Piety

A guitar has life. To me, music is life itself. Learning to play the guitar was one of the few things tat i absolutely thank fate for. I learnt to laugh and cry using a guitar, though most of the times is cry. I am a traditional guy that holds on to the golden rules of manhood. Tears shall onli be shed on 3 occasions, a loved on died, ur country felled and i forgot the last one, lolx. Anyways, since i cant realli cry when im sad, i use my guitar to pour forth my emotions. I remembered once during my poly days, i sort of met with some beri unfortunate turn of events.

Its during a Freshman Orientation Camp and im one of the commitee if i remembered correctly. In the middle of the night, when everyone was sleeping in the hall, i was tinking about someone which i dun remember now. I realli couldnt sleep at all and as u ppl alreadi kw, im SUPER sentimental at nite, especially cold nites. I took my guitar and walked out to the dark field, then say there and played a extremely sad rendition of 'Reason', the theme song for the korean drama 'Autumn in my heart' aka 'Qiu Tian De Tong Hua'. As each and every note echoes towards the nite, the cries of a forlorn heart seems so crystine and silent. One of my frens tat couldnt sleep came out and joined me, sitting quietly beside me and listening intently. He said its realli veri sad, he can feel my emotions from the music. And then from then on, i discovered this new way of letting out my emotions.

Im practicing my guitar again after 5 yrs of nearli not touching a guitar, so was quite stiff initially. For the past week i have been playing on and off, which gave me back my 'feel' again. The joy of perfecting a song is a indescribable feeling, maybe it can qualify as a mini-orgasm? LOLX! But well, now i can pluck and sing JU HUA TAI quite smoothly and i seriously loved singing along with my own music. I should have learnt piano when i was younger, then i can play piano and sing FOREVER LOVE and KISS GOODBYE, but well, too bad i rejected my mum's offer when i was young. haiz...

I was helping my mum do housework 3 days ago, when i found something that's been missing from my life for some years now. When i was young, around 12-13 yr old, i used to help my mum take care of my brothers and sister and do housework. Im like a maid during tat period cause im the eldest son and my siblings were still kids. I hated doing housework and hence nowadays at home, i refrain from doing housework as much as possible. But well, conditions made it so tat i have to hang the clothes out to dry 3 nites ago, and i did it alone cause my younger bro went for OBS camp. As i took the clothes out one by one and clip it on the bamboo pole, i found peace. The sort of simple peace that is unexplainable yet extremely soothing. All my problems seem to slowly sort themself out while i was hanging the clothes. Its especially effective for affairs of the heart, at least for me tat is. hahasss. And that my frens, lead me to another of my theories.

Todae we shall tok about the theory of lost innocence. As we human beings grow up, we gradually lose some of our innocence. Its so gradual that we dun even feel or see it coming unless we look back and examine ourselves. That my fren, is the power of time. Some of the extreme cases even contracted the condition known as 'selective amnesia', which means they forgot some of the moments that they deemed as 'weak'. Example is how they used to be so attached the the parents, anything they will always run to papa or mama and hug them for protection. The smiles when u're a newborn and blinked then looked them in the eye. The tons of hopes they have for u when u're just a kid. They love u, provide u with a home and protect u with their lives, ever willing to sacrifice themselves just to make sure u survive. Every parent love their children, but time and fate are merciless, things happen along the way the starts drifting the parental bonds apart. How many of u lock urself in ur room when u reach home and onli goes out to eat, shit and bathe? I am one of the guilty ones. I've learnt to appreciate and love my mum more and more, because we must understand one veri important lesson in life. Life is always bounded by time, noone lives forever, what started, must end somewhere. Hence cherish ur parents when u still have the chance, i know of ppl that wanna cherish and love their parents, but its too late for them alreadi...

Im not a veri sensible son, but im trying my best to be one. I once told my mum, next time when i am rich and successful, i will give her a good life. After i graduated and got my 1st job, im going to save some cash and bring my mum to hong kong. To me, when my parents are old, they are not a burden,as in the old chinese saying, having an old at home is like having a treasure at home. Though my dad did alot of wrong things, but still he is my father who provided for my siblings and me for all our lives, that kind of parental debt can never be repayed. Remember, love can onli be repaid by love, not by money.....

Jason's Famous Quotes: Do to others what u want others to do to u. Give me money.

Did You Know?: I dun like people with motives even though i am one too.

Peter

Alrite todae was a happy day. Mktg project took a huge step forward, told myself to wait for her since i realli tink she's the one, went out with the OG to eat with nearli the whole OG there, and well, i tink the person tat's angry with me is fine now le ba. i tink. should be. most prob. ya?

Although financially im at a record low, i still can tide till chinese new yr ba. Hmms, the dark clouds seem to have lifted quite fast this time round, heng sia. heehee. :) Anyways, the steamboat at marina bay was quite enjoyable, the journey there was abit cramped though its fun. lolx. The car was so small and we're big boys and gals lor, its so cramped at the back i tink i can feel juices coming out. As in sugarcane juice, dun tink wrongly. -.-"

And my OG went for captain ball competition todae. As usaul as i suspected, complains about our dear student council being disorganised abound. Told nich to scrap the plan to join soccer next yr because the council sucked. No offense kuku. heehee. bleahz~~~ :P
Though we didnt win, we didnt realli lose also lah, cause i heard they sort of 'walked out' of the contest. LOLX, went for early shower. hahasss, damn funny sia my OG, all blur blur one. And there was SO many teams in the contest sia. 5 teams lor, so many! FIVE teams can? what 'hot' competition. muahahahaha... *evil grin*

Alrite, theory time. And peter, my theories hor, all true one can? Not tua kang one, all got basis de. Based on my personal experiences that i interpret into theories. :)
Todae we shall tok about happiness. In the current world, there is not universal happiness. Universal happiness is never possible. Someone's joy will always be another's woe. For example, when a couple get together, the gals and guys tat secretly liked the male/female in the couple will be upset. And in order to get over the loss, some of them gave themselves excuse like 'if he/she's happy, then its enough' to make themselves feel noble. If u are one of them, please fuck that mentality. If u can tink in that way, u can give him/her more happiness. A simple phrase in love is 'BE SELFISH'.

Okays, i kw, im not practicing that. LOLX. But seriously, i tink ethnics and personal gain hangs on a tightly balanced scale. Forgo ethnics, and people will say u're a fucked up person. Forgo gains, and ur heart starts crying everyday u see them together. Okays, im digressing too much, lets come back to happiness. As i was saying, there will always be sadness bundled with every happiness. And sometimes, when the couple breaks up ( the guy is a FAG --> Fark And Go), the gal is hurt, and she call the guy to tell him she is devastated and wanna go die. What will the alreadi sad guy feel?

He will feel like his heart is being stabbed 108,000,000,000,000 times. And he will start to ask himself, if he fought hard for her and got her heart, she wont be cheated and hurt like now. I've been there so i know beri well, what i wanna say is --> peter, dun hesitate and tink the other guy is better for her. Now she's still single go get her, dun wait till she get attached and then u will be like me, sit down one corner suck thumb and the onli entertainment is wait. I dun wanna fark with ur mind lah, but i seriously think u should go for her. Imagine the other guy that u tink is better for her ends up hurting her deeply, will u forgive urself? If u tried just abit harder, u can make life better for her. We are good guys, u kw that. We dun FAG. heehee :)

Bro, go mull over what i said and try to tink more from her perspective. She dun want a millionaire, she just want someone to love and cherish her, someone to hug her when she's down, someone to hold her when she's falling, someone to piggyback her when she's tired. When u still have the chance, go be the man that she's waiting for ba.... good luck....


Jason's Famous Quotes: As my middle finger rises, my smile persisted.

Did You Know?: Dick is a name for a guy and a penis. Example is Dick Lee, he's a guy and he looks like a penis.

Mano-O-Mano

I am still awake now. Its 250am in the morning and im still awake. hahasss. :P Anyways, todae im blogging something light, not so heavy like the past 2 days. Today, slept like a pig till around 4pm then wake up. Its the most enjoyable thing to sleep in ur bed and nua like noone's business. And then u wake up smelling like a man from china because ur body produced oil and u totally smell. U kw those guys from china that didnt bathe kinda smell? Lolx. Funny thing is, onli guys smell like tat when they wake up, gals dun. dun understand, maybe its the hormones tat cause us guys to produce more oil? hmms...~~~

Evening went with mum downstairs for dinner, then there's this indian fellow that use the 'ZUT' sound to call his fren. Fark man, i farking hate ppl the ZUT ppl. Its totally irritating and i tink onli stupid farktarts use that. Knn, gan si lang irritating. Those cb bengs think they c buay zai, ZUT here ZUT there, dumb kids. I have frens that used to ZUT ppl ( yesh, they are paikias...) but i gan them when they ZUT. Its damn dumb and irritating, they think its cool and c buay zai to ZUT. And the worse type is those that ZUT at gals. Cb irritating and fucked up. My defination for ZUTing is tis --> High Pitched Sissy Sucking Sound Used By Guys With No Balls. U wanna call someone, call name or call 'eh', dun ZUT. The above went thru my head when i was eating my YEW MEE. I kw, its abit extreme, maybe its cause of the flying ants that are hovering all over the place and some landed in my soup and drink.

Okays, i have been procrastinating over my hair for sometime. 3 weeks to be exact. I wanna dye my hair blonde, but my mum says not nice, like pai kia. So i was tinking should i or should i not? I know i know, im a guy, should not po po ma ma, but come on, its my hair can? And i meant hair on my main head, not those around the second head..... lolx! Alrite, cheap joke. -.-""

After chinese new yr, will be transforming to the legendary Mug-Man! When all else fails, there's always MUGMAN! This time, the evil villains are Macro-Econs,Mktging, Comm-Law and their boss Mgmt-Accting. ()0.0()"" Who shall triumph tis sem?

Jason's Famous Quotes: Sour grapes are nice. I love them.

Did You Know?: Most people live behind a facade. He smile at u, but deep inside, he wanna destroy u.

Sicktopiability

Tomolo will be my MAB test. Hopefully can make it ba. Studied a little todae, not a lot, just a bit. Life is like economy, there will be ups and downs, its natural. I've accepted the fact that now i have entered the trough at this stage of my life, soon the curve will start climbing up and then the peak will come. Im certain, if we're fated to be together, we will be. In the meantime, lets enjoy what we have todae.

Gloomy feeling, like a grey cloud hovering over my head. Feeling feverish, will fall sick soon. Hope wont be too serious, i hate fevers. Lying down like some dead fish and feeling totally farked up. Anyways, have been practicing guitar todae. Strumming and singing JU HUA TAI. I gotta admit (though abit thick skin) , i like my singing. Then revised abit of QING FEI DE YI. Wanted to go down for a jog in the evening, and then comes the thunderstorm. It always seem to rain when i wanna be healthy for once in my life. WHY?

Played diablo for entertainment todae. I restarted diablo for around 14 times thruout the whole day. Dun ask me why, i just played for 20 mins span each time i log on. I just cant seem to concentrate on watever i do, dun understand y. Maybe its cause im falling sick, tat's why. Yes, that's why. Realli.

Need a catalyst in my life to jumpstart my engine again. My mind is not functioning optimally at this moment, so i might sound abit boring and irrelevant, but fark it, who said i cannot blog nonsense in my blog?

Ah wei told me about a business plan todae. Its quite sudden and he wanna start straight away. Told him will consider it and maybe start planning when im free-er. Needa have a good tok with one of my mktg project mates soon, guess the team is getting quite vexed with her disappearing acts. I guess my instincts were right from the start, but i kept my comments to myself. Didnt realli wanted a liability in my team, but well, its stef's fren anyways, so watever lors. And to my teammates, if u guys and gals are reading this, pls dun over stress urselves over the project k? Under my super slack 'figurehead' leadership, we mostly can make it one lah. Chill ya? Oh ya, nearli forgot, we can make it because we dun have a PROJECT MANAGER in our team. ( Ben, u sux. :p )

Okay, i know im starting to sound realli kiddish. Well, there's a kid in everyone rite? And now that im in a super downtime of my life, my temper will start to surface. Normally ppl call it PMS, yes, guys have PMS also, though we dun cramp. The same thing still applies, i dun PMS my frens, even those i dun tok to. I onli PMS total strangers, example those cocks that get in my way in the public transport. Im not a nice nice smile smile neighbourhood guy, i hate aunties and uncles and stupid farktarts that stand in my way when im on a journey. No more racist barriers, the PMS extends to all strangers. Most prob will get walloped soon. Ya, most prob.

Feeling poetic, will write a poem now.

Shadow of the Heart

Ever heard the sweet heart cry?

Like a sunlight that wont shine?

Isn't it sad but can't we try?

Saving despair all behind?

Some are said but most unsaid,

As the shadow fades in line...

Okies, i kw it sux, anyways i realised there's something coincidental in the poem. Only realised it after i finished it. Anyways, there's a hint. Hint = kuku. Kks, damn obvious le lor, so simple de puzzle. :P ( Submit ur guesses in my tag, i need some tag to make sure my blog is working. :P )

Okies, time to sleep, i dun wanna die tml. Pray my MAB can make it ba. As long as i can make it, i dun mind praying to God/Guanyinma/Buddha/Allah etc....

Jason's Famous Quotes: The world is definitely a better place if u are Bill Gates.

Did You Know?: Dumb people that do dumb things are my favourite type of people.

Outburst

Didnt blog for damn long due to some stuff stirring within me. Todae, im touching on something tat's been a rarity these days. Its wat's inside me and wtf am i tinking. Sometimes life imposes one of the most cruel form of irony upon ppl. Imagine the feeling of losing something/someone, then u realised that its actually the most precious thing/person to you. Fuck that feeling, its totally fucked up. Next comes the issue of morality, principle and ethnics. Will u commit a morally-incorrect, principle-defying and ethically-wrong choice so as to get what u want? Fuck man, im totally hanged. Its like some dagger stuck in ur heart and u're slowly bleeding , but u wont die from that wound, the pain slowly kills u bit by bit. Yet u can feel urself slowly being drawn into the vortex. People say love is sweet and bitter, but i tink its sour. Why sour? Go figure. And things are better left unsaid, once said, they meant nothing, hence im bloggin here to vent it out. A fucking good song that describes what i feel now is XIANG SHUO by ANDY HUI.

Old song, damn good. Below are the verses:

想说

好想能守候在你的身旁

你温柔的眼光阻挡着忧伤

好想能停泊在你的海港

让船儿一直停放

永不再出航

我在每一个漆黑夜晚独自忧伤

害怕这思念却无法伪装

我在每一个破晓黎明等待着天亮

等待你给我不灭的火光

心里有话想说

心里的痛你懂

有太多太多的情感覆水难收

心里有话想说

心里的痛你懂

我不愿埋怨的泪水

已经没有尽头

That's how i feel now, some things are on my mind these few days. Mktg project and alot of other stuffs are clogging my brain, im seeing myself as a dumb ass that cant realli grasp where the fuck my studies are now. Anyways i served my 127 days of solitude to think thru what i realli wanted. And i realised after i knew what i realli wanted, it just sorts of complicates things again. Well, if u tot the above is about adeline, sorry its not. Realised we dun click, have no chemistry and seriously speaking, stop calling her my 'wife' or watever fuck shit. We are not related in anyway so dun keep calling her my 'wife'. Okays, felt so damn good after pissing off what plagued me for these few weeks. Shall be fine and dandy again soon, albeit not extremely and sincerely happy. Shall only find real happiness when 'its' mine. Patience is realli not my forte, but lets test my limits this time babe.

P.S.: Dun ask me regarding this, i will smile and change subject. U know, i know. Time will tell. (Sry peter, will type something productive nxt entry. )

Jason's Famous Quotes: Tranquility of the soul begins with the heart.

Did You Know?: Carrot heads shouldn't eat carrot cakes, if not will get chopped more.

Informational-Therapy

Alrite, tis time, i have alot to blog. Been storing alot of details and didnt realli have the time to blog everything here, or in short --> im lazy. :P

Firstly, lets start with a roster of events.
1) Got a new com from HP.
2) Xu wei lun passed on.
3) Nearly did something.
4) Started project.
5) Repicked guitar.
6) Met up with peter and sean
7) Donuts factory.


K, now the details.
1) Got a new com with the signing of a 2 yr plan with starhub. lolx. Pumped in $408 to upgrade the thing. So now damn fast my com. heehee

2) Beatrice Xu Wei Lun passed away from an car accident on 28th jan 7.57pm. Made me rethought about wat life realli means and the fragility of life. She's pretty, talented and quite young, yet in just a few hrs time, she left the world. We never kw what will happen tml, so shouldnt we cherish wat we have todae and do wat we want to prevent regrets? Tat's y if u like someone, tell her/him that, dun wait, fate doesnt wait, why should u? Same for grudges, dun bear grudges against ppl for too long, life is much happier when u are at peace with the whole world.

3) Do you ppl ever had an experience when u kw u are supposed to hold someone's hand? Everything seemed so perfect there and then? Well, i guess sometimes u just kw tat though its the time alreadi, u suddenly know tat u dun feel tat way for tat person. Simply cant. Cannot. No way. So u didnt held his/her hands. I guess its better tat way for both persons ba. Dun feel for tat person, then dun lead tat person. Its beri hard to reverse the effects after u held tat person's hand. Thank god i did not make tat mistake. Realised i did grow up. hahass :)

4) Finally started project with nich and the gals. Met up, discussed job scopes and then assimilated jobs accordingly. Toking about tat, i havent even did my part. Gosh, i am so forgetful, i onli recalled when im typing tis. omg... =.="" Anyways, we met up at city hall the other day, and we chatted abit about ben. Remember tat hypocritical guy i was toking about? That i known him during army time and he didnt recognised me? Okays, forget nvm. lolx. Anyways noone realli likes him i tink, and im not someone to hide wat i feel ba. I dun like him, i voice it out. Why i dun like him, u want can ask me directly, i dun wanna write negative stuffs bout him here. :)

5) I was surfing thru the web for guitar tabs earlier, and i suddenly tot about the days where i strumed and singed with the guys during my poly days in NPS. Totally missed those days, when we are basically free and easy, after practice or camps or watever events, hoe pin will take up the guitar and started strumming some songs. The guys naturally will follow suit and the rest without guitars will sing. Though dun realli sound beri nice with alot of deep voices singing, its damn enjoyable. hahasss. As for me, i onli kw how to strum Qing Fei De Yi and Guan Huai Fang Shi. hahasss, im not as good as hoe pin on the guitar mah, he is guitar god leh. siao siao. :P Anyways, since i missed those days, might as well take up my old guitar and started recapturing that kinda feeling once again rite? right. i did just tat and well, i admit im abit rusty, but still, music is my passion, i still am veri sure of that. :)

6) Met with peter and sean at cityhall (again =.="). We went to have a cup of kopi at starbucks and sat there chilling out toking about guy stuffs. hahass. Well, if u tink we tok about gals, wrong, we toked about politics, the society differences globally and the stereotypical perceptions of singaporeans. We also expressed our personal experience regarding the above topics and i realli gained alot of insight from chilling out with them. Im glad to have such good frens tat can tok about these intriging issues rather then toking nonsense with my other frens. I have 2 cathegories of frens, one type is crappotypical ( new phrase invented by me. lolx) and the other type is those i can engage deep-tinking conversations with. There's a few that transcends both sides, meaning i can crap and tok serious with them. Peter and sean are among them. lolx. I realli wished i can find someone of the opposite sex that fits the bill. I dun care how she looks like, as long as she look human can le. I want chemistry, i dun need a vase. Argh, i wanna write something here, but i kw i cant. i just cant, its too bloody obvious. Haiz... Lets continue with the nxt event ba.

7) Donut factory is located at raffles city basement. And their Q is DAMN long sia, i wanted to try it, but the long Q totally deterred me. lolx. But their concept will spark off another 'bubble' i tink. Soon enough, it will be like the bubble tea concept, shops will open all around and then when the market gets over saturated, BURST! hahass.. but i tink i will try donut fac's donuts someday ba, when i have the money to buy 20 donuts. ( If wanna line up, at least line up to buy 20 donuts for family mah, dun dumb line up 2 hrs get 2 donuts. I am smart. WUDI! ^_^V )


Jason's Famous Quotes: Do not judge a book by its cover, read the sypnosis at the back of the book. :)

Did You Know?: Fat is now the IN thing.

Verbalization

Hmms, sometimes i wonder, i blog so much, but do i read other's blogs? lolx. Right now im a regular reader of just 1 blog man. Gosh. i tink i need to look for more blogs to read? But nonetheless, tat single blog tat i read regularly is quite interesting lah. Anyways todae, went to bugis with dumb-dumb to walk around b4 going for nich's bday celebration at arab street.

Last min change of plan, celebration postponed to 8pm meet at bugis, and well, since we are at bugis, then dun need to move lor. wootz. Swuang, im lazy to travel anyways. :P
Anyways onli me , eli, ah tan, rei, XH and nancy there nia. So we ate at TERRA CAFE at bugis and as usaul crapped alot although mostly is still bullying nich. lolx. On his bday we still bully him sia, we are inhuman.. LOLX

After the celebration for him, Rei ,ah tan ,nich and me went to play pool at pool fusion lor. Nabei todae must be damn suay sia, we played doubles and my team (which consists of nich and me) lost 6 - 0 to tan's team. Omg, wtf man, 6 - 0??? LOLX? hahass, but the game is fun lah, long time never play pool with the guys alreadi. good game guys. :)

Was on the bus just now when my IPOD played Jay Zhou's BAI SE FENG CHE. And then a sudden idea hit me. I know this might sound silly and childish, but i never said i wasnt, just that im not TAT childish. LOLX. Oks, not funny, was toking about bai se feng che right? For those ppl that dun understand, bai se feng che means white pinwheel. And i was tinking nxt time during my gf's bday, i will decorate an area with white pinwheels, meaning the entire area. And so i will bring her to eat, then blindfold her, flag a cab and then bring her to tat place before removing her blindfold, and then proceed to sing for her. LOLx... on second thoughts, maybe use speaker blast ba, cause later if i sing she puke how? :P hahasss... so funny if she pukes on me lor. :P Okays, i kw its abit dumb and naive lah, but im like that when it comes to love lah, cant realli help it mah rite? :)

10 more days. Just 10 more days to endure before i finally break free from my 'chains of self-promise'. heehee. Alot of things changed mentally loh, was toking to kuku todae about how i tended to stick to goodlooking ppl more in the past. hahass. I was telling her about some examples of people i saw on the mrt that sets me thinking about prejudices against ppl. I used to hate banglas in the past, i tink they are lecherous and low-grade people. I know its extreme, but alot of singaporeans also think in that way, im just a honest one tat's willing to admit. :)
But in actual fact, they are humans too, they have parents and a family to care for, tat's y they travel overseas to earn money to feed their families at home. They cry, they bleed and the fall sick just like anyone of us, the onli difference is that they were borned into a veri different part of the world. The same goes for people from china. Why do we receive and treat caucasians with respect whereas we tend to do the opposite for asians? Does being ang moh automatically makes u of a higher hierachy then the rest of the world? The global racism problem stems from a beri simple root --> we stereotype too much.

People tink tat caucasians are romantic and makes good lovers. But in actual fact, more caucasians divorce or kill their spouses as compared to asians. Their children's upbringing is much less effective then asians. Its all based on statistics done by specialists in case u tink im crapping. Therefore i proclaim being ang moh does not equal superior. Some ang mohs tinks they are superior, which is a rampant trait with some singaporeans also. Having some extra cash ultimately pumped their balls up to such an extend that they think they are all mighty. The above statement is from experience working at starhub. :)

All in all, im not criticising ang mohs lah, just wanna quote an example how rampant stereotypical ideologies are running deep within the globe's veins. So in the event u tink that some races or types of people are superior then other species of homo sapiens, try to visualize and analyse ur judgement from all aspects and perspectives, u will be surprised. :)

Alrite, enough about global-social psychology. That's quite a huge topic to touch on anyways, will blog more on jason's psychology nxt time. hahasssss.... kks, time to retire for the nite. Chowz~~


Jason's Famous Quotes: Some things are so hard to verbalize, it sorts of cannibalize my heart.

Did You Know?: People tend to fall in love with people they shouldnt be falling for. It always happens.

Elephant Glue

In the mood, so i blog. Whole day at home. Slept till beri late, woke up around 2pm and started to game. Muahah, finally have a whole day to myself for gaming. wootz. Anyways nothing much these few days, yesterday nite i packed my cupboard which completes my room packing. Sandbag's up and weights arranged nicely alreadi. Tml shall start my training once again. :)

Nxt week should have lots of free time since i onli have like 2 days of lesson. lolx. Was considering calling office to see nxt week have any roadshows anot. hmms. maybe tml will call ba. Toking about calling, knn the cb Hewlett packard still havent call me regarding my damned PC. Cb one, its around 1 wk le lor, i paid last monday and till now no call no nothing.. zzzz. Call their hotline, as usaul its so 'hot' that u can NEVER get in. hmph...

Okies, now lets tok about something else ba. One of my good fren is having some probs. What happens if ur partner gets over sticky to u? Even ur best frens also noticed that tat person is over sticky? Hmms, putting myself in my fren's shoes, i will definitely freak out if my gf is super sticky. I am a nomad, i want my private life and i have my frens. I cannot 24/7 stick to my gf de, i want someone tat loves and understands the value of freedom and privacy. Husband and wife also dun 24/7 stick one lors. For a relationship to go the distance, u dun need to everyday meet and see each other's faces. What matters is the Quality of the time spent, not the Quantity.

So u see, even if she 1 whole day dun contact me, its okay. Even 1 sms in 2 days is fine with me de, as long as i kw she's safe and sound. heehee. Alot of things is realli not within ur control de, especially fate. Even if u 24/7 stick with her, one day she suddenly see a guy and falls in love with him, it can all happen in 5 mins. Trust me on this one, i've been there babe...

Alrite, so lets come back, its know as the SUPER GLUE COMPLEX as dictated by Dr Jason Lam (Ph.D Humanolovetology). Its a condition where the subject is overly obsessed with another entity (in this instance, a human) and will attempt to attach him/herself physically to that object of desire. :) Alrite, so ppl, hands up if u want someone to be superglued to u like some extra piece of tumour/parasite growing on u.... if u raised ur hand, then u need a doctor. fast. LOLX

Alrite, crap enough le, im satisfied with my update le. muahaha. Damn tired, tomolo still got morning class. hahas. :P NITEZ!


Jason's Famous Quotes: If i am abnormal, who is normal?

Did You Know?: Legends are fabricated by people tat dun kw the complete truth.

Sin and Sinsibility

Sometimes i feel its crap when people say --> "We are too good frens, we kw each other too well le, lets just stay as frens :)". The above is another senseless excuse to reject someone. lolx. A partner is supposed to be someone that knows u better then other people, sometimes even more than u know urself. That's why he/she makes u whole. Humans are flawed for a reason, and that reason is our other half is with someone else, and when u find him/her, u will be whole again. :) I know, some may tink tis is nonsense and bullshit, but tink properly, if u realli see beyond lust, the deeper side of being with someone is to learn to become a better person.

Its just something i thought about during boring MGMT ACCTs lecture todae, it happened to somebody else and was considering how dumb the excuse is. Im still serving my sentence and i have 16 days left, wootz! I actually managed to realli keep to my personal promise. *PROUD*

Skool started a few days ago and things are starting to get stressful. Knn the Marketing project is so farking rush lor, nabei one, in 3 days must alreadi kw what to do le. Cb sia. Then the Accts even worse, 3 days alreadi and i still dun kw what toking her sia, the RMIT lecturer realli abit hard to comprehend lors. Her sentences sometimes dun make sense sia, beri confused =.=....
Comm Law is still okay, the lecturer is quite humourous and therefore makes it enjoyable.

Anyway marketing-wise, i will be doing a marketing proposal with regards to Shangri-La Hotel. wee you wee, we're the only grp that is going to do hospitality lor, siao siao. :) Next we come to
school social life. Things are fine and dandy with the guys and gals, realised when u see things and people from a different perspective, u will notice lots of difference. Hmms, one more thing, when there's someone tat's realli sensitive and u wanna blog about her, how do u do it so that it wont offend her ah? (?.?)

Alrite, now we come to my emotional section. This long period of abstinence from affairs of the heart made me see clearly wat i wanted. Lust and love is completely different issues altogether. Chemistry is what binds, and looking back, there's someone that i realli feel the chemistry with, yet well, right now tat person is unavailable. lolx. Sometime irony makes life realli realli interesting ya? :)

Jason's Famous Quotes: Innocense is the purest element.

Did You Know?: Perception is Reality.

Pigeon-ti-flyed

Veri vulgar entry. Dun read if u are allergic to vulgarities or ur status is excuse vulgarities.
Tis morning, a cb kia sms me ask me evening go la kopi. Never confirm timing, just say going out. Ask further, say in the evening, acknowledged. Meeting sean in the afternoon for tea and discuss who is the fucking cb kia that keeps have no balls. Not angry at the balless one, juz tat i bad mood so i scold. I accept ppl's thoughts and like to debate, so i dun get realli angry or watever, to each his own and i kw everyone have his own perspective. Im angry with that fucking cb that put my aeroplane. Put aeroplane nvm, dun even cb bothered to reply sms.

Story goes : Met sean at 2.30pm to la kopi and chat and walk around town. Went to starbucks wisma atria, sit down, nua, la kopi, tok cock, sing song, play mahjong. Rhymes right, anyways delete the play mahjong, cause starbucks cannot play mahjong. When chatting with sean, smsed the fucker to ask "Are we meeting in orchard?". Got a reply "Ya, most prob.". Continued chatting with sean on the birds and the bees and school work and stuff and results...etc.
Was wanting to go home around 430pm, but i stayed in orchard till 630pm because cb says he 630pm off work. Smsed him around 6pm, "What time u reaching orchard?". Got a reply "Ask XXX.". Proceeded to sms XXX. No reply. Puzzled, sms cb again "XXX no reply, so later what time u reaching?". Got a reply Ask XXX, i lazy to sms and reply.". Nabei chao cheebye, knn he call me come out he knn tis type of fucking attitude, fuck him. Then im pissed, called XXX directly to ask. XXX picked up and said we not meeting, told him cb kia say we meeting in orchard, he shouted to cb kia to ask, and replied " we not meeting le."... FUCKING CCB, GAN SI LANG TULANZ, firstly, he's at work, cant he juz fucking walk over to XXX to ask him whether he still wanna meet anot then sms me? If he's lazy nvm, then at least fucking hell inform me mah, ccb, still tell me he dun kw, which means if XXX dun reply my sms and i call him he never pick up, i fucking ccb wait till 10pm? FUCK HIS CB FACE LAH, FUCKING CB KIA!

Didnt kw he was so fucking irresponsible, anyways it took just one incident to see wat kind of fucker he was. If u put aeroplane, a sms to say paiseh or anything also song, knn tat cb kia didnt even bothered to sms. Well, tis type of cb attitude, who can stand? 2hrs in orchard is nothing much i know, but its the fucking cb attitude problem. He wants attitude rite? Next time he fucking hell need my help, he go eat himself, fucking ccb. I fucking hell MSN nick also change le, he jittao dun dare to fucking hell msn me to say anything. FUCK HIM MAN!
Damn cheebye irresponsible, i fucking hell spit on his integrity! PUI! __

Alrite, feels so much better after typing all that. wootz. I know, i might be a normal and frendly chap that can joke around and can take jokes, but please dun assume i dun have a temper. I always see ppl throwing tandrums or acting tulanz or watever, but mind u, when im mad, im realli crazy. I will not vent my anger at my frens or close ones i once again announce, but when u realli see me tulanz, u will kw wat is fear. Alrite, i dun wanna further emphasize le, im like promoting myself to be a fucking violent freak. gosh. Anyways sean and me discussed some political issues and stuff, and we came to a familiar topic: RESERVIST.

Sean's reservist unit is some wulu unit in kranji camp i tink, and well, he's not called up yet. Im the second in our army frens to be called up for reservist, first one was zhaowei. Sad but true.
Peter went to Cambodia and Laos to backpack alreadi, so he's not in the country. Quite interesting to have a fren like peter, who likes to backpack to minefield laden areas of the globe. hmms, i must admit, he have guts and his balls are definitely bigger then mine. Imagine, taking a tourist bus to the hotel, and on the bus besides the tour guide, there's 2 gunman taking AK-47s to protect the bus because some days ago, some guerillas attack and killed the entire bus of tourists. At least that's wat i remembered hearing. What the fuck man, i wouldnt even fucking dare to get on the bus after hearing that lor, imagine u happily taking the bus, then suddenly a bullet hit ur head and u instantaneously die from a headshot? WTF? Gosh...

Part 2 of peter's scary story is the minefield walk. Knn they have to walk thru a minefield to get to some secluded place, and there's onli 2 lines of white tape to mark out a safe route thru the minefield, wat if u accidentally step OUTSIDE the lines? Or accidentally drop ur bag outside the line? I guess they need like 10 days to slowly pick out pieces of u from different places... Peter have guts, tat one i give it to him. lolx. He says he's going to Tibet and Nepal next, which is MUCH MUCH safer then Cambodia and Laos thank god... I wont be surprised if he suddenly says he's going to North Korea or Iraq to backpack....lol -.-""

Sean and me are quite simple, we just wanna go taiwan to backpack. Simple, safe, fun. I know we are balless, but i rather be balless then six feet under. hahass. :) Peter maybe u can join us when we go taiwan ya? Safer lah, me n sean cannot take much AK-47 bullets, one or 2 we jittao lie down bite the dust le. LOLX :P

Alrite, i tink i end here le ba, wat a fucking cb day sia. Heng im meeting sean first, imagine i cb went there and wait, then tio put aeroplane...zzzz. Bitch finish, forget it. Tomolo's another beautiful day to nua at home. Maybe go gym?


Jason's Famous Quotes: A small phenomenon displays the characteristic of the large entity.

Did You Know?: Most internet investment programs are money launderers.

Lethargy

Was coming back from jp after dinner with ah wei and his gf when we saw something at the depot. 3 boys were bullying a malay kid and being pushed around, all of them are around 15 yrs old. Right there, i recollected my younger days and find tat its beri childish. hahass. Anyways i wanted to help the malay kid, but in the end found it troublesome lah, they didnt reali hit him, just push him around and scold him nia.

On the bus home after that incident, i was tinking wat if it was my brother that got bullied? Well, as usaul, violent me pictured myself banging their heads against the wall till they bleed like siao then finishing them off with a rubbish bin/chair/table/watever-i-can-get-my-hands-on crashing down on them. hahasss.. muahaha, violence! promote it! >.< LOLX.

Okays, jokes aside, these few days im damn slack, hahass. sunday i was working at expo, then i rejected monday and tuesday's work. hahass :P, so in short, these 2 days i slacked like nobody's business. At home play game, then sleep, wake up play game, then sleep...etc... lifeless hor? knn i also kw, but i like nuaing, wat to do? :)

But the most memorable day this week was on saturday ba. I met up with my frens from NPS like ah kuang and ah heng they all. Went ice-skating and i fell down 7 times lor. Knn my whole body is aching and bruised from all the falls, but the weird thing is, i find it fun! Simi lj sia? ?.?
After that, we went singing at partyworld clementi! muahah, finally can sing lors~~ its fun lah, with ah heng and kuang around, cfm fun one. lolx. But the weird thing is james is there also and as usaul, everybody hated him. haiz. i tried to forgive him le lor, so its okay with me, but the others were complaining on the cab home. LOLX. So i also join in the fun lor. hahass, zhaorong was super agitated seh, he hate james to the core sia. Damn funny sia. lolx!

Alrite, now lets tok about something more private ba. For the past few weeks, people have been coming into my life. People, as in human beings. More frens, more chemistry, more tendency to stray from my remaining 36 days 'sentence'. I admit a few people shook my resolve, but in the end i tided thru it all. lolx. The one that created the most unsettlement is a future childcare teacher that is 19 yrs old. Smart, eloquent, fun, average looking, sociable,sings,not-childish. Well, tat's a brief summary. hahass. I got over it le, so im fine and dandy and on my way to finish my 36th day of my isolation. And most importantly, when i say someone is interesting/pretty/nice, it doesnt means i wanna go after that person. For goodness sake have some maturity to differenciate between admiring and interested.

I tink my singing improved le, heehee. That day i evaluated my own singing and i realised i improved le wor~~. But still need to practice more if i am to sing duet with aiying ba. Her level is damn high lors, i tink if she go superstar cfm among the top few. The superstars tis time mostly cannot make it de. Singing wise realli cannot make it sia, only a few stand out from the crowd. Up till now there's 2 girls that i tink sings realli well among my frens--> aiying and clarice. lolx. Then when it comes to guys, sad to say, most of them cant even make the grade, onli a few are average singers. Maybe zhihui ba, he can sing those beri powerful cantonese songs by jacky cheung. He got the manly and powerful deep voice. lolx. I tink onli him nia ba, the rest is realli normal singers. Among them, the worse guy singer i knew is james. He tinks he sing like jeff chang and fei yu qing, but he realli sing like a dog. lolx. Not because of prejudice, but yes, he realli sucked. :P

Im drowning in fats. yes, its that serious. sad. fatter and fatter omg. i tink soon i can roll around like a ball le. cb one. Now i cant even box sia, my stewpid cabinet is blocking my sandbag and i have no place to push it to. kaoz. im supposed to throw away tis old cabinet when i buy a new cabinet, but i haven found one that i liked yet...

And finally, regarding my tagboard, it has became war zone. lolx. War of the golden era VS unknown new medic. Lolx. But its good lah, controversy is healthy for the human mind. Tag on baby! TAG ON!


Jason's Famous Quotes: New Year resolutions are meant to be broken.

Did You Know?: Guys pierce ears in the past to ensure they wont die young.

Novelist

Was taking the bus home ytd when i saw a guy wearing a shirt with a beri meaningful logo. It wrote ' To Err Is Human, To Forgive Is Divine.'. The phrase sets me thinking and i realised just how true it was. To forgive, its something everybody have done before, but can all things be forgiven? Then ironically i chanced upon another phrase on the internet, ' Women Forgives But Never Forgets, Men Forgets But Never Forgives.'. Linking the 2 phrases together leads us to a single conclusion--> Women are divine and since forgetting is a type of erring, men are human.... LOLX.

Alrite enough with word play. Seriously speaking, forgiving someone realli takes alot of effort. Hating is not as taxing as forgiving somebody although some ppl beg to differ. I am a human, i do hate ppl also. Most notably the first person on my hitlist is a secondary school guy called Domanic, he is public enemy number one during sec school days. lolx. He spouts nonsense to insult ppl, super tactless, likes to comment on strangers in public aloud, burps super loudly after eating food PURPOSELY and thinks he's realli goodlooking and gals will die under his hands. Has a huge ego and is super childish mentally. Even up till now, some of my sec frens tat were in contact with him also commented that he is still the same as before. I saw the death note 2 premiere yesterday midnite and IF i have the death note, i will write his name down. Yes, my hatred was that deep. So u see, i was telling myself to forgive him, yet i cannot do it, i dun understand y. Am i still immature to cling on to something so ancient?

Talking about death note, i believe people mostly will have personal use for the note provided they have it. Ask yourself, do u have someone's name that u wanna write? Sincerely ask urself, no matter ur answer is yes or no, both of these answers hint abit about ur mental state. For myself, im a honest person, so i do have names to write. :) Or maybe just one name ba, the domanic lor. lolx.

Okays, the above is just a thought after i watched the movie. Its not bad, those planning to watch it most prob will get their money's worth. ^_-

Was chatting with my sec skool buddy fadhir ( yes, he is malay, ironically. lolx) on msn tat nite when he reignited my flair for novel writing. We were toking about eragon u see, and i suddenly remembered that i wrote a novel when i was 14 yrs old and fadhir was the onli person that kws about it. hahass. Then i went rummaging thru my files and folders from primary school days ( the paper type, not the software files.. -.-) and voila, i found it! Wow, it realli amazes me how imaginative i was even though i was so young. The novel is titled Dragon's Eye and it recounts the tale of young boy ( yeah i kw, its a boy again.. zzz) who was the sole survivor of a Dragon Clan. The novel is quite complete with a HUGE world, evil villians, and the most interesting part was, i created and sketched 24 legendary weapons each complete with its veri own explanations and magicks. There's swords, spears, maces, bows etc.. hahasss

And yes, i most probably will do a reediting of the novel and maybe upgrade the language abit more to substantiate for a more mature crowd. So yes, im writing a fantasy novel beri soon, and i shall try to insert some more characters and expand the 'vision' of the world. Wars and battles of large scales are a staple and finally finish things up with a touch of extreme creativity. :)
All the above will definitely take some time, because im starting school soon in 3 weeks time. Studies are more important, so most prob will study HARDER nxt sem. Faram( final fantasy prayer.)

Yesterday went for my company's chalet at downtown east. Met up with weikoon and a few others at bugis first to buy present to exchange at the chalet. Reached chalet at 6+ i tink, lolx.
Saw lots of people there, most of them i kw, but some of the 'finer' ones i dun kw. LOLX. When i say finer ones, i guess my close frens kw wat i meant hor peter? sean? kuku? hahass. :P
Well, seeing and admiring is not sinning mah, anyways i still have 46 days of 'sentence' to serve before i can officially start all over again leh. hahass :)

The finest of them all was ironically corinne's sec school fren. lolx, i was sitting with corinne and suddenly this beri beri pretty gal came and looked for corinne. I think she's called theresa or sumthing lah, she came with her bf ivan ( which is boss's younger brother.. -.-"). Number 2 and 3 were in a group of 3 gals. They came with boss and i tink their names are rachel and mandy if my memory doesnt fails me. lolx. Not too bad lor, got gals to see, food to eat and frens to tok. wootz. Then went to play blackjack with boss and i won around $8 then have to zao le. sad lors, can win more de, but i alreadi steady with ah wei to watch death note at 1120pm at jurong point mah. kaoz. In the end im still late. fark. zzzz

The nite b4 i went to meet the guys from army days for some drinks and chat. Everyone looks the same, even uncle sam our senior medic also looks the same leh. hahass. Dev i tink grew fatter maybe due to eating too much australian food. LOLx. I met vincent, who is coincidentally a veri close fren of one of my OG frens. Small world sia, hahass. Anyways vin is a nice guy and he is damn steady, so most prob will join our little Armour Medics Gang. hahass :P

Okays, enough crapping le. Im beri tired todae, i OVERHAULED my room todae sia. Knn whole day at home clean up, damn tiring. Tomolo got people come paint my house, wootz!


Jason's Famous Quotes: Character is more enduring then looks.

Did You Know?: Guardian pharmacy is called Mannings pharmacy in Hong Kong!

Rain

Didnt blog for a few days cause i was well --> lazy. Watched DEJA VU with ah wei and his fren jingying. The movie was not bad, abit technical but still can understand the time and space folding concept. Makes me think about if there is a possibility of going back to the past and prevent or change something from happening, where would i be now? Alot of things wouldnt be the way that they are now, a stalemate which seems to be endlessly hopeless.

im sporting a new hairdo now, beri beri short no thanks to my stewpid encik during reservist.
A encik is a term we soldiers call out RSM ( regimental sergeant major) for those that dun kw. He damn garang lor, made me cut my hair so short. zzzz... Anyways reservist was a breeze because we kinda slept thruout the entire affair. U see, my unit's training was in june and i deferred that, hence i had to be attached to another sister unit for makeup training. Around 8 guys were with me and we were the 'outcasts' or 'invisibles'. lolx. Nominal roles for the training didnt have our names and hence we cant join the training and ippt. Wow, i went back and realli became a caveman---> Eat, Shit, Sleep, Play Cards (and the cycle repeats itself...) . Although some ppl tinks that its so good to be so idle, i beg to differ. Extreme nua-ness leads to super low physical metabolism and that means fat and useless. zzzz

Got to kw 8 new frens during tis ICT and as usaul, all seems fine initially. During the last day, some ppl (2 in particular) displayed 'patterns' and im juz standing aside and seeing how things unfold. Imagine asking a favour from someone and u get shown the black face, how would u feel? An old saying 'a frend in need is a frend indeed' realli hits the spot. Watever sia, fuck them, we onli meet once a yr for maybe 2wks max, so who the heck cares wat kind of fucks they are? :)

The day b4 went for primary school gathering (I know, im super busy these days. lolx) at cineleisure KBOX with buffet. wootz. The buffet was not super impressive, but at least some food were still edible, there were even oysters though i dun realli like oysters. :p The guys and gals from xingnan primary are still fit and healthy, a few guys got hitched up and brought their gfs along to intro to us. hahass. Its quite surprising that after like 11 yrs, we still meet up, i feel blessed to have them as frens because who the hell meets their primary schools frens nowadays? hahasss :)

Lots of appointments nowadays, going to meet the army dudes on thursday nite for drinks and chat. Then most prob around christmas having a sec school gathering. wootz, im meeting all my school frens within this mth sia. hahass. Looking back, my life isnt tat bad after all, seeing all the ppl that walked most of my life with me again made me realigned myself with my world. I see the world in yet another different aspect again. hahass.. :p

Adel went back to work at starhub le, i sort of wanna go back, but if i go back, its because of her or because i need a job? Going back for her is dumb, going back for a job is the correct attitude. In the past i screwed my job because of her, i keep getting preoccupied with her and well, i realli screwed my job. lolx. Jerjer is working at SH now and he was calling me to go back to work there when we were chatting at KFC the other day. Should i or should i not? Or can i?

When someone tells u ' i dun read ur blog' , what does it shows? It means that person dun care at all and u are just another organism among the thousands in that person's life. Though u qualify as 'fren', but u belong to the cathegory of 'acquaintance'. There's a microscopic percentage that that person lying, but still, its microscopic. Therefore being totally and entirely devoted to that person is abit pointless and insane. I know, dramas and movies always portray that in the end after donkey years, tat person will realised that u are always there and stuffs like tat, but in real life it doesnt happen that way. Even if in the end u were with that person, tat person is with u because he/she have no more choices or sympathizes with u. Its tat simple.

Its brutal but still i need to say, no matter how huge the rain, if someone does not wanna be hit by even 1 single drop, he or she will never be hit by tat drop.

Been raining continuously for 2 days alreadi and its still raining. And as u ppl mostly kw, im veri sentimental when it rains at nite. As usaul i was tinking about the thing that bugs me the most in all my 23 years of life. Im not whining mind u, im just trying to solve a veri veri difficult life puzzle. And wish me luck, may there be a day when i finally solve tis life puzzle. :)

A huge ulcer under my tongue have been bugging me for the past 2 days. I HATE ulcers, they're damn irritating and take ages to heal, especially on the tongue area. I have applied salt, bonjela, watermelon powder, they all dun help much although they did help abit. Therefore i have been toking like some retarded cow with too short a tongue. Damn sianz, i couldnt even work because my line of work needs my oral skills. Oral skills is verbal skills, not the 'other' oral skills. LOLX

K lah, its abit late le, i guess its time to sleep. I have lots to blog, but well, dreamland needs a superhero. :p

Jason's Famous Quotes: 心雨永远都淋不到不想被淋到的人.

Did You Know?: Salt melts slugs and snails.

RESERVIST

Nxt week going back for reservist. Fark. Need to go back to camp and cut hair. FARK LAH. zzz
Alrite, so lets recap wat happened. Ytd went shopping because got my pay le. Tis time, its budget mode. lolx. I spent around $100 onli ytd. Bought a watch, 4 t-shirts, a aviator sunglass and ate good food also. muahaha. :) The aviators cost $12, the watch $10, the heineken and redbull t-shirts were $22, and finally 2 hangten 'BIGFOOT' t-shirts for $10.80. LOLX. Ate carls jr for $12.80, then ate Ben & Jerry's phish food cone $4.50. Hmms, not recounting its not even a 100 bucks. lolx. Super budget. But i LURVEEEE my heineken t-shirt, damn nice sia. The glasses also super nice, damn cool. :) Now the final piece of the puzzle is a change of hairstyle and colour.

Wootz, new image when skool starts. though i will most prob be as fat, but will slowly slim down cause nowadays keep going gym and pool to train. heehee. I still have 60 days left. My results came out the day b4, and i got a 2 distinctions and 2 credits. Fark one lors, my result sucked. Accounts and Stats should get High Distinction, yet i onli got Distinction. The my OB and BC totally screwed up, onli got credit for them. Kaoz. It seems i still cant keep my promise to get all HDs for my subjects. I failed, i cant even keep a simple promise. haiz.

After the results came out, went to have dinner with my OG group supposingly, but when i reach there, its onli the guys. lolx. Onli rei, nich, XH and ah tan there, lolx. But nvms lah, for watever reason the others were not here i dun care, cant realli tink too much rite? heehee :)

Okays, so now we come to my farking tagboard. I tink its faulty sia, sometimes cannot tag lor, nb i wanna reply ppl also hard. Most prob if tis continues i will change tagboard. -.-"

Well, i shall reply tags in my entries for the time being. A anonymous tagged and poped tis question to me ---> ( if you meet someone whom has the sweetest smile, good character, intellectual n always looks at life positively, would you go for her? even if you might not haf the time, effort n $$ to commit in a love relationship, plus the status btw the other person different from one another......would you? )

Answer: Yes. Sounds selfish, but yes. I will definitely go for her. Time is under ur own control, if u truly feel for her, u WILL make time for her. Effort comes naturally if u truly like her, dun say u dun have the effort, if u like her, then do something for her. And finally for money, tat's the most problematic part. No money, its realli quite hard, lolx, but its also the problem with the simplest solution. Go work part time or watever to get money ba. :)
As for the status, when u like someone, there's no status to consider. U are who u are, if she likes u, she likes u for who u are. If she tinks u're not worthy, then in the end, how worthy is she? All human beings are borned equal, hence dun feel inferior. But before starting anything, pls pls pls ensure that u like her for HER, not because she is pretty or have big assets. Give sometime to tink about why u like her. Onli when u confirm that u are sincere then go for it. If not, dun even start.

The above question made me tink about adel again, she is all the above, and the status gap is personified by the invisible barrier between us. Okays, enough about her, toking about her fills me with ... well...a sense of loss. Haiz. Somethings in life juz doesnt go ur way, no matter how sincere u are....


Jason Famous Quotes: Like poles repel, Unlike poles attract.

Did You Know?: Apply Vaseline on the ends of your hair to prevent split ends. :)

Totaled

Yawnz, tiring day, was supposed to go swimming with stuart in the noon. Last min stuart called to say he's going earlier because MC dun kw how to swim and he needs to protect him.. -.-"" Gay shits. lolx. But i told them to go ahead because i needa sleep more. Sleep is the most important aspect in my life according to me. muahahah. :)

Whole day rot at home till round 6pm went to meet peter to la kopi. Still fun and nice to chat with peter after sometime, chatted on some simple issues in life and recapped about life in sungei gedong last time. lolx. Tomolo morning going to the new gym with richard and zhengyi because we are all getting fatter by the day. Richie is not fat lah, but he's starting to become abit chubby ( according to him) and zhengyi belongs to the same cathegory as me --> Fat Fug. LOLX

Alrite, lets take a look at my busy scheldule ba. Tomolo not working, wed most prob not working also because im bringing corinne to office for training in the noon and meeting the OG ppl for dinner at dhoby ghaut. Results coming out the same fateful day and so i hope can pass ba. Then on thursday go back office again to get pay and see how much i get ba. Haiz, didnt take account of the days i worked so i dun realli kw how much i will get. smart rite? zzzz.

Im starting to like my blog, it simply oozes honesty and there's no trace of any fakeness here. What u see is wat u get. Im fat, i admit. Im farked up, maybe. But im honest no doubt. Why hide what u tink? Voice it out and let ppl decide whether they agree or disagree lor. Some theories or mentality may be wrong, and hence they need correcting. Controversy creates conversations and therefore we can fish out the psychological tendencies of a individual by gathering the reactions. :) Was chatting with peter just now when he was telling me he's gonna start a blog soon and he didnt want a dry and boring blog. lolx. Was telling him to either do a blog on psychology (tat's wat he studies) or some controversial issue so that it wont be boring. And then i reflected on my blog at the same time while chatting with him. heehee

Alrite, lets get down to business. New theory time! Watched Superman Returns on my PC ytd nite and was tinking about superheroes. Was 'paying my water tax' in the toilet when i suddenly realise wat is the most valuable item in the world. The most valuable item in the word is dependent on the degree of need of the item. Its realli simple, wat u need most at a particular moment translate into the valuation of that item. Ask urself this, when u have a million tons of gold in the desert and u have no water, is water more valuable then gold? Or when u are alone on an island without food but full of diamonds, wont a single bread be worth the world to u? Therefore i came up with tis theory that the valuation given to a entity is directly proprotionate to the level and degree of need of that entity at a tranfixed timeframe. Yupz. Its completely correct from my perception, if u tink there's some variations or have objections to this theory, feel free to tag and reason with me. heehee :)

Jason's Famous Quotes: When ppl run out of quotes, they crap.

Did You Know?: True intent will be revealed during adversity.

Essensification

Tired legs, sore mouth and heavy eyes. Tat's the toll work has took on me. Im damn tired todae at work sia, keep stand there promote cards and walking around spying on the stewpid kids tat were doing a OCBC assignment. Was posted to IMM todae with shane and edmund, all guys, good to tok cock and crap rubbish with. Look at gals, give comments, relate to past humourous examples (if any), then stare blankly into the crowd looking for a potential customer. Whole day was repeating tis routine until boss called and told me to go spy on some kids he employed to give flyers. Spied and felt like a fat 007 doing a FATSINO ROYALE. okay, not funny. nabei. -.-"

Top sales among the guys todae mainly due to my exceptional luck. I mean when 'edmund-and shane-stopped-customers, they-come-directly-to-me-and-asked-me' kind of luck. Wat fark man, should have bought TOTO or 4D todae, most prob will tio. heehee. :P Alrite, lets come back to what i've been thru tis few days. Yesterday ( friday) was at wisma atria's 'outside-mango' booth and tat place totally sucked. I hate outdoor roadshows cause i keep sweating and become sticky like glue. Then i totally no mood to work at all. completely totally no mood. So my sales sucked ytd, juz 2 sales as compared to todae's 14. :)

I guess when a person is tired, he starts to tink about some life issues. At least that's wat i am, when im realli tired, i recap on wat my whole life was about and the ppl in my life tat made a inpact. Todae was one of the days when i was realli tired and burned out. Was on the shuttle bus from IMM to Jurong pt after work juz now, and was recapping about my army life. On the 11th dec, im going back for reservist, and they say 'PLS COME WITH A DECENT HAIRCUT AND NO DYED HAIRS'. Fark, my beautiful long hair is going to get sniped off? no way lors, im totally sianz about tis, i want my long long hair lors. was planning to dye it ash blonde (refer to previous entry) lors, kaoz. Anyways, was tinking about army and the changes it brought to me. I matured quite abit inside army, but still im lacking in some aspects that im currently learning slowly.

The other time when i was realli tired was after the first dragon boat training during my poly days. I ran and ran till i sort of felt giddy and lacked oxygen sia... Then after the training was weights session. Gosh by the end of the training, i take the bus home also nua like dun kw wat sia. lolx. damn funny, when i was giddy, the onli thing on my mind is huimin sia. sort of dumb but its true, my whole mind is huimin during that short period of time sia. lolx. Anyways that was the past lah, during my poly days lors, so many yrs ago. :)

My msn nick is still counting down to her bday although i kw we cant click. Its a deadline for me to change myself and till the countdown is up, im not going to go after any gal at all. I must have the discipline to stay true to just one, so this period will be a buffer period for my change. Yes i admit i do look at gals and sometimes do fantasize abit. But i kw deep in my heart that i will not go after anybody till the countdown is up. Simple. 66 more days to go. Wish me luck.

Now we come to a topic tat is quite interesting, at least to me.
*Disclaimer: What is said is wholly my childish tots and does not stands for the truth.*

Gals like to get cheated. Gals cannot stand honesty. Gals like hypocrites(i forgot the spelling). Gals like jerks. Gals tink jerks are good guys until they get cheated and realised tat the jerk is a jerk. Gals cant stand honesty, they want a hypocritical guy that seems nice and frendly and they tink he is a good guy.

Guys are evil. Guys like to cheat gals(nothing else to cheat). Guys refrain from honesty. Guys tink they are good guys. Guys tink they are the best(ego). Guys like to act and live behind a mascarade. Guys are 99.9% horny (yesh, including monks). Guys over fantasize. Guys want a girlfrend that is pretty, sexy, willing-sex partner with a no-resposibility tag.

The above is what i derived from a sample taken from the people around me, so might not be true. Anyways, as i was saying, guys like to act nice to a gal first, then slowly go in for the kill. especially towards pretty gals. I was like tat. I am no like tat now. treating someone nicely from the bottom of ur heart is much more important then just putting up a nice front. Yes i kw, most gals are suckers for hypocritsy, but u cant blame them, they were made like tat. Same with guys, we were made horny and nothing can stop us, no even buddha. Its onli how strong ur willpower is to control ur horniness. lolx. Anyways, i realised some ppl are slowly falling into traps made by guys, and i totally see everything unfolding as what i have predicted. But i dun tink i should say anything, because the person wont believe me anyways. :) But all the matured gals i kw have been cheated by a jerk b4 and they grew up from tat incident. So i do have the conclusion that gals onli grow up and understand the cruelty of the world after being cheated by a guy. They kw the beri simple logic tat a guys word is 98% lies, 1.95% crap and 0.05% truth.

Always remember, onli 0.05% of a guy's words are true when they tell u how much they love u or watever their brain can tink of. Im a guy and im guilty of that also. But i dun care, i wanna be honest and put everything down here so tat the person tat is supposed to see it will see it a pull the brakes in time. Anyways to that person ---> good luck, have fun. :)



Before wrapping up everything, i juz wanna inform my dear diary tat im considering taking up photography as a hobby. I wanna capture the emotions, beauty and ugliness of human nature. Most prob will be doing digital photography ( professional cameras are too expensive, especially the pic-developing part.) for a start and maybe i should get a good digital camera soon. :)

Jason's Famous Quotes: Naivity is a double-bladed sword.

Did You Know?: The best investment in any business is ur heart and soul.

Controversy

My hair is getting longer by the day. Lost my wallet ytd. Someone found it and info counter returned it to me. Money and EZlink gone. IC and 11B intact. Total fortune around $20+ gone, but IC and 11B intact, so at least wont get fined $100. -.-" But the thing that matters most is the wallet itself, its a gift from my OG frens. No matter what ppl tink, i realli do treasure it alot.

Met up with yuyun todae while im working. lolx. I went MIA for 30 mins and when i went back got a scolding from raquel. lolx, she's not realli evil lah, i kw she backstabs and likes to quarrel, but aunties are like tat one mah, rite? hahasss. so anyways let her lors. I've been working in the company for around 3 weeks now and i sort of seen thru some ppl rite from the start le. All my classmates have a job of some sort and everybody is busy earning money to fund the nxt semester. Realised everybody have their lives to lead (duh~~~) and their own problems (fark me...zzz).

In my line of work, i met another guy that i wanna hoot( as usaul~~). Tat guy, he watch out ba, he snatched my fren's sales and he tinks he is beri zai. Shall i show him my dark side? hmms, lets see how the thing goes ba, he's abit small size, so i dun wanna resort to violence if possible, he might die after taking a blow from me. ^_- Okay, now i finish complaining about tat fugger le, feels abit better ba. lolx.

Toked to ah wei abit about my business idea, and for once, he agreed with the plans. lolx. He is a beri pessimistic person and for him to agree it realli realli must be a veri good venture.. -.- And i will be roping in elissa and one more person to set up a 4 person partnership ba. Ah wei is my best bud, and i kw he have a veri cautious and sound mind, he's like someone tat pulls me back to earth everytime i fly too far. Elissa is a veri responsible and trustworthy person, though i've onli kwn her for half a yr, i kw i can trust her with important jobs. :) And the last person i will find is either stuart or richard. Richard is also someone i can trust to do the job rite, stuart also is a veri entrepreneurial guy i kw tat is dependable, but he have a 20% tendency to run off with money.. -.-"" lolx

Tomolo is not working, so have lots of time to rot at home. heehee. Will need time to watch miami vice and a korean movie. lolx. And well, after the loss-of-wallet incident, i learnt to TRY to not take things for granted. heeheee. And my job is quite enriching, because i always seem to get professional ppl ( eg: bosses, pilots, general manager etc.) for customers and i like to tok to them and get to kw their life experiences and what they went through. I learnt alot from them and when we're done with the forms and mailing, a good handshake to seal the deal is wat i always do. A good handshake signifies wat makes a man and how successful u are, i like the feeling of a successful handshake. :)


Jason's Famous Quotes: Luck is the rare phenomenon when the enviroment changes to suit the man. ( My veri own statement when i was in sec 4. heehee :P)

Did You Know?: When i dun show my dick doesnt mean i dun have one. Same for temper.

Playlists

Habit. When im bloggin, i always like to listen to my special 'sentimental' songlist. lolx. Brings me into the mood to blog. Well well well, so u ppl wanna kw wat's in my playlist rite? hahass, it changes periodically but there's a few songs that are basically 'embeded' in the list and wont change no matter wat. Before i continue, tis is a sentimental entry, so dun tell me not to blog about love and romance, im onli stating the reasons for the songs, not on a emotional basis. :)

Alrite, fo those of u tat dun kw, i had an entry in the past denoting that i have songs that remind me of somebody. Meaning that some songs always brings back memories of some particular person in my life, and yes, those ppl im toking about is gals in my life. Most ppl just listen to songs and like the songs, but i for one will always attribute a song to the ppl that made a significant impact on my life and they did play a part in forging me as wat i am todae. Okays, enough with the long winded explanations, i shall list out my playlist nxt.

My Playlist :

Adeline's
1) Liu Geng Hong - Cai Hong Tian Tang >>> Tis song reminds me of adeline. Alot.

2) Zhou Jie Lun - Feng >>> Same as above, because its a prelude to cai hong tian tang's mtv.

3) Cao Ge - Superwoman >>> The onli time we went for ktv session, she said she wanna listen to tis song, so i sang tis song for her. Though its a small thing and i sang like a dog, meant lots to me.

4) Lin Junjie - Zhi Dui Ni Shuo >>> Tis is obvious, i said sa lang hae you is onli for her, and its realli onli for her. This is the song that i will never ever forget for life. never, ever.

5) Aaron Kwok - Deng Ni Shuo Ai Wo >>> Well, tis is wat i hope for, but i guess it wont happen after all... will it?


Corinne's
1) Sammi Cheng - Mut Kai >>> A canto song, corinne is the onli one that sings and listens to cantonese songs with me. Its her favourite song.

2) Zhang Dong Liang - Ji Mo Bian Jie >>> A song she cherished when the one she loves cheated her. Yet she dun kw that someone else was there for her all along then....

3) Li Sheng Jie - Shou Fang Kai >>> When i finally got over her, tis song realli helped me alot because i told myself giving up means giving her happiness. Turns out that i am wrong. -.-"

Huimin's
1) Chen Xiao Dong - Tie Xin >>> The first song that started me on pop music. Its the first song on the first CD i bought and the first time i fell for a gal.

2) Chen Xiao Dong - Ai Ni Duo Ni >>> Totally wat i was doing during that period in sec skool. lolx, its quite funny tinking about how shy i was back then in sec skool. hahass...

3) Jacky Cheung - Ni Zui Zhen Gui >>> Her favourite during that period of time.

4) Celine Dion - My Heart Will Go On >>> This song is sang during sec 3 orchestra camp, the first time she held my hand and led me to dance with her....

Alrite, the rest i nxt time then type ba. Getting late and tml im working. How i wish i can rot at home and money will come rolling in. lolx.. alrite, tink too much. hahasss :P Anyways, the above is onli reasoning for why i like the songs, not some sort of declaration of love of watever those shit brains can imagine. Dun be so complex mentally, be simple, tink simple. :)

(While working ytd, someone told me about someone and i was abit surprised that that someone the someone was toking about chose that something that im using now. So to that someone, thks. I know i couldnt tell tat someone verbally, so i thank tat someone here ba. ^_^)


Jason's Famous Quotes: Man forgets but nvr forgives, woman forgives but nvr forgets.

Did You Know? : Music is the best language ever invented by man. Yes, its a language.

Time & Tide

Its those nites again. Emotional high-tide again. Or maybe call it loneliness ba. Hmms, sometimes i realli wish there was someone by my side that i can share my woes and happiness with. I know there's always frens, but there's some things that even the bestest of frens will not understand. Yesterday nite had a veri veri funny dream, i dreamt of someone in the past. hahass, its abit ironic and sudden. But the past seems to be coming back in my dreams these days. Hmms, izzit time to confront all those past memories and sort things that i left dangling in the past?

The logic of the world is veri simple, you can never escape from things and events, they will eventually come back to haunt u for a solution. Yet toking about tying up loose ends is much more simpler then actually doing it. After all that i've gone thru, i now understand how come ppl dun wanna grow up. With age comes resposibilities, and some responsibilities can never be fulfilled. Tell me someone who is at the age of 23 and has no problems at all, i will swallow my monitor on the spot if someone like tat exists. I dun fear problems, they forge a man out of a boy. I believe humans are meant to go thru hardships and learn from the experiences, we are after all animals, primal instincts will alway be present to make us seek the easy way out, yet to overcome these instincts will bring us further from barbaric customs.

Im philosophising more and more these days, am i getting older and thinking much more? hmms, nvms, shall tok about something more jovial. Am planning to revamp my doghole, need to go ikea to shop for some cheap furniture( especially a dbl decked bed with a sofa below), then go downstairs buy some paint. Also require a huge beanbag to sit on and slack to play ps, and if i have some money left, will proceed to buy some carpets to put on the floor. Anyways, will find time to draft out and measure the dimensions of my room and find the perfect furniture for my room. Im a engineer remember? hahass :P i tink all the above will happen just b4 chinese new yr, when i've saved enough. Im tinking of painting my room lime green and buying some glass furniture, which will have a elegant and simple classy touch to it. Table, chair, cabinets all made of glass or fibreglass, all transparent. And the new bed frame i shall choose white to complete the clean look. clean and simple. Wootz, CLASS. But i calculated the budget to be around $1000 bugs.... fugging ex man..

Measured biceps todae, shrinked till cannot alreadi, was 14.8 inches during peak, now its a meager 12.1.... The waist still okay, nvr increase but still as fat. Weight maintained but i guess its more fats then muscle mass. Health-wise, i tink im declining alreadi. Will be dead by 50yrs old if i dun do something soon. lolx. The worse is im gonna fail my ippt! FUG! Remedial Training, here i come!

Jason Famous Quotes: Being touched by an angel also means u are under the curse of the angel.

Did You Know? : Melt someone's heart too much, and u will drown in it.

V . U . L . G . A . R

Alrite, i kw people are beri happy that im back again. lolx. Thks to jer, he helped me got back my net till 25th, muahaha, heng last time i helped him b4. wootz. Well , tis 2 weeks i've been rotting at home playing final fantasy XII since i have no net. thk god that FF came out on tat day i got DCed, at least i wont die from boredom at home.

Well, yesterday or should i say saturday, i started work at the credit card company. Elissa introed me and the ppl inside are still alrite, but thing is im still quite slack. muahaha... :P
I knew a guy from on my first day of work and alreadi im starting to refrain from speaking with him too much. In my honest opinion, he likes to talk nonsense and is beri loud, just like me in the not so long ago past, i do tok rot and cock sometimes, but im trying to crap less unless im with ppl like kuku or the buds. I discovered that people dislike overly noisy individuals, so im lucky to have noticed in time, and when he started babbling about his achievements and whatever stuffs i further saw another me in him. Proud and ignorant beyond doubt. Lolx, shyts, am im critising myself or him sia, hahhasss, maybe its good to look back and compare who u WERE and who u ARE.

But seriously when he toked to me, i juz silently smiled back and gave 1 word replies, it realli personifies the incredible childishness and lack of maturity. Im not beri matured, but yet i can seem so much more mature when compared to him. I finally understood and saw why i am labeled childish by her in the past. I do agree now. Okies, enough bad toking about people, im actually analysing myself more then him. hahassss.. :P

Work so far is still alrite, but the long standing hours are abit shag. I tink if i continue with tis job, i most prob will slim down provided im not working with kuku. lolx. Sat i worked with her and she turbo wanna eat tis and eat that, so as usual, being with her = eat and become fat and complaining about it at the same time. LOLX. Todae i worked alone with some people i didnt kw and i onli ate a bowl of noodle from 11am to 9.30pm. wee you wee, no food lors, onli drink water nia. lolx. tml i wanna go swimming, but stuart is having lessons. So in the end i tink i sleep thru the noon and then wake up start my weights ba. Should start weights le, (again...) i farking hell have no determination lors, i keep skipping my weights sessions man, how the fish am i going to be more defined and lose the stewpid fats off my farking face? zzzzz i onli have 85 days left lors... cb one, i dun like to curse but i realli farking hate my attitude sometimes. Discipline is realli not my forte, i need a discipline master.... or on second tots, a discipline mistress.... lolx :P

okay, now we come to the lewd part, for those ppl that cannot take it, dun read. i repeat, dun like? dun read, wanna read, swallow it whole.

Knew a guy called ah-cai on sat on the job, fun guy, abit egoistic but overall a okay dude. He lives in hougang and me in boon lay. so on the job, we obviously oggle at lots of gals since we are doing sales, and we came to a conclusion on a veri peculiar occurance. Gals from the east side have bigger boobs then other areas of singapore. We are not perverts lah, but generally speaking from our observations. Is it the water there? or the food there? Is it that the water content is different tat's y it encouraged growth? hmms....I tink they should do some research into this phenomenon and find out the truth and reason behind it. lolx....

Alrite, enough lewd jokes. Lets go to something more interesting. Its philosophy time again! wee you wee! On the mrt trip home, i philosophied a new theory, called the Persisten-turity Theorem. It denotes that no matter at what stage of maturity someone is, he/she will always have a immature counter personality in him/her. And in order to balance out psychologically, the person have to release the immaturity on something or someone. Some ppl play games and display childish emotions like scolding and insulting the other gamers. Alot of other ways are also commonly seen, and i do observe them in ppl. So u might see a cool guy being cold and manly, but when he watches soccer, he instantly become a hallowing and noisy retard. Understand? :)

by the way, the heading have nothing to do with the entry content, i just tink it looks cool. heehee. :p

Jason's Famous Quotes: Responsibility and Sincerity are not consistent.

Did You Know? : Some homosapiens are only partially evolved. Mentally.

Examinotopy

Im am blogging from skool. If u guys noticed, i've been missing online for a few days alreadi. lolx.
the reason is beri simple, i nvr pay bill mah, so my connection tio cut. hahahass... farked up feeling lors, i need a job that pays fast cause i want my net back, without net life is sooooo no life. At nite cannot play games with the guys leh, damn sianz. Realised i took my net for granted le, lolx, didnt knew i grew so attached to the net. especially msn, when everynite i will update the days left in the countdown. But fraid not, i have made a mental note on the days left alreadi, so the date will be accurate when i get my connection back. wootz.

As a side note, i juz finished my final paper and i tink its farked up. haiz, all my papers i tink is farked up, am i overworried or juz simply silly? Nvm ba, shall not say more. The more i ponder, the more sianz i am. Yesterday finally started on my routine again after slacking for so long for the exams, i am getting fatter and fatter... zzzzz.... nvms, the swimming pool beside my house is opening soon, and that translates to daily swimming and tanning for me! wee you wee! I dun like to run, but i love swimming, the tranquility that comes with being underwater is realli so soothing mentally. Eat less train more, i have 94 days left.

I am wat i am and i like wat i am, mentally tat is. One thing i learnt in life is dun assume. Assumption screwed me in a couple of times. When u dun kw somebody, dun pretend to kw him/her, trust me, dun try it. And to pick up the pieces after that is realli tedious and tiring, but u kw u cant leave it there, its like some thing pricking periodically at you mentally. Its okay if u dun realli care about that person, but that person keeps poping up in ur head every now and then, that is wat i call torture. Psychological burden they call it, and its not something u can put down, the only solution is to SOLVE the problem. Okies, that ends the psychology lesson for todae.

Jason's Famous Quotes: The Moonlight Shadow is a replicant of the moon's essence.

Did You Know? : Lust is the primary motivating factor for men pertaining to commercials.

Powers!

Todae accts exam. No stunts this time, relatively easy but thanks to farktart me, i tink im failing tis one. zzz.... let me tell u why, i nearly didnt went for the exams todae because i remembered someone telling me accts is on tuesday.... kaoz, heng ytd midnite i SUDDENLY wanted to see the exam timetable, maybe its my spider-sense or my extrasensory-perception at work ba. lolx. Anyways thanks to watever caused me to check, i went for todae's exams with juz 3 hrs preparation. Knn i didnt study for accts fully lors, i tot still got 1 more day to choing mah.... zzzz

This few days have been downloading movies to watch, i watched LONG HU MEN, SHINOBI, WO HU le, all dvd quality ones... wootz... lolx... and now i have THE HILLS HAVE EYES, and POPULATION 143 and RE-CYCLE to watch. muahaha........piracy is fun! Anyways my fren and i had tis beri intellectual conversation tat day regarding piracy and ethics and everything, in the end we came to tis conclusion --> piracy is a reaction move to counter the ever-rising price of stuffs. The companies and other entities are fleecing consumers more and more, i understand they say tat costs are rising on production and stuffs, but come on, who sets the benchmarks? They themselves set the benchmarks. so in the end, they are unreliable sources of benchmarking. And since the masses have no way out, they resort to piracy. If they reduce the price of original stuffs, who wouldnt buy them? Its because their greed prevents them from reducing the price and its a cheaper alternative to launch anit-piracy campaigns as compared to harming their profits. hmms.... at least that's the outcome from the discussion. Maybe we should analyse tis perspective again ba. lolx.

Ya, as i was saying, i keep going to macdonalds near my house to study with stuart sia. lolx, i didnt realli know tat we will click well because last time in poly i used to condemn him. hahasss, i still remembered when we went to gym with ah wong last time, stuart always complain about tired and he couldnt even lift 5kg.... -.-""" gosh.... but now he's running alot le, so in short he is fitter then me, im a fat fark. zzzz... But anyways, we click quite well, and we always discuss intellectual stuffs that most other guys dun discuss de. Sometimes we do tok about gals, but i always try to change the subject or remind him tat i dun wanna tok bout gals. What for tok so much about something u dun have? And when i tok, i tink, i dun wanna tink about other gals, 1 is enough. Just 1, no more. ^_^

And let me tok abit about the 1 and onli can? hahass, todae when i was going home, i saw a adeline look alike on the bus. kaoz, super look like her lors, from all angles also look like her, but is younger version lah, around 17-18 yr old ba. then on the same bus at the traffic light, a boon lay garden school bus with the logo stopped beside my bus. Gosh... boon lay garden instantly reminded me of huimin... lolx.. i remebered i even went back on teacher's day with her to her primary skool when we were sec 3... hahass... the good old days.... kks, enough, if not peter will say i keep tok about love le. hahass.. :P

And to end this long entry, i smashed my knuckle ytd -.-... nb i was walking pass my sandbag, so i casually threw a few straights, but i sort of got over enthu and smashed the side of my knucle against the bag.... knn i jittao high and my hand instantly orh-chean lor.... so pain sia, now i cannot punch, if not hand will pain.. zzz... need at least 1 week to recuperate ba... haiz..... sad....

Jason's Famous Quotes: The person u hate most might actually be your life partner next time...

Did You Know? : My ancestors was traditional chinese physicians.... 0.O

Jasonisitivity

Todae was OB exam. I tink i most prob failed it. The format was entirely not the same, and im supposed to be veri prepared for it, because i did put in effort to study. Yet once i entered the exam hall, my brain seem empty and i cant realli tink of watever i have remembered. And the most surprising thing is the questions are totally different from all the past year questions. Moral of the story, someone pulled a stunt on us. All of my frens cannot cope with the paper, not even one told me he/she is confident of securing a distinction, much less a high distinction. Why? OB is supposed to be my most passionate module this semester and im supposed to get a high distinction for every module. I once told her that i will strive to get high distinction for all my modules and get a degree with a high distinction, but it seems my abilities arent proving my promises. Disappointment always visits at the strangest times, and its like deep into the night le... -.-""

Tomolo need to study accounts le, i realli hope for my other paper, i can do well.... i realli dun wanna default on my promise....

Alrite, this few nites, beetles or some sort of unknown bugs have been flying into my room. They are big, hard and can fly at amazing speeds. Totally irritating. I can bear to kill them by smashing them, cause its beri gross, so in the end, i used a zip lock bag to catch them all, gotta catch them all! ( pokemon anyone? -.-"") right now i have a proud collection of 4 in my bag within 2 nites, and they are still alive and kicking.... gosh, they are hardy creatures ya?

How many of u imagine and fantasize and reflect? Do u tink about the day's event and recap the happenings like a recorder and start to analyse ur own behaviour patterns and reflect on them? Sometimes mentally im like a pool of stagnant water, and that is the perceived equilibrium that i always seek. With nothing mentally, no mental burden, no complex psychological issues, life is so much simpler. Some people managed to maintain and lead a life without any worries, but those people are much more naive. i guess its a fair deal, u earn social and life experience then u trade off ur simplicity and pureness of heart. Its a matter of survival in the world after all, a simple and pure heart wont get u anywhere, deceit and hypocriptical guides and leads u to your specific desires. OMG, OB again... fark... zzz, y am i so flooded with OB man, fark lah....zzzzz

Not in a good mood to blog, so shall stop here. Wish me luck for the remaining exams.

Jason's Famous Quotes: Promises are NOT meant to be broken. (I erred, so im trying not to break one again... sorri bro, im still guilty for tat event.)

Did You Know?: I have a pepper lunch coupon valid until 10th december 2006...

Screwed

Just reached home from school. Todae was accts revision lesson and its sort of boring, because balwant onli went thru a few questions then proceed to have consultation session. hmms.... After tat, went to study with alina and elissa. Halfway thru our studies in the study room, there was tis malay guy that tinks he is the boss and storms out of the room claiming we were noisy. -.-" I do admit initially ben was abit noisy lah, so ben went to apologise to that guy, he gave attitude to ben and when told me i was veri buay song alreadi. Ben was saying 'if last time me, i will hit him alreadi', and mentally im like 'haiz... dun so kiddish leh... -.-""'...

Then the storming off came when ppl left and entered the room, so there was a commotion mah, not our fault le lors. And ben was pissed, so he shouted a 'fuck off' when the pig left the room, after 10 secs, he came back in asking who said tat phrase. I was staring at the pig in the eye because i alreadi hot le, was expecting ben to own up and if a fight ensues, i will step in lor. But to my disappointment, ben kept quiet and looked down on the floor.... gosh... If u said something, u should own up mah, i kw he dun want trouble, but own up lah, dun diam diam sit there like a pigeon mah. I believe in being responsible for what u did and said, if its me, i cfm stand up admit de lor.... -.-""

Anyways, that pig went to complain to the librarian, and when the librarian came up to scold us, one of the guys (i dun kw him) retorted and scolded the librarian for not getting her facts rite and started scolding us. lolx.. damn funny, then people started joining in also telling her the problem dun lie with the people in the room, its tat pig, he's level of tolerance is too low le. hahasss... damn funny.. but i choose to keep my mouth shut thruout the ordeal, because i kw, once i speak, colourful words will come out. So ya, i also became sensitive to people and didnt say anything at all while at the same time analysing the situation.

Hmms, it seems the self-correction is taking effect le, i realli can start to tink in other's shoes. The librarian also quite sad lors, she's onli doing her job and tis is the treatment she got. But it all boils down to the pig lah, if he cannot stand the noise, then go toilet cubicle study lah, there confirm silent one, unless got occasional 'PUUUT!' or maybe a satisfactory 'AAAAHHHH~~~~!!!!'... hahass.....!

I was so amused by the incident that i sort of smiled to myself like a sick bastard while i was staring and studying my OB lors... lolx, why is it so funny rite? simply put, my brain is using OB to analyse that pig's behaviour lors~~ hahass.. ge funny.. ~~~ ( we sort of endangered tat pig's safety needs, so tat will lead to jeopadizing his self-actualization needs and when he left and came back, he wanted to fulfill his esteem needs... LOLX)

Okay, screw him, lets get back to life, exams is onli a few days away, and i havent finish revision or should i say, i havent started on stats and BC yet... fark lah... die le lah....... i kw i wont fail the exams, but i wanna get a HD leh. I gotta put more effort if i wanna get HD ba, i promised her tat i will get HD for all my grades, so i must do it no matter wat. Promises are meant to be kept, and i totally intend to keep these.


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