Kruger

Gastronomy is my new infatuation. After watching Witch Yoo-Hee, im quite set to learn culinary skills. Hahass, im actually quite interested in cooking initially, and after watching the show, was inspired to cook. Heehee, was surfing through recipes online and since my mum dun allow beef at home, i shall start with pork chops. :)

Monday i will go to the supermarket and get some ingredients for the pork chops. It will cost maybe around $20 bucks and hopefully it will be successful. I tink guys that can cook are great and i respect ppl like jaymie oliver ( dun kw spell correctly anot, its tat british young chef. ). Imagine in future, u can cook a storm out from the kitchen for the ones u love, and the satisfaction when u see them loving what u have made for them... wooo... lolx.

My new mattress came yesterday and i realised its thicker then my previous mattress. Its super comfy and i realli dun mind spending the extra cash on it. hohohoh! Packed half my room as well and its quite clean alreadi, the other half will have to wait for me to shop for new furniture when i have the cash first. hahahas!

As for my room, i will try to hang more chinese calligraphy around to create the 'cheena zen' atmosphere so that my room will look better. I do think about getting some transparent fibre-glass furnishings but coming back to reality, i am not rich. -.-"" Okies, enough about my room. :)

I thought of this chinese phrase all of a sudden. Maybe i copy it here to show u ppl ba. :)

你可以是人才，
可能是天才，
可是你没有钱财，
你就是废材。

Hahasss, its true rite? In present society, without money, u are nothing. Like what most people say, Cash Is King. With cash, everybody will respect u, especially in a practical country like singapore. If u are rich, u will not be forced to do something u dun like because u can sue their ass off. Justice is blind they say, but i say justice is just a balanced scale between morality and financial prowess. Moral implications can easily be overwritten with money, though social pressure can escalate morality above currency occasionally.

An example is the NKF incident, everything is under wraps and was covered up with money initially. But after the case was uncovered, the social pressure compelled the 'garmen' to take the 'correct' action. In the first place, the 'garmen' is known to be all-knowing and even minor details hardly ever escaped them, so are we realli certain that noone knows about the scam?

And so, i believe justice is a balanced scale in modern society. The justice we know todae and the traditional justice we have came to embrace so warmly is 2 veri different school of thoughts. Traditional justice is metted out by unseen forces that we call 'heaven'/god. Its justified by things like karma/retribution. Whereas modern justice is metted out by humans sitting inside a concrete infrastructure. Though it may seem confusing, but the point is that justice might have a trace of perversion within.

End of entry, too tired to continue, lolx. My theory of thoughts can continue and chain to other thoughts, but fatigue is currently my greatest enemy......hohoho....

Jason's Famous Quotes : There is only one true resource in the world. Money.

Did You Know ? : Everything is possible in dreams and in love.

Deliverance

Things normalized quite abit these days. Was on a down period the other day, anyways having a private blog is quite good also, somewhere i can realli say what i want. hurhur

I sort of remembered that we need to take things as they come, no matter what, just let nature do its magic, no point going all sad and expect things to turn out better. Though we both dun say it, i truly believe she knows how i feel, i just know she know. So if ya know what im toking about, lets take it slow. :)

Been watching lots of korean stuff on crunchyroll.com these days. I've just finished watching The Art of Fighting, which is a korean movie about fighting, both physical and mental. Throughout all our lives, we are always fighting, fighting to get better grades, fighting for a better tomolo, so ya, its quite inspirational. But my mainstream obsession is still WITCH YOO-HEE!

Jeremy introed me to this hilarious korean drama about this gal that is the director of an advertising company that dresses only in black and white. She's a big meanie and bosses people around. When a silly guy who aspires to become a french chef comes into her life accidentally, things started to get a little spice. hohohoho!

The female lead is Han Ga In, she is the ultimate expressionism of my dream gal. Having sweet looks that u can get diabetes from, a wonderful smile that can hypnotize... tat's wat im toking about man! And one thing i realised is, huimin looks almost like her, so now i know where my female preferences stem from. hohohoho!

The male lead isnt that good looking, but there's this character called Johnny Kruger that is a famous french chef who likes Yoo-Hee ( Han Ga In) alot. He's an actor called Dennis Oh in real life. The charisma, the stature and the aura that he eludes is what i wanna become, but i know lah, its kinda hard cause its reel-life leh, drama only. hahass...

Alrite, for those that wanna watch this drama, go crunchyroll and search for witch yoo-hee, its nice and its a new drama. I know its damn new, because i went to VCD shops to search for it and its not even in singapore yet. hmph... -.-""

Life todae is simple, woke up in the afternoon and went to taman jurong mega-mattress to buy a good mattress. I bought a good mattress because kuku advised me to buy a good one, because its a worthwhile investment. thks kuku! And so after the mattress, i went to UOB at jurong point to start a campus acct and apply for a campus debit card. I got a cheque book for free, but i dun tink im going to write a cheque anything soon man... 0.0"

And since im writing about todae, might as well write about what im going to do tomolo rite? rite. Tomolo will be trying hard to kick-start my regime again after slacking for so long, and then the rest of the day will be researching some stuffs for ah-wei, didnt do much these 2 days and i promised to get back to him with a list by 2 days time. lolx, i kw, i sucked, but i definitely will come up with a good proposal tomolo. Im a last minute man, but though im last minute, i do my stuffs well. ^_^V

And before i go, gotta introduce u ppl to my perma-repeat new song, Jay's newest song for his self-directed drama "Bu Neng Shuo De Mi Mi" or Unspeakable Secret. The song name is the same as the drama title, and its damn nice. Initially it starts with some basic piano playing and u will be like "is this a kid's song?", but as the song goes on, u realised its veri nice and meaningful. Go listen to it, u will lurve it. :)

Jason's Famous Quotes : Thou Shall Not Overly Care For A Gal.

Did You Know? : Korean actress are very pretty, something is very fishy.... :P

Tetracycline

Its those low confidence periods again. Im starting to feel inferior all over again, its like im inferior to other guys out there. Fat, ugly, useless, poor, stupid and lazy, how bad can it get? I only know how to get lost in music and conceive foolish fantasies, so wat if i keep singing? Can it get me somewhere? And even if i get my studies right, does it realli means a bright future? What sparked all these u ask? Its just that somethings just dun feel right sometimes.

There's a lot on my mind that i wanna jot down here, but i kw i cant, simply because if i wrote it all here, its damn bloody obvious and the repercussions are going to be too hard for me to handle. And im starting to feel some people like to take other people for granted, they only look for u when they need something, beside that, they're just gone from ur life. I dun like that kinda feeling, its like u're some sort of tool, fuck that.

Im tinking of starting a totally separate blog to realli put down my feelings, especially pertaining to the emotional department. I realli wanna pen down names and how i realli feel without restrain, because sometimes things just seems so heavy and u need to unload. Its not like i dun have frens, but most of them just dun listen. And the few that truly listens are far and few between. Im quite lost sometimes infact, those people i call my buddies are those that shrug my stuffs aside and dun listen to me. When they need a listening ear, im there to listen, yet when i needed one, none is available. Its sad, realli sad. Or maybe its just that im just another weak whiner, so maybe they just dismiss me as another dumb fellow.

Sometimes its better not to dig up stuffs that u have buried for sometime, because u might not be able to handle what u manage to dig up. Its funny how sometimes the shits u dig up still holds that kind of despair that has managed to eluded u for sometime. Its like a virus that u quarantined up for a nearly a year, and when u dig into ur heart, u managed to release it once again. The uncertainty and self-doubt that ensues is realli heart-wrenching to the point u have to unload it on a blog. Yes, its that bad.

Pardon me for turning my blog into a desperate final means of venting what is kept inside me, but its realli the onli resort that i have. I tink i should go start another blog, cannot tahan le, i need to write what i realli feel. Thanks for reading this crap anyways.

Jason's Famous Quotes : Hope propels despair.

Did You Know ? : Stupidity is self-wrought.

Clarity

Well, after yesterday, i made a decision to do something. Was out till quite late yesterday after skool, so i have lots of time to tink about stuffs on the mrt. I guess i have chosen to commit to something that might possibly be a failure, but if i dun try, i will definitely regret it. Confirmed, i dun wanna regret again... regrets hurts much more then rejection. :)

After pondering for sometime, i came to a conclusion that some time is needed before i do anything silly. I dun tink its the right time now to do what im going to do, so im gonna let nature takes its own course first. If its mine, it will be mine, if it's not to be, then its never gonna be. So please god, bless that things go well this time, i realli realli wanna do this right this time.

Okies, those that understand what i meant from the above paragraph should know wat im toking about. And no, its not about my obsession, and an obsession will always stay an obsession, sorts of like an eye candy, its never gonna take over my heart and soul. But well, i can offer my heart and soul, but whether i will be given the same is another issue altogether...

Ks, enough mushy and silly stuffs, shall change subject to my singing. heehee, nowadays im practicing Wang Li Hong's 'Ni Bu Zai' because its a song that needs lots of technique to be performed properly. Its on perma-repeat on my computer to optimize the 'mental inscription' process. lolx. Saturday im going to sing with my primary skool frens, who are mostly good singers, so i gotta prepare wat i wanna sing then. hahass! kiasu rite? :P

Next week MAYBE im going to Genting with nich and ah tan they all, but it all boils down to whether i have enough cash to go anot. lolx. I wished i could bring a 'bird' there, but she needs to be over 21 yrs old then can go... -.-"".... Well anyways when she's 21 maybe i will be rich enough to go taiwan alreadi. HURHUR! Okies, dun digress, lets get back to todae's events.

Played mahjong with nich xuanhe and meiting for nearli the whole day till 8 plus in the evening. I won the most again! ( This few weeks si beh heng ah!) i won $18 bucks, xuanhe won $16 and nich won $6. Poor meiting lost $40 sia... made us feel damn guilty winning her money especially me, because im the one tat called her to play mahjong with us -.-.... gosh... im damn guilty man... Worse is she dun realli kw how to play beri well, so that sorts of adds more to the guilt. I tink if its eugene, we will definitely be happy to win his money because he looks like a God Of Fortune anyways. LOLX!

Sunday most prob will be playing again, so wish me luck ppl! If i win, GENTING HERE I COME! hurhur~~~

Jason's Famous Quotes : Time proves everything. If its meant to be, it will be.

Did You Know ? : Its been sometime since i last dug up what has been buried for nearly 1 yr.

Subtle Affection

Im a complex person, contrary to what i tot initially. I always tot im a simple person and i believe in simple happiness, but i realised that i am not tat simple after all. I wish im a simpleton that isnt that simple because being too simple is too simple for my own good. understand? Nevermind.

Things have been making me crazy mentally these days. The reservist issue is hopefully resolved after i consulted with my MP ytd. Financially im surprisingly quite stable with SOME excess nowadays. Will be TRYING to save up enough so that i can either go taiwan or start investing by the next holidays.

I preach simplicity, yet i dun think simplicity. I want a simple relationship, but i cant stop tinking about complications after witnessing alot of unhappy incidents that happened to my frens. I just wanna love and care for someone without any complex issues, is it that difficult? I know its dumb to say that because its like wanting a perfect relationship which is not possible, but i will try my best, is it tat hard? Sometimes maturity and fantasy counteracts to such an extent that u wouldnt even contemplate experimenting. That's why i say, life sucks, take drugs. haiz... There's someone i care for yet i dun kw what to do, and no, its not my obsession im toking about. Gosh, im damn obvious. -.-

Okies, new skool term, new modules, new headaches. A good point to note is new ppl, the mediacorp actress ezann lee is my classmate in commercial law, not that its a big hooha, but its just that its kinda rare to have a celebrity for a classmate. And i saw the infamous pervert from the 38th batch that used to terrorize gals in his class, and well, he does look like a perv. Im damn kaypoh and keep asking kuku to show me who tat dumb fellow was. lolx! And the discoloration of people continues in my eyes, looks seems to fade into nothingness slowly and im getting bored of looking at gals. Yesh, u heard rite, i am BORED of looking at gals. And i dun even look at guys, so im not turning gay, no worries. :)

Im more interested in my studies this semester, simply because i failed my a module for the first time in my 24 yrs of life. I NEVER EVER failed a subject/ module before, so this is realli a 1st. Realized as i went along, the code of conduct that i made for myself have faded in priority, i am supposed to STUDY, not relive POLY SLACKING DAYS! So yesh, this sem will be refocusing my efforts on my studies, they are more important things then other mundane stuffs. In my life, there's now a few top most priorities, which includes studying, mahjonging, gaming , learning the market, conceptualizing business ideas, planning to travel and last but not least, earning money to fund the above endeavours. =.="

And lastly, as a ending paragraph, i have a few golden words for myself in future if i made the wrong decision and would like to review my life from my blog. "What is virtual can be real if reality is brave enough to face possibilities. Without the hesitant facets of life, there cannot be an authentic form of bliss. Remember that no matter what happens or what route u take, u will eventually reach the end, and no matter how long the night, the sun will always inevitably rise."

Jason's Famous Quotes : Courage is the trademark of a true man.

Did You Know? : Some people like to dig a deep shit hole, and then jump in themselves.

Gg-tified

Sa Rang Hei You. Those 4 words was the motivating korean words for me during my short stint at starhub last april. Thinking about it, its damn mushy lah, what made me tell her that, until now i still dun realli kw. Something just came over me during that period, so maybe im just plain crazy. hahass! For those that dun kw, they meant I Love You in korean. Yesh i kw, its gross, but i tink i do have the freedom to go bonkers once in awhile yeah? Though i do regret causing so much trouble for Adeline during that time. Hurhur~~

Alritey, this few days i have been rotting at home because school is starting nxt week, and i wanna choing finish my XUE SHAN FEI HU drama that nich so kindly lend to me. Gillian Chung is super pretty man... woootz~~~ But its just a drama, so i just watch and get childish during the show ( how childish? I can make funny sword sounds and imagine myself as the guy in the show. LOLX!)

Well that's me for u ppl, there's a super childish side that i dun show people except my family members at home. hahaha! Im like a little kid at home, totally childish and indulgent in the stupid things of life. There's only a few things i do at home besides sleeping and eating. I play mahjong, i play games, i watch VCDs, I rot on my bed. Simple and sweet. Heehee... :P

And i have a very noble habit, i like to look at 'special' people's friendster accounts and see how they are getting on in life. I just went to take a look at Adeline's profile ( that's why i tot about the things in the initial paragraph. lolx) and was glad that she's doing well. I onli look at profiles of people that are important to me to see how they are getting on in life. I always feel a sense of serenity to know that they are fine and dandy. :)

My hair is short now, and i do look dumb. I dun kw how the auntie cut my hair until i totally looked like dumb and dumber. -.-" Well, i have to admit, i AM dumb, so watever. hmms...
I was telling eugene about my obsession during the start of the holidays, and so now its nearli the end of the holidays, and i am still obsessed. Hahass, i guess maybe its just me, i just cant shake off the obsession even though its during the holidays man. So ya, im lost and i dun kw what to do. Lets just see how fate progresses. ^_^

Will definitely be meeting peter and sean before the start of the fresh skool term. Most prob will be asking them to go sing ktv, i tink they have never heard me sing before. Not as in casual singing, but as in 'mic' singing. On second thoughts, i tink they heard before, last time went out with fat-fark-hong (ruihong) and cheebye-vin (alvin) to sing at partyworld. Was contemplating saboing them and make them pay for the ktv tat time! lolx! But its been sometime since we went out to sing, so the time is ripe now. Alrite!

Okay, enough kiddish blabbering for todae. Its time for XUE SHAN FEI HU episode 22! GOGOGO!

Jason's Famous Quotes : Unfazed Obsession Hints At Oblivion

Did You Know? : A Kuku is a bird, but a bird is not a Kuku.

Fuck-Tart

Okays, this is another of those agitated entries, so steer clear if u cannot take vulgarities. The issue in question is macdonald's delivery. I just ordered a midnite order because im staying up late and hungry, and the cb delivery guy showed me attitude problem. Fuck his 18 ancestors man, tat fucking bastard ORDERED me to open the fucking cb door like i owe him alot of money, im trying to tune myself down to become the sort of guy i wanna become, and here he comes along spoiling my fucking mood. I will elaborate more on tat later, rite now, i wanna curse this fucking bastard.

Why is it some service staffs are so damn rude man, this malay fellow tat delivered the food looked like a cock and well, since i dun kw him, i demonstrated to him wat is called dun 'step over the line.'
I walked to the door, open the door and stared at him. Tat cb show me black face, i show him violence-prone face. I tink he got the hint and he quietly took the money and fucked off. If he said anything stupid, i am going to... well, lets not tok about it le, im supposed to be attuning myself to fit a more 'businessman' type of guy.

Okies, enough cursing about tat dog, lets tok about what happened this few days. I went back for medical refresher course ytd and todae, and as usual, i relived the feeling of being poked with a huge needle to practice our intravenous infusion techniques. Meaning IV for short. And like the old days, the training shack was littered with our blood. Hahass, my love and hate affair with blood, lolx.

Initially i tot that this is just a complete waste of time, but i managed to find the emotion that have been driving me to save people when i was actively serving during my NS days. The satisfaction that comes with saving a life is unsurpassed. In my opinion, my batch of medics were quite responsible and we all know the importance of our job. A warrant officer once said to me when i was at the medical school tat running the medical centre is just a secondary aspect of our vocation, our primary and most important priority is the saving people.

Now i tink i will try to tune myself to speak and tink more like a businessman ba, meaning a gentleman, not like some ruffian or some kid. During my reservist, there's this guy that looks like my uncle, and my uncle is the kinda guy that i wanna become in future. Speak eloquently with a charismatic tone, smiles alot and is that kinda guy that sorts of gives u a feel that he is a veri educated man. The tone of speech must be gentle and pleasant, yet resounds a deep manly personality underneath. Sort of like James Bond , dark brooding kinda man. lolx.

Dreams aside, there is another issue that is bugging me these days. No, its not about how i failed to continue my regime. And no, its not about my new hair colour. Its about what i want. Do u people realize sometimes, what u thought u wanted was actually not what u realli wanted? I was reflecting on some issues i discovered recently and im starting to be unsure again. Oh well, i am a fickle-minded person sometimes, everybody has a fickle-minded side too rite?

This paragraph is dedicated to one of my bestest frend. Do not hang on to something that u alreadi kw u dun feel for. Dragging things is not going to do any good, its only going to postpone the inevitable and eventually will amplify the damage done. Though in the past, my mentality is very negative against forsakers, i have came to realised over the yrs that sometimes, amputating a rotting arm is the biggest mercy u can ever give the arm. If u dun find the courage to amputate, then the rotting arm will infect ur entire body eventually. Im not trying to tell u to chop off ur hand, but dun think about what the hand has done or can do, but rather reflect upon the bigger picture: what effect it will have on the hand if u delay amputating it. Im just voicing my mundane opinions regarding ur arm and ur health, so take it with a pinch of salt. I tink u understand its a medical emergency. :)

Sean, this paragraph is dedicated to u, because u asked me when im free rite? My answer is simple. i am always free, anytime should be fine, but i need to be reminded the day before, i dun wanna do stunt again like what i did to peter. My memory isnt realli that good, and im still feeling guilty for putting peter's plane tat nite. And sean bro, thanks for the encouraging words for my commercial law. Ai zai! *punch to chest*

Every sunday is mahjong day. Nich, xh and nich's fren ( i forgot her name) are my kakis. Muahaha! I've been winning a little here and there, so im actually improving at mahjong!(i tink).

Allow me the liberty of penning down this final paragraph in a paradoxical expressionism. U have to first learn to love, before u can learn to hate. As the olden philosophers theorizes, there is no hate without love. Why do we hate evil people? Because we dun want them to hurt our loved ones. We chinese have a saying, all emotions are borne from love. Its quite true after thinking bout it for sometime, maybe because i always seem to indirectly link every emotion i feel to a specific type of love that i have for different people. And well, a certain type is eluding me for sometime now, will that certain type be possible?


Jason's Famous Quotes : Sentients of a romantic nature are the buds of a doomed rose.

Did You Know? : We all have forsaken somethings to be where we are today.

Better Days

A grim day to blog, simply because i failed my commercial law. How the hell i managed tat, i dun not kw. But what i kw is tat i failed it, and im now 1 sem behind... Haiz , i realli dun understand how come i can fail commercial law, which isnt that hard. Maybe my magic has ran out? My forever passing streak has finally ended? And it veri well should, my poly days was sustained smoothly due to it.

Have u ever wondered when some ppl made a huge impact on ur life and made u wat u are todae? And this cathegory of ppl, i put them beri close to my heart. They're the people that taught me valuable lessons in life, and some of them even learnt to bear with what i am, to be true frens with me. I have 4 frens who have made the most impact on my life though one of them, i dun realli kw her well. My grandfather that has passed away also play a huge role in shaping my ambitions and what i wanna do in my lifetime. He's a good businessman that believes in honesty and humility, working hard to be at what he was. Therefore that explains how come im so bent on becoming a businessman. :)

The 4 frens i've been toking about earlier, do u guys wanna kw who they are? Its 3 gals and a guy. The guy im toking about is obviously my best buddy ah wei, we've been thru quite alot together and i agree there have been some rough times for our frendship, but we still managed to hang on to this brotherhood for 13 yrs. Along these 13 yrs, i learnt alot from him, and one of the best thing about him is though he grumbles alot, he never fails to extend a helping hand to a fren in need. :)

Next up is the 1st gal i took a fancy to. Lets call her H. hahas, its quite incredible when i tell u how i got attracted to her during my sec 1 days. It's so unbelievable that u have to ask me personally, i wont even type it here. heehee. I didnt realli kw her well, but news of me having a torch for her spread like wild fire thanks to a gal we've come to known as 'Big mouth'. Anyways H realli showed me that some girls seriously DUN go for looks, she's so sweet and pretty, among the best gals in the skool.

While im just another fat kid on the block, totally fat and ugly, weak in every aspect. She actually gave me a chance when we were sec 3, i remember its during a Chinese Orchestra Camp ( yeah, i was from the CO, because she's in the CO mah. lolx! ), there's this dance event that needs us to find partners, she totally surprised me and made me blush like some tomato from mars man.

What did she do? She walked over to me, and silently smiled and held my hands to be her dance partner... omg.. i can still feel the shyness up till now man. hahass
I went blood-red from then on and i nearly fainted during that event and the entire CO is laughing at me. lolx, a fat bespectacled guy being laughed at in the middle of the courtyard at 9pm at nite isnt exactly what i wanted from a camp. hahasss :P

What made her have this suddenly surprising act, till this day i still dun kw, but what i can tell u is, this thing is gonna stick in my head till the day i close my eyes permanently. During sec 2, though im shy, i still did some stuffs like buy birthday gifts and valentine gifts which she rejected. hmph, i was sort of disappointed during my youth and i totally dun understand why she couldnt just accept them.

And thanks to my 'spy', who happens to be her best frend, i understood why. Her family is veri strict with her, and if she takes anything home that have a hint of romance, all hell breaks loose, so ya, she rejected those stuffs because its just not applicable then. And guess what, the Forever Friends bear i bought for her is still with me till this day, hahass! :)

Well, after the camp, i got her number ( yesh, finally after 3 yrs i summoned the courage to get her number. told u i was shy rite? ) and tried to call her up to chat a few times, but i was too shy to realli tok about some constructive stuffs. But slowly i get to kw her abit better, till one day i actually called her before the O levels start to 'pop the question'. And the response i got was that she wanna concentrate on her studies and dun wanna tok about such stuffs yet, she told me to wait till after O levels.

Naturally i was disappointed and the nxt day i consulted my F.G.C (Fat Guys Council) for advice, :) . The FGC passed a verdict that she was just rejecting me in a nicer way and so i happily listened to the 'holy verdict' of the FGC. In the end, guess what? I didnt contacted her after that, and after the Os, she settled down with a fren of mine until now.-.-""

I called her best fren to ask what happened, it seems she told that guy the same thing that she told me. And after the Os, she waited for my call for 2 weeks, but i didnt call at all. So this other guy toked to her and went after her, which the end result is he got her. And there and then, when i received the news, i just sort of stunned there, i wished i could blame the FGC for the state of matter, but i know i cant, simply because i am the one that chose to do what i have done.

Till this day, this turn of events has been the greatest regret i have in all my 24 yrs. If only i called, if only i waited, if only i tried harder, if only i believed in myself... there's a thousand 'if onlies', but only one outcome, i have lost her. So thru these events, i've learnt to believe more in myself and put in that extra effort. I've discarded my shyness, my soft-willedness and learnt 2 new phases: effort and perseverance.

I dun deny that if for that one day she became single, i will definitely go after her with all my heart and soul. I've been known to put in lots of effort when i seriously am interested in somebody (provided they're single), but i've yet to put in my soul before. She is one of the 2 persons in my life that deserves me to put in my heart and soul in entirety. But i guess she's getting married soon, so lets screw that thought. ^_^


Okies, i realised i have written ALOT of stuffs. lolx, its gonna be a thesis soon man. Todae shall stop here, and for the other 2 person, i dun wanna write their names here, but they're my featured friends in friendster. heehee :P


Jason's Famous Quotes : We are heroes in our own right.

Did You Know? : I still keep in touch with a member of the FGC.

Paradox

I know im slow, but i recently started listening to a david tao song called Melody. Its a song he wrote for one of his ex-girlfriend in LA. Nice song that chronicles the feelings that david has towards Melody and it sorts of tugs at my heart-strings because i believe almost everybody has somebody in their life that they love yet cannot be with.

Was toking to eugene online ytd nite and we were discussing how come there's someone in our lives that is almost the perfect one for us, yet we can't be with that person. We can only be frends with that special someone and that kinda agony sorts of disorientates me mentally. Im not going crazy, but its simply like u're under water and u cant resurface for air, yet at the same time u cannot drown. Complex yeah? :) Anyways here's the song lyrics, sub the word Melody with a 3 syllabus name of that someone in ur heart. :)

MELODY

终于明白你已变成回忆
没有言语能够说明当别人问起
谱了一段旋律没有句点
也无法再继续


像埋伏在街头的某种气息
无意间经过把往日笑与泪勾起
忽然心痛的无法再压抑
原来从未忘记


melody脑海中的旋律转个不停
爱过你有太多话忘了要告诉你
melody 无数动人音符在我生命
爱过你失去你我才知道要珍惜


当时无法为你写的那首歌
都是我永远的遗憾
当爱逝去如果所有的错重来一次
能否改变结局


终于落下休止符的那首歌
我听着每一个音符流过的回忆
为什么在那么多年以后
还不能说再见


melody 脑海中的旋律如此熟悉
爱过你在我心里只能轻轻叹息
melody 无数动人音符在我生命
爱过你失去你我才知道要珍惜


melody oh melody
我永远不能忘记
你是多么的美丽
让这音乐一直不停响起


melody oh melody
我舍不得去忘记
我们快乐的过去
请别让我从这梦境清醒


melody 脑海中的旋律如此熟悉
爱着你求你听我唱完这一段旋律
请不要离去


melody 你是在我脑海不停的旋律
爱过你我的心里只能无言叹息


melody 无数动人音符在生命里
爱过你失去后我才知道要珍惜你

Jason's Famous Quotes : Leaves leave because living as a leaf leaves no choice but to leave.

Did You Know? : Segmented hearts proves segmented affections.

Filial

Hmms, been nearli a mth since i last blogged. Im not sure what to write too, because there's simply too many stuffs that happened in this 20 odd days. Lets start with how my life has been going so far ya?

Working part-time nowadays as usaul, and im slacker this holidays simply because i wanna watch dramas and movies. I know i should train, as i have around 2 mths before its judgement day. Money as usaul is not enough at all, i have so much stuffs to buy and invest in, yet i dun have the funds to buy them all, lolx. Actually the one thing i would realli wanna buy is a black/brown leather jacket, looks damn nice and leather is classy. heehee. :P

Affairs of the heart wise, the cycle is starting once again. I know this sounds silly, but once again i made the choice to remain single, simply because i want somebody that i deem i have chemistry with. And not those simple chemistry, i want major chemical reaction. I know i dun have the assets to hiam other ppl, but its my heart mah. :)

An example is the teacher i was toking about a few mths ago, i met her at a skool guitar concert a few days ago. And after some turn of events, she was sitting nxt to me and chatting with me happily. We do click well and we were toking about -believe it or not- bermuda triangle and pyramids and ancient wonders of the world. lolx! But though we click, i dun tink the relevant amount of reaction is present within me, yes she is pretty, yes she is smart, but i tink she's not my type ba. Henceforth, i didnt make any further moves. hahas :P

Alrite, im feeling tired just typing so much nowdays, so lets go to a more enticing part of my entry: The societal theories! Was on my way to office this morning, when an old lady boarded at jurong east and say beside me. Then she started toking nonsense to me and the guy beside her, initially i tot she was being frendly and i merely smiled. But although i ignored her later on, she continued probing me to get my attention and blabbered on, im totally irritated but i cant scold an old lady mah.

Kaoz, i was so frustrated and felt so bottled up that i seriously wanted to stand up and fark off to one corner, but its super rude to the old lady. And so i endured, she continued toking rubbish and i continued to ignore her, when finally i cannot take it anymore.

Guess what i did? i suddenly found the whole issue amusing and i started smiling to myself, dun ask me why i felt its funny, but deep within me, the tulanness changed to humour. lolx! She stopped toking to me once we were in the tunnel and i was tinking how crazy the whole thing was. hahass. :P

So what makes an old lady blabber so much to strangers? izzit when ppl get old, extreme loneliness drove her to be mentally unsound? Or izzit when she was younger she didnt tok much, hence she tried to tok more when she got old? What i tink is most prob her family didnt tok to her much, or maybe she have family problems therefore she needs to tok to ppl to feel at ease.

Old folks in singapore are quite poor thing in fact, other country's old folks retire and live a good life, whereas old folks in singapore are still working at fast food eateries to earn a living. Izzit our national culture that made our old folks work like dogs? Or izzit our national sense of filial piety is dangerously lacking? I guess the answer is obvious just reading the newspaper daily. In our pursuit for monetary and esteem satisfaction, we neglected our consciential development.

Parents became people that painstakingly took care of us and sheltered us till we grow to a age ripe enough to abandon or ignore them both verbally and mentally. A dangerous epidermic is spreading like wildfire among us urbanians, we are losing our roots slowly and surely. True enough there are people that still treasures these traditional values, but as wealth grew, so did our misconception that money is equal to love and filial piety.

Some parents gave monetary satisfaction to their kids thinking that its love, and some kids gave money to their parents believing its being filial. Oh how wrong they were, infact current social affairs seems to grant insight into this trend which proves to be both detrimental and contagious. All in all, love ur parents more, no matter what they did.


Jason's Famous Quotes : Courage is a derivative of cowardice.

Did You Know? : Im beginning to like a very irrelevant person.

Corinne

I once said, music is my life, and hence todae i shall discuss some of my favourite singers. :)

First and foremost is Jay Zhou Jie Lun, he is a veri talented song writer and the song he writes always tugs at the listener's heart. But what he lack is a singing voice, lets be frank now, jay realli dun have a nice singing voice. As a conclusion, his composing abilities more than makes up for his voice deficit, that's why he is the king of mandarin pop currently. He preaches Zhong Guo Feng and he's songs always surprises people by incorporating musical vibes from various european styles. He's the pride of mandarin music. :P

David Tao Zhe, a man that has the composing and singing talent. His style inclines more towards a RnB composition base and he do steps into some heavy metal vibes too. Vocal wise he can reach high notes easily and his voice holds a sort of veri soothing thickness in them. An interesting fact is the ZHE character in his chinese name does not exist in the dictionary ( i tink so, because i dun realli kw. hahass :P )

And next up is Hom Wang Li Hong, this is somebody with the package. And package means voice, talents and looks. Boyish good looks coupled with a good vocal alreadi is a sin, and he has composing talents when it comes to love songs. His Forever Love is one of his best piece he has written and most of his love songs have become classics over the years. His mastery in a range of musical instruments gives his music melodies a number of routes for expression.

Okies, im getting tired and i shall stop at 3, will continue the others another time. hahas. :p Anyways i still tink Jay is the best simply because he is a true-bred homegrown asian, david and li hom are both ABCs ( American born chinese, not Ang moh kio borned chinese. =.=" ). David and Li hom are both from rich families ( i tink) and Jay was ur typical poor single-parented kid.
To their fans, there's no pun intended okies, dun flame me hor, its just my opinion. :p

Watched Spiderman 3 with sean todae, and we toked about some issues of our life. Still as man as ever eh sean? hahass :P Ai Zai! And thks for the new method to deal with problems man, next time i also take off my shirt. :p Jokes aside, spiderman was nice, but its the usaul fare, hero save gal, cheesy one liners and the likes, u get it ya? I wished there was another movie like 300, epic yet it tugs at ur innate male ego. Im tinking whether they will be coming out with a San Guo movie, theres so much space to get creative with that script.

I had a crazy idea sometime ago, and this idea is so crazy, i tink its interesting! Shyts! Im going to be a director, ya, u heard rite, a director. lolx. Im supposed to shoot a army/war flick and then edit it abit to make it like a spoof. hahass! Anyways do anybody kw where to buy those small small dark green plastic soldiers? When i was young, they used to sell the little green soldiers at provision shops and i totally love those toys. Ah~~~ Childhood, dun u just miss those days? hmms...

My dvd player has broken down. Fark one sia, why the hell did it broke down? Sianz lah, i tink im going to dismantle it to repair the lens soon, like what i did with my playstation 2. muahaha! Another plus point of studying engineering in the past! Infact, im starting to miss engineering modules... haiz... And im listening to JJ's Chi Pang now, which started me tinking about corinne and our past. I tink im beginning to miss her alreadi, after exams maybe its time we went out, its been AGES since i went out with a gal, im beginning to suspect im gay man. hahass! :p


Jason 's Famous Quotes : Noone can clip my wings, i choose when and where to land.

Did You Know? : I measure biceps growth. I am normal. I am sane. I love biceps.......

Dreams?

Seriously speaking, i've ran out of ideas on what to write, unless i write some beri controversial stuffs. Hmms... Okies, fark it, shall break the rules this once and write something debatable. :P

Video/PC games. That and the word GUY usaully goes together. I understand there are more gal gamers nowadays, but still, most of the gamers are guys. From young, parents tend to hold a notion that if we game too much, we will fail exams. But they didnt kw, we can learn lots of different stuffs from playing games. Some games even expect you to be clever in order to complete it. Gaming is the top in the galfrend's list of enemies, second being other gals. Up to 75% of guys in developed countries spends 60% of their time on games, and gaming culture is slowly evolving to something more elegant and formal as compared to the lack lustre gaming community in the past.

Though they say gaming is bad for health, for fat ppl, its the exact opposite. When fat ppl game, they lose weight because they rarely eat, never goes out and the only time they step out of the house is to buy more games. Hard-core gamer's routine is simply game, shit, eat, sleep(maybe).
I've a few frends that lost around 10 kgs simply by gaming over a 3 mths period. Gosh....

Im supposed to get a haircut these days, but im contemplating shaving botak. Should i? Look like recruit rite? hmms... lolx... :P I still have that bottle of hair dye at home that is collecting dust, but most prob will cut short my hair then dye it for the holidays. :)

Yesterday i had a veri funny dream, its about this gal that i have NEVER see before in my life. The scene was set in such a way as in im supposed to like her, then i didnt tell her about it, in the end when i told her i liked her, she said if i told her earlier, she would have accepted me. And being rejected, im supposed to be sad rite? But i heck it and simply held her hand and that's it, she's my gal. Wtf? What kinda dream is that man? Thing is i have never ever seen her before, so where does that comes in? Anyways i woke up with a hundred question marks on my head, and after blogging it down here, shall forget it and dismiss it as just another dream ba. :)

Lin Yu Zhong, a farking talented musician i must say. I've seen him perform live on Bai Fen Bai, and i must say, he's sense of music and rhythm is impressive. So much so that im going to buy a acoustic guitar when i get pay nxt mth and go full throttle with writing songs. :)

Was working at HDB Hub 2 days ago and i got to know a person. She says she loves her bf more then he loves her, and she knows it yet cannot control it. My advice to her is simple, noone needs another person so that they could live on in this world. Relationships are transcendent, they dun usaully last that long. What matters is the process, people learn from failed relationships, so that they can be a better person for that correct one that is coming along. Therefore enjoy what u have now and let it be a sweet memory that u can recall later in ur life. Although this may sound cruel, but break-ups are inevitable, when they come, they come.

I tell my frens about when things end, they end, no point grabbing on to watever u can hold on to. Im a man of liberty and i believe in fate, when things end, it signifies that there is inconcilable damage present. Therefore rather then rushing to mend the damage, why not go our separate ways and find out what is wrong? If fate and time decreeds that we should be together, no force in this world can stop us being together in future, be it 10 yrs, 20 yrs. I have said it before, and i say it again, i dun like being tied down involuntarily, and i dun like to tie ppl down. We're together because we want to be, not because we need to be. Remember, people get together because they want to, not because they need to.

I strongly believe we are like birds, we have wings and whether we are strong flyers anot, depends on what we went thru during our lifetime. Tying ppl down is equivalent to chopping their wings off with a knife and therefore imprisoning them without giving considerations to their feelings. Tugging too hard at a kite will in the end break the string. :)

Okies, now to some ironic-societal humour. Question: What is the onli need that remains constant throughout a guy's life? Answer: Money. Generally before marriage, guys have 3 things in their mind, Gals,Cars,Money. After marriage, Wife, Kids, Money. lolx. There's obviously more, but i shall onli list 3 items. What we're doing in our daily lifes ultimately lead to the final objective, money. We study, so that we can make more money. We work hard for money. We eat so that we can stay alive to earn more money. We sleep so that we are more energetic to earn more money. Money is the final destination. Any shortcuts? Yes. 4D and ToTo. :)

Oh, and before i forget, happy birthday history blogger. :)


Jason's Famous Quotes : A successful man is one that earns more then his woman can spend, a successful woman is one that can find such a man. (Quoted from Botak Jone's Menu.)

Did You Know? : Im learning to make sushi. Special ones. :)

Housing

Modern Zen with a tinge of cheena influence. That's what i call my own style of interior design. I've sort of imagined my home design and will try to do a rough sketch when i am free. heehee. I guess studying engineering did me some good after all. hahass :P

My house will involve the concept of simplicity, coupled with some water and transparent materials to inculcate a peace and tranquility atmosphere. The floor will be made from fibreglass which is transparent, allowing me connect the water underneath to the swimming pool just outside. One of the benefits of having a fibreglass floor is the lighting effect sunlight have on the entire house, it will literally lit up the entire house. :)

Okies, enough of my house, if fate has it, i will draft out a blue print and upload it here for u ppl. :P And now we come to what i did todae... boring.... Stayed at home whole day, watched VCD (told ya, im becoming a tv freak.) whole day and now im taking a break, hence im updating. lolx.
Later i will go downstairs la kopi with the guys and will continue watching vcds till late nite. Shyt, i am becoming a coach potato, but funny thing is, i like that kind of rot-on-your-bed-watch-vcd-and-heck-the-world sort of feeling. hahas! I tink during the holidays, nichy boy will be my best fren, because he have LOTS of dramas! And im sort of digging for ENGINE by Takuya Kimura, seems nice, and since im a guy, i have an obsession for cars. :P

So lets see, im looking for Engine, Prison Break Season 2, Heroes, Da Tang Shuang Long Zhuan and i remember there's a show i watched when i was in sec 2 during my overseas holidays in hong kong. Its a japanese drama called Money or Millionaire or something. Its bout this guy that is poor and out, but later he became the chairman of a company. Wonder whether its still around anot, cause its been quite long alreadi. hahass :P

So holidays will be working and watching tv. Simple. :) Got vcd/dvds , dun need worry no entertainment at home. hahass! Opps, i left out training. lolx! Aniwaes my bro borrowed Fight Night 3 from his fren, which for those tat dun kw, is a boxing game. Its fun because i simply lurve boxing! Mohammed Ali, unbeaten heavyweight of all time! muahaha!

Kks, time to go down la kopi le, and this time, i paragraphed my entry. heehee. :P

Jason's Famous Quotes : The Price of Peace 2: The Price Is Right

Did You Know? : I like singing but i dun like being a singer. Dun kw why. No point?

Aged

Okies, been a long time since i last blogged, so i have ALOT to write. muahaha! Firstly, its the exams, i sort of like drifted thru my econs and comm law paper, not in a 'cfm pass' sort of way though. Haiz. Then comes tons of mental theories that i sort of conceived and learned as i go along my daily life. One thing is for sure now, my life is never routine now, though its as boring. lolx. I wake up at different time everyday, i do different stuffs everyday and i think bout different stuffs everyday. Yawnz, that boring.. I dun realli like to write bout daily life, cause its so monotonous to tell the world how u lived ur life todae. Unless u are some hot person that is super popular, meaning u are yandao/pretty or some sort of celebrity, who the fark would be interested in ur daily endeavours? Hmms...

Okay, second thing, im called back for reservist. I have no qualms about serving the nation but im supposd to have exams during tat period, so ya, im going to defer it. Its abit sad because i DO sort of wanna go for overseas training at australia man.... The farking huge flies, the kangaroo shits, the 40 degrees 'normal' weather and the totally 'enjoyable' outfield encampments... gosh, i even missed not bathing for 10 days on a row man! Hahass! Yeah, lets get dirty~~ :P

Third thing is violence. Been reading the papers and realised violence do add some spice into our urban life. People blame violence on tv shows and movies, but i beg to differ. Violence is in our genes, we are elementarily barbarians although we claimed to have evolved into something of a higher tier. We dun watch shows and go around imitating them by killing people, we MADE the shows in the first place. If watching violent shows make us prone to enforce violence, then watching porn make us go around raping ppl? Watching gay shows make us gay? Moral of the story is, we are what we are, not what we watch. Violence is not all the time 'childish' and 'uncivilized', it sometimes serves a complementary role in justice and as perversely as it sounds, serves as a remedy for a unbalanced psychological state of mind. What made me tok about this violence issue? The V-Tech shootings. What happened was a bastard that actually had a loose wire that went around killing innocent ppl. The kids wanted to study for a better future, and yet he ended their dreams and ambitions with a bullet. The one thing he did right was shooting himself, because he simply does not deserve to live, after what he did, i wont even bury him, i would let the vultures peck at his god forsaken body and live him to rot. That farking bastard.
But this issue actually dug out a hidden problem, how many of these farkers are living among us now? Coming to tink of it, although we pay more for just about every fark thing in our country, at least these type of bastards dun have access to a gun. :)

Alrite, enough bout him. No point further exemplifying this issue. We shall tok about something much better, myself. LOLX! What i wanna say is, i tot i got over my crush, but i realised todae that i havent, the fire sort of reignited itself. hahass! But i tink im basically sane when it comes to crushes lah, i kw its not gonna go into something deeper especially when im gonna keep mum about it. heehee. What matters is everytime i see her, im happy can le, pretty pretty~~!!

This few days, i've been wearing my army-black-spectacles to skool, not because i wanna look studious, but because i've ran out of contact lens and im too lazy to go pick up new stocks from ah yap. Why? Because ah yap's shop is at Great World City. Farking far rite? Nbzzzzzzz....=.="
But i tink wearing specs not bad lah, can look nerdy and studious, give good impression that im a good student mah. :)

Hao le, its theory time. Todae we shall take a look at a very special theory called the Charismatic Paradox. Have u ever seen some people that is has looks, body and money, yet u totally dislike them? Yupz, its that common. People that seemingly has all these signs of perfection did not infact attract admiration and appear as charismatic, but on the contrary turns people off. Some of us have bi-polar tendencies, meaning either we totally fall for these ppl, or totally gets turned off, few of us exists in between. Charisma, it seems can onli go up to a certain level, and then further implications of it results in a downward spiral. Too much of something is always a bad thing, and the same goes for charisma. Therefore, in order to avoid this paradox effect, there must be some sort of counter-attraction personality involved to dilute the charismatic saturation. That's where the flaws come into play, i once theorized that imperfection is the new perfection rite? This point further enhances that theory. A person that is too perfect is simply not realistically possible to approach and truly befriend, whereas someone that is seemingly nearly perfect, yet is constrained by some flaws is actually the person that everybody will lean towards.

Therefore the conclusion is this, imperfection serves as a communal point/gateway to allow other people to approach and understand u. The best thing is, people complement and supplement each other, what u lack might be what ppl will be inputing into ur life, and what u will be giving what they lack. :)

Finally im done with the crapping. lolx. But its all just food for thought, not to serve as statutory statements. hahass :P Anyways, i've sort of put in a jukebox just for u ppl to listen to. im nice rite? lolx. The songs are nice, Xuan Lu is veri touching too. Enjoy!

Jason's Famous Quotes : Chi Xiang Jiao, La Er Hu!

Did You Know? : Snails and Slugs become water when u put salt on them.

Guilty

201st post alreadi, and was reading my posts right from the 1st post till the 200th post, remember its a diary of events in my life and how i grew as a person? yupz, it served that purpose :) Some vague remnants of my life in the past has been relit and revisting those memories realli brings a smile to my face. A huge regret is that i didnt realli started earlier, cause i realli wanna see what kinda person i am when i was with corinne in the past during BMT period. That was some of the happiest times of my life, yet also the darkest moments of my life. Ironic isnt it? hahass :P

Todae was an uneventful day, though in the morning i was confronted over my blog entry. I alreadi edited that entry to remove the offensive stuff because well, after tinking it through, i was at fault. Shouldnt involve myself in other's business nxt time, kaypoh mah, cfm tio kio one. lolx. Anyways considering things from ur shoes, i do agree if the same thing happened to me, i will also get pissed. So ya, i admit that its my fault to ridicule u. Paiseh. :)
Okays, that issue solved, i wanna thk 'history blogger' for enlightening me on bloggin ethics, hahass. Next time shall not be so tactless, and since i have alreadi made a mistake, no choice but to suck it up and move on. ^_^

Nxt up is i actually studied todae. Yes, actually. I've been playing games for the past few days and its like im not even gan jiong about the exams. Gosh, i tink i need to mull over what kinda attitude i have towards my studies sia. And todae was preoccupied with something else in my mind. The question is how different i am now compared to me in the past. Something or someone changed me completely, and the past means a few yrs ago during primary, sec skool and poly days. Was chatting with aiying at the playground 2 weeks ago, when she told me she used to hate me when we were in primary skool because i keep bullying people, which i dun recall doing lah. im so nice lors, where will bully her? =.="" But well, who will believe that someone that hates me in the past will actually be close frens with me now? hahass :)

Sec skool days: Days of play and running around and street soccer after skool with the guys. Always ponten lessons to play soccer and the teacher always had to come down to the soccer court to find us, then fark us and force us to go back to class. And how did we retaliated? We sleep. hahass! And as usaul, people says i keep bullying other people, but i realli didnt leh, there's gangsters around leh, how to bully ppl? But the sec skool toilet is realli c buay chui one, though my skool is a new skool, they always go inside fight one. The mirror is most of the time broken and the cubicles always have smoke coming out. hahass~~ My malay frens are always caught for smoking, and chinese ones always fight. I tink there is a pattern ba. And a plus point is, i didnt smoke. And well, i have a close fren from my sec skool class, and she also says i did changed le, but i didnt ask her in what aspect. :p

Poly days: Among the slackest and most no life period of my life. Totally farked my studies and went to do silly things. Year 1 was the most boring time of my poly days, didnt manage to find people that click much in my classmates and mechatronics wasnt the best course in the basket. Tons of Papa Romeo Charlies in my class and that sort of sucked, im not racist but its just funny toking to them with a slang. Year 2, i found my clique and sadly, most of them got 'ta pao' modules, lolx. So since our common interests is ponten lessons and go find leisure, we totally clicked. muahaha! But we're realli realli no life people during that time man, all of us are total cocks and i tink only ah wong realli studied. KC and stuart are cliff-hangers, botak is 100% submarine. Vincent and Jason Kok were the ones i dun kw much about because they were most of the time with Papa Romeo Charlie gals. heehee... Now most of them are alreadi out of army alreadi, KC is now workin as an assistant engineer, his taiwanese gf and him are going to get married soon i tink. Stuart is studying with me in SIM and he has a stable gf now plus he is super studious. Daniel has plans to study in australia and i believe he is someone that can make the mark de. Ah kok has his own company and the last i heard, his company is doing quite badly. Botak and vincent im not sure how they're getting on nowadays, hmms.... Time to organise gathering during holiday! weee!

Army days: Nothing much to write, alot to talk about. After NS, guys have ALOT to tok about life serving the nation. The sour, sweet, bitter and spicy stuff in the army, and the good buddies i have made during my liability period. Sean and Peter, both of them kw me well, kws i tua kang alot, but still accepted my nonsense with a laugh. They accepted my irresponsibilty as well and for that, i concluded that they are realli true frens. They tell me honestly when i fucked up and i appreciate that, they stand by me when im right, so ya, true frens. :)

Toking about true frens, i have a buddy. This buddy knows me inside out, knows my antics and has shared alot of joys and sadness with me. There was some problems in the recent months, but after going out with him ytd, i realised though we did change, we still cherish this brotherhood that has been ongoing for 13 yrs now. Ah-wei, if u are reading this, lets ensure that our brotherhood will be strong till we get old and die. Once brothers, always brothers. Zhen de.

Okies, so looking back, i realli did had some good and bad times in my life, and all these actually went thru my mind while im studying todae, which means im consciously studying, and subconsciously going thru my whole life.... wow... sometimes the human mind is so intriging rite?

Jason's Famous Quotes : Endurance is chained by Reason.

Did You Know? : There is absolute tranquil peace before a calamity.

Courageous

I realised, i look like a cock at home... um, most prob i look like a cock everywhere i go? lolx! Was looking into the mirror when i woke up tis morning to conduct 'annual' inspection. Im in bad shape man, the face also like veri old like tat, face machiam charsiew bao, single eyelids closing and dying...and the list goes on.. hmmss.... Maybe its time i do something about it? But then again, maybe not, because i dun kw how to make dbl eyelids. lolx!

And so, nowadays after i started training, my whole body aches for the nxt day, so i mostly onli train on alternate days. But i alreadi can feel the effects of my regime sia, im starting to feel like i can punch thru the sandbag with a haymaker man. Yet the funny stuff is, i tink im feeling calmer at the same time, giving more tots to consequences infact. Its not the po po ma ma humji type of change in me, its like i realli tink in a more peaceful and serene way. The word for it is ZEN, ya, ZEN, im tinking in a ZEN way. heehee~~~

I have not started on my mugging officially, dun ask me why, just havent got in the mood yet, i dun farking kw why. Todae was a whole day of gaming / tv and sleeping, im starting to be hooked on the tv man, my kenwood dvd player which has been collecting dust for the past has been in overdrive recently. The source of my dvd obsession is nich, i borrowed serials and shows from him, so im starting to start life as a coach potato stoning and watching vcd/dvds at home! Im starting to have this feelin that during my holidays, i will onli have 3 things that i do at home. Train, Tv, Game..... will this gut feeling come true? No. I will force myself to turbo work to earn money so that i will be rich when i start the sem... yeah... work... boring work.... argh~~~

Did u ppl ever heard a song called WO NIU by zhou jie lun? Its a veri nice and hopeful song, im listening to it now and i realised its so damn inspirational. Its about being like a snail, slowly climbing up the neverending stairs~~~ And i do agree with the lyrics, watever u do, as long as u perservere, u will definitely reach ur destination. Its the same with life and love, persevere as if time has no effect on u, and u will definitely get wat u want. I know, ppl say that everything can be forced except love, but if there's somebody that waits for u with no regards to time, u will accept tat person de.

I asked myself this question: If someone is willing to wait and change herself for me though i dun like her at all, will i accept her? The answer initially is a yes, because chemistry cant be forced, but as i pondered deeper, i realised the key lies in time, she waits 1 yr, i reject, she waits 5 yrs, i reject again, she wait 10 yrs, how to reject? If u say its sympathy, i agree its sympathy, but the destination is being able to be with tat person, so u got what u want didnt u? In our pursuit of happiness in our daily lives, we became selfish without realising it.

Alrite, now the play list is playing the storm riders theme song. I like the instrumental oriental groove within the song. Its gives u the feeling of 'legendary' and coming to tink about it, why the fark is my entries so farking long one ah? Do ppl bother to read the whole thing? hmms.. =.="

Concluding this last paragraph, i shall divulge another secret about myself: I like to dance, i love dancing although i dance like a fat penguin. I believe dancing is a way to freely express ur intepretation of the music. And so, lets take a look at my interests ba, im into : martial arts, ancient military strategies, psychology, love, gaming, tv(new), bodybuilding (dun laugh), cooking, looking at gals, writing songs and poems, writing fantasy stories, archealogy, origami, swimming, philosophising new theories of every kind etc.. and not forgeting oggling my eye candy. heeheee. :p

Jason's Famous Quotes : Courage under fire is true courage, what defines fire? My fists.

Did You Know? : Guerilla tactics are among the most complex yet simple tactics employed.

Pui-sanova

What a interesting day todae was. hmms, lets recap, woke up at 8 am wanting to train, but my pecs and triceps were still aching, so postponed boxing to tomolo morning before going to skool.
Mum wanted to eat mee hoon kuay, so i accompany her for breakfast before going to skool. Was arranging my hair at the 243 bus-stop advertisement sign when i saw xueting. Mrt reached jurong east station and i saw a familiar face: kenneth. He looked tired as usaul but the sight of him just reminded me about some stuffs. He reminds me of starhub and images of the past started flashing past my mind. Memories of adeline especially.

Although i was chatting with xueting on the mrt, my mind is actually recalling all the past events when i was working at starhub last yr. Adeline, the name that made me go gaga last march to may. Adeline, the name that made me understand what is infatuation. Adeline, the name of the girl who made me lose something beri precious to me. Being overly obsessed with her was being veri unhealthy, i was sort of living in a veri different world during that period of time. But a good thing resulted from that 'dark' period in my life, i did what i pledged to do, no more 'No Action, Tok Onli" attitude. Looking back at the book i did for her, im quite amazed that i realli went ahead to do such a sincere thing. I guess in the end i found myself, a veri sincere person. :)

Every failed attempts make me grow up more and more mentally and emotionally. I dun regret what i do in the past, life is too short to live with those regrets on what u could have done. Tink about what u can do rather then hanging on the past. That's y im trying to do some body sculpting at tis point in time. Its more for myself then other people, im too selfish to do something for other people unless that person means something to me. Sometimes i understand that i can be too proud sometimes, i like to 'tua kang' like what the guys said, but i dun realli do that much nowadays, because i myself dun like proud people. For that, im slowly learning to make myself a humbler person. Everyday we learn something, and everyday i think and reflect on alot of stuffs.

In my dictionary, there isnt such a word as 'Forever'. It simply does not exist at all, it's onli a descriptive word to confuse and convince people. If someone tells u that he/she loves u forever, tat person is a lying bastard, noone loves someone forever, absolutely noone. And if u believe in the word forever, then its time to wake up, u're being too naive and most prob is 16yr old and below. Let me explain why tis is so, firstly, will u be around forever? No. Second, will u be tempted by another person that comes along and is completely better then her in terms of physical and mental aspects? Yes. ( those that say 'no' most prob will say stuffs like "we had memories and those are treasures to us" etc....) And the final point to conclude this issue is simply --> How do u know what will happen in the future? U cfm u will love a person till forever? Even in the unforeseeable future? :)

Dun worry, its not some personal issue with the word FOREVER, its just that i was tinking about my favourite ktv song "Forever Love" and hence was reflecting on the bus todae. lolx. Feel free to propose counter theories and explain to me why do u tink forever is possible. hahahass :p

Remember my eye candy? Well, she's getting cuter and prettier the more i look at her. Its never tiring to look at her man, dun understand why. lolx! Anyways, sometimes im realli tink i can go get some sort of acting award sia, i tink she still dun kw she's my eye candy..or do she kw? :P
But its hard to know lah, i dun oggle obviously mah, other girls i can appreciate them openly because they're just like passing clouds, who cares rite? But eye candy hor, different from normal gals, got priority!

Lastly to end with a new mental model, i realised one thing about being romantic. Its okay being romantic, but dun overdo it. The best form of romance is the sincere kinda stuff, not those super mushy stuffs. My mentality in the past was casanova, but now its changed to something more credible and down-to-earth. Was working the other day at vivocity, when i saw a old couple still holding hands and the ah-gong was taking veri good care of the ah-ma. That made me realised treating someone sincerely irregardless of time is the most romantic thing a man can do for a woman. To see the world together, to be there for each other, to grow old together and yet u never fail to fit her hands snugly in yours; that is indeed the best form of romance u can ever give to ur gal. From now on, no more mushy mushy stuffs, i onli offer sincerity and honesty. :)


Jason's Famous Quote : Eternity is never real because death forbids it.

Did You Know? : Yandaos are all drug abusers because Rei said this "Life sux, take drugs!".

Bicep-tology

Okies, yesterday was toking about roadwork rite? i didnt run todae, i skipped. lolx. Didnt have the mood to run mah, so i did skipping lors, also cardio mah. hahass. Tomolo will wake up early to do heavy boxing. I did some heavy weights todae, therefore hopefully by tomolo will recover alreadi, if not i need to postpone. =.=""

Im happy nowadays, cause i can feel my body starting to react to the training alreadi, read an article while stoning at CENTRAL's Starbucks todae. Later i shall explain how come i was stoning there, but the article is on Gerald Butler and how he trained for his role in 300. Veri enriching and intriging how he went thru 4 mths of training to get the perfect body for the movie. He did a 300 reps routine daily that is completely inhuman, yet i hope to attempt when my fitness picks up. Its from men's health april 2007, go read, and be astounded. :)

Todae was a farked up day, went back to office to collect pay with stuart at 11am, but was told tat we cant collect until 3pm. Stuart did checked with them ytd whether we can collect at 11am, and was given the go-ahead. So todae we were both undestandably pissed when we were told that we have to wait until 3pm. Was supposed to join the guys to study in skool after collecting pay, but in the end we waited till 6pm before we got our pay. The new management isnt up to the task in my opinion, we waited till 3pm, only to be told to wait till 4pm, and when we went up at 4pm, they were still sorting out everything.

What kinda management is so unproductive? U mean they dont make early checks and preparations for payday? Totally disappointed with the new guys in the company. Though they are nice people, but i still tink they are inferior to stacy and chap. Maybe they need time to catch up and improve? but still i cannot swallow the fact tat i waited 7 hrs for my pay and i spent $30 while waiting at CENTRAL. Was veri angry initially, but after tinking about it, i tink its a sign that i should leave the company and started teaching tuition to earn cash. Stuart has the same sentiments too, so most prob we shall pursue a career as a tuition teacher. :)

Enough about inefficiency, shall not criticize people when i am as inefficient myself. hahahass :P
Hmms, anybody heard Rain's 'Move On' before? There's 2 versions and i liked the version from his SINGLE better then the one on his album. Well, i shall paste the english lyrics at the end of this entry if i can find it. lolx. Its realli meaningful and i totally love the RnB element in it, im a RnB fan remember? hahass :) Alrite, shall sleep early todae, cause tomolo have to wake up quite early to train before going to skool for MAB lessons. hmms... and tomolo i will see my eye candy again! Yeah!!! Happy!!! (Okay, fark it, i cant find the english lyrics, so nvm. lolx!)

Jason's Famous Quotes : There is Order in Chaos and Chaos in Order. (Chaos Theory)

Did You Know? : DNA means Di-oxyribo-Neucleiac-Acid (Dun kw spell correct notz.)

Hopes

Tonite is a silent night. Things have became more silent nowadays, and life has narrowed. Current life status is narrow because exams is around the corner and im starting to get suffocated. Guys and gals are on mug-mode and im not even in the mood yet, why izzit tis way? am i being over complacent? I need good grades for my modules, and todae while attempting to study MAB (i was sleeping most of the time), I suddenly saw a bright light tat signifies enlightenment in my dreams. MAB suddenly seems so clear and crystalline... its like the calculations and logics are automatically a law of nature to me. Is what i experienced called divine intervention? LOLX!! But seriously speaking, MAB i onli need to do some revision on the theory will do, the calculations wise i am quite prepared alreadi.

Alrite, now to training. Todae slacked like some piece of lard, simply because i rushed to skool to have lunch with the ppl. Was supposed to train b4 going to skool, but i prioritize frens over muscle, so ya, rushed to skool. Tomolo will make up for it with heavy weights training, and the day after heavy boxing routine. Im still trying to squeeze some cardio into my regime tomolo because im supposed to meet stuart at JP at 11am to go office collect pay. Will i succeed? Watch out for my entry tml. :) Most prob will save up and get a stationary bike, so that i can cycle for 4 hrs EVERY FARKING DAY. Renfeng ( a fren tat weighs 120kg) did the cycling for 4 mths and he lost 40 kgs. Yes, u read rite, 40 kgs. And he didnt diet at all, he still ate fatty stuffs... gosh....

Training will involve lots of shock and power building regimes. Since i am alreadi quite big size, most prob will cash in on that and build more power in my punches for the first month. Second month involves heavy agility training like shadow boxing and speed trainings. 3rd month will be toning regime and 4th month will be balancing and blending. So if everything goes accordingly, by august i should be lean and mean, 12 hits per sec will be achievable then. heehee. :)

After august, if everything is manageable i might be joining some CCAs in skool ba. i need some spice in my life after living like some dumb hermit for 4 mths. hahass :P And todae, i found a good place to sleep in skool! The study room sofa is SOOOOO nice to sleep can? swuang lors!

I like to give surprises, and there's a surprise that im planning nowadays. hahass, i tink the surprise should be fun lah, cause its realli not expected of me. lolx!!! Alrite man, im still tinking how to go about making the surprise man, hopefully not too complex lah, arbo i sianz. lolx. :)

Kks, lastly sean and peter, im missing u guys man, lets come out and chill leh, i go SOOO much to tell u all man... hahasss.. :)

Jason's Famous Quotes : The purpose of life is a life of purpose. (Quoted from Xuanhe^_-)

Did You Know? : I like limejuice and sour plums now. Influenced by *kuku*.... =.=""

Stalwart

Work ytd and todae, shag like a dog, too long never stand for extended hrs, automatically become weak. :) Todae im bloggin on a more neutral mood, cause i've not seen 'happiness' for quite sometime alreadi. After some thoughts, i tink 'happiness' is just an obsession, i just cannot fathom or imagine us being together unless in my dreams. I rather stick to more down-to-earth and probable options. Will be cutting hair beri soon, cause training period need short hair, if not beri hot, maybe i go cut botak? Hmms..

Realised a veri ironic stuff tat exists in life, sometimes the 'best' thing can be divided into 2 entities. A 'perfect' being is never a single person, most of the time it is divided into 2 or more parts, and that flaws in each of the person actually constitutes to the 'imperfections' that we grew to love as well. Understand what i mean? Dun understand nvm, cause its abit complex. :) But yet again, when is love never complex? Hahass... The above relates to 2 people i know, one of the has the perfect face and looks, and the other person has the perfect personality and chemistry with me. Let call the 'perfect' looks, A, and 'perfect' chemistry, B.

This is a story of A and B, and not a story that portrays me as a flirt. Its just a deeper look into what i call my 'mental selection' process. A , i always dream and i always imagine, yet A lacks the chemistry with me and there's something dark about her. Anyways i dun kw A well at all so its all in all a infatuation. As i told someone, its just a 'withdrawal syndrome' of sorts lah, its not love at all, just-- to put it bluntly -- lust. I know A quite well mentally, because of some special process called 'FATE', i was forced by FATE to know that person realli well. Chemistry wise i dun realli know because i dun realli know tat person verbally. Anyways im too disgusting to even be in her 'plans'. ^_^

As for B, our chemistry realli stretches the limit of imagination. Its realli uncanny that such a person actually exists in the same world as me, much less at such close proximity. Bit by bit, i slowly realised god(holy being) has placed an angel next to me to bless my life after slogging for 23 yrs. The more i choose not to believe it and to look at other pastures, the more the crude fact is pushed into my face to force me to acknowledge it. I tried to run, i tried to hide, but to no avail. And the only option i have now is to swallow the fact but to avoid doing unethical stuffs. The option im taking is working well and im happy to stay put rite now. B seems happy enough now, and im happy enough that an angel exists near me now. Therefore i reached the conclusion of letting time do its magic, if it's meant to be, it's meant to be, i dun have the option of being 'proactive' unless i wanna risk karma. And to add insult to injury, im no fight. hahass :)

So u see, that's the sort of struggle that exists in most guys i tink, but im lucky enough because my angel is pretty, veri pretty infact. Its just tat i tink A has more 'perfect' looks, but B is realli realli angelic. hahahasss, maybe u can call A the 'devil' and B the 'angel'? lolx~~~ Okies, enough about my psychology lesson, lets move on the more substantial stuff shall we? heehee

Tomolo will be getting up earlier to do weights OR swim, i cant do both because needa get back to skool to do revision for exams. I realised i missed a COMM law lecture on thursday just now while checking thru my notes. FUCK, i missed the last lesson, which is when the lecturer will give TIPS, FUCK LAH~~~But its okay lah, i tink smart me will tide thru, yes i will babe~~ :)

The thing about training is this: Even if u slack off for a long time, u can train get back ur bicep size in just 3 weights session! Back to the original size!! Wootz!! Im looking forward to the reappearance of my 14.8 inches biceps!!! MUAHAHA!!! Come to papa darlings~~~ BICEPS~~~ And IF i wanna contain the bulge that is my 'abs', i need to do cardio, and tat means roadwork or hitting the pool. I will choose option 2 if i have the cash, and if im poor, option 1. Dun laugh, swimming costs $2 everytime i fucking enter, knn si bei expensive lors,TIU NA SENG!

Company payday changed to 10th every mth. Its fucked up lors, cb last time its 5th, and 5th is such a nice day can? 10th feels like SAF all over again, basket lah. My net was cut ytd, and i had to scramble to pay the dumb bill and call my fren to reactivate the damn account lors~~ zzzz.. last time i get pay on 5th, i pay bill on the 6th so they wont cut on the 7th. And my master plan is screwed due to the company's shift in payday. ZZZZz.... Its getting abit vexed working there man. The politics is killing me, todae working at expo nearli made me crazy sia, the politics there is so obvious sia, dumb and childish can? And for lunch break, i went to changi airport to eat popeyes. And after travelling all the way there, u kw what happened? The popeyes cashier said ' Sorry sir, no more chicken." I was like " this cb trying to be funny with me izzit?" and i gave the significant stare, and tat guy explained that the fryer is spoiled, so there's no set meals. FUCK LAH, i went all the way there and tat's what they gave me... fastfood restaurant no food... wtf? dumb can? in the end just screwed the whole thing and went to eat burger king, and the BK pepper burger SUX big time man. Todae was a bad 'food' day lahs, then i diarrhoea whole day somemore, can it get any more fucked up? can it? =.=""

Jason's Famous Quotes : Moving clouds and flowing water, be formless and follow ur heart.

Did You Know? : The rain falls and i change into another man. The rain changed me, or did i change the way it rained?

Beautex

Went to ZOUK ytd nite with ah tan and the guys. Our entourage includes Nich, Rei, Xingyi, Ah tan and Eugene. Gene and Tan went there to 'fish' while me n rei and nich went there to have fun onli. hahasss... Rei is 'tied down' mah, tat's y. lolx. Once we went down to the dance floor, tan and gene went 'hunting' alreadi, leaving me and nich and rei and his gf. Rei obviously dance with his gf while nich and i just gayed around. zzzz its quite sad lah.

And thing is while dancing, suddenly a auntie came in and wanted to dance with me, i totally freaked out and pulled the guys to go get a drink to calm myself down. What a scary experience lors, i tink its will be sometime before i go to ZOUK again man... fark... =.="" But as a sidenote, its realli squeezy so as usaul alot of boobs rubbed by, but i dun understand some guys hor, they get a high out of this type of silly stuffs lorsss... its like so normal cause its crowded mah, so rub by also like tat, why get so 'high' over it? funnie leh... I dun understand most guys realli. And i will always try to 'siam' when gals walk thru, cause i dun like the feeling of ppl rubbing against me, no matter how hot. And i tink by trying to dun take their advantage, its a form of respect for gals. Its a huge difference between oggling and taking advantage. U can see, but pls dun touch. :)

Okies, enough with the blabbering, lets see some pictures shall we? :)
















Too much wind for nich~~~


















Dead Drunk Rei... ( Yandao knocked out....)


Sad to say, i onli have 2 pictures. lolx, i forgot to take pics with gene and tan... shyt man. haiz..rite. :) One thing about guys is they like to put gals they like as their desktop/mobile phone background. Most guys do that, but i tink its abit over leh, not ur gf u put as wallpaper for fark lor. I did that when i was like in secondary skool lah, but come on, now im we're 20+ adults alreadi leh, no point do such silly stuffs leh. And when the gal kws what you've been doing, she will totally freak out can? So my to my fren, my advice is dun do this type of crazy stuff lah, u keep her picture can, dun farking hell put as wallpaper lah.. -.-"" BIAN TAI~~~

And now, regarding my training, todae i did some light boxing stuffs that lasted 30 mins this morning, and im tired like fuck alreadi, zzzz. Cannot lah, become too weak le, need to train more
to get back my fighting form. Weights will be nxt on this saturday and most prob will go heavy to start the ball rolling. I hereby solemnly promise to train to become a better man physically so as to give my future gf a bf with a solid body. The only thing about me is tat im fat, i truly believe once the 15kg is gone, im there le. :)

Regarding the gal of my dreams, i tink its realli not possible lah, I dun even wanna try now, simply because i have no confidence at all. Her facial features is a human personification of perfection: big round eyes, sharp nose, slender eyebrows, small mouth, rosy lips, straight teeth and a PURRFECT smile~~~ All these fragments of her simply adds to the dissapointment that she will never be mine. Im not perfect yet, but i shall become as near to perfect as possible, which i hope will be within my lifetime. Im a virgo and hence i sometimes do believe in perfections, and she will be my Venus from tis day onwards. I feel like im just a mortal trying to be an immortal so as to be with her, but when i become an immortal, will i lose my mortality???

(There are millions of beautiful people in the world, yet at anyone time, u can onli be tinking about one, so if u wanna go for looks, u definitely can never finish looking.)

Jason's Famous Quotes: I've been hit by an "Angelic Obsession"

Did You Know?: Should you distance urself from someone u dun like?

117

Todae is a nice day, as usaul, im veri happy todae. Although the past entry is abit solemn, shall not care about what i kw. I only kw who/what is the source of my happiness, :). Told someone about what makes me happy nowadays on msn ytd, and he adviced me to wait till after holidays to see whether 'it' realli is the source of my happiness. heehee.... It seems abit far fetched but who cares? As long im happy and i give happiness can le lah, why tink so much and make it so complex? No point de, might as well dun fark care anything and try, even if i get burned, i wont die. PA BUAY TOH! HEEHEE!!!!

Todae started the initial training phase, did some weights and skipping to get back the feel of a boxer. Tomolo if the sore is not that bad, will start doing some heavy bag training and some shadow boxing too. Hopefully my fist bone had recovered from the long rest and can strike without pain ba. Hopefully... i dun wanna be like jean.. :X lolx... joking. :P But todae's squats i realli buay tahan sia, nb my hamstrings aching like siao, i climb stairs the legs will 'zhun' somemore lors.. lolx... But well, in order to fulfill my own prophecy of being in shape during august and b4 my bday, i need to endure thru ba, wish me luck and when i slimed down, i will definitely try to get my source of happiness. :)

Tomolo will be going to zouk with the guys. Rei, tan, nich, gene and rei's gf will be going. Was wondering whether our OG gals will wanna join us...hmms.... Anyways, tml wont be like eugene and tan, they say they will be 'fishing' lolx! I dun see a need to 'fish' lah, i dun like to do that type of thing and im too fat to do tat too. Watever i alreadi have my source of happiness and i guess tat is sufficient alreadi, though its probably onli wishful tinking on my part....though i realli hope for a miracle...

Todae i finally won at mahjong! WOOO!!! I won $26!!! Gosh! I one house win 3 house!!! muahaha!! Achievement lors~~~ Eugene lost $20, nich $3 and XXX $3! Heehee!!! Yeah!!! Finally i graduate le! No more paying of 'skool' fees to them le. muahaha! Or is it because im happy nowadays leh?? hmms, no matter, finally i won at mahjong le. :)

Im learning how to sing 'WO KE YI' by cai min you nowadays, and i heard from the people that our skool's singing competition is coming up in august or september. If i successfully lose my 15kgs, i will take part in the competition and sing this song for the semi-finals. If i made it to the finals then i will sing 'Zhuan Shu Tian Shi' ba. Though i doubt will go that far lahs, if realli heng heng get to final, i will do something realli special if the 'source' belongs to me le. :p

Ks, on a more serious note, i wont tolerate people that aims or hates my frens. Remember that, noone touches or insults my fren infront of me. (Frens VS Frens is another scenario) Im toking about strangers here, u dare to find trouble with my frens, u are in for it. The bigger the challenge, the more i like it. Guys will get the hard way, gals will get a scolding. I will never hit gals, simply because its not rite. And to those that like to win by numbers, no point lah, even if u win, u won unhonourably. I said before and i say it again, dun bully my frens. Period. >_<""

Jason's Famous Quotes: Fate is a powerful entity that compels me to you.

Did You Know?: I have hundreds of eye candies, tons of crushes but onli one gal in my heart.

Intelligence

I have this veri special ability of knowing people. I also have the added trait of trying to know my frens better one by one. I have found out some people have some realli bad histories. But the most heart wrenching is when i found out that the peson i am tinking about day in day out is infact not that person i perceived her to be. Noone told me anything, i naturally can find out from various reliable sources. To believe it or not? I will ask, and the answer i get from the facial expression will be the real answer, verbal replies are useless. I sincerely hope that it is not true. realli.

Ytd was doing mktging project at stef's house with the team, and i was sort of POWed cause we couldnt finish. I was abit pissed initially when i wasnt allowed to leave, but after sometime i adapted. The reason that i am pissed is not because i wanna go home and sleep, but its for another special reason that i choose not to divurge here. But its good, after sometime there, i realised and learned a veri important lesson in life. Very important.

Todae is aprils fools day, and its the day im going to start training. 4 mths time period starts todae, by august 1st, im supposed to lose around 15kg of lard and gain muscle mass. Toning will come into picture after a month of mass gaining and my boxing training will keep my agility in check. I am veri disappointed in girls at this point of life and will be extremely wary of them. If guys are tigers on the prowl, girls are dragons that breathes fire. Though i have not been burned, watching others burn made me feel a deep sense of pain. That's why the shows and people always say: " The prettier the gal, the more u must be wary of her".

Okays, enough blabbering about my grief, lets tok about my training ba. Im supposed to get back my 11hits per sec by june and then shoot a clip to send to sebastian and the guys. They say i tua kang so i need to show them proof. lolx, i kw its dumb lah, but its a ego thing mah. :P
Im still tinking of an alternative to roadwork leh, maybe i do stat biking? hmms..

If i have a wish, i wish that the world will be a better place and people's tinking will be free from schemes. I dun like to see people plot or have hidden agendas that are of a darker nature. Ben is one such bastard and i condemned him, im a person that treasures purity of soul. U can kw someone and plot to woo that person, tat's nature, but dun play with people's feelings. I tink when i grow older and get some amount of money, i will go set up orphanages in other 3rd world countries to bring smiles to those children there. Their gazes and smiles are the purest type of innocence in the world. To go far away from the devious human heart amidst the urban infrastructure of an cemented metropolis.....

Jason's Famous Quotes: Being too smart is not a blessing, its a curse.

Did You Know?: Reality always compels you to give up ur fairytale perceptions.