or enemies, sad or happy, we are still encompassed under the same sky. That's why there's this saying that as long as the sky havent caved in on us, nothing is too hard to accept and swallow. Life itself is a paradox, as well as a pandora's box. We humans are governed by our paradigms, and mindsets are contagious, if u're happy, ppl around naturally get happier. At least that's the crap going on in my brains lah. tch.

Alrite, no more serious stuff. Now lets go to the more cheeky things in my life. Muscle-head nich (aka kert), jordan and weiliang are avid lovers of everything thai. Kert is half-thai, jordan was posted to thailand during his NS, so i tink its normal he like thailand. But for weiliang, i dun realli know man. lolx. I do agree thai gals are hot, the 3 above mentioned fellows keep preaching to me how wonderful and frendly they are, compared to singaporean gals.

Im closer to kert, and he's kind of subtle lah, as in tell me abit bout how thais function and their culture. Jordan, i haven contacted him for like ages, and i remember the last time we msned, he also told me he's cfm getting a thai wife. As for weiliang, he came back from thailand and then he's a thai convert.

He says the gals there woo guys, not like in SG where guys woo the gals like crazy. He's abit masochistic i tink, u kw, a MCP, so i aint surprised he's attracted to them lah. He's at the same time trying to convince me to give up. But i told him, i like sg gals, no matter how kiasu they are, how dao they are, and how materialistic and unreasonable they are. Come on man, these are the womenfolk we grew up with, if we cant handle them, how do u wanna handle the society in future?

And so yeah, im a purist. Only singaporean gals. I want somebody that can appreciate laksa and durians, complains alot about the ERP, employs singlish during conversations and rushes for the occasional sale. No need warm and frendly lah, face the facts man, if ur gal is veri warm and veri frendly, u can take it anot? Jealousy sets in, and u get screwed. So remember, if u wan her to be sociable, make sure u can accept her sociability. =)

The picture below is a thai gal that i tink is damn pretty lah. Her name is Nun Woranuch. Ironic that someone called Nun is such a pretty lass. hurhur. But yeah, she's damn pretty. Notice her big eyes, im a sucker for gals with big eyes. lol
















With that, i shall end my incessant ramblings tonite. Tomolo morning gonna go gym again, which is like my weekday morning hobby these days. And to the anonymous guy that tags my blog, be more confident ba, dun try to understand how things work in the world, most of the time, they aint meant to be understood. I once said this, and i stand by this : " If somebody likes you, they like you for who you are no matter how you portray yourself."

Jason's : Smoke gets in my eyes~~

The Black Lotus

Im in a crisis now. Fuck man. I just hope the additional weight is muscle mass, and not the fats coming back. My body shrinked, but my face is still kinda round leh. Sigh, yet again something within me tells me tis all takes time.

The tears of an angel. This is one picture i find to be damn cool. I paste here show u peeps ba. heh. And before i forget, credits to coolchaser.com and diane, the author of this picture.
















This is the type of photography that i wanna do in future when i have money. The crystallization of a moment in time, where the feelings and emotions of a particular person at a specific time is captured. (but i tink this picture is photo-shoped lah, hahass.)

Alrite, now onto what i did todae. Went to kembangan to help out at a family event in the open field. Its fucking hot and my face is fried, yes, its tomato red nw. Was pumping balloons at the booth using a balloon pump, and we did a realli silly experiment. We inhaled helium gas and our voice instantly became those cartoonish voice. lols

i dun kw how come helium changes ppl voice, maybe later i go google it up. Its realli hilarious lah, when grown men sound like some sissy cartoon character. hahass. And then the job itself was veri veri tiring and taxing, we're like standing all the way and the kids flock in to get balloons.

Its kinda sad to see the parents teaching the kids to take ALOT of balloons, u kw, kinda like impart the kiasu attitude to them during such a young age. The Q is alreadi freaking long, and then they wan like 5 balloons? Singaporeans. sigh.

Overall todae was quite an experience lah, though its quite shiong. I believe no matter how hard the going gets, we always get to learn something from each and every event. There's no 'vegetables' todae, the onli 'veges' there are 'bean sprouts'. Anyways im still onli interested in 'black lotus', so i dun realli give a damn.

3 more days to first day of skool, kinda happy, but abit sian after realizing i needa spend tons of money on textbooks. Next semester have lots of theory modules, so need textbooks... or maybe i hiong ba, i get LM and SM text nia, the others fuck it ba. hehe.

People laugh, ppl ridicule. I even once doubted myself. But its my choice, so i shouldnt be doubting myself. They can laugh, they can ridicule, i made the decision, i chose my route. Strength of character and will is something i lack in the past, so im not gonna give in anymore.

Reservist, its back to bug me, and as usual, my application got rejected, so i appealed. Most prob will get rejected again, and then i shall do the usual stuff, go find MP again. I dun realli feel wonderful, having to keep seeking the help of my MP for a deferment so that i can concentrate on my studies and projects. Its like finding someone of higher authority to pressure on my CO, i dun realli wanna do that man, but my studies are definitely more important, so yeah, gonna use authority.

Sunday run, monday gym, tuesday swim. Wednesday whole day of lessons, though its all RMIT visits, so i foresee it will be kinda useless. Overseas lecturer visits are a complete waste of time, i tink they should stop this practice man.

The life style of the rich and ang-moh educated. Pretty gals, clubbing nights, flashy cars. They onli shop at label shops, and their rooms are like a mini apartment. Was reading up on some of their lifestyles, and i do have some opinions on them. A black lotus is one in a million, rich red roses are all around. I choose rarity over quantity anytime.

Jason's : Of kids and balloons and helium gases.

NTT-Docomo!

Richie overslept todae, and therefore i was gyming all by myself. I seem to be doing things all by myself these days, and i have a crazy habit nowadays. Whenever im bored and have nothing to do at home, i will go do roadwork. U know, kinda jog for 10 mins, then stroll around neighbourhood for 30 mins.

Went to drink kopi with richard and do some catching up. He's attached to a gal now, half-indian, half-chinese, or so i remember. I kinda told him bout my worries, and he gave me a veri good analysis and advice. I can always depend on him to help me sort things out, what he says might not be pleasing to the ear, yet they always make sense.

The details of our little talk, i shall keep it secret. Lets just say he kinda put be back on the right track, and reminded me of who i am. Mentality wise, he's among the more logical and matured frends i have.

Frends, sometimes no matter who they are, they say some veri fantastic stuffs. At least my close frends are abit unpredictable. For example ah wei, whose pride is high and absolutely nobody can make him admit he's wrong. He once told me something on the bus home when i was complaining to him bout fei zai's irritating attitude. Ah wei : " We are frends for so long because we accept each other's shit mah, i have flaws, u have flaws, so the reason why we're good frens is simply because we accept and endured each other's shit."

wow. so veri true.

The next section is about my regrets. I have 2 regrets plaguing my mind right now, one of them is for terrorizing adeline as u ppl knew. lolx. But its resolved lah, we're now good frens and i realised she can crap alot man. The other regret isnt so easily resolved. Its the onli thing i wished i didnt do. All i can say, its a vicious cycle, how ironic is it that things came one full cycle. Give me the ability to change things, and i will go back to change that day. Why cant i just shut my trap and sit down there and eat my stupid food. Sigh.

Tml will be going to kembangan for a 15min briefing on the job to do on saturday. Yes, u heard rite, a 1 hr trip from boon lay to kembangan just for a simple 15 mins briefing. Zzzz. Dumb company, its just a event lah, cant they brief like 30 mins before the event? Kaoz, tiu na seng. Heng mee kia also working with me, arbo i cfm reject the job one. Bo liao. Its in the evening somemore. Fuck.

Oh ya, before i go, i discovered NTT-DOCOMO phones are WONDERFUL todae. Damn nice lah. they have this SONY BRAVIA PHONE, which u can watch tv on! They have this other phone called AQUOS, and yes, its uses SHARP's AQUOS technology on the screen. Wah lan eh, imagine watching super high quality images and videos on your handphone. Wow. I checked out the prices, its around $780 SGD with a hypersim card, sad thing is, its onli compatible with M1 and Singtel SIM cards. I-phone? nah, im getting a NTT-Docomo SO906i Sony Bravia. =)

Oh ya, show u ppl the picture ba. =)













Jason's : Is romance a social entity or a individual entity? hmms..

Pique

Went to skool todae to check out the CCA fair. SIM's CCA variety ain't many, so there wasnt much choice anyways. Was interested in singing club, so i went to check out the booth. I think i might go to a session to see what do they do during their training, u kw, kinda recce and see how things operate.

Also signed up with the Social Enterpreneurship Club. Dun ask me why i joined, i dun kw, maybe wanna give things a try ba, and just nice i can go in promote Hoohaa. Things is getting serious these days, im losing the happy-go-lucky thingy. Was out with ah-zheng 2 days ago to drink kopi and intro him to Hoohaa. He always commented that im no longer the sec skool guy that smiles and joke around alot, i always have this tinge of sadness and stress around me nowadays.

With adulthood, comes lots of things to stress about, so as we grow up, we get more stressed up. I realli do respect those people that have the courage to do what they want. Was smsing richard the other day, and he told me he's in australia. Im like what the fuck? When the hell did u go to australia man?

He told me he felt like going, and then he spent his bonus on the air tickets and flew there the next week. Wow. That is what i call absolute decision making. He's back in singapore todae, and tml gonna go gym with him.

Toking bout gym, im going there regularly, around 3 or 4 time per week, and as usual, i keep a look out for extraordinary stuffs. Contrary to popular belief, i dun look at gals at the gym, i look at the guys and their training technique. Im not gay, i love gals, so dun even for one moment think im gonna be gay soon. heh.

When ppl go gym, they usually get to know a few regular gym-goers. But im just plain anti-social and i rather stick to my trusty ipod. Gym is a place to train, not to tok and chat. Even when richard and i go gymming, we train hard individually, we rarely tok. The last gym trip, we onli said 3 sentences to each other thru out the training.
1)"I go warm-up le, see you later."
2)"Shag sia, how's your progress?"
3)"You done yet? im done and good to go, tell me when u're ready."

Saw kert in skool todae, he shrinked man, but can see he's more defined now. And he commented that my body shrinked too, but i tink my face is still round. Sigh. Wat to do, patience ba. Im just glad that im training regularly now, no matter what it is, its still beneficial in the long run.

Jason's : In ah sen's world, fate does not exist.

长大

There is alot more to learn in life. Its true when they say u learn something new everyday. Even idle web surfing, u can learn stuffs tat u never expect to learn about. Was researching on Andy Lau's song 'Shi Qi Sui', or 'Seventeen Years Old' in english. Very meaningful song narrating his journey thru like thus far.

And i stumbled upon this chinese guy's blog, he gave an analogy of human life that i tink is quite sensible. I paste what he said over here to show u peeps what i mean. "人总是不断的长大，人总是在不断的经历中长大，可是人总是有成功的，也有失败的，但是没有一个人希望自己是那个失败的人。十七岁那年我刚刚上高中；二十七 岁，我已经开始工作，开始渐渐的明白什么是人生，怎么经历人生；三十七岁，还有十年，一切都在继续……。我想起了一句话：过去只是人生经历，而不是一种负 担。"

After this event, i grew up abit more mentally. Im still veri sure of my feelings, but i do know, its all part and parcel of life itself. While training todae, i quietly asked myself what do i realli wanna accomplish in this life. Deep inside, i alreadi drafted out a plan for my future, what career i want, what status i wanna achieve and what kinda partner i want. Whether i reach those goals, depends alot on how i steer my life path.

I always have to realign myself man, does it happen to everybody? Somewhere along the line, u kinda lost your way, and then u have to wake up the idea and realign yourself back to the route u were meant to take.

Hoohaa.com officially launches on 21st july, and i wish ah wei all the best. If hoohaa goes smoothly, money will roll in for him, and finally my childhood fren will be a rich boss. =) [I just realised the jg that tagged in my blog was junkgal. heh.]

Tomolo will be going back to skool for the CCA fair, i wanna join singing club and hiphop club. And if time allows, maybe dragonboat or some other form of sports club. Kert was asking me whether wanna join SIM judo club anot. hmms.... i tink tml see how much the course fee first then say, im fucking poor now.

And before i go, i wanna tell u peeps, im gonna go eat subway tml! I absolutely love subway, healthy fastfood for the calorie counting me. hahass. Their white chip macadamia cookies is wonderful, and therefore i went to source out the recipe. Will be baking the cookie soon on my cheat day. ( Ah well, im cheating so much these days, that cheat day seems like just another day. faaaarrrrrkkkk......)

Jason's : If u remember me, add chipotle southwest sauce to your subway sandwich next time.=)

All by Myself

Celine Dion

When I was young
I never needed anyone
And making love was just for fun
Those days are gone
Livin alone
I think of all the friends Ive known
When I dial the telephone
Nobodys home

All by myself
Dont wanna be
All by myself
Anymore

Hard to be sure
Sometimes I feel so insecure
And loves so distant and obscure
Remains the cure

All by myself
Dont wanna be
All by myself
Anymore
All by myself
Dont wanna live
All by myself
Anymore

When I was young
I never needed anyone
Making love was just for fun
Those days are gone

All by myself
Dont wanna be
All by myself
Anymore
All by myself
Dont wanna live
Oh
Dont wanna live
By myself, by myself
Anymore
By myself
Anymore
Oh
All by myself
Dont wanna live
I never, never, never
Needed anyone

Jason's : Its all fated. Nothing i can do about it. =)

Binge Binge Binge

Heh. Let it be then. Tch.

And so, the casino story yeah? I simply discovered a document describing a bug in the online casino roulette system. The exact methods and system of betting, i wont write down here, in case the more adventurous ones among u peeps go and try.

I gathered some cash from one other fren, and started on my little adventure with US$60. Before i started with real money, i actually tested the system in practice-play mode for 1 week. It worked perfectly. And when i tried with real money, the system indeed drew extraordinary rewards. I spent 2 hrs applying the system, and my bank balance was US$350. From then on, i played bigger bets, on the second day, my balance was US$600+.

And then suddenly in the middle of the nite, i woke up tinking of upping the stack to US$1000 before cash out all the winnings. Then it happened, the system failed. And no matter what ever bet i place, i lost, even if the probability is extremely little. And so i realised, somebody was purposely manipulating the results to make me lose. Hurhur. But nvm, its a good experience anyways, im just down by US$30 anyways. So much for the scamming experience eh? heh. =)

Yep, i was vexed, and infact i am still vexed. But wat to do, u cant be un-vexed suddenly. Went to eat steamboat todae with mee kia and ah wei they all, after which we went to a lan shop to play Battlefield 2.

The lan shop trip turned all of us back to the time we were kids still playing in Flying Cows in jurong point. We laughed, we giggled, we were all grown guys, yet still so childish when we're playing a game. We toked crap, crack seriously-dumb jokes and kinda crash-and-burned every single vehicle in the game. hahahass, i realli miss those days when i was still a kid and kinda game every single day in the lan shop. lol.

And i binged todae, on sweets and chocolates and all the sinful stuffs. I tink its alrite to let urself go once awhile, just enjoy life and food as they are. Seeing the world in a tranquil view have diminished my fire completely, my temper is nearly none existent now. Tulan also like tat, smile also like tat. A smile definitely looks better then a black face. so ya, goody goody 2 shoes goddy. =)

Ah well, its never too late to discover who are the frens u cherish the most. Life is a journey of rediscovery, go dig the stack of shits in ur room, and u always find something that brings back some fond memories of your younger days. Im a veri sentimental person, so i keep memorable junks and rubbishes.

I cant help but keep smiling foolishly at my monitor now as i type down this entry, i dun kw why. Im laughing at myself infact. hahaass, dumb fellow. lol.

Cars. Its getting to me man. All the things we guys tok about when we gather is Gals, Cars, Reservist, Army, Money. Gals, i dun have, so dun need tok so much. Reservist, i have, but i dun wan, so lan lan must tok about it. Money, dun have, so needa seek advice on how to earn it. But cars, its a liability, but still i realli realli wanna get a RX8. Hahahass, not sensible and totally contra-productive finance wise, but it looks REALLI nice leh. wah lan.

I used to tink the money could be invested and bla bla bla, so i dun realli fancy the idea of getting a car. Yet times change, people change, i would seriously consider getting a car when i have the means to support it comfortably. Comfortably means not having to scrimp and save on basic necessities, having the extra cash to burn. If i have a car now, i can drive out and chill in some abandoned elevated area overlooking the cityscape of singapore. You know, kinda drive out and sort things out in ur mind?

Oh, and before i go, i feel blood leaking out from my back. I wondered who did it. hmms...

Jason's : Du Gu Wu Di.

Jason Lam Sin Siong

Weak in roadwork, need to improve.
Not blessed, never been blessed.
Safely survived 25 yrs.

Pretty boy? no. face too big.
Rugged hunk? no. too white.
rich? no. in fats, yes.
talents? none. unless talentless count as one.
intelligent? no. i wont be bloggin this shit if i am.
charismatic? no. cant tok sensibly.
fit? no. perm failure in ippt.


<=Memorable Events=>

Tried to scam a casino, got discovered and counter-scammed.

A bird shit dropped on the head during flag lowering session in primary 5.

Ball hit face during secondary school soccer competition. Functioning as a goal keeper. Concussed.

Got a uppercut during a basketball match during poly days, concussed and knocked out for 10 secs.

Tripped on a tent line during primary 6 scout camp. Fell flat on my face, ate dirt and got winded for 30 secs. Thought its the end of my 12 yrs of life.

Countered a flying kick by a male classmate in primary 6. Inflicted substantial damage to opponent to warrant his mum to come fuck me upside down in class.

Blushed like a tomato when the gal of my dreams toked to me in sec 1.

Performed on stage in guangzhou during a overseas holiday trip with my relatives. was primary 4.

Started listening to CDs onli during sec 2. First CD bought was Daniel Chan Xiao Dong's 'Tie Xin'.

Heavily involved in guy-ish nonsense of every type from cards to fights in starting from sec 3.

Became proud and egoistic from primary 6. Arrogant and cocky.

Extremely irritating during sec 4. Was at the peak of childish-ness. Listed in alot of ppl's top ten killable lists.

Learnt to tone down in the Army. Looked back and realised im fucked up in every sense.

Tried to sabo a sgt during BMT phrase. Got extra exercise for that. Oh well, i became fitter than.

Picked up boxing during sec 2. Influenced by my uncle. Did not take professional lessons.

Became extremely interested in martial arts during sec 3. That explains the increased amount of fights and explosive temper during that period.

Became a chicken in poly and started to research more on martial arts and music.

Joined Ngee Ann Poly Strings to learn guitar. Main purpose was to cheat gals. In the end plan backfired, got cheated by 3 gals in a row.

Joined Dragon boat. Forced to retire within 3 sessions by programming lecturer after scoring 28 upon 100 points for my mid yr exams.

Had fun watching dragon boat seniors fight in the buff in the toilet. Rubbish bin and other variable tools were employed in the match.

Pukes clear hydrochloric acid after the first 3km run during the first trainin session.

Smashed my right fist and got a hairline fracture in my knuckle during boxing training. Took 1 years to recover. Add 1 more year for slacking.



And the list goes on, i will continue this interesting list when i feel like it. ( Its interesting to me, though it might not be to you people.)

Jason's : Do not scam casinos. Trust me.

传说

Let me tell u people a legend. A legend of a man, whose pride and ego soars above all logic and reason. A man that never listens to people, who can not take advice, to him, advice is an insult.

Oh ya, before i continue on this story, a frendly reminder to you peeps out there, do not eat papaya seeds. I learnt from this cooking program that teaches u to chop the seeds up and eat it with the papaya, they say its good for health and digestion, i say tiu na seng. The seeds sucked and i swear never ever to eat papaya with the seeds again, chopped or not chopped. Tiu na seng.

Okays, back to the story, when people give u advice, its for ur own good. I know advice can be good or bad, but if 3 people tells you there is a better way to do things, the probability of 3 person being rite as per you alone being rite is higher rite? Though there are obstacles that supposingly impede you implementation of this advice, do understand that those are part and parcel of the journey to rich-dom ( yes, i invented this word. )

All in all, the reason why this legend's fren is so agitated is because they're true frends, if he's just some roadside fucktart, why the hell will he bother? Noone wanna see their fren walk down a route of no return.

The details of this legendary incident, i shall not say much, cause i dun wanna spread shit all around. If you peeps get wat i mean.

Okays, enough of prep talk stories, now lets go on to my fav, training progress. Dropped another 1, but i need one more to hit target. I do not tink i look any different in the mirror, but the scale isnt lying, i double checked it. Im doing weights and cardio now, cardio consists of a short run and a long stroll around my neighbourhood. Weights wise im doing at home (yeap, i have eqmt at home.) around 2 times per week when im cash-strapped, or the gym when money is in town. hurhurs.

Toking bout neighbourhood strolls, its actually the most interesting part of my training regime. Why? Because u get to see the facets of life around your estate, let me quote some examples. Once i saw 2 banglas french-ing, yes, u heard rite, french-ing. I saw other grosser stuffs, think dun describe ba. heh.

So, back to my so-called training, im planning to buy a kettle-bell to train the cores muscles used for combat, rather then simply old skool weights to target shape and tone. This urge is thanks to kert, nb he told me he's now training with a kettle-bell and all the benefits he's reaping from it. Stronger muscles, lighter weight anybody? Wow. But its costly lah, ccb a 24kg kettle-bell costs around $150. Nb expensive sia.

Anyways, not bad lah, the lard is burning off slowly. I realli wanna speed up the process, but this kinda stuff cannot gan jiong one, once u gan jiong, might turn out like my sec skool fren, he tore his muscle and cant exercise for like 6 mths? Wow, mighty pain.

Im not your hunk or watsoever lah, just a guy trying his best to train hard for once in his life. Its not realli that hard realli, but i do have to force myself to pluck that ass up and go do something. Yet the satisfaction that u get after each training session is out of the world.

Oh, last thing before i go. I was praying hard ytd nite, realli hard. hmms...

Jason's : Winner Winner, Chicken Dinner. ( From the movie '21' )

T.N.S

People, im getting realli bored this holidays. Jobs need a 3 mth contractual period, and those that have no time span, is not my kinda job. Giving flyers, selling credit cards, i have enough of all those. Talked alot with mee kia these days, though we crap 90% of the time, we both did toked bout our future.

Mee kia's family isnt so well to do, but his relatives are all successful ppl. He has aunts in Hong Kong, London, Japan and Australia, and therefore he plans to go work overseas when he finishes his NS. Yes, his aunts and uncles are mostly foreigners. heh.

Whether i have relatives overseas anot, i also dun realli kw, but i tink its realli kinda fun to have overseas relatives, cause u can visit them when u're backpacking around the world. I once said i will wanna take up photography if i have the extra cash to burn. Photo-journalism style, a picture tells a thousand stories, and i wanna travel around the world to capture people's hearts and souls, smiles and grief, all under one album.

If i have the talent and the chance, i will definitely open a photography exhibition, where i can show people my works and hopefully bring them to the feel what i felt when i took each and every picture. To me, a picture is not juz a piece of plastic with colors and stuffs, a picture is a crystallization of time, each and every picture tells a emotional story, some of happiness, some of sadness. How many times have u smiled when u see a funny picture of ur past?

The fire in me, has finally settled down. I feel i wont drift around so much anymore, i had 25 yrs of drifting, so its time i settle down somewhere. Attached or not, not that important, as long as i stick to feeling for just 1 person. I need to find the break in life, the event that will make a man somebody. Or in short, a way to get rich.

I watched PROPOSAL DAITATSUKEN, and i feel the storyline behind this jap drama is realli meaningful. The theme song itself holds alot of meaning, there are somethings u have to treasure now when u have them, things change, people change, what is unchanged is the time u spent with them in the past. I know this sounds kinda emo, but im not lah, just stating a fact.

View life with a wider perspective, and you will see a that a greater horizon exist beyond ur little view span. A veri sad fact is, no matter you live or u die, the world stills revolves, no matter who u are. Therefore though they say those great men changed the world, but i still think they simply died, and we have to find a reason to explain how come the world is still spinning. Contradictory? yeah, wat to do, im like tat sometimes. sigh.

Im crapping alot this entry, because who reads all this shit man? Just me i tink, heh. So if u do chanced upon this blog of mine, bear with me, i like to blog nonsense. =)

Where does my significance lie? I guess being significant isnt that easy for me. hahass..

And this song, tells the story of a man's life. Not my life as yet, im living too well to live up to this song, and i dun even have gal to call my own, so ya, i dun qualify.

一起走过的日子

如何面对曾一起走过的日子
现在剩下我独行
如何让心声一一讲你知
从来无人明白我
唯一你给我好日子
有你有我有情有生有死有义

多少风波都愿闯
只因彼此不死的目光
有你有我有情有天有海有地
不可猜测总有天意
才珍惜相处的日子
道别话亦未多讲
只抛低这个伤心的汉子

沉沉睡了谁分享今生的日子
活着但是没灵魂
才明白生死之间的意思
情浓完全明白了
才甘心披上孤独衣
有你有我有情有天有海有地

当天一起不自知
分开方知根本心极痴
有你有我有情有生有死有义
只想解释当我不智
如今想倾诉讲谁知
剩下绝望旧身影
今只得千亿伤心的句子

Oh, before i forget, its a canto song, so those that dun understand canto, u can read the chinese wordings =). And i tink i need to tell this to everyone : "We realli cannot defeat fate."

Jason's : 天意难违。

Dad

Its been sometime since my last entry. Alot has been going thru my mind as usual. A few things are actually quite obvious, and i do think i need to rectify those aspects of my current life.

When a dad has to buy his own cake on father's day, that goes to show he alreadi expected his kids to not buy a cake for him and it also shows he wanna celebrate father's day with his kids. But the dad is a man of few words, who cares for his kids silently behind their backs and provides for them.

Yes its true he made mistakes in the past, yes its true he did hurtful things to the family, but who doesnt make mistakes in life, who doesnt learn thru experience? A man who knows how to turn back and return to the correct path, is a man who will gain my respect. Someone who wanna picks up the pieces and return to his family, is someone i will truly call a father.

And this year's father's day, i reminded my siblings to get my dad presents. He is after all, the man who sweats and slogs all day at work just to support my siblings and me. And as a guy, i understand we usually dun realli know how to express love explicitly for loved ones, our way of caring is subtle, but its there. =)

Training wise, things are starting to look better, and i need to force myself to get back to the low carb diet. Im kinda addicted to fish noodle soup these days, dun kw why. hurhur. End of the day, its crucial that i revert to the diet again, because the lard wont burn if i dun do something bout the shit i put into my mouth. heh.

Romance wise, i tink its realli realli obvious. There's something that i wanna say, but after thinking thru, i shouldnt be so absolute in my declarations. Wat do i wanna say? Simple, i wanted to tell u guys that i found somebody that i like from the bottom of my heart. Yet the maturity gained from the past experiences persuades me to retain abit of doubt.

The simplicity, the forth-rightness and in-your-face-with-nothing-to-hide attitude, that's one of the many stuffs that make her unique. It goes to show that if u realli patiently observe and understand somebody, be it explicitly or implicitly, you will realised a person's true nature. Although i dun kw how she realli thinks, im veri sure about how i feel.

Like i said in all my previous posts, chances are veri low, even pathetic. Yet something keeps telling me to at least do something about it, dun just dismiss it as impossible like everybody else. Im willing to spend time to learn more about her, so why not go the distance and reach the finish line?

Ah well, say, who also can say, its the actions that matters. Im trying to do the practical part these days, not just theory. I just hope i wont be a disturbance, i dun wanna end up being some irritating dick that informally terrorizes someone that i realli like. hahahas!

Jason's : I was realli happy. realli realli happy. =)

Midpoint

Its a big question mark rite now. I also dun know. Diam diam follow my heart and see how fate decides. Meant to be, will be. Not meant to be, life goes on.

Currently living the life of a homey vagrant. Yes, the phrase is metophorical, but its true, im simply rotting at home watching dramas this holidays. And of course still trying hard to start the 30 day low carb regime. Its kinda hard man, cause its the festive dumpling festival and so many programs to go to. Todae is monday, and i told myself enough is enough, time to train and continue the program. U want something? Then work hard for it. Simple.

Tomolo i will wake up early to go train. Yup. Will drag myself to the gym if it comes to it. Bit by bit, i know this is what i want, and this is part and parcel of getting there. I keep reminding myself that i dun wanna be a NATO, so i have to do my best this time.

And my favourite song is Whatever They Say. =)

Jason's : Im serious. Realli serious.

Passion-ology

We aint so different after all. Thats all i can say.

Life itself is a contradictory existence, and that kinda explains my contradictory nature. At least i hope that explains it.

Hands, one of the most sensitive and most affectionate part of any human being. I once read a email entitled ' do not hold hands easily'. The mail toks about the significance of holding hands, and the abuse of it. Why would u hold the hands of somebody u dun like in the first place? Sympathy? Sometimes people aint tinking right, that's what i realized.

The world is ending soon, with all kinds of disasters happening around the world. From the china quakes to the myanmar cyclones to the europe lighting storms. Slowly we see the repercussions for the damage mankind did to earth. We definitely top the list of deadliest animals on earth, we kill more stuffs then any other animals in the world, and best thing is we are killing earth itself. Wow, im kinda amazed by how powerful and reckless we've became.

Im not a go-green kinda person, but i do identify with the damage we've done and the end that's eminent. With all the movements on saving the earth and saving gaia going on and on, i still believe its too late to remedy the damage lah, if its gonna end, we cant stop it. So i live my life as per normal and hope that ah-ma-gei-don doenst happen in my lifetime. =)

Okays, now about something damn childish. Have you ever imagined urself in a end-of-the-world situation like the world is over-runned by zombies etc? I do have this kinda of imagination sometimes, sound dumb lah i know, but its kinda interesting leh. Its like u're living in those post apocalyptic world and u are trying to survive. I always wake up damn scared being chased by zombies. hahahass, come on, give me some credit for being so creative even in my sleep yeah? hahasss!

Jason's : Its better to regret something you have done, then to regret something u havent.

Tale of a Happy Man

Todae was a great day. got my results, safely tided thru this semester. woohoo, the night before i was having nightmares of failing my Prices and Markets. This time around, im not a miracle maker after all, cause it takes a miracle to fail P&M like what kert says. hurhur

Will be forcing myself to continue the regime tomolo, cause i slacked enough for a week le. This time its gonna last 30 days. the 14 day period did wonders for me, so im gonna go 30 days tis time. Tuna in water is fucking smelly i tell u, but wat to do, suffer abit nvm one lah. =)

Went for a career talk todae, which wasnt quite i expected. I was late, and i apologized publicly and sincerely because i watch too much jap dramas and i kinda adopted their SUPER strong sense of manners. Once settled down, the speaker starts to speak garbage, not total garbage lah, but toks about things that a tertiary student most prob alreadi knew. I know its kinda ungrateful of me to comment on a free talk sponsored by some government agency, but it REALLI sux.

The speaker has no charisma, cracks BAD jokes, keeps pushing his logic on us and all in all, sucked as a speaker. Sigh, he should have stayed a behind-the-scene banker. Thinking back, im not a good speaker as well, so shouldnt i assess myself before commenting on others? =)

Tomolo shall be catching up with corinne, heard something happened to her and she quit her job. Im always the listening ear whenever my frens need me. hurhurs, and im proud of that. People tok to you because they trust u. But the trust i wan most is the trust from 'her', i realli like her alot man. (not corinne hor, dun be mistaken.)

When the money starts rolling in, things will start changing. I wanna get a 40 inch LCD TV installed on my wall infront of my bed, connected to my PC. So that i can watch dramas from my PC in the comfort of my bed! And then maybe go IKEA buy some artsy sofa to cuddle up in. I will change my room's furniture to either black or white, kinda gives the zen feeling, with my favourite chinese calligraphies hanging on the walls. Simple, yet elegent zen decoration with a touch of oriental literature. Not forgetting a mini-fridge to store my chilled plain water! Aiseh, i realli kw how to enjoy life sia. hurhur.

In the event im still a bachelor by the time i graduate ( most prob will be so, from the looks of it), i will spend my money on stuffs that guys love most. For me, its a BMW Z4 roadster, a closet full of Mont Blac Shirts, a few Tag Heuer watches, a assortment of ties and RAyban sunglasses etc. Not forgetting my Aramis Men's Lab facial care series! Oh yeah, the metropolitan working class man. hahahass , dreaming about stuffs is so nice dun cha tink?

ah well, lets not tink too far ba, im juz a poor undergraduate struggling with studies, money and a gal currently. hahahasss, dumb me.

jason's : hearto ~~ <3

Love Counselor...NOT!

How serious can u be when i comes to love? Have you ever asked urself this question? And if u say veri serious and sincere, on what basis? Ur own judgement? Everybody envelopes him or herself in this premonition that they are very serious, mostly verbally. But what matters and what other people see is your actions and the things u do. U can say u feel how and how and bla bla bla, but end of the day, no action.

I do understand that people do stuffs that they dun tell the person they like, and it results in a dilemma. If that person know, its like u're doing stuffs with a motive. On the contrary, if that person dun kw, its kinda meaningless rite? Although he/she might be happy that u did that, you DO want him/her to know. Dun tell me stuffs about being noble, you are not noble, u are dumb.

Worse thing that could happen is when that person got together with some fucktart and THEN he/she find out watever you did for her. And that's where a sad story realli starts. That person wanna be with you, but is locked down morally. And then u also due to moral reasons diam diam watch that fucktart destroys her life. Wow, where's the nobility in that?

I believe every single gal deserves and wants to be loved, its just by who. Which gal doesnt want a strong shoulder to lie on, a person to whine to, someone to share memories with? Its just who is the guy that they want to share their lives with. Needless to say, guys go after gals most of the time, and at any single time, there could be a few guys wooing a gal at one gal. You could say they're spoilt for choice.

And so, to choose which one? The best one. Which is the best one? Depends on the gal's criteria. Sometimes, they would rather not choose anyone and continue waiting for the white-horse-prince.

Believe me when i say, if u truly and sincerely like someone, ur actions will show and ur heart will know. Pluck up ur courage and give it a try, no matter the outcome, its a good experience. And bear in mind the fact that if she accepts u, u will treat her nice and wholeheartedly, therefore she shall find happiness with you. Never belittle your ability to give her happiness. :)

Okays, fuck man, im beginning to sound like some romance counselor though im single all my life. Hahahass, ah well, juz some pieces of how my heart functions, though abit selfish. 我想就这样牵着你的手不放开~~~

Back to life. Im still looking for a job, spiritually. hahhass. Im currently focusing on my training and diet, seeing results alreadi, but maybe its not that obvious ba. Im still surprised that i actually persevered all the way, i always tend to give up halfway. Hmms, infact, im going to extend the 14 days low carb to 30 days man. Its not that bad after the 1st week, i still have my cheat days once every week, so cravings are fine.

Todae, something funny happened, i was at bugis starbucks meeting this prudential agent called priscilla, which i find oddly familiar. After toking for awhile, i still haven recalled where have i seen her before. Then on my way home in the mrt, i remembered. She is ah sa's fren lah, pris. I sat in her car before that time when we went to marina south. Small world rite? rite.

And to illustrate why we need to cherish what we have now, is a song that tells about a regret that plagues a guy for the rest of his life. Aiyah, i dun know how to phrase it accurately lah, but if u understand me, u understand, dun understand, no point i try to make u understand also lah. hurhurs. So here we go :

保护

歌手：许志安

你把门轻轻关上离开他的谎话
失望比悲伤强烈疲倦的泪留下
你心里有幅相框爱应该像个天堂
结果爱原来更像无止尽的流浪
你忽然停止说话靠在我肩膀上
一瞬间心在摇晃有抱你的渴望
翻往日美好时光让我们乱了方向
我想起无辜的她正在等我回家
很抱歉不能陪你到天亮
很抱歉不能像从前一样
空荡的夜风变凉把我的外套披上
答应我好好的让我送你回家
很抱歉不能抱紧你不放
很抱歉只能藉给你肩膀
无助时逃进过往是最危险的地方
我只能这样保护你请你原谅

我们站在月光下影子拖的好长
像怀念无法隐藏被摊在大街上
你的泪无声落下打湿了我的胸膛
现在的情不自禁会是以后的伤

Jason's : Im more certain i made the right choice after reading the past blog entries. :)